my reality with some autobiography

Chapter 82, from now on, extraordinary!

Moyin’s hot list that night:
[The General Administration of Sports issued a statement: Chen Xuan suffers from an extremely rare physiological disease, and experts say he will not live to be 30 years old..]

[According to the memories of Chen Xuan’s junior high school teachers and classmates, Chen Xuan may have suffered from severe mental illness. He once...]

【Even in this situation, Chen Xuan still dragged his sick body and worked hard for the sports cause of the motherland.】

[Chen Xuan commissioned the General Administration of Sport to issue a statement: He promised that half of his endorsement income will be used to fund the construction of sports facilities in primary and secondary schools across the country. 】

[The Red Letter Association issued a statement: It is willing to establish a special project in the name of Chen Xuan.]

[Let us bless Chen Xuan. 】

"Huh, personality psychology?"

"Will you still read this book?"

After Chen Xuan put down Zhang Yu's phone.

Suddenly I found a book "Personality Psychology" on the bedside table.

Zhang Yuguang sat on the bed on his knees.

The woman was shivering under the quilt, with only her head exposed.

There was only Chen Xuan.

Logically speaking, Zhang Yu shouldn't be so scared.

What a well-known sports star.

If he wanted to, he could really make a star disappear from this world.

Even when I first saw Chen Xuan.

He was ready to kill Chen Xuan.

Because his little brothers live next door.

But when he was about to grab the phone, he was horrified to find that his body didn't obey his orders.

All over his body, only one pair of eyes could move.

A moment of horror like a ghost hitting a wall.

"Sorry, I was negligent."

Chen Xuan smiled apologetically and picked up the book of personality psychology.

Then he put his finger in front of his lips and advised Zhang Yu, who was already able to speak, "Shh, don't shout too loud, you understand."

Zhang Yu's "help" cry was stuck in his throat.

He looked at Chen Xuan in fear, his lips trembling, "Are you a human or a ghost?"

"Of course I'm not a ghost. As for whether I'm a human being, I don't know."

Chen Xuan turned over the pages of the book.

The plain voice shocked the woman to tears.

Zhang Yu was also shocked.

I don’t know if it counts as a human being?

What's the meaning!
If that wasn't a human being, what could it be?
In particular, the two of them thought of their own loss of control.

Reason is filled with fear.

Chen Xuan noticed the state of the two of them and chuckled in relief, "An Xuan, I am a sports star who abides by the law and will not kill you."

But the more he said it.

The two of them were even more frightened.

Chen Xuan thought about it and changed the subject, "You haven't told me yet, why do you want to read this book?"

"I didn't read it. This is her book."

Zhang Yu mustered up his courage and glanced at the woman.

The woman wanted to cover her head, but she couldn't move and could only look at Chen Xuan with pleading eyes.

"I see."

Chen Xuan looked through the catalog as if no one else was watching.

Zhang Yu and the woman just felt relieved when they saw Chen Xuan's strange behavior.

Chen Xuan suddenly spoke again, "I have only read part of this book. If I happen to come across it, I will read it."

With that said, he walked to the sofa opposite the bed.

Lie down.

He crossed his legs and opened the book.

Zhang Yu and the two were frightened, but their eyes were full of question marks.

Zhang Yu looked at the clock on the wall and waited quietly for 5 minutes. He couldn't stand the torture of waiting for the verdict, so he gritted his teeth and said, "Chen Xuan, what do you want?"

But he was interrupted by Chen Xuan's sudden reading voice.

“Personality includes not only character, but also beliefs, self-concept, etc.”

Zhang Yu:? ? ?
The woman:? ? ?
"It manifests itself as the integration of abilities, emotions, needs, motivations, interests, attitudes, values, temperament, character and physique when an individual adapts to the environment."

“A self with dynamic coherence and continuity.”

"The psychosomatic organization that gives individuals unique characteristics is formed during the process of socialization."

read this.

Chen Xuan glanced at Zhang Yu and said with a smile, "What a coincidence. Doesn't this answer the question I asked you this morning?"

"A question for me?" Zhang Yu was confused.

"Look at your head, your memory is not good enough."

Chen Xuan shook his head, and then reminded, "In the morning, I asked you about your understanding of the Three Views."

Zhang Yu suddenly nodded and asked subconsciously, "What next?"

The way Chen Xuan didn't speak was too scary.

He decided to strike up a conversation and let Chen Xuan talk more.

"In my understanding, personality is the expression of three views."

"What kind of three views you have will form what kind of personality."

Chen Xuan seemed to be giving a lecture to Zhang Yu.

It seems like he is sorting himself out.

"As I told you this morning, the formation of a person's three views is closely related to his past experiences."

"Because you were born into wealth, you have had whatever you wanted since childhood, and you can bully whoever you want."

"So your current character has become a little lawless and arrogant."

Zhang Yu was a little dissatisfied with this.

I wanted to retort and say that I wasn't like this, but I didn't dare.

Chen Xuan touched his chin at this time, "So I was thinking this morning, if I change your memory, then..."

"Change my memory?!" Zhang Yu was shocked.

"Yeah, for example, change your memory from a wealthy family to one of being born in poverty."

"The memory I'm going to give you will change from bullying others to being bullied since childhood."

"Tell me, after dealing with it this way, will your character become cowardly and timid?"

Zhang Yu said with a sneer: "Hehe, you're joking, how can memory be changed?"

But his heart was freezing.

I vaguely feel that Chen Xuan really has such ability.

same.

The woman also thought about this.

But because her mouth had not been released by Chen Xuan, she could only continue to cry silently.

"Changing memories. It's easy to say it's actually quite difficult. After all, it would be very tiring to change all the memories from childhood to adulthood."

Chen Xuan assessed in his mind the feasibility of his envisioned plan.

Think about it.

He suddenly closed the book in his hand and patted his thigh.

"I'm also over the top."

"If you want to change a person, you don't seem to have to completely change his memory."

"You only need to make changes to some memorable points."

Zhang Yu couldn't understand, "What do you mean?"

Chen Xuan wanted to share, "Suppose your childhood memories are like this."

"After you bullied someone for the first time, the person you bullied chose to suffer silently, and your parents praised you."

"How did you know?" Zhang Yu blinked.

Chen Xuan: "."

After all, I got it right.

He said impatiently, "Don't interrupt, just listen to me."

Zhang Yu hurriedly expressed his gratitude.

"If you change your childhood memories to..."

"After you bully others, your parents scold you and educate you."

"The people you bullied also fought back and beat you half to death."

"Tell me, will you never dare to bully others again?"

Zhang Yu was disdainful, "Tsk, my parents don't know how to do that."

"Shut up!" Chen Xuan shouted angrily.

Zhang Yu said aggrievedly, "You asked me to say it."

When Chen Xuan was about to scold again, he found that the woman was trying to wink at him, so he asked, "Do you want to talk?"

The frequency of the woman's blinking suddenly accelerated.

Chen Xuan let go of his control over the nerves in her mouth.

As a result, the woman opened her mouth and whimpered, crying and begging Chen Xuan for his life, but after seeing Chen Xuan narrowing his eyes.

Her voice was like a duck being strangled. She stopped crying and said timidly, "Chen Xuan, according to what you just said, after changing Zhang Yu's memory like that, Zhang Yu will definitely not dare to bully him casually again." Human.”

"Of course, that's not enough."

"We also need to change all the memory fragments of Zhang Yu's bullying in Zhang Yu's memory, in order to completely change him."

"Oh, you seem to understand?"

Chen Xuan looked at her carefully and felt that she looked familiar.

"Haha, I'm also a psychology major. I'm a junior in medicine majoring in psychology."

"Oh, yes, Zhang Yu said that this book belongs to you. It seems that you are also very eager to learn." Chen Xuan suddenly realized.

Suddenly.

He remembered where he had seen her, and pointed at the woman, "Is your name Xiaohui, the person next to Xixi?"

The woman nodded excitedly, "Yes, I am a member of Xixi's sister group. Chen Xuan, for Xixi's sake, please let me go."

"How come you, a junior in college, have become Xixi's crush?"

"Don't I like her character?"

really.

She is the one in the video Tang Moxi posted yesterday.

The woman who pretended to cry after being touched by Zheng Yong, and then held in his arms.

Chen Xuan sneered, "Let you go, do you think I didn't hear your previous conversation with Zhang Yu?"

"Wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooow

Xiaohui still wanted to quibble.

But after catching a glimpse of Zhang Yu's angry eyes, she suddenly reacted.
Chen Xuan is not easy to mess with.

Zhang Yu is also not easy to mess with.

Just shut your mouth.

Then the air became silent in vain.

Chen Xuan was lost in thought.

Xiaohui and Zhang Yu held their breath and did not dare to disturb him.

At this time, Chen Xuan took out his mobile phone.

Open the Kaidian app and click on your own book——

"My Autobiography with Added Reality"

Flipping page by page.

Zhang Yu and Zhang Yu stared at each other for eight minutes before Chen Xuan looked at Xiaohui and said, "You know psychology, can you help me clear up my doubts?"

Xiaohui nodded immediately, "Of course, no problem. If you have anything to ask, just ask."

"I want to ask a lot, I don't know where to start." Chen Xuan frowned.

Xiaohui was stunned, "How about you summarize it?"

"A summary?"

Chen Xuan tilted his head and thought for a while, then asked several questions in succession...

"I would like to ask why a person who was originally free and unrestrained turns timid and fearful overnight, but it is so difficult to change back."

"Self-psychological suggestion, self-encouragement, and even putting it into practice, I have tried various methods, but still can't change?"

Xiaohui was sluggish, what the hell?
"Why is it so painful to keep a secret, expecting everyone to find out, but afraid everyone will find out?"

"Why are there so many dark thoughts in my heart every moment?"

"Why do I get angry when I see beautiful things and have the urge to destroy everything that is beautiful?"

"Why do I strive to be a person with three upright views?"

Seeing that Chen Xuan seemed to be asking a hundred thousand questions.

Xiaohui finally couldn't help it anymore and interrupted, "Chen Xuan, wait a minute, how about you start from the beginning?"

"Start from scratch?"

Chen Xuan glanced at her and asked to confirm, "Start from the beginning?"

Xiaohui nodded and said, "Yes, yes, let's start from the beginning."

"Tell me more in detail, otherwise you just ask questions, and I can't help you if I don't know why you have such questions."

A gleam flashed in her eyes.

Chen Xuan must be suffering from mental illness if he is so strange.

So she guided Chen Xuan to confide in her.

Ordinary people who confide in psychiatrists too much will easily become dependent on psychiatrists.

Once Chen Xuan also relies on her.

Then her own safety will be guaranteed.

Go even further.

It is not impossible for dependence to turn into obsession.

Chen Xuan is so famous now.

Once you fall in love with her.

What she will gain will surely make her laugh out loud in her dreams.

"Then let me tell you?" Chen Xuan hesitated.

He was a little moved when he said something.

Because there were so many things, he had been holding them in his heart for so long and it was so uncomfortable.

When Xiaohui was about to speak.

Zhang Yu was the first to answer, "Just tell us, we promise not to tell anyone."

Although he didn't know what Xiaohui was thinking.

But I also understand that if Chen Xuan talks more, the time will be delayed longer.

Isn't there an old saying: the villain dies because he talks too much?
Once Chen Xuan talks more, victory will definitely be tilted towards him.

Chen Xuan fell into memories
"Then let's start from the first time we met her."

"She is small and fat, with dark yellow skin and yellow hair. She looks like a short, fat and ugly duckling."

"Her grandfather was slandered and imprisoned, but others didn't know that at the time and thought her grandfather was corrupt."

"So many people scolded and smashed her house, and all the children of the same age excluded her and bullied her."

"So she is timid and afraid of things."

"One day, her parents couldn't bear it any more, because the small clothing workshop they had worked so hard to run was smashed by their neighbors again."

"I just planned to go to other provinces to do business, but at that time, how could I take care of my children easily when I went to other provinces?"

Xiaohui and Zhang Yu looked at each other.

Secretly said: Very good, Chen Xuan is in the state.

"Then she came to live in my house."

"She cries all the time. It's so annoying. She even snatches my braised pork and takes over my bed."

Xiaohui asked, "Then you bullied her?"

"Oh, you think I'm Zhang Yu?"

Chen Xuan glanced at her and said disdainfully, "A homeless wild girl bullies her, am I still considered a man?"

"I just."

Zhang Yu wanted to argue, but shut his mouth angrily.

"What about you?" Xiaohui asked.

"Although she is annoying, she is very diligent. She helps my grandparents with farm work and secretly helps me wash clothes."

"Although it was always a disservice, my clothes were ruined by her washing them with steel wool."

Xiaohui couldn't hold it back, "Pfft, steel wool is used to wash clothes?"

Chen Xuan also laughed, "Yeah, she just can't do anything and is so diligent."

"Isn't it possible that she deliberately tore your clothes because she wanted to compete with you?"

Chen Xuan shook his head, "I thought so too at the time, so I was very angry and asked her to settle the score."

"Are you bullying her?" Zhang Yu muttered.

Chen Xuan only glanced at him and made him tremble with fear. He sneered and continued, "When I pulled her arm, I found that her hands were bloody and scratched by the steel ball. I knew she was really unintentional. .”

"Ah?" Xiaohui exclaimed.

At this moment, Chen Xuan's eyes flashed with pity.

"I asked her why she used steel wool and why she did my laundry?"

"She just cried and said she didn't damage my clothes on purpose."

"She said she saw grandma using steel wool to clean the dark bottom of the pot, so she thought it could also clean clothes. Do you think she is stupid?"

"Haha, that's quite silly." Zhang Yu spoke, but found that Chen Xuan ignored him.

"She also said she wanted to play with me, but she didn't want everyone to stop playing with her."

"Haha, that silly girl thinks she can please me by doing my laundry."

Xiaohui glanced at Chen Xuan and stopped laughing.

"Then I take her out to play."

"Other children refused to play with her, so she had to follow me around all day."

"I will beat anyone who bullies her."

"Gradually, no one bullied her anymore."

Xiaohui murmured longingly, "When I was young, I wish I had a brother like you."

Zhang Yu was about to snort, but he held back the corners of his mouth.

Chen Xuan continued, "But this girl seems to be sick. She keeps crying all day long and says she misses her father and mother. It's annoying to me."

"I tried every method, coaxing, tricking, teasing, but I found that bullying her was the most effective."

"When you bully her, she gets angry and forgets to cry."

Then you said you weren’t bullied?
Both Zhang Yu and Zhang Yu wanted to ask this, but neither of them dared.

"Every day, she deliberately messes up the hair that her grandma tied up for her."

"Her beautiful dress was deliberately dirty."

"Deliberately burying her so ugly and fat."

"I deliberately told her that I hate fat people and cowards."

"I also deliberately showed off the love letters sent to me by other girls in front of her."

"Then he said to her: No, look how slim and confident that girl is."

"Although she was still crying, she was crying because I was angry. The crying time was also very short, and she started to make a fuss soon after she finished crying."

"It's not like she cries for her parents. She cries endlessly and even passes out from crying several times."

Xiaohui looked at Chen Xuan steadily and murmured softly, "You are so kind."

Zhang Yu was jealous and wanted to curse:
Yes, labor and management have been working on you for a long time. If you don't say that labor and management are good, forget it. Say he is good?
"Then."

Chen Xuan suddenly looked at Zhang Yu.

That look was so cold that it made Zhang Yu's whole body tremble.
"My dad has offended a big shot."

"And my mother, were killed together."

"What!" Xiaohui exclaimed.

"Everyone told me it was an accident."

"But I know it was premeditated murder."

"Because the day before my parents had an accident, I overheard my father arguing with someone else."

"That man yelled at my dad. If my dad doesn't bow his head, he will find someone to kill my whole family tomorrow!"

When Chen Xuan said this, his eyes were as scarlet as blood.

A pair of hands, squeezing the knuckles.

"I don't dare to tell my grandparents because I'm afraid they will be impulsive."

"I didn't dare to tell others because I didn't know if any of the others had the informant of that big shot."

"I just hold it in and don't dare to tell anyone."

"No, I originally wanted to tell her, but her parents suddenly came back and picked her up."

"I don't know who else to tell, I just feel so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable."

"I can't even sleep."

"Suddenly I discovered that eating could make me feel better, so I ate, eating as hard as I could."

"I also found that smoking can make me feel better for a while, so I smoked secretly."

"Eating more and more fat."

"Pumping harder and harder."

"As a result, it became more and more uncomfortable to hold it in, and I couldn't sleep anymore."

"Seeing other people happy makes me angry."

"Seeing other people happy makes me angry."

"There was an urge to go up and beat them."

Zhang Yu and Xiaohui held their breath subconsciously, because Chen Xuan spoke faster and faster, and his tone became heavier and heavier.

Such Chen Xuan scared them.

"Why can they be so happy, but I can't?"

"Why can they be so happy but I feel so miserable?"

"Every night, I think of my parents' bloody appearance, and I swear that I will seek revenge on that big shot the next day and fight him to the death."

"But the next morning, I was scared again."

"It's a cycle."

"day after day."

"Every day!"

"I'm a fucking loser!"

"Getting fatter and grumpier."

"One night, I couldn't take it anymore and ran out."

"I ran into the mountains and yelled and spent the night in the mountains."

Speaking of this, Chen Xuan's tone calmed down again.

Zhang Yu and Xiaohui also let out a sigh of relief.

But the next moment.

"When I woke up the next day, I saw what was in my arms and was stunned."

"A native dog whose neck I strangled."

"Ah?" Xiaohui exclaimed.

If it wasn't for her inability to move, she would have ordered her to cover her mouth.

Zhang Yu was shaking violently.

Because later, Chen Xuan glared at him again.

But speaking of which.

Chen Xuan suddenly wiped his face.

"I picked up that local dog. It must have seen me going out in the middle of the night. It came with me."

"Then that day, I took the hatchet and went to find the enemy."

Xiaohui and Zhang Yu immediately cheered up.

"But damn, he was caught and shot!"

"Ah?" Xiaohui and Zhang Yu exclaimed at the same time.

"I thought, I'd be happy, but I'm not."

"Especially after I learned that his family had fled abroad and were living a comfortable life, I felt even more uncomfortable."

"Why didn't he wait until I could take revenge with my own hands?"

"Why couldn't he be caught sooner?"

"Why is it that his family can still be dispersed abroad, but I feel so uncomfortable?"

"I just don't like anything, and I want to smash everything I see."

Xiaohui couldn't help but interrupt, "You can't continue like this."

Chen Xuan glanced at her sideways.

Without comment, continue to think about your own memories.
"But one day."

"After I lost my temper and smashed the dishes at home, I saw the worry in my grandparents' eyes."

“I suddenly realized something was wrong with me, so I searched online for solutions, and then I found mindfulness meditation.”

“Mindfulness meditation?”

Xiaohui frowned, then shook her head and said, "This thing, although it is useful in your current situation, must be done under the guidance of a professional psychologist."

"It is necessary to combine the mechanism of your psychological symptoms in a targeted manner, and then perform mindfulness operations to relieve your symptoms."

"Otherwise it will be counterproductive."

Chen Xuan sighed, "It's a pity that no one guided me at the time."

"So the symptoms were relieved at first, but then they became more and more severe."

"It wasn't until I accidentally came into contact with novels that I felt relieved again."

"Novel? Reading novels?" Xiaohui asked.

"I read it at first, and then I also read and wrote."

"What, you still write novels?" Xiaohui exclaimed.

"Yes, because reading novels can divert my attention at first and make me think less."

"But as time went on, I still felt really uncomfortable."

"There was a book shortage, and at the suggestion of a book friend, I tried to write it myself."

“I didn’t write well in the end, but I found that I felt much better.”

"It seems that all my desires are expressed in the novel."

When Chen Xuan said this, a comfortable expression appeared on his face.

But Xiaohui shouted, "Impossible. Writing is a laborious and laborious task. Your emotions are so difficult to control. How can you relieve them through writing?"

Chen Xuan frowned, "But I am indeed much more comfortable. There have been almost no riots in these years."

"Impossible, absolutely impossible, you must be mistaken."

Xiaohui still firmly believes that Chen Xuan's writing books cannot relieve his symptoms.

"Listening to what you just said, your psychological problems include symptoms of depression, anxiety, mania, and schizophrenia. Almost all mental illnesses have their shadow on you."

"There must be something else that is relieving your symptoms, but you mistakenly thought that writing a novel made you feel relieved."

"Don't talk about novels. Even if it is an autobiography, it can only distract your attention or energy while you are writing."

"But you can't write 24 hours a day."

"Once you stop, your symptoms are bound to return or even worsen."

"And it can be seen from your current state that if writing novels was really useful, you wouldn't have said so much to me."

"That just goes to show that writing novels is of no use to you."

Writing novels is of no use to me?
Chen Xuan was stunned and couldn't help but start to think carefully about what Xiaohui said.

There seems to be really no relief.

In other words, it was relieved, but soon became worse again.

Just like the autobiography I am writing now.

At first, Jiang Yao and the others felt a little more comfortable when they were slapped in the face.

But soon, others will have to be slapped in the face.

Even when he pushed Nie Rou and Jiang Beibei later, he felt very comfortable while pushing.

But within two days, the impulse in his heart could no longer be suppressed.

Chen Xuan frowned in thought.

“So what exactly is relieving my symptoms?”

"What I am sure of is that I am much better now than before. In the past, I would break out and break things at every turn."

Xiaohui fell into deep thought after hearing this.

Zhang Yu interrupted at this moment, "Then do you remember when you started not fighting much?"

Chen Xuan tilted his head and thought about it, "It seems to be when he entered high school?"

Xiaohui's eyes lit up, "Did you encounter anything when you were in high school? Maybe that incident was an opportunity to alleviate your symptoms."

"No, my high school was very normal, nothing like junior high school."

Chen Xuan said and suddenly realized, "No, she came back when we were in high school."

"Her? Which her?"

Xiaohui wondered, could it be because of people?
"Wait a minute, are you talking about the short and fat sister you live in your house?"

Xiaohui confirmed and immediately shouted, "Yes, it must be her."

"Her presence must have relieved your symptoms."

"What you confided just now started from her."

"This shows that subconsciously, you have noticed her importance to you."

"You also said before that you wanted to tell her the truth about your parents."

"But because she left suddenly, you had no one to talk to, so you felt even more depressed."

"After you were in high school, she must have been around you a lot, right?"

"Even now, right?"

"She must have reappeared around the same time as you started writing the novel, leading you to mistakenly believe that the novel relieved your symptoms."

Chen Xuan was stunned.

Thinking about it carefully, it seems that this is really the case.

When he created the first pen name in his life, "Tangtangfan".

It was because Tang Moxi saw him meditating and complained dissatisfiedly that he was Tangtangfan (shabi).

At that time, he thought that the three words "Tang Tang Fan" were good.

When he calls himself Tangtangfan, there is a rare sense of freedom and ease.

But later Tang Moxi even shouted "Shabi".

He gradually forgot about it.

Chen Xuan sighed with emotion, "It turns out it was you all along."

"Who is she?"

Xiaohui asked curiously at this time, but as soon as she spoke, she and Zhang Yu suddenly reacted.

After looking at each other, they spoke in unison with a trembling voice.
"Tang Moxi!"

"Tang Moxi!"

From high school to now, she has been by Chen Xuan's side.

Besides Tang Moxi, who else could be there?

So now.

Chen Xuan looked at the two of them with murderous intent in his eyes, "Haha, did you plan to harm Xixi before?"

"Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu Zhang Yu forced me, Chen Xuan, please go around me." Xiaohui collapsed instantly.

Zhang Yu was also on the verge of collapse.

But the extreme fear gave him a little courage, and he yelled, "Fuck you Chen Xuan, you dare to touch labor and capital, labor and capital will make your whole family die without a burial. Uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu."

Chen Xuan just glanced at him and let his mouth close automatically.

Chen Xuan closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

After opening his eyes again, there was a hint of wantonness and mania in his eyes.

He sneered and looked at Xiaohui.

Xiaohui immediately stopped crying and tried hard to stop her sobbing.

Chen Xuan did not take action against her, but lowered his eyes and continued to recall.
Because his secret goes beyond the death of his parents.

Not to mention, he felt uncomfortable holding it back.

Simply take this opportunity to speak clearly.

Although Chen Xuan realized that something was wrong with his current state.

But at this moment, his soul felt extremely comfortable.

Or rather comfortable.

Such unreserved confession made me feel more comfortable than ever before.

Compared to yesterday.

Under the attention of the whole country, the world record was broken.

What’s more, it’s ten thousand times more comfortable!
"It should be Xixi. Her appearance changed me."

"She mutated from a short, fat ugly duckling into a beautiful white swan."

"When everyone thought I was sick, feared me like a tiger, and avoided me."

"She stayed with me as always. Even when I was so fat and ugly, she still liked me."

"Although she is very annoying, always hitting me in the stomach and teasing me."

"But her stickiness gave me a huge amount of satisfaction subconsciously."

"It satisfies my fantasies about love, it satisfies my fantasies about happiness, and it's a happiness that is different from the family love of my grandparents."

"When I see other people's happiness again, I won't be angry anymore."

"Because my subconscious told me that I have her, she is my happiness, and having her is enough."

sudden.

The happy smile on Chen Xuan's face paused and gradually became stiff.

"It would be nice if her mother didn't show up unexpectedly."

Seeing Chen Xuan stop, Xiaohui gritted her teeth and decided to talk, "Mom Tang Moxi, what's wrong?"

Chen Xuan raised his eyes to look at her, then lowered his eyes again.

"If her mother hadn't appeared at that time and kept me away from her, maybe I would have been cured now."

"Ah? Tang Moxi's mother doesn't agree?"

Xiaohui exclaimed, having a bad premonition in her heart.

She felt a little regretful and let Chen Xuan talk about it.

Because she suddenly realized that this might be a very wrong decision.

Zhang Yu secretly cursed in his heart: He deserves it.

The worse Chen Xuan was, the more comfortable he was listening.

It was as if everything Chen Xuan said was his doing, and it brought him a pleasure comparable to revenge on Chen Xuan.

"If her mother didn't show up, I might have succeeded in losing weight in the second year of high school."

"As a result, I became more and more irritable and fat."

"The "After 999999 Rebirths..." I wrote at that time was originally a funny and invincible novel at the beginning, but later it became a heart-wrenching novel because of my mentality."

"I blocked Xixi again and again, but I couldn't help but add her back."

"When I got to college, if there was no attribute panel, maybe I would still be the big fat guy now."

"Wait, what did you say, attribute panel?" Xiaohui was surprised.

Zhang Yu also blinked in confusion.

Chen Xuan burst out laughing, "Hahaha, that's right, it's the attribute panel, it's the thing you understand, it's the plug-in you understand."

Tell the secret out loud.

His whole body and mind seemed to be in a hearty state of health.

Cool!
"Are you kidding? How is this possible in reality?"

Xiaohui has also read novels and has some understanding of the attribute panel.

But understanding is understanding.

How could she believe that this thing existed in reality?
Even Zhang Yu.

Chen Xuan did not continue to explain, it was up to them to believe it or not.

He only cares about his own pleasure and what he says
"The appearance of the attribute panel made my inferiority complex flutter and swell."

"Because I realized that I was destined to be invincible."

"This is indeed the case. In just over half a month, I went from a weak and fat man weighing nearly 400 kilograms to the current 400-meter world champion."

"What! Are you telling the truth?" Xiaohui exclaimed again.

Zhang Yu was shocked to the point of numbness after hearing Chen Xuan's deeds.

Chen Xuan still ignored them.
"The strength has reached the limit of human beings, and the muscles and bones all over my body are solid. I don't know how heavy my punch is now."

"Coordinated to the limit of human beings, mastered all martial arts in the world, those martial arts masters and boxing champions on TV are just a joke in my opinion."

"My physique has reached the limit of human beings, I can change my shape at will, and my self-healing ability is abnormal. I even feel that my broken limbs can be reborn."

"The spirit reaches the limit of human beings, spiritual power is born, and the ability to avoid danger is gained."

"Even as long as there is sufficient food and medicine supply, we can achieve the incredible medical skills of flesh and bones."

these few words.

Every time Chen Xuan said something, Xiaohui and Zhang Yu were more shocked.

Especially when it comes to the ability of meat and bones.

Zhang Yu suddenly understood why Feng Dongdong was safe and sound today.

What followed immediately brought him an unspeakable fear.

It’s really a shame!
Then can his family background still make Chen Xuan turn against rats?

Obviously not!
"But because of this, my mentality is very inflated."

"Just write your autobiography crazily and pour out your desires crazily in your autobiography."

"In the beginning, I wasn't much better than the average person."

"So an autobiography is of some use."

"No, now it seems that Xixi is of some use to me."

"But as I get stronger and stronger, Xixi's effect on me is not enough."

"But I thought the autobiography comforted me, so I changed the background of the autobiography to the world of martial arts."

"Kill, kill, kill in autobiography."

"Whenever it's written about a martial arts competition, people will kill people. The whole article is full of hostility."

"Especially the words that describe blood bursting out and brains overflowing, I was so excited that I was shaking all over."

Hear the words murder.

Xiaohui and Zhang Yu were almost stunned. Their bodies could not help but tremble even if they were controlled by Chen Xuan.

This trembling is not because they are afraid.

It's their body and subconscious that are afraid.

In other words, every cell in their body is afraid.

Chen Xuan seemed to be going crazy.

Although he was talking with a smile.

But his face was like a doll, with a terrifying smile on his face.

"But it's not working yet. I still feel so uncomfortable. It's so hard to hold it in. It's very uncomfortable."

"It's like I'm back to the past. I feel uncomfortable with everything and want to smash everything for him."

"I try to hypnotize myself and suggest that I want to be a good person."

"I am always hinting to myself, hinting that I want to be a positive and good person with three upright views!"

"So before kindergarten, even if you know the danger, you have to grit your teeth and save it, even if your muscles are torn by shaking your hands, you still have to save it!"

"But it's not enough. I'm afraid that one day I won't be able to hold back, I won't be able to hold back."

"Then create magical skills, pass them on to Zheng Yong and Jiang Jin, and work hard to improve them. I hope they will be able to stop me one day."

"But it's not enough. I'm still suffering from suffocation."

"Just push women in autobiography, push women, push women again, almost become Liu Beiwen."

"I'm about to hint at success."

When Chen Xuan said this, he suddenly became angry.

He suddenly jumped from the sofa to the bed and grabbed Zhang Yu's neck.

Catch him whole before your eyes.

His scarlet eyes were staring into Zhang Yu's eyes, and his tone was a bit hysterical, "But why do you want to bully Xixi?"

"Do you know, the day before yesterday I saw Xixi being bullied so much by the entire Internet, I almost couldn't hold it in anymore!"

Zhang Yu's face turned red as he was pinched, and his whole body was unable to move, making his eyes full of despair.

That Xiaohui was so frightened that her pupils dilated.

My consciousness is a little blurry.

At this moment, Chen Xuan suddenly shook his head and gently put down Zhang Yu.

The scarlet color in his eyes also faded a bit.

He even patted Zhang Yu's shoulder and rubbed his forehead, "Sorry, I'm rude."

Return to the couch.

He wiped his face and sat down.

"Fortunately, Xixi is with me."

"I'm very happy and feel that happiness has arrived."

"Especially yesterday, I broke the world record in front of thousands of people."

"The unprecedented sense of gain at that time even gave me the illusion that I was already a normal person."

"I thought I would never get sick again."

"but you!"

Chen Xuan fiercely grabbed the armrest of the sofa.

He almost broke out again, but held back.

As a result, at this time.

The door was knocked from outside.

One of Zhang Yu's younger brothers shouted outside, "Brother Yu, are you done? Can we come in?"

Chen Xuan turned to the door expressionlessly like a machine.

The veins on my forehead are completely bulging.

Obviously trying to control his inner restlessness.

Zhang Yu is now sitting on the ground, with a pool of smelly liquid under him, because his face is placed facing Chen Xuan.

So he closed his eyes tightly.

Tears of fear flowed silently.

He dared not open his eyes.

Because as soon as I open it.

It is very likely that he will meet Chen Xuan's eyes.

bang bang-

"Brother Yu? Brother Yu?"

The boy outside is still knocking.

Xiaohui did not dare to answer.

She didn't dare to look at Chen Xuan, but her survival instinct drove her to look at Chen Xuan, because only in this way could Chen Xuan detect the pleading in her eyes.

Chen Xuan was silent for a long time before continuing to speak.

This time the tone was very calm, as if he was chatting away from home.

He even lowered his eyes and whispered.

He didn't glare at them with those scary scarlet eyes.

But Zhang Yu and Xiaohui felt like they were falling into the abyss.

The coldness that penetrated the depths of the soul.

"Zhang Yu, you are really telling the truth. I can understand that you plotted against Zheng Yong and the others. After all, you have pressed a lot of money."

"But what method of assassination did you choose? It's not good, but you chose to hit a car and use a truck?"

"You're embarrassing me like this."

"Oh, sorry, I didn't think I mentioned it."

"That's right, my parents were also hit by a car."

"What a coincidence, it's also a truck."

"What a coincidence. Just like my enemy, you are also destroying the sky in a city with one hand."

"What a coincidence, Feng Dongdong's injury is exactly the same as my father's."

"You know what it means to be exactly the same, right?"

"So when you do this, it's hard for me not to bring back... those unpleasant memories."

When Chen Xuan said this, he clicked his tongue.

Get up and open the door.

Because the door is still ringing.

The door opened and a group of boys came in.

Zhang Yu and Xiaohui hurriedly looked at them asking for help, but were shocked to see a group of younger brothers walking in like zombies, expressionless and stiff.

"Now, you saw it too."

"I'm simply invincible."

Chen Xuan stood in front of the younger brothers, patted one on the shoulder, slapped the other on the cheek, and spoke with emotion.

"I am so strong, but I feel so uncomfortable."

"I also hypnotize myself all the time to be a good and law-abiding person. How difficult it is."

"Restraint, restraint."

"Even though Feng Dongdong's injury caused my mind to remember what my parents were like before they died this whole day, I still have to restrain my thoughts."

"You have to hold it back, you have to hold it in."

"But it's uncomfortable, what should I do if I can't hold it?"

"I subconsciously went to Xixi and begged her again and again, until she cried, and I felt a little relieved."

When Chen Xuan said this, he suddenly slapped himself.

A loud pop.

It shocked the hearts of everyone present.

"Xi Xi is so kind to me, but I still hurt her like this. I'm really not a fucking thing."

"Before I got here, I was feeling very uncomfortable."

"but now"

Chen Xuan suddenly looked at Xiaohui, his eyes were no longer scarlet this time, but deep black.

The ultimate blackness, as if it could swallow light.

"Thank you also for listening to my heart."

"Let me figure it out."

"Do you feel uncomfortable holding it in?"

"Heh, I think then don't hold it in."

"Be a good person, be a good and positive person?"

"A bad person is a good person."

Chen Xuan smiled contemptuously, ignoring everyone's desperate mood, and suddenly shouted loudly.

"Come on, attribute panel. I've already guessed it. The energy is where you are. Take it out."

"Emmm, are you telling me that the time has not come yet?"

The perception made Chen Xuan frown and pause for two seconds.

burst out!

"It's got to be fucking timing."

He kicked Zhang Yu away in front of him.

Zhang Yu hit the wall with a bang and blood spilled out.

"Ah——" Xiaohui screamed and fainted from fright.

"You're such a bad cheat, labor and management have tolerated you for a long time."

With a slap in the air, a boy immediately spun around for several weeks.

After landing, his whole body was broken, like a puddle of mud.

"This requires energy, and that requires perception."

The fist "popped" through the chest of a younger brother.

Blood splashed on Chen Xuan's face.

He stretched out his tongue to lick it and then spit it out, laughing wantonly, "Haha. No energy?"

"Oh, labor and management don't believe in these people. They are not enough for me to make a breakthrough."

The arm is withdrawn.

A younger brother was caught in his mouth.

Run the four poles.

"I've been holding it in for so long, and you still want me to hold it? Hold back Nima."

"I want to be extraordinary now, no one can stop me!"

When you open your mouth, you will eat someone directly.

Suddenly stopped.

Because the properties panel suddenly popped up on its own.

Above, a writer’s assistant app actually appeared.

The same APP as on his phone.

Chen Xuan threw away his little brother and looked up
The properties panel opens the app spontaneously.

Spontaneously click on the book "My Autobiography with Added Reality".

Spontaneously create a new chapter: Chapter 46,.

And the automatic codeword:

【afterwards.

Chen Xuan saw the tears in the corners of Jiang Beibei's eyes and realized that this could not go on.

He was so crazy just now.

Jiang Beibei's delicate body was covered with scars, and there was almost no intact place.

He suddenly slapped himself.

What kind of man is this who uses women to relieve dark emotions?

After a long silence.

He opened the Writer Assistant app and coded the protagonist and world background in his autobiography:
[Chen Xuan is 19 years old, a freshman in the Department of Spiritual Consciousness at North China Medical University.

Cultivation to the fourth level of Qi refining]
】

"Isn't this what I am planning to write tomorrow?" Chen Xuan blinked.

"Attribute panel, help me code tomorrow's chapter?"

"But what does this have to do with energy?"

Chen Xuan was puzzled.

His mental power suddenly concentrated, and after condensing to the extreme, he stabbed at the word "Chen Xuan" coded on the attribute panel.

As if pierced into another world.

No, it really penetrated into another world.

Pierced into the world of Chen Xuan, the protagonist he wrote and Chen Xuan wrote.

next moment.

Boom!

A surge of unimaginable energy.

Followed by his spiritual power.

Huhu——

Puffy——

As if surrounded by a hurricane, Chen Xuan saw that his hair and clothes were blowing in the wind and making a hunting sound.

Quadrupole power lv.4, at this moment.

(999/1000)→(1000/1000)

Immediately afterwards, it jumped to lv.5 (1/10000).

"In books, the energy of the whole world can be used by me?"

"Hahahaha, that's right."

"I still have to find energy by myself, so how many plug-ins are there?"

The strength attribute disappears.

The coordination attribute disappears.

Physical attributes disappear.

The spirit is still there.

Added new body.

[Extraordinary reward package: double increase in mental and physical strength by 0.5! 】

"Gift bag? Haha, it's bright!" Chen Xuan raised his eyebrows.

Physique 2→2.5
Spirit 2→2.3→2.8
[Reward extraordinary gift package: 1 free attribute point]

Free attribute 0→1!

Chen Xuan was stunned.

[Reward: Enjoy future skills in advance]

New skill: biological force field lv0 (1/100)
Chen Xuan glanced at this skill and raised his eyebrows, "Isn't this... Superman's thing?"

Use it when you have a thought.

Suddenly, a feeling of weightlessness appeared.

Chen Xuan lowered his head and saw that the soles of his feet stood up spontaneously under the influence of gravity.

Then an inch off the ground.

Floating in the air.

Just then.

"Ah, help—"

"what--"

"what--"

Perhaps the mental power was drained away from the attribute panel and used to break down the low-dimensional barrier.

Zhang Yu and others also regained their composure.

The first moment everyone woke up, they screamed in pain and fear.

When Chen Xuan reacted.

The door was knocked by neighbors upstairs and downstairs.

After all, there is too much movement here.

Chen Xuan wiped away the blood stains on his body and went to open the door.

Before I could say anything, the people outside the door screamed again and again.
"Shall I go, Chen Xuan?"

Chen Xuan just smiled.

"Chen Xuan, are you celebrating, but can you keep your voice down?"

Chen Xuan said sorry.

"Chen Xuan, Chen Xuan, can you sign your name for us?"

Chen Xuan said of course no problem.

After signing a few names, these neighbors left without even intending to come in and take a look.

Chen Xuan returned and looked at the people who were controlled by him again.

He smiled softly to comfort him, but in exchange for everyone's despair.

"Don't worry, I'm a big star and I won't hurt you."

"Oh, sorry, it was an accident just now. I will treat you right now."

"Okay, I really won't kill you."

"By the way, changing your personalities shouldn't count as killing you?"

"You are still you, but you are not you anymore."

"Haha, it's so damn interesting. Life is full of philosophy."

"A well-known sports star and charity ambassador across the country."

"Behind the scenes, he is a complete devil."

"Tsk."

Chen Xuan laughed wildly and strode towards Zhang Yu and others.

But when I passed the coffee table, I suddenly caught sight of a fruit knife, and I couldn't help but pause...
The fruit knife was picked up by him.

It was between his fingers again, a moment later.

"I wonder if there is any difference between seeing it with your own eyes and scanning it with your mental power?"

The corners of his mouth curled up, and he pointed the tip of the knife at Zhang Yu's chest.

When I was about to do an autopsy and take a look.

buzz-

[Shabi Shabi, what are you doing? 】

[Shabishabi, why don’t you answer the phone? 】

[Shabi Shabi, I’ll be angry if you don’t answer the phone again. 】

[Shame!immediately!answer the phone! 】

What!

When did Tang Moxi change the cell phone ringtone?
Chen Xuan was angry.

When I was about to answer the phone, I caught a glimpse of the fruit knife in my hand.

bang.

The fruit knife was thrown onto the knife and made a noise.

"Hey, when the hell did you change it for me?"

"Shabi, where have you been? I'm hungry."

Tang Moxi's voice was hoarse and weak.

Different from the ringtones, which are full of liveliness and energy.

Chen Xuan paused.

The voice was also softer.
"I'll be right back."

　It’s a showdown, it’s a villain story.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)