see you in spring

Chapter 198 Live for Oneself
Sun Yan, who received the news of her dismissal in the afternoon, felt pained, wronged and unwilling, but could not refute it.

She did miss work, and she couldn't leave her son alone just to make money.But now that her son has been discharged from the hospital, she has lost her job.

The series of blows during this period of time made her like a spring that was stretched to its maximum. She lost any tension and no longer wanted to resist.At this moment, she was completely despairing.

She thought she had hope again and stepped out of her position as a housewife.How happy she was when she got the job, she's so sad now.

The world is so big, is there really no place where she can regain her footing?

Tired of crying on the roadside, she stood up unsteadily, pushed the car, and walked aimlessly on the road. Unknowingly, she headed towards the river embankment.

This city is run from east to west by a large river. Along both sides of the river, the government has built river parks for citizens to relax and have fun.

She walked along the river to a nearby riverside park.

It was around one o'clock in the afternoon. Usually at this time, there weren't many people in the park.During the epidemic, it was even more deserted.

She put the car away and walked on the stone path in the park.There were birds singing and flowers blooming on both sides, but no one was enjoying them.The beautiful spring scenery here is wasted.

She walked to the river embankment and stared at the river flowing close at hand and flowing into the distance.She had been suppressed and restrained during this period, and suddenly she had the idea of ​​​​liberating.

How great would it be if she could be like these flowing waters, running anywhere without any worries and carefree?
She remembered that she was carefree when she was in school. Why did getting married feel like a shackle, making her more and more breathless?

If only she had listened to her parents and not married Liu Quantao and became a full-time housewife.Could things have turned out differently?
She has made choices along the way in the past ten years, but she has always chosen to let herself fall deeper and deeper.

If it comes to giving birth to a baby, she has no choice but to sacrifice her career.Then she gave up the precious opportunity to re-enter the workplace for the sake of her second child, and she brought it upon herself.

After working full-time, she realized that most of the time in marriage is the law of the jungle, and if you are weak, you will be bullied.She wanted to strengthen herself countless times, but she became a fish on the chopping board because she put her family and children ahead of her.

During the years when her mother-in-law tortured her, it's not that she didn't think about getting a divorce.But when I think about the fact that the child is still so young, what will happen to the child after divorce.In addition, her ears were soft and her heart was soft, Liu Quantao said a few nice words, coaxed her, and passed away again.Just like when she saw Liu Quantao playing with the children before, she immediately wavered her determination to divorce.

She just hesitated like this, and several years passed in a flash.By the time she finally made up her mind to come out, she had already missed the best time to start a career.

So for this matter, she can't blame others but herself.

The fact that she has reached this stage is a punishment from God.

When a person's mood is extremely low, it's easy for people to have unreasonable ideas.At this time, she felt that she was hopeless and she deserved this.

But life is short, and she doesn't know when such hard days will end.She was tired, tired, and didn't want to suffer anymore.Although it's shameful to escape, at least you don't have to face it anymore.At this moment, she suddenly understood Liu Quantao's previous ostrich behavior.

She stood by the deserted river embankment. After constant self-denial, she finally slowly climbed up the fence of the river embankment.

Just when she closed her eyes and was about to fall in, the phone in her pocket rang.

She was stunned for two seconds. The ringtone of her cell phone disturbed Sun Yan's mood and made her hesitate.But she didn't reach out to answer the phone.

She wanted to wait until the ringing stopped before jumping down.But the ringtone of the cell phone stopped and rang again, persisting, more persistent than her.

She didn't know who else would go to such trouble to find her, an insignificant housewife.Curiosity made her finally give in. She reached into her pocket and answered the phone.

"Yanzi, why don't you answer the phone?" came the slightly worried tone of Yanzi's mother.

Hearing the familiar voice, Sun Yan, who was riding on the railing, burst into tears instantly.

It turned out that at this last moment, it was her mother who never gave up on her.

"Mom, I miss you so much." She burst into tears.

Sun Yan's mother on the other end panicked: "Yanzi, what's wrong with you? Did something happen to you?"

Sun Yan on the other end cried so hard that she couldn't speak.

Sun Yan's mother knew that something must have happened to her daughter, so she could only encourage her: "Yanzi, if anything happens, just tell your mother. Your father and I will always be your strongest support."

"Mom, I'm sorry. I was too willful before and hurt your hearts." Thinking of what happened before, Sun Yan felt how stupid she was for thinking that she was desperate for love.

Hearing her daughter crying so hard, Sun Yan's mother couldn't hold herself any longer and choked up: "What happened in the past is in the past, so don't think about it anymore. You will always be our daughter."

When Sun Yan heard her mother's words, she even blamed herself.

"Don't cry yet. If something happened at home, please tell us quickly so we can help you." Sun Yan's father said anxiously to the public cell phone at the side.

Feeling her parents' care, Sun Yan burst into tears. Compared to last night, when she could only hide in the toilet at home and sob secretly, at this moment, she could finally release all the emotions that had been suppressed in her heart during this period.

In front of outsiders, she is a mother, a wife, and a housewife who has nothing to do.Only in front of her parents, she is the princess held in the palm of her hand, Sun Yan, and herself.

"Oh, that's what you said." Sun Yan's father was so anxious that he was anxious.

Sun Yan's mother wiped away her tears and followed her anxious husband and said, "Let my daughter take it easy."

Sun Yan cried for a while and finally calmed down.She took a deep breath: "I finally found a job delivering food ten days ago, but because I was taking care of Tiantian in the hospital, I lost my job now. My family has no money now, and I don't know how to support two children. .”

Sun Yan's parents were silent for a few seconds, frowned and asked, "Are you hospitalized every day? Why do you have to go out to deliver food when your family has no money? Where is Liu Quantao?"

Sun Yan wiped the tears from her chin onto her collar: "Liu Quantao was also fired. He had been infected before. Although he has recovered now, no company is willing to hire him."

Sun Yan's parents were shocked.They didn't expect that so many things happened in their daughter's family, and they didn't know about it until now.The blood pressure of Sun Yan's parents, who had just gone down, went up again.

"You, you, why didn't you tell me earlier? How dangerous it is for you to deliver food!" Sun Yan's mother is most concerned about her daughter's safety.

"Liu Quantao is hiding at home right now, and let you go out to deliver food by yourself?" Sun Yan's father was so angry that his chest ached.

As a man, at such a dangerous time, he would hide at home and let his wife go out to make money.Will the father-in-law be angry after hearing such a son-in-law?

"Don't Liu Quantao have a younger brother? He has lived there for so long, why can't he go out and find a job?" Sun Yan's mother was very angry when she thought about her daughter working as a cow and horse in that house.

Now that she has said it, Sun Yan told her that her mother-in-law and brother-in-law have moved away, and she also told about the hospitalization before Tian Tian.

Sun Yan's father was so angry that he slammed the table: "This is so outrageous!"

Seeing this, Sun Yan's mother quickly went to get the old man's antihypertensive medicine and gave him one pill immediately.

Sun Yan on the other end didn't know what was going on with her parents. She became more and more sad as she talked, telling all the things that had happened before that made her feel wronged and painful.

"You will come back immediately with the child. Although your retirement salary is not high, your mother and I can still afford vegetables and tofu. At worst, your mother and I will go out to find part-time jobs. We are three adults and we are afraid that we will not be able to raise two children. ?" After Sun Yan's father finished speaking, his hands were shaking with anger.

Sun Yan's mother wiped away her tears: "Your dad is right, we can't sleep at night when we think of you suffering there. Even if the rest of the days are just meager meals, we can't let you continue to suffer there!"

(End of this chapter)