back to being a teacher

Chapter 319 Doubt yourself

But what he wanted to do at this time was to enlighten Li Shiguang, not to 'empathize' with him.

"So you think you can't write anymore?"

Fang Bai couldn't find any good words for the time being, so he could only let Li Shiguang continue to speak.

Li Guangguang nodded: "Especially for this recent plot, I wrote and deleted, deleted and wrote, and in the end I didn't even know what I was writing!"

Fang Bai continued what Li Shiguang said: "You even doubt that you are not suitable for writing novels at all?"

Li Shiguang nodded empathetically: "Well, yes, sometimes I do feel that I am not suitable for writing novels!"

"Although the teacher doesn't know much about the novel industry, I can tell you about my experience as a teacher!"

Fang Bai thought for a while and said, while he gave Li Guangguang a glass of water, he also poured a glass of water for himself.

"I remember when I first became a teacher. I had just graduated from college and was very high-spirited. It could be said that I was a young man with a strong will and unruly spirit. He could fly like a tiger with wings."

"You can imagine how embarrassed I was at that time..."

Li Guangguang nodded fiercely. Of course he knew the meaning of this sentence, which was that when a young man succeeds, he feels that he is as strong as a tiger with a pair of wings!
"Think about it, did you feel this way when you first wrote this novel?"

Fang Bai asked with a smile.

Li Guangguang recalled his passion when he first wrote this novel. At that time, he was really intoxicated. Every time he heard a good idea from Teacher Fang, he would combine it with his own novel and write the plot. It really made him want to stop...

Li Shiguang felt that he and himself who first wrote this novel seemed to have become two different people.

One is full of vitality, the other is sunset...

"I don't know why I became like this..."

Li Guangguang murmured.

Fang Bai took a sip of water to moisten his mouth, walked slowly to the window, looked at the students playing and playing outside, and couldn't help but sigh.

"Stop talking about you, I don't know why I became like this..."

Fang Bai said helplessly.

"what?"

Li Guangguang didn't understand what Teacher Fang said.

"Ah what? Only you are allowed to be decadent, but I am not allowed to be decadent?"

Fang Bai complained angrily.

Li Shiguang: "..."

Li Guangguang was speechless to his class teacher. Is it really okay for you to behave like this in front of your own students?
You are a national teacher!

Li Shiguang curled his lips: "Teacher, you are a national teacher. If you spread like this..."

"So what's the matter? You are still the most popular novel author at the moment! If word gets out that you are Bai Shiguang, do you think your readers will come to kill you?"

Fang Bai said indifferently.

Li Shiguang: "..."

Ginger is still old and spicy!
In terms of insidiousness, he, Li Guangguang, is still inferior to the enemy thieves...

No wonder others say it’s just the wrong name, not the wrong nickname. The dog thief is indeed a dog!

Why are you such a dog?
Li Shiguang was helpless and tried to change the topic: "Teacher, I'm looking for you because I want you to enlighten me..."

"I do not know!"

Fang Bai replied confidently.

Li Shiguang: "..."

Damn it, why is this bitch such a bitch?
"I'm depressed myself, and yet I'm trying to enlighten you!"

Fang Bai hummed softly.

"Why are you depressed?"

Li Guangguang asked.

"Then what do you want to enlighten me about?"

Fang Bai asked back.

"I don't think I'm suitable for writing novels anymore!" Li Shiguang replied without thinking.

But he didn't expect Fang Gouzie to imitate him and say this back to him: "I also feel that I am not suitable to be a teacher!"

Li Shiguang: "..."

Seeing Li Shiguang's helpless look, Fang Bai decided not to tease him anymore. He stretched, yawned, and waved his hands: "Actually, this is quite normal!"

"For example, when I first became a class teacher, I wanted to use all my educational ideas on my students!"

"I wish they could study every day. At that time, I taught junior high school, and my only idea at that time was to let them all go to high school!"

After listening to this, Li Guangguang nodded: "Then what?"

"Then my life hit me!"

Fang Bai shrugged.

"Uh……"

Li Guangguang didn't know how to answer the call.

"There are so many students in the class who are really dead pigs who are not afraid of boiling water. If you want to study abroad, you can study abroad. If you want to call your parents, you can call your parents. If you want to be beaten, you can beat them. Anyway, they just don't study!"

"If you guard them, they will pretend to be studying there very seriously. As soon as you turn around, they will let themselves go!"

Fang Bai continued.

Li Guangguang frowned: "Aren't they afraid of studying abroad?"

"They're so scared. They even think studying abroad is fun. They know you have to let them go back anyway!"

Fang Bai said with emotion that the first class of students he led really taught him a lesson, making him understand the gap between ideals and reality.

"and then?"

Li Guangguang felt that he couldn't understand it.

"Then I have absolutely nothing to do with these students. They even don't do homework, don't read, don't memorize..."

“Even in the third year of junior high school, I didn’t want to see these students!”

Fang Bai sighed.

"But...but...but..."

Li Guangguang was hesitant, but didn't know what to say.

But seeing the discomfort on the teacher's face, he also felt a little uncomfortable. Maybe it was a big blow to the other teacher at the time...

"What happened after that?"

Li Shiguang thought about it and decided to continue asking.

Maybe it would be better to talk about these things.

Fang Bai took a deep breath and his voice gradually became deeper: "Later, one day I got angry in class..."

"I remember, I was very angry. I looked at the students below and yelled!"

"I said your parents left you in my hands in the hope that you could go to high school!"

"Look at you now, how can I explain to your parents?"

When Fang Bai said this, he sighed, and his voice gradually became colder, as if he was talking about something that had nothing to do with him: "I was very angry with them, and many girls cried because of me..."

"So have they changed it?"

Li Guangguang asked.

Fang Bai smiled bitterly and shook his head.

"Hey this..."

Li Guangguang was speechless.

"Even during that period, I doubted myself every day and whether I was suitable to be a teacher. I even dared not face those students!"

"Seeing them sleeping in class, I really wanted to pull them out and tell them over and over again. I even wanted to watch them study every day!"

Fang Bai recounted his past, and when he finished speaking, he sighed again: "But what's the use?"

(End of this chapter)