At the same time, I traveled through the world and joined the chat group

Chapter 80 I just saw it, it will be released soon

I am a 27 year old virgin.

When I was in middle school, I had very good grades. I was among the best in Chinese. I often got first place in essays and was highly praised by my teachers. Then that day, I became swollen because I saw Fighting Breaking the Sphere and I saw the annual income of the Internet writing master. , I think I can do it too!I found my dream!
My father worked outside and had no time to take care of me. I took the [-]-word manuscript I wrote in school and dropped out of school!
From that day on, my life collapsed! ! !
Let’s talk about something else first.

When I was a student, I was quite charming.

From elementary school to middle school, any female roommate would definitely like me.

When I was in middle school, I had a very good relationship with the class monitor and the class representative of the Chinese class.

And I look ordinary, probably because I used to have the same aloofness and humor as the male protagonist of the Internet novel.

Later, I dropped out of school because of writing novels, and I almost deleted all the contact information of my classmates, because no one was optimistic about me, and I wanted to prove that if I don’t fly for three years, I will soar into the sky!Just wait until I come back with millions of royalties to slap you in the face! (failed of course)

A few years after I dropped out of school, I accidentally chatted with the monitor. The monitor told me that they used to sleep on the same bed in the dormitory and talk about me under the covers.

He also said that the Chinese class representative at that time also liked me. She also liked me at that time and asked me with a smile if I believed it.

At that time, I was already deep in depression and stayed in front of the computer for a long time, not knowing what to say.

My heart was full of joy and excitement but I didn't dare to show it at all. I had completely become inferior to myself.

Later, the squad leader went to Nanjing University, and the Chinese class representative went to Sichuan University. Ten years passed in a flash, and all my former friends, male and female!Basically, most of them are academically successful, far better than me!

They are dozens or hundreds of times better than me, a 27-year-old virgin who dropped out of school and thought he could make a career in the world, but later spent high tuition to study in three majors and barely get by.

I used to long for a love that would last forever. Yes, I did, because I did fall in love twice. However, writing novels caused me to have low self-esteem. In addition, I was born with some obsessive-compulsive disorder and the so-called mental mysophobia. When my ex-girlfriend held hands or kissed a man, it would make my heart burst into pieces, which made me so sad and angry that I broke up with her and the woman also called me crazy.

I stopped communicating with women after I turned 22.

Now it has developed to the point where I don’t know how to talk to girls at all. A man who used to be very lively has become very introverted because of writing novels. I have been working recently. At work, I always pretend to be a good person, but in fact I feel like a good person every day. I feel very uneasy and at a loss because I often get hung up on someone else's words for a long time.

In the nearly four years after graduation, I spent my days and nights doing nothing, always pinning my life on writing novels.I have wasted too much time on games and anime for this reason.

Of course, a loser like me only knows one subject. I am unwilling to learn and am particularly afraid of difficulties because I cannot accept the fact that I may not be able to learn and write well. In that case, it will show that my hope of finally rising in life is real. It was broken, and I barely made 12 in more than three years of full-time work.

As far as I know, my former class president graduated from Nanjing University and now works in a large factory. She earns more in one year than I did in three years.

It's funny. I once thought that I was on the road to the ultimate dream and that I could make a lot of money. I thought that after they graduated and started working, I would have already bought a luxury car and lived in a mansion.

Actually?I'm a waste!It's a joke!It's mentally retarded!It's an inferiority complex!It’s a glass heart!It’s because of ignorance!It's useless! ! !

Of course, I haven’t talked to her in a long time, I don’t deserve it! !

Not working for more than three years naturally became a joke in the eyes of my relatives. Until this year, I gave in and started working. Because my income was unstable, I was starving to death!
I think back to when I was very high-spirited ten years ago. At that time, I often ranked first in the class in writing essays and loved reading novels. At that time, I felt that I was so old that I dropped out of school with a [-] to [-]-word manuscript and used my mobile phone to code and post. Arrive at the starting point, plop!Lost in the sea!Not a single reader!Not a single recommendation vote!Not a single comment!I was deeply shocked and couldn't believe it, and at the same time I started my journey to the street.

The only glorious time on the road should be when first-person perspective novels became popular in Tieba.

At that time, there was a post with more than 2000 replies, and many, many people asked me to update it. When I watched those people discussing the plot and urging updates, my eyes really filled with tears, I was full of emotion, and I felt that I really could do it!
Later, times changed, the APP was transformed, and I couldn’t write supernatural articles at all. Even the posts were deleted. I was completely shocked.

Now I have a super low self-esteem. I always talk about pursuing dignity and don’t want to give up my dreams. In fact, I know that I am useless, I have no talent, and I can’t make progress. I know that it is useless for me to learn, and I just can’t write. The sunshine and smiling faces outside are just fake!

Moreover, because he had day and night reversed all year round and only ate one meal a day, his body became extremely weak. He continued to be bald and even developed high blood pressure!
I, a once prosperous man like jade, collapsed like this!

Can you be willing?Of course not.

This month, I am working while preparing for the beginning. I will work hard one last time, get rid of all the bad habits in life, and strive to write a book with satisfactory results. If it doesn't work, I will never read online articles! !
I wrote this in a daze in the middle of the night! !

Time is like a knife cutting down the genius!
I am not reconciled!

I want to break through the nine days!I want to be proud of online articles, and with the new book, I will definitely rise!I want Wan Long to worship me. I will never give up even if my ambition is not fulfilled. I will be the future Internet literary master. I want to say no to fate. I will work hard until I am powerless. I will fight hard enough to move myself. I will become stronger! !
Suddenly, a madman sharpens his knife at night. I want to cut the old me and everything in the past to pieces!

I want to become stronger! ! !

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Brothers, the above is just a joke, don’t take it seriously, the following is serious content.

When it was released, I just saw it. When I woke up today, I saw it. It was a bit of a surprise, a bit sudden, and not too nervous.

Everyone is aware of my situation. If I can’t update, I won’t update it. I just try my best.

Also, today No. 12, my friend No. 15 is getting married. I have to go back to my hometown one or two days in advance. I will try my best not to delay the update. If it is delayed, please forgive me. It will only be a day or two and I will arrive just in time. Together.

It's hard for me to shirk such a big event as getting married. After all, we have been good brothers for many years.Even though it had just opened, people from all over the world would gather together, which made me a little nervous.

Then, I’ll update it at night. I haven’t saved the manuscript yet. I’ll write two chapters and send them out at night, and then stay up late and write another two or three chapters, trying to get up to [-] words.

Well, as the old saying goes, if there is a problem with the plot, please help point it out and I will change it or rewrite it in the worst case.

That's it, I'll eat something and then start coding.

One last thing to mention, don’t take the above content seriously. Although I have written novels before, I won’t always be a full-time writer.I wrote this book two months ago, before the epidemic was over, and I was locked up in the community for more than two months until the Chinese New Year. I wrote this book out of boredom.

Then, I have been writing the novel that has been sealed until now. As for a job, I will find it again after the New Year. As the New Year is approaching, I can just start working on it and be done.

(End of this chapter)