tenth year of teaching

Chapter 206 With You
I particularly like Haruki Murakami’s words: “You don’t have to dwell on the present and you don’t have to worry too much about the future. There are no useless experiences in life, so if we keep walking, the sky will surely dawn.”

When Guo Xu wrote this sentence in his diary, he recalled every moment after meeting Xiaobai.She wrote many fantasy stories about being with Xiaobai, some happy and some sad.In the end, they all converge into one sentence: "I love you, it has nothing to do with you!"

Xiaobai didn't know whether he really didn't know, or whether he didn't respond from the beginning to the end.There was no way of knowing what he was thinking. It had been more than a year. No matter how slow a person was, he should have reacted, but Xiaobai didn't.Xiaobai's world seems to consist of studying and playing basketball and football. As long as he has time, he can be seen on the playground.

Basketball is always about the defender organization, the most eye-catching one on the court who controls the whole court without any rush, and does not make dunks and shots. It is indeed a corner that can never be missing.

Guo Xu was surprised that the person he liked was never the most central one.For example, Daesang in Big Bang has a high-pitched voice and a gentle personality, but he always stands behind the group, and his occasional words of experience make people obsessed.Charlene likes G-dragon. Many people like this captain, he is talented and a dazzling star.Guo Xu admires the captain, but is still fascinated by Da Daesheng.She watched the birth of her family and reread it every holiday, giggling every day.My mother was so angry that she scolded her: "If you don't study, you won't do anything right every day."

She smiled and looked at the diary at hand, seeming to have thought too far again.I closed my diary, picked up a small dictionary, and started memorizing words while lying on the bed. Within 10 minutes, I started to snore slightly.The alarm clock in the corner of the desk clicked at 12:00, the light in the living room came on, and my mother quietly opened the door and came in.I saw that the desk lamp was still on, my daughter was already asleep, and the dictionary fell to the floor.

She shook her head and complained, "I fell asleep without turning off the light." She covered herself with the quilt, picked up the dictionary and put it on the table, turned off the lamp, and walked out quietly.

Back in the bedroom, my father turned over and asked sleepily: "Is my daughter asleep again?"

"Well, it's an old problem. I have to go see her at night. What should I do when I go to college and live in a dormitory by myself?"

"Well, go to sleep, wife."

It was late at night, and the house was quiet, and Chi Chi in the corner of the living room also blinked and lay down to sleep.Guaji was brought home in less than a week, when Guo Xu was in junior high school. Her parents were hesitant about whether she should go back to Hebei to attend high school or study in a local school, and at the same time they were depressed about their daughter's irritable temper in adolescence.

My daughter, who has been obedient since she was a child, started to be impatient in the second grade of junior high school. When she came home from school, she no longer said, "Mom, I'm back." Instead, she silently went into the house and closed the door with a bang.The mother and daughter who talked about everything became extremely embarrassed and could not talk together.

Dad thought for a long time and brought back a pure black teddy for Guo Xu.When Guo Xu saw it at first sight, he said: "Oh, it's so ugly, like the croak in the small column under the sea."

So, little Guaji chased Guo Xu every day.Guo Xu slowly started to laugh again, and finally there was no longer any tension in the family.Her parents gave up on the idea of ​​letting Guo Xu go back to his hometown in Hebei to attend high school. After all, their daughter couldn't bear to be alone.But the household registration matter is really a problem. After entering high school, I have been dragging it back and forth, but now I can’t go back.

In fact, Guo Xu knew what his parents thought at the time, but he couldn't do anything about it. The panic of leaving his parents and the outbreak of his own hormones made him feel even more reluctant to talk.When Chi Chi Chi Chi Wai Wai chased her, she finally found the feeling of being needed and slowly calmed down.But from then on I didn’t want to study too hard, because my registered residence was not in BJ, so there was no point in trying any harder, since I wasn’t allowed to take the undergraduate exam anyway.

Until I saw Xiaobai, who entered No. 4 High School on the first day.I found a seat in class and sat down, surrounded by strangers, which made me feel nervous.A cute boy with a round face suddenly jumped in front of him. "What's your name? My name is Bai Jinlong, and I'm called Xiaobai. Are you also in class [-]? Me too. How about it, a classmate, can you help me? I got up late today, and I forgot my schoolbag. Let me borrow a pen."

Xiaobai's playful smile is something Guo Xu will never forget. She didn't know that boys were not only pretending to be cool, but were also mischievously pulling girls' hair.You can also have such a cute side. Although you are a bit thick-skinned, you are polite and have a gentle smile.

From then on, Xiaobai appeared in Guo Xu's eyes, which made her even more reluctant to leave.Although Xiaobai also plays with everyone, he is not vague in his studies. He concentrates when he should listen carefully and never misses the homework he needs to complete.After the first month as the class teacher, Xiaobai was assigned to explain topics in class and serve as a teaching assistant.

In order to be worthy of such an outstanding boy, Guo Xu began to work hard until twelve o'clock every day.Gradually, my grades improved, and I even asked Xiaobai for advice because of the problem.At this time, Xiaobai has been arranged to become the school committee, and he never refuses everyone's advice.

The slender white fingers are covered with thick calluses from playing ball frequently.When she was giving a lecture, she would inadvertently brush the back of Guo Xu's hand, and she would be distracted until she came to her senses.

"Do you understand it?"

"Oh, oh, maybe."

Xiaobai would always raise his hand to his forehead and sigh: "Guo Xu, can you admit the truth?"

When she asked questions again, Xiaobai would exaggerate and say: "Sister, please spare me, please?" Every time he finished his talk, he still explained in a serious and serious manner.

Guo Xu looked at the boy's angular profile, and his heart was filled with excitement.

At the weekend party, on the second floor of McDonald's on the corner of the street, Charlene finished chewing the chicken wings and sucked on her greasy fingers.He said to Guo Xu, "How about I ask Tao Li to make an appointment for you and make it clear directly." Is this the 176th time she mentioned it, or the 177th time?

Guo Xu shook his head and said firmly: "No."

"No, why do you just like to be abused?" Charlene was angry.

Guo Xu shook his head and said affirmatively: "I'm very happy, I don't feel cruel."

Charlene raised her hand to her forehead and said, "Sister, I really admire you."

Guo Xu shook his head and expressed dissatisfaction: "I am younger than you, not the eldest sister."

"Fuck." Charlene only responded with one word.

Guo Xu didn't know why he didn't point it out to Xiaobai. Maybe he was afraid that if he really got close, many good things would disappear like bubbles?Of course the most important thing is inferiority complex.She wanted to go to college and stand shoulder to shoulder with Xiaobai. At that time, she could proudly say to him: "I have liked you for a long time."

(End of this chapter)