I Am Gwen's Spider-Man Mentor

Chapter 83 Gwen's Initiative

Raymond lowered his head, and didn't answer the girl immediately, but his hand holding Gwen's forearm became tighter.After a while, he replied: "Why is it meaningless?"

"The day I went to your house to deliver pizza..." Gwen didn't answer Raymond directly, but the girl cheered up and slowly narrated: "You said that everything I did was meaningless to this society."

"No..." Raymond put his other hand on the back of Gwen's hand, but before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by the girl:
"Later, you said that the existence of ghost spiders was just a placebo prescribed by the government for blue-collar workers."

The girl lowered her head, and Raymond watched the golden sunlight shine through the girl's blond hair. In a moment of silence, the light seemed to turn into individual particles, floating in the air of the ward——between the two The atmosphere seemed to be still.

"Later, I talked about the power of ordinary people, so I wanted to organize ordinary people through the Spider-Woman forum..." Gwen speeded up her speech slightly, "But I found that no one seemed to care about what Spider-Woman did. .”

"Kingpin saved me. He said that saving me was just a favor sold to you. He didn't care whether I lived or died, nor what I did..." When Gwen said this, The voice was trembling a little, and Raymond could faintly hear a hint of crying in the girl's voice——

She turned her head to look at herself, and Raymond could read her frustration from the girl's eyes—in the water-blue eyes, he almost thought it was a sea of ​​sadness: "I really Is it... insignificant?"

The death of Peter Parker made Gwen Stacy insist that what she had received was a valuable gift and that she had to do something for this specialness - but if it was all meaningless...

If what he did was meaningless, wouldn't Peter Parker's death also be meaningless?Are all her efforts, blood, and sacrifices meaningless?And her break with her father meant nothing... her, Gwen Stacy, the whole thing meant nothing? !

Thinking of this, Gwen shuddered, and she turned her gaze to the silent Raymond. At this time, Gwen was not the powerful Spider-Woman, she was just a little girl who opened the door of her home and glimpsed the dark and cold world outside.

As Gwen Stacy, she could retreat home and continue to dream up her most realistic house plans in that warm little house with a burning fireplace, pretending that she could change something - but she knew in her heart that I would never dare to step into that world.

Raymond held the girl's hand, Gwen's was cold, and Raymond's was warm.For a moment, the girl was a little bit greedy for the warmth he gave—inadvertently, Gwen's hand clenched a little bit.Raymond felt the touch from his hand, and smiled lightly:
"Actually, I've thought about this problem before." Gwen found that she kind of liked Raymond's lowered voice when telling stories. For the first time, she felt that his somewhat abrupt and awkward English accent was actually quite pleasant to the ears -

"At that time, I was in Oxford first and then MIT, and I felt that I was omnipotent and could definitely do something." Raymond looked into Gwen's eyes calmly, and even the waves in Gwen's eyes calmed down: "But in fact, I found that whether it is participating in the system or staying in the society to do things, there is a set of rules that are not so honorable."

"Everyone is not perfect, so a society made up of everyone cannot be perfect. Imperfection is not wrong, but it will always become all kinds of resistance, making you feel—God, what I do is like It’s back to the original point, where I can only ask something feebly—”

Raymond smiled and read out the sentence he used to ask when he was young: "It's always been like this, isn't it?"

"At that time, I felt like a clown. I remember one time, I was walking on the road, watching the street lights gradually turn on, and my heart was numb. I asked myself, what am I doing now? What are I fighting for? Why are I working hard? ? Why pay?"

"You know what? The answer is no, I'm just relying on inertia to survive, that's all."

Gwen looked at Raymond with a bleak smile, and the girl's heart sank.

"I knew then that the boy in me was finally dead, and I was finally familiar with this society."

Raymond was talking, and the hand he held with Gwen tightened a little more—Gwen's hand finally warmed up.He raised his head to meet the girl's eyes, and saw himself smiling in her water-blue pupils:

"But I met a girl named Gwen Stacy."

"She has a dual identity, but it's really hard to live because of it. She plays the role assigned to her by society, and she also plays the role of a superhero who is detached from society and trying to save others."

"These two roles almost tore this slender girl apart, but she just gritted her teeth and persisted. No matter how hard it was, she could stand up again and again and become that optimistic and heroic figure again. ."

When Raymond said this, he looked directly into Gwen's eyes without avoiding it - the girl looked at his serious face, shyly avoided that gaze, and lowered her head.Gwen didn't notice that her face was getting hot, and she didn't even know how to position the corners of her upturned mouth.

The girl suppressed the joy and joy welling up in her heart, lowered her voice and asked: "So I am so good in your eyes?"

"Of course." Raymond smiled, "You're Spider-Woman."

In the unprecedented busyness, crimes full of intrigues, exhaustive defenses, weaving of intelligence networks, and coping with social and interpersonal relationships, in this short respite, Spider-Woman finally enjoys the joy that belongs to Gwen Stacy. happy.

"So -" Raymond said, "When I saw you, I knew that the boy in my heart had never died. He was just hiding, and he was just silently learning what to do."

"He told me that for some things, doing it is half the battle, and what the consequences are should not be considered when doing what should be done. People, it's no fun to protect yourself for a long time."

"He told me he learned it from a girl named Gwen Stacy."

"He also said that he thought that girl named Gwen Stacy was one of the best and most powerful figures!"

Warmth spread throughout Gwen's body, and the girl cheered up again.She took a deep breath and said softly: "Come here."

"what?"

"I said, come closer." When Gwen repeated this sentence for the second time, her voice was so low that she could hardly hear herself.

Raymond, who was usually calm, was a little nervous. He seemed to realize what was going to happen, but he just mechanically moved the chair closer to the girl.

Gwen retracted her hands, and the nervous girl held the quilt tightly. She took a deep breath, and visually checked the distance between Raymond's chest and her head, and clenched her fists hidden in the quilt—— call!do my best!
The girl's head slowly tilted to the side, and when she was about to lean into Raymond's arms——

"Boom boom boom!"

"Is Professor Raymond Xu here?"

A woman's voice came from outside the door, and Gwen quickly shrank back in shock. Raymond also suddenly woke up from the sweetness of young men and women, and realized that the person lying on the bed was his student.He lowered his head, coughed lightly, and completed the identity change: "I am here, may I ask who you are?"

With that said, the professor stood up and straightened his clothes.He also glanced nervously at Gwen on the bed, and the girl quickly pulled up the quilt and lay down on the hospital bed pretending to be weak.

The door of the ward was pushed open, and Helen Zhao, who was wearing a blue slim dress, walked in with a smile: "Professor Xu, leaving your guests at the airport is not the way to treat them~"

Gwen couldn't help but cast her eyes on the woman who opened the door and came in - seeing the oriental beauty with long black hair, the blonde girl couldn't help but feel pleasing to the eye.

"I answered the phone and said your student was sick, so I rushed over to see..." Zhao Hailun walked over with a smile and placed the condolences she bought on Gwen's bedside, but her eyes remained on Raymond. On De: "He is a really good teacher who cares about his students."

"Dr. Zhao." Raymond seemed a little restrained in front of Gwen, "What are you?"

"I'll be a member of your lab from now on!" Helen Zhao pulled a chair over and sat down on Gwen's bed, "Your students may call me teacher if they don't know."

Saying that, Zhao Hailun glanced at the girl lying on the bed meaningfully: "Then you have set an example of caring for students, so of course I want to get closer to such a beautiful girl!"

After speaking, Helen Zhao reached out to Gwen before the embarrassed Raymond could answer, "Hi, my name is Helen Zhao, the new teacher in Professor Xu's laboratory."

The eyes of the women intersected in an instant, and Gwen Stacy showed her grace: "Hello, Dr. Zhao, I am Gwen Stacy, an intern of Professor Xu."

"Are you just an intern? I thought you were his graduate student. Professor Xu pays so much attention to you." Helen Zhao took an apple, then turned back to Raymond with a bright smile: "Can you peel an apple for me? I'm not very good at."

"I will." Seeing that Raymond was about to take the apple, the silent Gwen suddenly interrupted, "Peeling apples is a very simple job, just leave it to me."

Saying that, Gwen took the initiative to reach out to pick it up——Raymond froze for a moment, then handed over the apple Helen Zhao handed over to Gwen.

The beautiful black-haired doctor looked at the interaction between the young man and woman and raised her eyebrows, but she didn't attack in the end: "Then thank you, classmate Gwen."

She pronounced the word "classmate" very strongly, as if she was deliberately emphasizing it.

　I will only play this trick once at most, and I assure readers that real progress is within the plan!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)