After being reborn, I found out that my deskmate was secretly in love with me

Chapter 192 Some things may have been lost

Lu Ming walked over, patted her head, and said loudly, "Just as long as you like it."

"Suddenly, I feel like I'm not so pitiful anymore." Tao Xinyi closed her eyes, holding the flower in her right hand and the side of Lu Ming's face in her left hand. She stood on tiptoes and kissed Lu Ming's chin, vaguely reaching the corner of her mouth.

Lu Ming looked down at the tears in her eyes, wrapped his arms around her waist, wanted to hold her tighter but was pushed away by her.

Although Xin Yi only pushed lightly, Lu Ming still let go slowly and honestly.

Tao Xinyi looked distressed at the sunflower petals bent by Lu Ming: "Don't crush the flowers."

She gently stroked the petals of the sunflower, her fingertips vaguely stained with some invisible pollen, and said in a dumb voice: "Since I was a child, I have never suffered physical pain, only mental pain."

As she spoke, she lowered her head and kissed the sunflower petals bent by Lu Ming, and said:
"I'm actually very lucky. I have less self-pity. I don't have to worry about food and clothing, and I live in a much wealthier environment than my peers. I'm also relatively healthy. Because I don't exercise, I often catch colds, and I got gastritis several times because I ate too much bread in junior high school. And …I’m pretty, so I don’t have to worry about my appearance.

I'm a little smart, so I won't be too tired from studying... But, I'm actually very lucky. "

But Tao Xinyi kept crying silently while talking about luck, her hand holding the flower was still trembling, trying to control her calm tone and continued:

"So much luck, the only thing I lost is my home! I really want to get my original home back, but time has passed too long... My dad and mom have changed, and so have I.

Once something is lost, it will never come back. "

Words can really turn into a blade and penetrate into a person's heart, and the knife that penetrated Tao Xinyi pierced into Lu Ming's heart again. He stretched his brows and said in a calm tone: "The future will be better. This is also your home, or your secret. base."

Tao Xinyi wiped away the tears on her face, and hummed softly:
"You will say nice words to make me happy. The most uncomfortable thing is the constant interruption... It turns out that I always thought that my original home would come back, but now I no longer dream foolishly. They all have new homes, and I I also have a new home!”

After saying this, Tao Xinyi began to cough continuously, as if she was so stupid that she choked on her own saliva, she sat on the dining table with sore feet, and the hand holding her arm was shaking constantly.

After a while, sadness overflowed, and she carefully sniffed the fragrance of sunflowers, unable to keep the crying in her throat.

Listening to Xinyi's cry, Lu Ming saw the heart-piercing sadness for the first time in his life, indirectly tasted the despair of years of hard work, and said softly: "Cry out when you feel sad, don't bear it."

"Bring me wrapping paper! I want paper!"

Tao Xinyi raised her head, clenched her fists, and said, "You know the tears are flowing. Hurry up, hurry up, I can't hold on any longer!"

Lu Ming took out a packet of paper from his schoolbag and handed it to Xin Yi.

Tao Xinyi hurriedly turned her back to wipe her nose with paper, then turned around to straighten her messy hair, and untied the rubber band, but accidentally broke the light blue rubber band that Lu Ming gave her.

She looked at the rubber band's "corpse" in disbelief, her red lips were pouting slightly, and her long black hair was loose, looking like a sad charm.

Seeing that Xinyi stopped crying, Lu Ming relaxed a little, brought a cup of hot water to her mouth, and said, "Drink hot water, heal all diseases."

Tao Xinyi took a sip of the hot water, and murmured in a nasal voice: "Are you telling a bad joke? But, but..." She lowered her eyes, tears rolled down, and cried softly: "But I broke the rubber band you gave me."

"I'm so sad, really sad. The rubber band is broken."

Then, she put the bouquet next to her, put her hands around Lu Ming's neck, and put her face against Lu Ming's school uniform shirt. Tears burst into her eyes, and she cried like a child crying for toys, repeating from time to time. He said, "The rubber band is broken, I'm so sad."

Lu Ming patted her on the back and said softly, "It's okay, just buy a new one if it breaks, just buy a new one."

After crying for about half an hour, Tao Xinyi's eyes were swollen from crying, and her throat was so hoarse that she could not speak. Seeing that Lu Ming's clothes were wet, she wiped them with her hands dully and said:
"You are the first person who is willing to take me to escape. It turns out that when I was in the first grade of junior high school, I told Lin Xuan that she used to live in her house. Lin Xuan advised me not to run away. After all, it is my parents, so I don't want to be with my parents. Fuck it... She told me to talk to my mom. I told my grandma too, and she asked me to talk to my mom too.

As for other direct blood relatives, it's the same... I've worked hard, really hard.However, after they knew about it, they advised me to go back and use rational thinking and work harder... What she wants is surrender. "

Lu Ming wiped away her remaining tears with his hands, and said, "I believe you have confirmed that other methods will not work before you decide to come out and live."

Tao Xinyi nodded heavily, held Lu Ming's face, and said in a hoarse voice: "I am not alone when you are here. I don't want to cry anymore. I want to understand that I am a person, not a doll of my parents."

"Just think about it, and call me if you need something."

Lu Ming quietly glanced at his watch, it was almost 11 o'clock now.Fortunately, before he set off, he told his mother that he would go to an Internet cafe with his friends to play games, and he might stay up all night or come home late.

Meng Ruohua didn't object when he heard that his son was going to play games in an Internet cafe.

My son scored more than 650 points in the monthly exam last time, so he should go to the Internet cafe to play games and relax for a while.She never expected her son to be admitted to Peking University. He could get more than 650 points in the test, and he might get a good 589, which is already very good.

Even if you regress, it won't be a problem to get 112.

As expected, Tao Xinyi recovered, held Lu Ming's hand, and said: "This is my first time running away from home. Can you stay with me? I want you to stay with me. I'm going into the room later." Call my mom back and don’t come in. I don’t want you to hear my mom scold me.”

"Okay. Call me if you need something."

Afterwards, Tao Xinyi entered the room with the bouquet of flowers in her arms, turned on her switched off mobile phone, saw more than a dozen missed calls from her mother, and mustered up the courage to dial the number.

After answering the phone, she heard her mother's sharp roar.

"Where have you been? Are you still going home? Do you know how worried I am! I almost want to call your teacher Wang! How long will it take for you to get home..."

Tao Xinyi patiently listened to her mother's yelling and then plucked up the courage to say, "Mom, I'm staying at a classmate's house these days. I hope you can respect my personality and don't keep staring at me. Don't spy on me, okay?"

"I'm doing it for your own good. How can it be considered surveillance? Do you have a conscience?"

Tao Xinyi pretended to be calm and said: "Mom, the college entrance examination is coming soon. I am under a lot of pressure studying at home. It will be easier to live outside. You don't have to worry about my safety. I will go to school every day. I will give you three meals a day. Filmed in the past, with the evening news every day. Record a video and send it to you.

I can't sleep at home, I'm so nervous. "

"You mean, I gave you the pressure! Where are you..."

Before Lu Meiqing finished asking, Tao Xinyi hung up the phone in a hurry, took out the test paper and began to write the questions, somewhat looking forward to tomorrow's arrival, but also afraid of tomorrow's arrival.

　Tao Xinyi's inner monologue:
　　If I stay at home, who cares about me?
　　No one cares about me. Normally, I am a dispensable person.I calculated that I would say about twenty sentences to my mother in a week.

　　Every sentence in it is about learning.

　　So who am I... As for my father, he and I may not speak a word for months.Why do I still have to endure it?Some things have been lost long ago and will never come back.I don’t want to soak in stagnant water!

　　
　
(End of this chapter)