Chapter 61

"Not getting what you want" is one of the eight sufferings in Buddhism. The most painful thing in life is not getting what you want.

When Heart plays professionally, he also wonders why he can't beat the opponent, why each opponent is stronger than the last, and why he chooses the wrong target and puts the wrong skills in that wave.

Why hesitate, hesitate, why are you too impulsive.

Every time I get a not-so-good result, I always have similar questions in my heart.

At a low point in his career, he read a comic.

The heroine in it is very pessimistic, because a lot of things happened at home when she was a child, and her life was relatively unfortunate, so one time she saw the hero talking and laughing with other girls, and the whole person collapsed...

He forgot the general plot.

But I still remember a sentence: I am too afraid of the future, so I am so pessimistic.

Just like in Alchemist, at the beginning of the journey, Edward fell into deep self-blame because he failed to save Nina.

In the sad rain, his expression was distorted, and he roared hoarsely, saying that he was just a human being.He is an insignificant human being who can't even save a little girl.

But at the end of the trip, he opened the door to negotiate with "Truth" and said something similar.Said he was a mortal from the beginning, a small mortal.

Only this time, there was only relief on Edward's face, no more entanglement.

Compared with the vast and boundless starry sky, people are really small. Sometimes, people need to tolerate their own weakness.

Heart still remembers the day he announced his retirement, and several teammates including the coach were also surprised.

People like them seem to have no other goals besides their career, so they are surprised.

And what prompted him to make this decision was not a whim.He just recognized the status quo and chose to reconcile with himself.

But after the transformation, Heart felt sincerely relaxed——

In fact, there will still be pressure, but the source of pressure is different.

You don't need to train every day, you don't need to experience the helplessness of being shown, and you don't need to worry about what your teammates will think if you don't perform well.

He still stays in the e-sports circle, but not the road full of flowers and thorns.

Why do you play professionally?
love?

maybe.

In fact, I just didn't know what to do, and I just happened to be paid professionally, and I was happier playing games, so I became a professional gamer.

Talking about career only, he was a failure.

Compared with the established goal, what he wants and seeks is not so satisfactory.I have shouted the championship slogan and used winning the championship as motivation.

As a result, he jumped out of the car and ran away because of fear of the future.

Is this also called persistence?Also called a dream?

But this is life.

The so-called escape is probably like this, right?

The wind, rain and dew of the past, the pure beauty flashes like a movie.

You start to want to give up, something is just around the corner in your heart.

It wasn't until I made that decision that I regained my peace of mind.

……

A mobile phone suddenly appeared in front of Qin Hao's eyes.

It read: Why don't you sleep?

Qin Hao looked back at the coach, smiled embarrassedly, and started typing: "I'm playing a vampire with a violent build... I found that this hero is quite suitable for threatening the back row.

There is no need to consider so much survival space. The damage can be poured out before death, and teammates can also harvest it.The wave that this hero brings with Flash is a bit rogue, and may only be restrained by weakness.

Also, if the laning is not so difficult, the talent point Storm Knight is also very useful. When R connects to EW, acceleration will be triggered. With sprinting, it is difficult for the opponent to stand up, because the blood pool and E are decelerated. Out of a certain range, you can also play the second set. "

His pupils were bloodshot.

Seriously discuss the feeling of vampire spell power build.

Heart suddenly felt absurd.Some at a loss.

The more Qin Hao said this, the more he felt that his work was not done well.

Also.

Is this self-punishment?

Are there really that many dissatisfactions?
Three weeks ago, if anyone had told him that they could enter the playoffs with the goal of finishing in the top four, Heart would have thought it was a mockery.

Because after losing to WE and IM, the team's run-in speed was much slower than that of the opponent. What he wanted was to steadily eat the next few teams that were not very strong, and compete for the old seven and the old eight.

That way there is still a chance to fight.

I am afraid that I will not be able to make it to the playoffs, and the goal of the season is fixed on relegation.

So MaRin said him, and he never talked back.

From the spring split to the summer split, their running-in has been average. As a coach, he can't find a distribution model that allows the players to play comfortably.Try a little here and a little there every time.

Even let Godv play Lulu and Karma, although the effect is very poor.

It can be said that whether it is to keep the bottom half of the game or let MaRin play the sideband, he has tried it all, but sometimes there is always a gap between the ideal and the reality.

The selection of some heroes has already determined half of the outcome.

So Qin Hao's arrival surprised Heart.

Because Qin Hao has a good sense of support and can share the command. Moreover, when playing support heroes, the midfielder has a better rhythm and can take advantage of the side attack.

If you play Jayce, Clockwork, and Victor (you have practiced in the training game), you have to be careful to be targeted in the top and bottom lanes, otherwise it is easy to fester in the early and mid-term, and it will become the kind of game that drags development when Godv is still there in the spring split.

At this time, if the opponent gives a chance, they can still fight.If the opponent plays more rigorously, there is no way.

Because that’s what the game looks like.

PawN Vampire lost 21 knives in the lane and lost his head. He is not in a hurry, because the bottom lane has an advantage, and LGD needs to spend energy to deal with it.

Eimy caught the effect around the midline, but they were in a hurry because the bottom lane suffered more and Kalista and Spider would play strong.

Heart feels that losing EDG is not a matter of practicing vampires or not.

But all along, the game they win needs to not be bad in the early and mid-term, and needs to have a mid-line rhythm.Even the early and mid-term can't be bad, which is lower than some teams' acceptance.

Like SKT, they had several rounds in which they were behind 15K in the first 3 minutes and were able to come back.

They just can't.

Eimy's current gank rate in the first 10 minutes probably ranks last among all junglers. His focus is on brushing the jungle, doing wards, and forming a group to start a group.

In this way, he can play comfortably.

The corresponding premise is that online teammates cannot get that much help.

IMP is the team's biggest output, but bot lane laning is never a matter of one person. Sometimes a weak combination can't beat a strong combination, and the opposite jungler will come to catch it.

Including the three-level TP overpowering routine designed by them in the training game, it also depends on laning to win the round.

It's not just a few more heroes.

It took 2 weeks to develop Jace is fast enough, and then, spend another [-] weeks to develop Vampire?
Winning with RNG does not mean winning in the hero pool, and losing with EDG does not mean losing in the hero pool.

This is not the most critical question.

The most critical point is that the coordination ideas are limited to a level that is relatively easy to use and cannot impose too much pressure.

When doing push operations, you can only put the line on one side and put pressure around the middle, otherwise it will be easy to give opportunities.Because the longer the front line is drawn, the more complicated the action is, and the more things need to be considered.

So they are very similar to IM in the mid-term.And IM is also recognized as being very slow to finish the game.

Because hard power is not enough, I took advantage of it and gave up doing radical things.

I will hug.

I will actively press the middle, invade and force the group, and will not play fancy things with you.Just like passers-by, every time you do something with only one goal, it is definitely better than being greedy.

Instead of fighting Dalong, this one goes to eat the wave on the line, and eats a wild monster along the way, and that one needs to eat the wave's middle line, which is really short of money.

After everyone assembled, 2 minutes passed.When pressed into the high ground, the dragon buff is gone.

Obviously it's a matter of team selection and team fit.

No need to stress yourself too much.

"Go to sleep. Listen to me, our goal is to make the playoffs. This is not difficult to achieve."

Heart typed.

"Ah."

"I just didn't feel like falling asleep very much when I was practicing, and then I kind of lost track of time."

Qin Hao added: "I know my body myself."

Heart put his hand on Qin Hao's shoulder, feeling that he didn't know.

Teenagers are always high-spirited, which is not a good thing.

The media likes to publicize Faker's amazing debut. No one will say that the SKT team was almost blocked by NJS in front of the final stage, or was blocked by a barrel for 2 rounds, and they had to be banned.

S4 is more ambitious. From the media to the fans and themselves, everyone feels that they can defend the championship. As a result, the accumulation of small disappointments in the regular season can destroy this team.After it was confirmed that he would not enter the World Championship, champion support Fumanduo left.

The reason why Heart knows it is that everyone in the Korean e-sports circle basically knows it.

It's no secret.

Some things just do.

The mentality does not match the actual performance, the gap is too big, the mentality is unbalanced, and the operation also declines.

So, if you hold it too high, it will hurt if you fall it.

It's just that S5's victory again erased all this, and fans actively forgot that there was still a period of special struggle.

Heart is now also afraid that Qin Haoding's goal is too high, so high that their team can't achieve it, and their mentality will become unbalanced in the end.

Some things cannot be done just by thinking about them.

He likes to start making plans with small goals and slowly move up the ladder.Just because of this, it won't hurt especially if you fall.

"I hope you know what I mean."

The coach's eyes seemed to see through Qin Hao's psychological defense.

In the tweeted post on Weibo, someone was right, he was nothing.

The reason is to practice.

This is done, he doesn't have to be distracted to think about other things.

All hope and courage are empty in the training room late at night, only the touch of the keyboard is real.

They said that if they change their mid laner, they may not even be able to enter the World Championship, which is ridiculous.

They said that for the good of the team, they should take the initiative to abdicate and ask Godv to come out, otherwise they are too selfish and unwilling to give up the starting lineup.

It turns out that the first launch is really so important...

The wind and snow lingering in my ears whispered repeatedly.

Those words were clear, revealing the devil's malice, but they were irrefutable truths.

If you lose, everything you say is wrong.

Maybe it's like what those people said, it would be better for everyone if he gets out.

It's just that outside of these voices, there are still people who will encourage and support.

This small group of people is hostile to the mainstream, and they take the trouble to explain it over and over again.That's why it wasn't all washed away, and Qin Hao clicked on Weibo to see it.

Very strange.

He just thought about the strange reasoning and practiced all night.

In this training room where he was alone, he suddenly returned to the self who had stayed in the water dungeon to train heroes a few months ago.

He didn't practice fast.

But hard work does pay off.

Compared with himself a few months ago, he should be satisfied, but compared with those champion mid laners, he cannot be satisfied.

In a sense, hard work and self-discipline are your best friends forever, because they never abandon you, so there are more and more people in the world who are shouting to lie down, but are actually introverted.

Everyone can easily become a duplicity.

At this point, the coach was concerned about him and asked him why he didn't go to sleep.

Qin Hao discovered that it is very important for him to keep training.This is his safe haven.

As for why, not so much why.

Because he won't feel uncomfortable doing this.

It's strange to think about it. He is so looking forward to a future where he can "own the world", but in his heart he is afraid of losing his humble self.

"I know." Qin Hao typed.

Heart looked at Qin Hao's eyes, changing from hesitant and evasive to firm.

He was puzzled, he didn't know what Qin Hao "knew".

But that’s okay, it’s better to have a more positive idea than not saying anything at all.

"I'm going to bed."

Type another line.

Qin Hao said hello with a smile and stretched out of the training room.

Another sunny day.

The Sun Also Rises.

……

Song Ming and EDG fought extremely chaotically for a long time, but they were finally outnumbered.

From the Weibo homepage to Kangba, to Chaohua, we have lost in every battlefield.

EDG fans can even admit that the Penicillin card is very strong, because in this BO3, they are the winners, and the winners will give good words to prove the strength of EDG.

When he woke up the next day, his thoughts were not going his way. Song Ming was about to continue to ridicule the idiots. He opened the LOL box to check the record and saw more than 2 pages of vampires.

Whether you win or lose, the only constant is the hero.

Judging from the time, the call started at 10:10 p.m. and lasted until [-]:[-] a.m. the next day.This is the usual doubled amount of rank.

The reason why Song Ming knows so clearly is that Penicillin used to post his results on the news. After joining LGD, he stopped posting so much, so he was used to searching by himself.

Just look at these achievements.

He even knew what Penicillin had done.

and also.

Do you feel guilty for practicing like this crazy?
But except for the first one, which is a pity, the third one was firstly caused by problems in the field, and secondly, by the rush on the road, giving away big waves.

The vampire is the factor that speeds up the end, not the point where the rhythm begins.

After a long while, Song Ming regained his composure and thought: Actually, there is not much I can do.

He silently counted statistics, took screenshots, switched to the anti-bar trumpet, and said: Surprise! Penicillin’s training volume in the past month was actually...

Come up with a good title.

Click to enter the most eye-catching place, and it is accompanied by a picture of last night's record.

Then he switches to the trumpet and comments at the end, attracting those who have had fierce confrontations with him.

Just as Song Ming thought, most people saw the title and thought it was Qingsuan. After entering with such an attitude, what they saw was a player who played 340 rankings in a month.

This is still during the schedule.

A little comparison of the ranks of other players shows that, excluding the training match and some miscellaneous time, Hou Ye, who was called hardworking last time, played 5 ranks from mid-May to mid-June.

And this is more than many players with around 150 games.

Everything can deceive, but not the investment of time.

"He is so diligent, why doesn't he play heroes like Victor and Clockwork?"

"Can hard work cover up the fact of the dish? At best, he has a good attitude and doesn't wash it."

"I don't know, I thought LGD's record was very poor. I think the summer split is only three weeks away from the end, and LGD has only lost four games. It will definitely not be the seventh and eighth. It still has a chance to compete with WE for the top four and get a favorable seat. "

"The Marquis doesn't play with clockwork much either. Is he a loser?"

"Good guy, I trained as a vampire all night, but the record is a bit ugly."

"When did you become so harsh on the rookies? Those Korean players didn't play very well with higher wages."

"IMP is an AD, why does he have four eyes? AD needs to develop, and it would be nice to stand up and turn the tide."

"The problem is that Easyhoon can't take it, but everyone will only say that he is a pity and that he works hard. When he comes to Penicillin, it is always ridiculed. I think he is better than Xiye in the first year. It is not that he is fierce in lane, but that he Played very stable."

"Ren Xiye is a talented mid laner, and Penicillin's dutiful son is here again, right? Is your father's ID on the solo kill list?"

"There is no name Penicillin on the solo kill list. Does Xi Xiaozi only have solo kills in his eyes, and being solo kills doesn't count?"

"Oh, the number of solo kills Rookie is also ranked in the middle."

"If you want to operate, you will take risks. Don't you understand this?"

A bunch of people making noise.

The post was refined and became popular.

In the eyes of those who appreciate Penicillin, this is called stability, and those who do not appreciate it are called cowardly.

In the eyes of those who appreciate Xiye, this is called genius and show, but if you don’t appreciate it, it’s called a genius. As long as you have the advantages and few mistakes, your WE results will be two levels better.

Those who appreciate Lord Hou say that he works hard, the only normal person in VG, and those who don't appreciate that his championship came from nothing, and the middle lane has no deterrent power. Typical parallel imports: high value, low ability.

When someone talked about Penicillin's rookie contract, a bunch of people started arguing about "Does it mean he should be c if he gets more money?"

Veterans of the anti-bar actually know a small thing, that is, Uzi temporarily changed heroes, which caused Insec to play Lucian in the jungle. The reason was that Insec's salary was higher than Uzi's, and Uzi felt that he was cheated by the club.

He always thought that he was the one with the highest annual salary in the team, but he didn't expect the club to hide it from him, so his mentality was a little bit fried.

There is a saying in the sports circle that high salary is low ability. It can be seen that the salary does not match the strength, and the masses have many opinions.

The night was dark.

The EDG club is at the busiest time of the day again.

Hurry up and play against KT before the training match.

Meiko came across this post, chatted with Ming Kai in his spare time, and said, "I only played more than 200 rounds last month, so he might not be staying up late every day."

Ming Kai felt strange when he saw the quarrel below.

LGD's strange division of labor has almost become a mid-lane focus on the rhythm of the jungler. Unlike other teams, the jungler focuses on the rhythm of the single-lane and takes care of the side.

What was said in the second game was not angry words.

He felt that Eimy didn't have a lot of rhythm, and LGD was under a lot of pressure online, so there was no reason to lose.

I stepped on the horse to help people break through again and again. If we can't win, it must be our own problem.

If LGD is really playing well, why is there so much pressure online?The middle lane is so forced that they dare not hand over the teleportation line easily.

Ming Kai shook his head silently.

I feel that Penicillin's pressure from public opinion is approaching his predecessor.The results have not been achieved first, and the public opinion has already arrived.

Another thought.

This may be the case if you post too frequently on Weibo. If you get a lot of attention, there will always be people who don't like you and think you like to show off.

It's like making a promotional video and talking trash. It's not his whole intention, but it will become a criminal evidence.Who made him the protagonist of the promotional film?

this moment.

Ming Kai felt a little sympathetic to this little brother. After a few weeks of debut, he was able to secure a high pick in the playoffs. This starting point was higher than many others.

If you can keep working so hard, your future achievements will not be low.

"Resistance is all about venting your emotions."

Ming Kai said casually, but in his heart he wanted to get to know Penicillin.

Working hard like this suits his appetite.

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