Harmonious home

Chapter 16 I am desperate
The night fell quietly, I pulled my suitcase and stopped here aimlessly, looking there, looking up at the sky, sighing that the world is so big but there is no place for me.When I reached the middle of a high bridge, I stopped and looked at the turbid river water below. For a while, I imagined myself jumping off and being drowned, gasping for breath, and struggling in the water. For a while, I imagined my parents learning that I had died. Whether to cry or to laugh, how should I answer when the devil in the underworld asks me why I committed suicide... As I thought about it, I couldn't help but sing the sad song that made me wish for me again: "I want to have a family, and I don't need one." Gorgeous place, when I was frightened..." As I sang, I burst into tears. I felt that a home like this in this life is so far away for me. I was tired. I really wanted to jump in and relieve all my worries. …

At this time, I heard someone calling me: "Xiaolan Xiaolan... don't let your mind wander!" The voice came closer and closer, and I struggled to open my eyes.Seeing Xiao Yang standing one meter away from me with his bag, he dropped the bag and rushed forward to hug me, saying: "Xiaolan, I have found you, please don't let your mind wander!" I pushed him away and said loudly: "What does it have to do with you? Who asked you to follow me? Don't you think I'm embarrassed enough?" Then I grabbed my suitcase and strode forward. "Hey~, are you going up?" Xiao Yang shouted and followed me. "You don't have to worry about it. You go on your Yangguan Road and I'll cross my single-plank bridge. We don't interfere with the river. Don't think that if you follow me again and again, I will marry you. Stop dreaming. That's impossible. ." I walked a few steps and then turned around and said to Xiao Yang. "I know you said the angry words on purpose, and I also know that I'm not good enough for you. I didn't expect what happened today. Look, the wound on your head hasn't healed yet. Why don't you go stay with my friend for one night first? Besides, look at it, it’s almost dark.” Xiao Yang followed me and continued. "Go away! Don't follow me. It's none of your business if I die," I turned around and roared again and again, not wanting Xiao Yang to continue to follow.But no matter where I go, Xiao Yang always follows me like a follower. No matter how I tell him not to follow, he still follows me silently.I don’t remember how many places or roads I walked that day.

It was late at night, I was tired from walking, and there were fewer and fewer people on the street. I walked into a park and sat down on a bench. I was so exhausted that I really wanted to lie down and never wake up again.The crowded night market gradually became quiet.Xiao Yang looked at me and bought me a bowl of hot and sour noodles at the night market on the street. He ran over and handed it to me and said, "Come on, eat! You haven't eaten anything all night." I looked at it. Taking over the empty streets, I started eating nonchalantly.Xiao Yang sat next to me and talked about his life experience to enlighten me. Only then did I realize that he was two years older than me. Compared with his life experience, I was much luckier. Although I didn’t have the love of my parents since I was a child, at least I'm not hungry, I can still have a full meal at my aunt's house.But he has seven brothers and sisters in his family. His father passed away when he was less than four years old. In order to raise their brothers, his mother had to find a stepfather. When he was a child, he often ate tons of food and had nothing to eat. My children would often get bruised and swollen over a handful of dried broad beans.Hearing this, I still sympathized with him a little, and felt that I shouldn't always complain about my bad life.

He said that he didn't know a lot of Chinese characters, and his brothers and sisters-in-law were all married and separated, so he went out to work alone, and his elderly parents were still looking forward to waiting for him to get the money back to use... He also said: "Your father beat that too. When you are angry, don't worry about him, he is your own father anyway, you see, I have lost my father since I was a child, and it is impossible for him to hit me or scold me twice..." He said, lowering his head, The eyes look into the distance from time to time.I know he's crying, he just doesn't want me to see it.

I deliberately teased him happily and said, "Look, I finished eating the hot and sour noodles you bought, and the taste is not bad. Otherwise, I will buy you a bowl too, and I will pay you back the favor." He smiled Said: "Okay! I want to eat a big bowl."

That night, we talked a lot. He said that he would be responsible for me and would heal my head no matter whether it was a part-time job or a debt. I was a little moved and told him about my unfortunate childhood and what happened at home.He said that he understood my feelings very well and that he would always treat me well.

Soon, with the help of his friends, he found a job and a house, and we lived together.A year later, my son was born. He goes to work during the day and comes back at night to take care of our mother and son.Looking at my son's well-behaved appearance, I am looking forward to the future, thinking that I have been alone since I was a child without the company of my parents. I really don't want my child to suffer the pain I have suffered. I must give him a complete and harmonious family so that he can Healthy growth, have a good prospect and future.

Just as he was thinking beautifully, Xiao Yang hurriedly opened the door and entered the house, saying: "Xiaolan, hurry up and hold Dabao in your arms. The Family Planning Office is here to check." "Ah, where are we going? Why are we checking? Where?" I looked at Xiao Yang in surprise as if I had just woken up from a dream. "Oops! We are living together illegally without a marriage certificate, so you can go out for a walk and wait for them to check before you come back." I said "Oh" and walked out with Dabao in my arms. In a residential building with the neighborhood committee A group of people from the Family Planning Office passed each other by, and I broke out in a sweat. I thought, Oh my god, this is so dangerous!If they find out, they will definitely take away my son...

(End of this chapter)