The years when I was deceived into northern Myanmar

Team Leader Wei left, leaving me alone in a room illuminated by incandescent lights. Outside the window, there was darkness throughout the night and neon lights that kept flashing.

"Master."

"elder brother."

Perhaps seeing that I hadn't gone out, Bujea, Annie, and Haika opened the door and walked in.

This time, what they saw was no longer the high-spirited me, but me curled up in the corner, stunned.

"Brother, what's wrong with you?"

They would not eavesdrop on my conversation with Team Leader Wei, so Burea didn’t know what kind of changes had happened in me.

I didn't speak, I didn't know what to say.

Anne came up and said, "What's going on? No matter what happens, you have to tell us, right?"

Facing this woman's question, all the emotions in my body were completely vented. I seemed to have found the safest outlet and said, "What should I say?"

I looked at her slowly, and I could see the reflection of my desire to seek answers in her eyes.

"Because I saw a policeman in uniform sitting at Huo Sange's wine table when I was a child, I thought the world was as dark as crows; because I went to take a bath and saw a man in uniform going upstairs, I felt that the police and robbers were working together. !”

"I entered the world because I felt that the world was a lie that I had deceived myself. I spent ten years in prison when I was just an adult. Then I sank into the hell of Myanmar and struggled for three full years..."

I raised three fingers and said, "I used to feel that I was the most miserable person in the world. I couldn't catch up with every step."

"But I have forgotten that I have been scolding everyone in the world for thirty years because of those things I saw when I was a child!"

"The lights that I least believed in, the lights that I had used as a means of domination, finally shone on me!"

I asked Anne: "Do I still say it?"

"What else could I say?"

"Even at night like this, the lights are stubbornly on, but I am selectively blind like a blind idiot, pretending not to see."

I hugged my knees tightly and rested my chin on them. I thought that they might not be able to understand what I said. I’m not talking about these contents. What I’m talking about is that after not experiencing all this, if it weren’t for me, With such a huge darkness pressing down on it, maybe those people in Bangkang wouldn't even give the light a smile.

After going through several successive flips in my life, I finally understood that there are some things that you won’t understand until you reach a certain age, and there are some things that you can’t possibly understand until you experience them!
Even now, whenever Anne says, "I understand," I will slap her with a big mouth, and then curse: "How do you understand!"

But no one in the room spoke, everyone was listening quietly, waiting for my next words.

I briefly described what happened: "We almost got tricked, and almost died on the way to sign the contract..."

"If there weren't those questionnaires, the person here today wouldn't be Wa State leader Zhou Aiguo, but the criminal on the red notice, Xu Ruifeng!"

After I finished saying all this, Anne's face already had a look of "surviving the disaster". After Haika reacted for a while, he finally started to be shocked. "Burea, I didn't expect him to understand."

"This is a conspiracy. The people behind it don't have to do anything. As long as they watch it happen, our Wa State will be completely finished!"

Haika said in surprise: "When the efforts of so many of us and the money saved over the years are all poured into the 'import and export ports' that will never be opened, as long as the borders are tightened, our medicines will be If you can't enter the country, the entire economy will collapse instantly, and by then..."

Haika seems to have thought of other things, such as food assistance and medical system assistance. Once these are cut off in an instant, and we don’t have the decades-old foundation of Eastern Shan State, the entire Wa State will be like a beach. Like the sandcastle built on the beach, it was completely washed away by the waves, and I couldn't even afford to eat. This is not an exaggeration.

In that case, it’s just me, me! Who can I restrain? Maybe the hungry mob would be the first to storm City Hall and kill me to vent their anger. "Master, who is this? Isn't this too cruel? Is it the Eastern Shan State or the one with the surname Zhao?"

I waved my hand: "It doesn't matter who it is."

I pointed to the lamp on the roof of the shed: "There is light above my head."

"After ending the black and gray birth, the Wa State is on the right track!"

"As long as I stand in the light, no one can do anything to me, because the benefits we create for others will come back to us."

I pointed out the window again at this moment: "If we are still alive as before, yes, we can see the benefits right now, but what remains in the end will always be darkness. When the time comes, the darkness will appear and you will be hard to guard against."

At this time, I said something that made me feel numb: "Only in the light can someone cry like a child."

This!
It is the desire of people like Lao Qiao, Big Boss Bao, and Big Boss Peng for the light. However, they have been walking all their lives but never reached the end.

"Okay, I have nothing else to do. You are all tired after a long day, so go and rest."

Anne and Haika left, and when only Bujea was left in the room, I raised my head and asked him: "Aren't you going to take a rest?"

Bujea was stunned for a moment: "Where am I going?"

Just as I was about to rush out the door and turn my head, Boureat immediately said: "I'm right here."

"Brother, I am where you are."

It’s strange. When Boureia said these words, I thought this guy was stupid and could be used. But then I fell in love with him, and I thought he was simple. He seemed to have never integrated into the relationship and would always be alone. Get out of the relationship. But this time, I felt sincerity and warmth. I felt that this guy really seemed like my younger brother.

I held out my hand to him.

When Burea pulled me up from the ground, I held Burea in my arms: "Okay, you will be wherever I am from now on."

Bujea didn't understand: "Isn't it always the case?"

I didn’t explain: “Yes, it’s always been the case.”

At that moment, I looked at the glass of the window and realized that I was such a person.

It seems that it was only today that I surrendered my heart to brotherhood.

I began to understand why I couldn't experience my own 'love' from Aunt Fang. When a person whose whole body was frozen couldn't even decide whether to live or die, how could I love others?
If only I hadn't melted now, if I hadn't been able to live in the sunshine again...

……

I believe it.

I believe again that there are people in this world who will really sacrifice their lives for the benefit of others. I really believe that there are people in this world who will sacrifice their lives for the sake of 'nobility'.

I also believe that when someone stands in front of me and talks about the rule of law, light, and making the world a better place, I will never think that he or she is showing off.

I believed it. (End of chapter)