see you in spring

Chapter 81 The person you love the most

After Sun Yan finished chatting with Han Guyu, Jia Lie and the others, she put down the phone and saw that her two sons had fallen asleep in bed at some point.

She gently took the plastic dinosaur away from their hands and put it away, then covered them with quilts, and then slowly sat down in front of the dressing table next to the bed.

After getting married and having children, life becomes extremely boring.She has to take care of her children every day, deal with her critical mother-in-law and her brother-in-law who is worried about keeping the house in chaos. She is as busy as a spinning top every day.After dwelling on trivial matters for a long time, I no longer pay attention to dressing, my temperament has been worn away, and my whole person has become blurred.

In the past, Liu Quantao would only come back for three to five days in a month or two or even a quarter. To her, he was what the Internet called the "Cloud Spouse." Her two children grew up because of her. It is no exaggeration to say that, She has always been a "widowed parent".

In real life, with daily necessities such as firewood, rice, oil, salt, soy sauce, vinegar, tea, children's poop and farts, and her uncle's overt and covert annoyance, Sun Yan's heart was more easily agitated than that of Han Guyu and Jia Lie.

The topics about true love that I just talked about with Han Guyu and Jia Lie.She didn't tell them that her true love was indeed not just Liu Quantao.

She began to recall those hugs that smelled of grass and kisses that smelled of mint. She was grateful that the boy had given her such a beautiful first love, so that she could live in such a poor and even painful life. Missing someone like this.

Sun Yan picked up the comb and slowly combed her hair in front of the mirror.

This sudden change made Sun Yan unable to sleep these days.The huge pressure in a short period of time caused her to keep losing hair. The hair volume, which was not much in the first place, was now exposed in several places on her scalp, like bald spots, which was extremely ugly.What was left was covered with a layer of silver frost starting from the roots of the hair in just a few days.

Once the hair turns gray, a person becomes much older.Although he is only in his thirties, he looks like he is 45 years old.

Sun Yan looked at her haggard and lifeless self in the mirror, feeling so empty that she felt panicked.Every time she combed it, she did it very gently and slowly, for fear that with just a little force, she would pull out a few more hairs.

She looked at the fine-lined corners of her eyes in the mirror and reached out to touch them gently. Unexpectedly, in the blink of an eye, her eyes, which he said were as beautiful as a pair of almonds, began to turn dull and yellow, and became full of wrinkles.

Her thoughts slowly drifted from the mirror to the distance.She thought of the strong and upright figure on the basketball court. Yanzi's throat seemed to be choked, and a sad warmth surged over her.

If she had been more brave and confident back then, perhaps nothing would have happened to Liu Quantao.

Thinking of the sadness she felt when she graduated from high school, she still felt a tremor in her heart.Sometimes I dream back to midnight, and in a trance, I think I am still the same high school student.When I sat up, I realized that it was already very far away.

Sun Yan has liked two men. If she is forced to think carefully and seriously, who of these two men does she love the most?

No doubt it was the dazzling boy who sat next to her in high school.

In high school, Sun Yan was in the top ten. In order to motivate the poor students, the class teacher asked the class to form study pairs, and the sports student became her deskmate.

If it hadn't been for such a coincidence, Sun Yan would never have dared to think that one day, as ordinary as she was, she could be at the same table as the school boy who was admired by all the girls in the school.

At that time, she was focused on studying, even during the holidays.While other girls were buying clothes and putting on lipstick, she was reading.While other girls were watching movies and going shopping, she was still reading.

Because she only knows how to study, the girls in the class think she is boring, and the boys will not look at a girl like her who can't be found in the crowd.

In order not to waste time on things other than studying, she had her hair cut short and ear-length all year round and wore a large school uniform that made it impossible to tell her gender.My face has been buried in a pile of books for so long that my waist is not straight even when I walk.Perhaps because of her friends, even though her grades were good, she was still a little unsure.

Unexpectedly, she would become a treasure in the eyes of the school idol who is a sports student.

At this moment, she felt as if she had studied hard for so many years just to wait for this deskmate.

Adolescent boys and girls are sensitive, and he treats her differently from others. Sun Yan sees it in his eyes and feels sweet in his heart.

He was lying on the table sleeping during class, but he kept looking at Sun Yan next to him with his squinted eyes, until he saw two blushes on her cheeks, and he could no longer listen to a word the teacher said.

He was the most eye-catching presence on the basketball court after school. As long as she passed by the sidelines, he would run straight to her side regardless of whether she was playing a game or not, and ask her to stay and watch him play through the basketball net.

They just maintained a vague good feeling, and no one said anything about it.

Being liked by the high-profile school girl, Sun Yan's little girl's vanity was greatly satisfied.But at the same time, she felt that she was so ordinary that she was not worthy to stand with him at all.

The school girl's grades started to rise, and along with them, there were rumors about their love.

A group of girls who like the school girl threatened to fix Sun Yan.Sun Yan had a bit of a temper, and when she knew someone was blocking her outside the school, she was so frightened that she walked to and from school in fear.

Just when she was worried about being bullied every day, she discovered that the school boy who lived in a different direction from him would wait for her to go to school every morning at the intersection of her house.

With the school maid escorting her every day, Sun Yan finally got through those frightening days safely.Because of escorting her every day, Sun Yan finally became the official girlfriend of the school sweetheart.She didn't know anything at that time, and was so well protected by the school sweetheart that she became the envy and jealousy of all the girls in the school.

There is no airtight wall in the world, but their relationship was still exposed to the teacher.

Sun Yan was a top student, and her teacher was worried that her relationship would affect her college entrance examination, so she asked her parents to sit separately.The two people sitting at the same table became the farthest diagonal in the entire classroom.

The young couple became more and more frustrated under the dual pressure of family and school. There was no doubt that Sun Yan’s love performance declined. After her family went to the school to warn the school girl not to pester Sun Yan and hold her back, Sun Yan could not help but I had a big quarrel with my family and ran away from home.

The school sweetheart took her to live in a small hotel. At that time, they were all short of money and could only live in a small single room with sticky sheets.

At that time, his feelings for her were so pure that she stayed with him all night, but he kept restraining himself and just held her to sleep all night.

After him, all the men who came close to her had a purpose. But that year, that man just simply liked her and wanted to be good to her.And she only understood this after leaving him.

Their parents finally found them the next day. They were afraid that Sun Yan would do something extreme again. They finally compromised and promised Sun Yan that they would be together as long as they both went to college.

Sun Yan thought that she could finally have a certain future with the school idol. Unexpectedly, just when she was studying hard for the exam, she saw other girls being courteous to the school idol.

Sun Yan was not confident about her appearance to begin with, but now that she saw a beautiful girl competing with her, she felt even more in danger.

At first, the school girl would try her best to explain, but as time went by, the boy began to feel that she neither believed him nor the relationship between them.

Her suspicion finally became unbearable for the boys and they began to distance themselves from her.

But the more alienated he was, the more Sun Yan felt there was something wrong with him, and the harder she pressed.Because she is too ordinary and the school emblem is too dazzling, Sun Yan lives in despair every day. This feeling of being unable to control makes her torture herself with suspicion and worry about gains and losses all day long.

Finally, when she almost couldn't bear it anymore, the other party broke up with her.

When Sun Yan collapsed, she carried the last trace of stubbornness that made him regret it. She no longer cared about everything about him. She put all her thoughts on her studies. She wanted to prove to him that her future would be better without her.

After the college entrance examination, the school boy was not admitted to any sports university.And she was admitted to the 985 program in a first-tier city.

On the day she went to get the admission notice, Sun Yan only heard about the school idol from other classmates.

Because her lack of confidence and suspicion had seriously affected her studies, the school boss was worried that she would not be able to get into college and would regret it for the rest of her life, so she broke up with her cruelly.

After the breakup, he was so depressed that he didn't even take the college entrance examination.

She regretted it endlessly. When she found the principal's family, she found that their family had moved to other provinces and cities as his father's job was transferred.She completely lost contact with him.

Sun Yan did not expect that her first love was not lost to pressure, but to her own lack of confidence.This relationship is destined to become a regret in her life.At the same time, it also left her with a sequelae. She told herself that she would never touch a boy she couldn't control, no matter how good he was.

Therefore, in college, she followed Liu Quantao, whom she thought she could control.

But she didn't expect that she couldn't even control Liu Quantao.Thinking of the strange woman's text messages and Liu Quantao's lies, Sun Yan felt like a joke.

It is said in Chicken Soup that the tears after marriage are all the water in the brain before marriage.

When two people get married, it is not just a matter of two people, but a game between two families, two sets of values, and two life styles.She thought that she would gain wisdom through every experience, so she desperately married Liu Quantao. Now after living like this, she realizes how naive and ridiculous it was for her to insist on the criteria for choosing a boyfriend.

Sun Yan resented Liu Quantao's deception and dragged the whole family into this breathless despair.Thinking that Liu Quantao was in the intensive care unit at this time, Sun Yan instantly turned her resentment towards him into deep sympathy and reverence for "life".

She put all the things she had done wrong and missed into a helpless sigh.

From the memories to reality, reality becomes more and more cruel.

Sun Yan looked at the sleeping child on the bed and knew that she needed to ensure sleep at this time in order for her body to recover slowly, but she really couldn't fall asleep even if she was lying on the bed.

Liu Quantao was infected, and members of his family had a greater chance of being infected than members of the other two families.

If anything happened to the two children, she really didn't know how she would survive.If she fell, her two children would not know how to survive.

It is no exaggeration to say that her days are now like a year. In the past, she felt that there was not enough time, and the whole day would last as long as she opened her eyes. Now she wishes she could open them more times and let this quarantine period pass quickly.Only when she and her son come out of this isolation period safely can the huge stone hanging in her heart truly be put down.

Just as she was about to get up, she heard Liu Quantao's cell phone suddenly ring again. She picked up the phone and looked at it, and found that the woman had sent Liu Quantao an even more ambiguous message.

Sun Yan's chest was a little out of breath. She clutched the comb tightly, and the teeth of the comb penetrated into her palm, pressing out a row of blood marks.

(End of this chapter)