see you in spring

Chapter 219 The current difficulty three

In the blink of an eye, Sun Yan has been at work for three weeks. During these three weeks, she still has not been able to win a single order.

Seeing that the one-month deadline was coming, she was so anxious that the corners of her mouth had blisters. She couldn't sleep every night, anxious and worried.It was already ten o'clock when she got home at night. After dinner, she waited for her children to fall asleep, then she got up and continued to look for clients online. She went to bed at one or two o'clock and woke up again at six in the morning.

After enduring this for more than ten days, she lost seven or eight pounds.There was a group meeting early on Monday morning, and she was mercilessly scolded by her boss in front of all her colleagues because she had no performance.

After the meeting, as her colleagues looked at her with gloating eyes, she held back the tears that were about to burst out of her eyes, quickly walked to her work station, turned her head, and secretly wiped away the tears.As soon as she turned on the computer, she suddenly felt a cramp in her stomach. She couldn't believe it, so she hurriedly went to the toilet, and sure enough, she had her period.

Fortunately, she always kept spare sanitary napkins in her bag. After arranging herself, she washed her hands in the sink. She looked up and saw her sallow face in the mirror, and her heart sank.

How could she be like this?Although she is only 35 or 50 years old, she has obvious eye bags, wrinkles, and freckles on her face. She does not look as good as those women in their [-]s and [-]s.

She was already a little anemic, and every time she had her period, it made things worse.She took out the lipstick from her bag and applied it several times on her pale lips, so that her whole face looked more lively.But the darkened eye sockets and tired expression couldn't be concealed no matter what.

During this period of time, she was non-stop and busy with work every day. Every day, there were always a bunch of chores that did not belong to her, but the leader wanted her to do them. If she couldn't finish the tasks, she had to work overtime.

When I got home at night, the child was already asleep.At that moment, she really felt how right she was to agree to let Liu Quantao live at home.At least he can share this burden for her when she doesn't have the energy to take care of the child.Although this matter is a bit ironic, because he only knew to do housework after the divorce and started to take care of the children's food and daily life, but even so, she is already very grateful, after all, there are many men who still don't care about it after divorce .

During the epidemic, although the company's business was not affected and the business volume expanded, as a salesperson with no customers, it was not easy for her to open new orders on her own during this period.

Of course, there were also inquiries from her during this period, but most of them were because the products the customers were looking for did not match the company's products, so she had to give up temporarily, but she still tried her best to keep in touch with her customers.Because only by getting in touch will there be opportunities for cooperation later.

Even if it is not easy for her to work harder than anyone else, in the adult world, no one has it easy.And these years of life have already told her that hard work does not mean that there will be gains.Every time she worked overtime until late at night and still got nothing, every time she was held a meeting, she was ridiculed by the leader, and every day she opened her eyes and thought that there was one day less time, she wanted to cry.

She was tired and difficult, depressed and annoyed, helpless and aggrieved, but she had to endure all of this alone because it was her own choice.

And with the inability to get the list, there are also personnel affairs in the workplace.During the time at work, the people and things she saw and came into contact with triggered her many thoughts.And many of these were things she had never thought about before staying at home.

At the beginning, every time the morning meeting ended, the leader routinely asked everyone if there were any suggestions for improvement in the company's administration and system.No one else spoke, but she stood uprightly, and from her perspective, she talked about some issues about hygiene and overtime between the company's offices.

But each time, she would be dismissed impatiently by her boss. After two times, she heard other female colleagues in the bathroom laughing behind her back at her for being a housewife, thinking that the company office was her own home.She finally realized that she really hadn't broken away from the housewife mentality.After this incident, she wrote down in her work notes not to give blind advice to decision-makers that had nothing to do with her work.

Since she started working, she has had a notebook dedicated to writing down her work experience.But even though I have memorized a large book, there is still no improvement in business.

She knew that the older she got, the less she could use her age to excuse her incompetence.Because the older you get, the closer you are to the truth of the world.I remember when she was young, if she made a mistake at work, her colleagues would say that she should give young people more opportunities.But now that her age has increased, her wisdom has not. The young colleagues around her are secretly saying that she is a fool because she only has age but not brains.

She once read a sentence in a book that said that as we get older, our desire for growth should be stronger.Only stronger growth can counteract the erosion that time brings to us and balance the consumption of our physical strength by time.

She deeply believed that, and she longed for rapid and intense growth, but she found that at this time, whether it was physical or mental strength, there was already a big gap between herself and herself six or seven years ago.

There was still a week left, and she didn't know if she could stay, but she would never give up until the last moment.

Sun Yan endured the discomfort, straightened her back, took a deep breath, walked out of the bathroom and walked towards her work station.

Feeling unwell and depressed, Sun Yan was under extremely low pressure today.

When she got off work, her stomach felt really bad, so she didn't work overtime and went home early.

Liu Quantao didn't expect Sun Yan to come home so early today, and wanted to ask her why she came back so early today, but seeing her gloomy face, he could only swallow his words, drag his legs that were not yet ready, and hurried to the kitchen to cook.

The two sons had been playing around on the sofa. Sun Yan asked the eldest son if he had finished his homework. The eldest son was having fun playing with the younger son and said, "We'll do it after dinner."

Sun Yan immediately became angry: "Why don't you do it now? Is it more important to play or to do homework? If you play like this every day, do you want to go out to beg for food in the future?"

Both children were startled, and Liu Quantao also poked his head out of the kitchen.

She was so full of anger that she couldn't stop it as long as she found an outlet to vent her anger. She yelled and got very angry with her child. At that moment, she had no idea how hideous and terrifying her expression was.

Until she finally vented all her anger, she finally heard the hissing and lung-piercing cries of her two sons.

Liu Quantao finally couldn't help it anymore and said to her: "The children usually do their homework after dinner. You came back late before and didn't know the procedure. Stop blaming the children."

Of course Liu Quantao knew that Sun Yan was just trying to vent his anger in the workplace, because he had done such things before.He felt sorry for his son, but he couldn't blame Sun Yan harshly. After all, if he could go out to work, Sun Yan would not be under so much pressure. He was also responsible for the current situation.

Looking at her two sons who were frightened and crying, Sun Yan felt sad.She used to be particularly disgusted with Liu Quantao taking out his anger at work on them, but now, how come she has become such a person?
(End of this chapter)