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Chapter 129 I long for someone to love me violently until death

Li Banxia returned to the bedroom in a daze.

The fat ball ran in, raised his head and stuck out his tongue at her. He was greedy at first sight.

Li Banxia slowly regained consciousness, stood up and said, "I'll go to the kitchen to get you something to eat."

Fat Ball followed behind her, wagging his tail.

Going downstairs, Li Banxia opened the refrigerator. There was some chicken and beef left at noon. She took it out and put it in the microwave to heat it up a little.

Mu Weiliang heard the sound and came over, "What are you doing?"

"Find something to eat for Fat Ball." Li Banxia took out a bottle of yogurt from the cabinet, poured it into the snack bowl dedicated to Fat Ball, and asked casually: "Is Yu Yang gone?"

"gone."

There was a "ding" sound from the microwave oven, and the food was already hot.

Li Banxia was about to take it out, but Mu Weiliang stopped him, "I'll do it, don't get burned."

But she avoided his hand and raised her eyes to look at him, "You don't have to stay with me all the time. You can go to work."

Mu Weiliang's lips curled up slightly, and she took an insulated glove from the shelf and handed it to her, "I like to accompany you."

The more he behaved like this, the guiltier Li Banxia felt. He lost control of his emotions in an instant and blurted out: "I told you I don't want your company!"

Mu Weiliang's movements were stagnant. He didn't know why she reacted so suddenly. He subconsciously reflected in his mind whether he had done something wrong to make her angry.

The air froze for a moment.

"boom--"

The plate in Li Banxia's hand was not stable, it hit the ground and fell into pieces, and the chicken was scattered all over the floor.

It was as if the strength she had managed to disguise had completely collapsed.

Fat Ball was also frightened by the movement and stopped drinking yogurt.

Li Banxia suppressed her panicked eyes and looked away from him, fearing to see hurt and disappointment in his eyes.

She knelt down and picked up the broken porcelain pieces on the floor.

Mu Weiliang took a long step forward, walked up to her and held her hand. His voice was as usual: "Don't touch it, it will hurt your hand. I'll clean it."

Li Banxia's nose became sore, tears burst out of her eyes, her eyes shone with tears, and her voice was filled with tears, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I can't control myself..."

Mu Weiliang felt suffocated by the pain in her chest. He hurriedly wiped the tears on her face with his fingertips and coaxed, "No need to be sorry. I know you didn't mean it. It doesn't matter. You can just say it and vent it out if you're unhappy."

Li Banxia looked at him helplessly and murmured in a low voice: "But I will hurt you..."

She turned into what she hated most, with unstable moods, losing her temper, and negative emotions all over her body. She was mentally exhausted every day.

He is very good, but she has been causing him trouble and becoming a burden to him.

Mu Weiliang hugged her and comforted her softly: "You won't hurt me. I'm not that fragile. Don't think so much, okay?"

Li Banxia didn't know what to do. The person she least wanted to hurt was him.

Mu Weiliang has read a lot of books about depression during this time. He knows that patients with depression often have negative emotions such as sadness, boredom, dissatisfaction, and denial. All he can do is be more understanding and patient.

He thought that she might need a little space of her own and let her do something else to divert her attention.
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In the evening, Li Banxia suddenly discovered that the Wanxiang brocade on the coffee table was shriveled, the leaves and rhizomes had lost their vitality, and the color was withered and yellow.

I have been growing this succulent for more than half a year and it has been growing very well. I don’t know why it suddenly became like this.

Mu Weiliang was afraid that she would be sad, so she quickly said: "It's okay. I'll ask Yu Yang to send it to a maintenance expert tomorrow to see if it will grow back again."

Li Banxia said "hmm" in a depressed mood, so she didn't even take a few bites of dinner.

Mu Weiliang heated up a glass of milk for her to drink.

She only drank a third of it, "I want to read a book for a while."

Mu Weiliang said yes, "There are a lot of books in the study. See if you like any of them, or what you want to read. I'll ask someone to buy them tomorrow."

Li Banxia shook his head, "No, I just look around to pass the time."

Mu Weiliang did not accompany her and let her stay alone for a while. He only occasionally glanced at the door for peace of mind.

She was sitting on the ground, leaning against the built-in bookcase behind her, with the book on her bent knees, her head lowered, and the soft light dimmed half of her face, as if covered with a veil, quiet and peaceful.

There is an illusion that the years are quiet.

At nine o'clock, Mu Weiliang went to the study door again and found that she was already asleep.

He walked in quietly.

There was a soft wool blanket on the floor, and the footsteps were so soft that they were almost inaudible.

There is a book on Li Banxia's lap - "Oranges are not the only fruit"

Mu Weiliang remembered that her WeChat signature was this sentence.

It seems that he likes this book, but he doesn't know why.

Gently taking the book away from her hand, he happened to see the page she had opened.Mu Weiliang browsed through ten lines at a glance, and finally fixed his eyes on a certain line:
"I long for someone to love me fiercely until death."

After being stunned for a long time, he closed the book and put it next to him, then carried Li Banxia back to the bedroom.

Even though the movements were gentle, she woke up.

Mu Weiliang raised her feet and pushed open the door, "I will carry you to bed."

Li Banxia rubbed his eyes and said vaguely: "Please put me down, I haven't brushed my teeth and washed my face."

"it is good."

Mu Weiliang washed up with her before going to bed.

The crystal chandelier above the head was turned off, leaving only the warm-colored sleep lamp beside the bed. The soft halo of light spread over the bedside, adding a bit of warmth and warmth.

Mu Weiliang placed a kiss on her forehead, "I love you, good night."

Li Banxia's heart trembled slightly, as if a trickling warm current was flowing through her.

She whispered back "Good night."
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the next day.

Yu Yang came over and sent the pot of Wanxiang Brocade away.

Li Banxia was a little disappointed. The leaves were all withered and yellow, and she didn't know if they could be saved.

Mu Weiliang comforted her, "Wanxiang Brocade is inherently more difficult to raise than ordinary succulents. We will choose the ones that will last well in the future."

Li Banxia nodded.

But she probably won't want to raise it anymore.

In the afternoon, she received a call from her landlord, reminding her that the lease of the apartment was coming soon and asking her if she wanted to renew the lease. Li Banxia refused.

I don't know if Qiao Hui can still live there. She wants to go back and pack her things.

Mu Weiliang just heard her answer the phone and knew what she was thinking, "Shall I go back with you?"

"Ah."

Li Banxia didn't want to have anything to do with Qiao Hui anymore. This trip would have to leave sooner or later, so it was better to resolve it as soon as possible.

Returned to the apartment in Four Seasons Garden an hour later.

She still couldn't face it calmly, and she felt uneasy on the way here.

"It's okay, I'm here." Mu Weiliang held her hand and wrapped it in his generous palm, conveying a sense of security.

Li Banxia felt a little relieved.

Fortunately, no one is home.

Judging from the furnishings in the house, there are signs of habitation, Qiao Hui should still live here.

Li Banxia didn't waste any time, returned to the bedroom and started packing her things.

Mu Weiliang helped her.

She doesn't have many things, so the two of them can pack them together faster.

It was almost finished in half an hour.

Li Banxia looked around the empty bedroom, and finally his eyes rested on the doll on the bed.

She walked over, took it in her hand and looked at it.

It has been more than ten years, and the clothes on the doll are worn out and turned white by washing.

Li Yue's harsh voice sounded in my ears again: "To tell you the truth, I gave you the most precious doll you had when you were a child, because I didn't want it anymore!"

She once naively thought that Qiao Hui still cared about her a little bit and would at least prepare a birthday gift for her.

In the end it was all her imagination.

"what happened?"

Mu Weiliang's voice brought her thoughts back.

In the next second, she threw the doll she had collected for more than ten years into the trash can without hesitation, "Let's go."

Mu Weiliang didn't bother, held her hand and walked out.

Unexpectedly, Qiao Hui came back as soon as she reached the door and bumped into her.

As soon as she saw Li Banxia, ​​she rushed forward excitedly, her ugly face clearly revealed, and her expression became ferocious, "Li Banxia! You dare to come back! Did you deliberately prevent those lawyers from defending Yueyue? Is it you! "

Mu Weiliang pulled Li Banxia behind him with quick eyes and hands, and easily restrained Qiao Hui with his other hand. His eyes were sinister, "It's not her, it's me. This is the price you pay for hurting her, and it's not enough."

　"I long for someone to love me fiercely until death." - Janet Winterson, "Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit"

　　
　
(End of this chapter)