my reality with some autobiography

Chapter 34, I can’t wait to transform into a god!
Either way.

Chen Xuan finally convinced the two of them and would teach them martial arts tomorrow.

Zheng Yong didn't mention it for now, he had promised it before.

As for the strong man.

Chen Xuan originally didn't intend to pay attention.

But when the burly man cried and said that Chen Xuan broke the screen of his mobile phone three times, it was also the screen of the curved phone.

Chen Xuan looked at the balance and could only accept it reluctantly.

The two returned to the dormitory and were discovered by the instructor who was checking the dormitory.

Got a scolding.

Enter the dormitory.

The bedroom lights have been turned off.

But neither Jiang Yao nor Feng Dongdong fell asleep.

Jiang Yao was wrapped in a quilt and looking at his phone intently.

Feng Dongdong's eyes were dull, and his fingers were unconsciously scrolling through the Moyin short video APP.

Chen Xuan clapped his hands to attract their attention.

Then he planned to follow what he had discussed with Zheng Yong on the way, and first use the lies he told the old Chinese medicine doctor before, and then talk about it after passing this level.

As for whether the two of them still exercise violently when they become suspicious of Chen Xuan, that will be discussed later.

result.

Jiang Yao's feedback.

It was a two-level reversal from the aggressiveness in the afternoon.

He waved his hand nonchalantly and said, "Oh, it doesn't matter. I know you have difficulties. Just don't mean to lie to me. I saw it wonderfully. It's over. Let's not talk about it anymore."

Chen Xuan was confused and called Feng Dongdong again.

Feng Dongdong rolled his eyes: "I just want to fall asleep now. Damn it, I am obviously tired and sore all over, and mentally exhausted, but I am always thinking about things in my mind. Why can't I fall asleep?"

"This is because you exercised too vigorously today and the cerebral cortex is too excited, making it difficult for your brain to stay in a calm state. The symptom is that it is difficult to fall asleep."

Hearing this, Jiang Yao mentioned it casually, and then said comfortingly: "But it doesn't matter. Just put down your phone and lie still, and you will fall asleep in about two hours."

"What, two more hours? Oh my God." Feng Dongdong wailed.

When Chen Xuan saw this, he looked at Zheng Yong speechlessly.

Zheng Yong shrugged and said, "There is a kind of tiredness called thinking too much."

Chen Xuan was speechless and choked.

you do not say.

Who would have thought that the nonsense he had spent a whole day and countless brain cells trying to come up with would actually be of no use.

Inexplicable.

He thought about the scene when he was talking to his senior sister in the afternoon.

Perhaps it's because the mental attribute is as high as 1.33.

He actually remembered the scene of chatting with his senior sister clearly in the afternoon.

Even the words and deeds of the senior sister at that time were as clear as if the senior sister was re-enacting them in front of him now.

"Senior, were you planning to say something, but I interrupted you?"

"That mouth shape, could it be that you want to say, forget it?"

hiss--

"I didn't agree to take her pulse, so she was going to give it up?"

"I'll go. What have I done this day?"

Chen Xuan went into the bathroom to wash up with a wry smile.

After lying on the bed, he still had a wry smile on his face.

The reason why Zheng Yong mentioned it was that he reacted so quickly.

It's because of "thinking too much".

He's already a habitual offender.

Tang Moxi was right when she said he was sick.

But it’s not autism, it’s anxiety.

Since his parents died unexpectedly in the second grade of junior high school, he has suffered from extremely serious anxiety:
Excessive worry or fear about future or uncertain events.

Hypervigilance.

Sensitive to external stimuli and easily frightened.

Difficulty concentrating.

Sleep disorders, difficulty falling asleep, etc.

That's why he taught himself mindfulness meditation before, just to try not to think too much.

But found that the effect was not great.

When meditating, I feel much more comfortable.

But once he stops meditating, his inner anxiety will make his spirit always haunted by the pain that is worse than death.

He had countless thoughts of suicide and self-harm.

until later.

He was relieved a lot after he came into contact with online novels.

When you read a novel, you will be attracted by the plot and not think too much about it.

When writing a novel, you focus on thinking about the plot and don’t think too much about it.

and now.

I chose the major of clinical and mental health.

"I thought that if I had a hangover, my anxiety would be almost healed."

"But I didn't expect that it was just hidden deeper."

"What am I worried about?"

Chen Xuan couldn't help but review his behavior after getting the attribute panel.

Death from heat stroke.

I tried to do push-ups, trying to earn back my face.

Frog Leap regained face as he wished, but it caused misunderstandings among his roommates.

It aroused the doubts of the senior sister, which aroused the doubts of Tang Moxi.

Deceive Tang Moxi and delay the senior sister.

He wanted to deceive the whole dormitory, but in the end he only deceived Zheng Yong.

We also brought Zheng Yong and that...

Hey, what's the name of that burly senior?

"What is the reason for all this?"

"Worried about being looked down upon? It seems like there are some."

"No, it's not that I'm worried about being looked down upon, but that I want to show off."

"Yes, I want to show off that I have an attribute panel, I want to show off that I am different, I want to show off that I can do it."

"Yes, I want to stand in front of Tang Moxi's mother and tell her that I am not a burden. I have never thought about causing Tang Moxi to be harmed, and I will not harm Tang Moxi. You don't need to guard against me like a wolf."

"But, am I afraid?"

"Afraid of the property panel being exposed?"

"Afraid of being regarded as an alternative, afraid of seeing the alternative looks like those in middle and high school, where people regard you as an autistic person?"

"Then what shall I do?"

"Like the protagonist in Gou Dao's novel, he grows up slowly?"

"Perhaps it would be safe, though."

"I won't be happy!"

"I'm tired of swallowing my anger and being submissive. I want to tell the world that I'm a loser!"

"In the future, there may be gods!"

Chen Xuan couldn't help but clutch the quilt tightly.

But soon, he slowly let go.

"But going out to broadcast?"

"Come on, I'm not strong enough, I really need to be stubborn."

"But I'm still feeling uncomfortable and uncomfortable."

"Then is there any way to satisfy the desire to expose oneself while still doing so?"

In the darkness after lights out.

Chen Xuan slowly sat up and picked up the mobile phone placed next to the pillow.

Open the Writer APP and click "My Autobiography with Added Reality."

After a while of hesitation.

Resolutely change Yao Jiang back to Jiang Yao!
Zhao Yong, changed back to Zheng Yong.

Feng Xi, changed back to Feng Dongdong.

Tang Momo was changed to Tang Moxi.

The names of all the main characters have been changed back.

As the names were gradually changed one by one.

came back.

That comfortable feeling came back to Chen Xuan.

In the darkness, his dark eyes grew brighter and brighter.

getting brighter
"Gou, maybe it's the way to immortality."

"Afraid of being sliced, should we be cautious and walk on eggshells?"

"No! Dancing with the tip of the knife is the excitement I want to pursue!"

"I don't want to swallow it anymore, I don't want to be submissive anymore."

"Everything has been changed. Someone will probably find out, right?"

"Come on, quickly discover my existence."

"Please, please discover my existence quickly."

"I can't wait for your discovery!"

"I can't wait to transform into a god!"

(End of this chapter)