The years when I was deceived into northern Myanmar

Late at night, there were no lights on in the villa, so I was sitting alone in the living room, lighting a cigarette and looking out the window.

I'm waiting.

Waiting for that illusion that always appears on the glass everywhere, I want to see if he is alive or dead this time.

In the past, I thought it was a disease and was always afraid of his appearance. Now, I feel it is a revelation and am waiting for the answer.

But what always appeared in my mind was the scene at today's wedding. In that scene, the entire Wa State's middle and high-level officials were excited. All the green-skinned soldiers almost had blood coming out of their eyes. Even Yang Rong was stunned. He stood in front of me holding a wine glass and said: "Brother, I must take revenge."

At that time, I mobilized all the surrounding forces. Kachin State ordered 10,000 Bayi bars from me to support me financially...

The northern and southern Shan states came to me and asked me to sign a "trade agreement" based on the "non-aggression pact"...

By the way, there is also a Myanmar government official. He told me that the Myanmar government is willing to give special care to the Wa State import and export ports, at least within the territory, giving us the power of 'fast passage'.

Has my popularity improved?
No.

In the eyes of everyone, once the Wa State invades the eastern Shan State, with its existing resources and the big trees behind it, it will be unstoppable.

In this case, everyone is willing to place a bet in advance, just like when Director Jiang invited Uncle Ge and Fa Ge to shoot Bullets Flying, Boss Yang would take the initiative to invest, and sponsors would chase his ass and send money.

I looked at myself in the glass and was stunned for a moment.

I saw the smile on my face, but I didn’t know when I started to be happy.

"is it you?"

A voice broke this exclusive moment of enjoyment for me. From the glass of the floor-to-ceiling window, I saw Xiaoxiao leaning against the door frame in her pajamas.

I turned around with a cigarette in my mouth and asked in confusion: "What?"

Xiaoxiao lowered her head, as if she didn't dare to look at me, but she couldn't hold back her thoughts and said, "What happened at the Burea wedding today, was it you... did it."

I got up from the sofa and walked over, standing in front of Xiaoxiao: "What are you talking about?"

"You can lie to the whole world, but you can't lie to me."

Xiaoxiao lowered her head and did not look at me, but she counted the details that outsiders never knew and said: "From the time I met you, whenever you have something on your mind, when you crawl on me, you will exert yourself like an animal. "

Her voice was trembling: "In the past, it was for survival, then for rule, and finally for the Wa State. I know it all."

"Every time you think I'm asleep, you'll walk out of the room alone and sit in the living room..."

She finally raised her head: "You can fool the whole world, but you can't fool me."

Ha... I turned my head to it.

Xiaoxiao saw my movements and became more convinced of her thoughts. When I turned back, all I saw was disappointment: "That's Burea!"

"Why didn't you even let his wedding go?"

"Xiao Xiao..." I stretched out my hand to support her shoulder.

After Xiaoxiao resisted for a while, she took a step back and looked at me in confusion.

"You can be a bad person or a wicked person, but you have to be a human being, right?"

The wind blew the curtains, making the night cooler, but my heart gradually became anxious in the loneliness: "What do you mean?"

"I mean, what if one day I'm the one who needs to make sacrifices?"

Xiaoxiao said coherently: "Will you push me out without hesitation like this?"

"One general can make a thousand bones wither!"

I don't know why, but I suddenly started shouting loudly at Xiaoxiao, like a rage after being exposed.

"This is northern Myanmar..."

I sorted out my emotions and looked at Xiaoxiao's pale face just now after shaking violently at my roar: "Everyone is using all their conspiracies and tricks to survive, why don't you understand!"

"Old Xu...how long will you continue to lie?"

"Who the hell did I lie to!"

Xiaoxiao stretched out her hand, and this time, she pointed at myself.

I saw her nose trembling, and saw her hesitate to speak, but she still said it: "You even lied to yourself."

"You have been lying all day long. You have to do it in order to survive. You are lying. If you fall, everyone will die with you. You are lying. Once you succeed, thousands of bones will wither. You are also lying." "You used to dare to admit that you were a drug lord and a bad person. Now you have all kinds of truths at your fingertips, and all kinds of reasons and explanations seem to have been prepared a long time ago."

"You start to have no weaknesses and less of a person."

Her words were like sharp knives stabbing me, and like pairs of big hands tearing open my armor, finally revealing my true face.

that's not me.

Under the armor was a lifeless corpse, but even though the corpse was no longer alive, it still held the scepter tightly and jammed the crown with its skull, for fear that someone would snatch it away.

It turns out that the skeleton I have been waiting for will never appear again;
It turns out that I am already dead;

But I don't know it myself.

"Let's separate."

Ah……

I laughed again.

I looked at Xiaoxiao and asked, "Where can you go?"

Xiaoxiao straightened her chest, stood upright in front of me and said, "I want to go back and surrender."

"what?"

I listened to this answer in disbelief and looked at her in confusion.

I gave her the chance to go back and surrender, but didn't she give up on her own initiative?
Xiaoxiao gave me the final answer: "I can't become you."

"Say it again?"

Xiaoxiao said as if she was not afraid of anything: "Or you can kill me."

I suddenly remembered.

At the wedding, Xiaoxiao kept staring at me after the video was played. As my pillow person, she is more sensitive to me than anyone else, and even knows how many white hairs there are in my crotch.

After that, Xiaoxiao’s eyes never left mine, even when Burea brought his wife to offer me tea, and when we gave red envelopes to the newlyweds, she always looked at me.

At that time, I thought... when she saw the sweetness of the new couple, she remembered us in the past. I was still wondering why there was no happiness on her face... So that was it.

"You're not going to kill me, are you?"

Xiaoxiao was wearing pajamas and took nothing but the car keys. She opened the door of the villa with bare feet and looked at me before going out.

Only at this moment did I see Xiaoxiao grinning and crying, and only then did I see the tears on her face under the moonlight.

She was scared.

She was not afraid when I killed people, she was not afraid when I sold small pleasures, she was not afraid when I raised troops to fight, she was not afraid even when she saw Annie and almost got involved in this relationship...

But today, she was scared.

Afraid to abandon everything.

It turns out that even if you become famous and sit on the throne, there will still be people in your life who choose to leave.

bump.

The door was closed, and I stood inside and heard the roar of the car...

I want to chase, this is the first thought in my mind, because I love Xiaoxiao;

I can't chase, this is my second thought, but this thought nails my feet to the ground, because, I am the king.

……

Later, Banbula quietly told me that that night, the second wife drove her car onto the port bridge and knocked open the railing with her foot on the accelerator. The soldiers on the opposite side didn’t even have a chance to stop her, so they just watched her drive past. After crossing the bridge, he finally parked the car on the side of the road, got out of the car from the other side of the border, and lay on the ground with his head in his hands.

Team leader Wei told me that she surrendered and didn't say a word about me.

She loves me, always.

It's just that I don't want to be with me anymore... (End of chapter)