Harmonious home

Chapter 32 Stop on the verge of cheating

This winter, the weather in Guangdong seems to be colder than in previous years. I am lonely and rent a room alone, watching people from all directions pulling their luggage and preparing to go home for the New Year, but I feel ashamed and walk alone. Falling into a life-or-death choice by the river.why?A boy in our workshop who is 11 years younger than me fell in love with me, and I also fell in love with him in his communication.It seems that there is a feeling of meeting each other late. He told me frankly that he had an unhappy family. His father smoked alcohol and beat his mother all the year round. I frankly told him that I have two children. He said he didn’t care, as long as two people love each other not a problem.But I can't bear to hurt him, I feel that there is too much age difference between me and him, he said that age is not the distance, don't you see that the combination of Yang Guo and Xiaolongnv is very good?That’s how I started to be tempted. He invited me out for supper from time to time. I was afraid that I would not be able to control myself to do something out of line, so I deliberately refused. The factory has very strict control and computer monitoring throughout the process. Boys are not allowed to go to the girls' dormitory, and girls are not allowed to go to the boys' dormitory, so he failed to succeed several times.In this way, I fell into the torment that life would be worse than death. I clearly knew that I fell in love with him to the point of being irreplaceable, but I kept thinking that I was not good enough, not yet divorced, and there were two lovely children at home , Their shadows are shaking in my heart all the time, I am afraid that because of my cheating, my child will not be able to lift up, and others will point and say that his mother is not a good thing, and he will abandon his husband and son with a boy Ran.In this way, I am a bad woman that thousands of people hate and hate. This is something I cannot tolerate and accept.But when I think of letting go, cutting off this wish, I feel a dull pain in my heart, 1 reluctance, especially when I think of my husband (six sons). When there is a conflict between the two, I choose to trust his sister-in-law. This is the pain that I can't let go of. Thinking about these unpleasant and painful past events, I wish I could be with this boy right away, so that I can erase all these things that make me heartbroken. scar.But I also thought of the painful price I would pay for taking this step!It's not just a matter of bad reputation. Once I take this step, I will lose my children and the family I have run for many years. Therefore, I am struggling, I am suffering, and I don't know how to choose my life... It seems a little careless I will fall into an abyss beyond redemption, I am afraid...

In the pain, I looked up to the sky and sighed, hoping that God could help me out of the predicament, get out of the cage that made my life worse than life, and give me a correct and bright way.

Maybe God really listened to my cry. Just when I was desperate and wanted to jump to kill myself, a young and beautiful girl from Hubei walked towards me. She seemed to see the pain in my heart. He came over and handed me a magazine, and said to me with a smile: "Sister, don't commit suicide no matter how hard you figure it out. There are too many of you in the world, and you are not too little. The earth will continue to rotate without you. If you don't believe me, just read the story in this book. Wake up." I looked at her and took the book hesitantly. She smiled and said to me: "Human family and marriage are arranged by God. If you make one mistake, everything will be lost." I smiled bitterly. Laughing, looking at her turning away, he opened the book and started reading: First, I saw a man's confession. He said that he failed to control himself while his wife was on a business trip to study, and had sex with his mother-in-law, and was later discovered by his wife. The wife left a letter to say goodbye to him and her mother, and he and his mother-in-law suddenly realized that it was too late to regret it; the other story was about a woman who disliked her husband and secretly got together with her first love. The two were in love like glue, and then this A woman got breast cancer, and her husband sold her house to treat her disease. She underwent chemotherapy twice and had both breasts removed. After learning that her lover had moved on and fell in love with someone else, she was admitted to a mental hospital. She refused. After taking medicine for treatment, she was moved by the pleading of her husband and daughter. Her husband insisted on grabbing the gall of a toad for her to eat no matter the severe cold, heat, snow or frost. She did not know that the gall of the toad played the role of fighting poison with poison. It was her husband's love and tolerance that moved God, and her cancer miraculously healed.Seeing this, my heart was touched, and my long-lived conscience suddenly woke up, and I couldn't help but sigh to myself: Yes!What would happen to me if I couldn't reach the middle of the road after taking this step?After all, he is only 21 years old, which is such a young age. My child is still so young. I cannot harm two generations of people for my own selfishness...

Thinking of this, rationality told me not to mislead my children, let alone disregard my own family and children. After calming down, I quietly went to the factory office to submit a letter of resignation. On the day before I left, he learned from my co-worker that I was going to leave. At that time, I was still packing my things in the dormitory, even though he was crying my name downstairs, shouting why he had to leave without saying goodbye!It took a long time to make a fuss before driving quickly.Although I was very sad and wanted to go downstairs to explain it to him, I still stopped, believing that time would dilute everything, and he would find a girl who was more suitable than me in the near future. Husband and wife ruin their future.

Soon, the six sons called, and I heard a childish voice saying: "Mom, come back! I miss you, my father and brother are men, and I won't go to school if you don't come back..." Listen At this point, I couldn't hold back for an instant, and my tears couldn't stop streaming down. I felt that I had been away from home for a long time, and I was ashamed of my children as my family. After my husband repeatedly pleaded, I set foot on the way home again.

(End of this chapter)