man in tokyo, mock girlfriend

Chapter 19 19. Kawashima Sumino begins to regret

"Uryū...is it a surname or a given name? It should be a given name, right?"

"Name. I'm actually Chinese."

"China?!"

Kawashima Sumino's eyes widened slightly, a little surprised, but then he calmed down and said with a smile: "Then how should I call you, Uryū-kun? I don't know much about Chinese names."

"Just call me whatever you like, it's just a title, don't worry too much."

"Then call you Long? Long Jun? Long Er? Long Brother? Hey, which one do you like?"

"...Long'er."

Unexpectedly, Akizuki Yahiko chose a title that sounded like a child, because this title made him feel sad and nostalgic.

"Huh? Long'er? What a surprise!"

Sumino Kawashima subconsciously exclaimed, but immediately realized that he had lost his temper and quickly apologized: "Yes, I'm sorry, I didn't mean that the title was too childish, I was just surprised."

"It's okay." Akizuki Yahiko shook his head and smiled, "You are the third one to call me this name."

"Hmm... who are the first two?" Sumino Kawashima was a little jealous, with an angry expression on his face.

"My mother and my former fiancée are both dead."

Akizuki Yahiko said with a calm face, his tone was steady as if he was telling something about someone else.

"I'm sorry, I mentioned your sadness, I didn't mean to..."

"It's okay. It's been a long, long time. I'm relieved a long time ago."

"..."

After that, the two fell into a brief silence, and no one spoke again.

Akizuki Yahiko turned his body sideways, resting his head on his hands, staring at Sumino Kawashima who was lying next to him. His eyes were obscure and unreadable, like an eternal well, with no trace of emotional ups and downs.

Kawashima Sumino noticed his direct gaze and subconsciously lowered his head, burying his face into the pillow.

This move caused a slight fluctuation in Qiuyue Yahiko's deep eyes, but it was just a trace and it dissipated in an instant.

When he confessed to Kawashima Sumino, he was mentally prepared to be shunned by her.

This is also a matter of course, right?

What Kawashima Sumino likes is not a guy like him who seizes other people's bodies.

Moreover, he took advantage of her feelings for the original owner to satisfy his lust, and only confessed when the deal was already done.

Akizuki Yahiko would not have felt guilty about such a thing, but there was nothing he could do about it, Kawashima Sumino was too sincere and flawless.

It was this sincerity that awakened his conscience.

Just when Akizuki Yahiko was mentally prepared that Kawashima Sumino would ask to leave at any time, Kawashima Sumino made a move that surprised him.

She moved her body and lay in Qiuyue Yahiko's arms, resting her little head on his thick chest and said softly:
"Long'er, you are a gentle person. I don't blame you for killing the Yahiko-kun I know, and I won't hate you... Obviously I should blame you and hate you, but the matter has come to this, and I blame you for hating you. You, Yahiko-kun, will not come back, and we will say goodbye tomorrow."

Since they are going to say goodbye tomorrow, let's not quarrel until then, right?To avoid leaving regrets and deepening the grief.

Kawashima Sumino's thoughts have always been very simple. She was just thinking about not embarrassing Ryuuji.

"sorry."

At this moment, all Akizuki Yahiko could say was to apologize.

"Don't apologize, I really don't blame Long'er!"

"Ah."

"Long'er, what kind of person were you before? Can you tell me about it? I want to know more about it." "My past...if I tell you about it, it will definitely make you feel sick, scared and disgusted."

"How is that possible! Long'er is so gentle, he must have been a very good person in the past, making everyone around him happy!"

Kawashima Sumino didn't know that her encouragement sounded so ironic to Akizuki Yahiko's ears, hurting his heart.

"Sumi, my past is contrary to what you said, because my birth was not blessed by anyone. I only brought misfortune..."

Akizuki Yahiko spoke hoarsely, with an extremely suppressed embarrassment in his tone.

Afterwards, he told Sumino Kawashima a story called Uryū, from birth to death.

They lay on the bed and talked for a long time. When they came to their senses, it was already dawn. Kawashima Sumino didn't know when she got up, so she snuggled into his arms and fell asleep.

There were still a few drops of undried tears in the corners of her eyes, and her eyes were red and swollen. It was obvious that she had been crying for a long time.

But even when she fell asleep, her face was still covered with lingering sadness and pity.

"...Good night, Sumino."

Akizuki Yahiko looked softly at the petite figure in his arms, gently stroked her head, and then closed his eyes and fell asleep.

How long ago did it take for me to open up my heart and tell others about the past like today, and talk about my past ugliness and kindness and integrity?
Can not remember.

He only remembered that the man also called him Long'er, and that he also killed that man with his own hands.

……

The next morning.

When Kawashima Sumino opened her eyes, an unfamiliar pure white ceiling came into view. At this time, she had not noticed anything unusual.

Until she sat up from the bed, rubbed her eyes, and felt a stinging pain. When her consciousness suddenly woke up, she subconsciously looked to her side.

There, Qiuyue Yahiko was no longer visible, and not even a faint lingering warmth remained. It was conceivable that he had already left.

"Dragon..."

Sumino Kawashima fell into a panic instantly, she hurriedly turned over and got out of bed, and wanted to leave the bedroom before she had time to put on her clothes, looking for Yahiko Akizuki.

But when she just took a step forward, a tearing pain came from her lower body, causing her to stagger and fall to the ground with a thud!
"Oh, Long'er..."

At that moment, the sadness of grievance suddenly filled her heart, and tears appeared in her red and swollen eyes again.

She who was not supposed to hate Yahiko Akizuki, but at this moment she hated him - hated him for suddenly disappearing from her side without even saying goodbye.

This made her feel as if everything was a dream.

She also hopes that all this is a dream, so that Akizuki Yahiko still exists in this world, and she can meet him as long as she goes to school.

No matter whether the Akizuki Yahiko she sees is Ryuuji, or the Yahiko-kun she knows, as long as she can see him, that's fine.

For her, these two people are independent and special existences, living clearly in her heart and having equal importance.

"Long'er, where are you! Why did you leave me! Didn't you agree that you want me to stay with you all the time?"

"Ugh...bastard, why did you take Yahiko-kun away from me and you also disappeared from me!"

"I really want to see you again, I don't want you to leave, I want you to stay with me all the time!"

"...Even if you have to leave, at least say goodbye to me. Don't just disappear without a trace suddenly, you bastard."

The words that had been accumulated in my heart and could not be expressed were all vented when the psychological defense broke.

Kawashima Sumino began to regret why he didn't act coquettishly with Akizuki Yahiko last night and asked him not to do the so-called task, and just stayed with her.

(End of this chapter)