tenth year of teaching

Chapter 139 Disappearing
Li Yue lay on the cold gurney in the morgue, covered with a white cloth.

The woman sat half-sitting on the ground and cried loudly, while the man stood aside in a daze.He didn't expect the child to protest in such a decisive way. He thought he would do the same as before. After learning about the old man's death, he would make a scene and beat him once, and everything would be over.

Didn’t you grow up like this too?When I was young, I was disobedient, naughty and got into fights. Isn’t this how old people disciplined me?Why is his daughter resisting like this?

The pool of blood downstairs seemed to flash before my eyes when I closed my eyes. The police conducted a routine investigation and checked some of my daughter's belongings.A few days later, the diary was returned, and they sighed and said to their parents: "Your daughter has severe depression, don't you know? How do you parents care about your children?"

After the old class got the news, he kept lamenting that no matter what happened to this student in school, he was still his student.He lamented, why are today's children so psychologically fragile?
I received an email in early summer, which was sent to my QQ mailbox. The time was displayed as 5:35 in the morning.

"Thank you, Sister Xia. Four years ago, you were the first person to write a letter to encourage me in Yuyang, No. [-] High School. Although the letter has disappeared, I still clearly remember the words in it. So I want to I want to send you a heartfelt reply. I wanted to wait until after the college entrance examination is over, but I don’t want to wait any longer.

I have always had low self-esteem because I grew up in a rural area in Hebei Province until I graduated from junior high school and came to BJ.A huge change in environment, no friends, no relatives.I live in uneasiness every day. The biggest discomfort is that I can't find something that I like.My classmates disliked my earthy appearance and accent. No one wanted to get close to me. It felt very uncomfortable to be isolated.

Because the textbooks I learned were different, I couldn't keep up at all at first. I was ignored by the teachers and disliked by the parents.In order to have friends and a circle that would recognize me, I went out drinking and having fun with some people.In exchange for beatings and scoldings from my father, I persisted and was beaten again and again.I actually don’t hate them. After all, my father was treated like this when he was a child. He would not and could not really sit down and listen to my ideas.

I haven't been with them for more than ten years, they don't know what I think, they only want me to be admitted to university.In the name of my own good, they helped me arrange everything, including the death of my grandma, and no one notified me to let me see for the last time.What's the point of living like this?

If they gave birth to me just so that I could fulfill their wishes, then why didn’t they keep me by their side for the past ten years or so and teach me to grow according to their wishes?Why should I let myself grow up without any scruples and then have to correct myself ruthlessly?

Sister Xia, you always tell us some interesting stories, including your own growth process.I envy you and the stories of other people whose parents grew up with you.That is not my story. I only have my grandma. Without my grandma, I have no destination.

Thank you for being able to see bright spots in a poor student like me and being willing to write to me. I hope everything is well with you.Jia Mingxuan is not a bad person. Although he did some things that made many teachers angry when he was a freshman in high school.But his original intention is not to do that, and his story is very pitiful. I hope you can enlighten him and encourage this boy a little if you have time.

No one is born hateful!

Thank you, teacher. "

Chu Xia didn't know what she was thinking, her heart kept sinking until she couldn't breathe.As a teacher, no one knows how much your inadvertent actions will affect the students.

The classroom is filled with dozens of students, all of whom are real people. The pressure of teaching and various chores weigh down their heads.So I forgot my duty as a teacher. I need to squat down, look at the students, have heart-to-heart conversations with them, and do home visits.Take a look at the environment in which students grow up, and then get into their hearts.

No one is born hateful!

She thought, what exactly has she done for Li Yue in the past year?Except for the letter that everyone had, a letter of encouragement and praise, there was never a good sit down and talk.

I chatted with Haixia because her growing up environment was too similar to Li Na’s before.I talked with Zhang Yan because he has encountered too many things in the past three years.Chatted with Li Hai because he had too many dreams.Chatted with Chen Yisi because he was always lazy.I talked to Xu Yue because she has great potential.

Chu Xia thought about her interactions with every student. Many of them were because they were too naughty, too noisy, too outstanding, and attracted attention.Those who usually keep silent, whose grades are not outstanding enough, and who don't cause much trouble, I pay too little attention to.

The tragedy of education is nothing more than this, you have the intention but are powerless.The lack of family education, the lack of teacher time and ability, the lack of attention to mental health, and the huge class sizes cannot achieve personalized education.A lot of questions, a lot of disappointment, a lot of sadness.

Li Yue's departure did not cause much excitement in the class. Everyone except Jia Mingxuan selectively forgot about it.Because the college entrance examination is just around the corner, everyone must take responsibility for themselves first before they have time to sympathize with others.

Jia Mingxuan opened QQ a week later and saw Li Yue's email, which was a simple farewell message.She didn't seem to be someone who wanted to bid farewell to this world violently, so she told herself that the 'interaction fees' had been transferred and paid back.

She explained that she actually took the money because it was useful and she wanted to leave this city and this home to make plans for her future.Being good to myself at first was just because I was too lonely and wanted to find someone to talk to. Later, it was just a matter of gratitude for the concern for myself.

She said that the two of them were not suitable at all, and she didn't expect that they would spend such a long time together.Thank you for taking care of me all the time. It's just a pity that the set of books I borrowed from his home is missing one book and has never been replaced.

In the end, she said that she hoped she would not have such hatred towards teachers and schools, just like she did towards her parents, whether they beat or scold them or impose forced arrangements.It will all disappear in the end, and living your life well is the most important thing.

Jia Mingxuan cursed bitterly, pulled off the keyboard and smashed it to the ground.Then he hugged the pillow and started to suffer. This girl was so stubborn that she wouldn't let anyone help him. She said she wanted to forget it, but she stuck it in his heart in such a way that he couldn't erase it.

Li Yue's parents came to school quietly to pack up her things.Principal Zhang asked Lao Ma to receive him well, not to cause any conflicts, and to avoid the trouble of parents coming to the school.Lao Ma knows it well, and when he assigns Lao Ban to do things well, he needs to be sympathetic but not too concerned, and he needs to be comforted so that the economy cannot be involved.

In other words, we care about comfort from a humanitarian perspective, and we cannot let parents use this matter to blackmail us into going to school.

Lao Ban asked in a daze, "This all happened at home, how could you blackmail the school?"

"You've wasted so many years of teaching. What if the parents say it was caused by excessive pressure from the school?" Lao Ma scolded with a smile.

"Oh!" Lao Ban suddenly realized.

(End of this chapter)