Poverty is just doing justice for the sky

Chapter 26 Avoidance of Attachment
"My daughter-in-law loves to cook, so I eat her cooking exclusively. After eating for more than 100 years, I'm used to it."

Bai Ze didn't notice anything wrong with Ye Qingshuang's attitude, so he answered her question seriously.

Here Lin Yuan's eyes changed again and again, Bai Ze didn't look at him in a daze, he made a statement in desperation: "Bai Ze, go back to the umbrella for a while."

"Why wow? Chase me away without eating." Bai Ze slapped the wooden table with his paw, quite dissatisfied.

"Go back first, I'll let you eat your fill later." Lin Yuan was tired, this ancestor didn't have the slightest sense of sight.

Bai Ze hesitated to return the umbrella, Lin Yuan pressed the talisman to look at her, and asked gently: "Are you happy today?"

"pretty good."

"Where is there a fly in the ointment, do you need to improve?"

He was very patient, but Ye Qingshuang was momentarily speechless.

Because his behavior made her feel like a child throwing a temper tantrum, obviously he did nothing wrong, obviously they were all serious about treating her well, but she... didn't know what was good and what was wrong.

It was the first time she saw her illness intuitively like this, but she was already terminally ill.

She is greedy for the warmth of being cared for, but she can't give any reliance to those who care about her, and she is even afraid of relying on, afraid of creating fetters, and afraid of bloody hurt after trust.

Also afraid of them saying, you really let me down.

Even if she has nothing, she is still afraid.

So she subconsciously refused them to get close to and understand herself, all because she was afraid of being abandoned.

It turned out that she had lost the ability to trust...

Ye Qingshuang suddenly burst into tears.

There has never been a moment like this that made her understand that she was in pain, but it was so deep that she didn't even realize it.

She always said that she has no obsessions and doesn't care about anything anymore, but she couldn't lie to herself during the dragon boat race by the Xuanwen River.

The pain that day was like a poisoned spider web embedded in the bones, the pain was too painful to live, and it was unbreakable.

She gritted her teeth in full view and refused to beg for mercy. In the end, she was locked in darkness forever.

The hot liquid like magma tightly wrapped her, eroding her inch by inch.Every inch of ash on her body melted into the vial, leaving nothing.

She remembers it all!

I remember the expressions of hatred and fear, the excited and cruel eyes of the monk, and their cheers.

"A Shuang... What's the matter? Don't cry, okay, what did I do wrong, tell me to change it, okay? If you get angry, hit me to get angry?"

Lin Yuan was at a loss, wanted to wipe her tears but was afraid that she would hate him approaching, so pour water for her, but she wouldn't drink it.

He was really afraid of people crying, especially because he didn't know why he was crying, and he was completely at a loss.

"Bai Ze, come out!" He patted the umbrella and begged for help in a disheveled manner: "Your little Shuang'er is crying badly, come out and coax her!"

Bai Ze jumped out when he heard the words, his voice was full of worry: "What's wrong with you, son?"

"Don't cry, don't cry, I feel sorry for dead uncle." Bai Ze arched into Ye Qingshuang's arms and hugged her head like a human: "Don't cry, son, tell uncle if you have any grievances, uncle will support you, tell me ,Who bullied you?"

She buried herself in the white hair around his neck, weeping uncontrollably.

Bai Ze has the talent to be a father, he hugged her and coaxed her so patiently that even Lin Yuan clicked his tongue in amazement, ashamed of himself.

Some emotions have been suppressed for a long time, and once there is a breakthrough, they will come out continuously. When she recovers, it is time for the moon to hang on the treetops.

"Sorry for delaying you." She was still crying, but she returned to her polite and distant appearance.

"It's okay, son, if you have something to tell uncle, don't hold back, uncle will vent your anger on you." Bai Ze was very proud, and didn't care about the wet mess on his neck.

"What did you call me just now? I didn't hear clearly." Ye Qingshuang wiped away the water from the corners of her eyes, her eyes were flushed, and there was a broken feeling like glass between her brows, which made people feel distressed.

"Shuang... Shuangzi, little Shuangzi..." Bai Ze stammered in fear of making her cry again.

"Oh."

oh?Now Lin Yuan really felt the difference. Didn't she dislike the name Xiao Shuangzi before?How could he be treated so differently from Bai Ze?
But in this scene, he didn't dare to say anything, so he had to swallow his breath first, and then settle the score later when he finds an opportunity!

"Linyuan." She called him suddenly.

"Huh? Sorry, I shouldn't..."

He was still racking his brains to figure out what was wrong, but Ye Qingshuang answered his words.

"Sorry, it's my problem."

"It's okay, I'm fine." Lin Yuan was flattered.

He is indeed fine, but she has been crying for so long, no matter how you look at it, she has more problems than him.

"Also, thank you."

Lin Yuan became more and more confused and frightened: "You're welcome, you should."

"But, can you not be too nice to me in the future?"

"Okay... huh?" What kind of request is this?
Lin Yuan swallowed carefully, and asked, "Can I ask the reason?"

"Why do I ask you a rascal, I have always seen something wrong with you, but you still don't admit it!" Bai Ze confronted his master very protectively.

"I didn't play hooligans." Lin Yuan died of injustice, wanting to cry but no tears.

"Yes, he didn't." She comforted Bai Ze, and Fang turned to him and continued: "But I'm not paying you back."

After crying for so long, she was able to say this sentence without any hindrance.

"I come from a family of merchants, and it is my nature to be careful and careful. There is a set of standards for repaying what I get, but I can't afford to pay back your care and love for me, so I don't dare to accept it."

Well, this is no longer discrimination, it is simply one in heaven and one in hell!

"What about Bai Ze? Do you dare to accept it?"

"It..." Ye Qingshuang looked over, Bai Ze coaxed her for a while, and now she was so thirsty that she licked the water to drink: "It is not in human form, and the feeling it gives me is different from yours."

"I'm an elder, he's a hooligan, of course it's different!" Bai Ze took it for granted.

"Stop talking nonsense!" Lin Yuan was so angry that his brain ached, and he was still struggling: "I'm really not..."

"I know. It's my own problem. I can't bear to owe others. It has nothing to do with you. I don't blame you." She has completely recovered her calm now, and her tone is as indifferent as usual.

"Why do you feel indebted to me?" He pressed his forehead, trying to make himself as calm and gentle as possible: "A Shuang, didn't we agree to treat you?"

"Everything I do is to make you happy and to regain hope in the world. In exchange for it, you need to wander with me and go through all kinds of dangerous hardships. Tell me what you owe me?"

"I don't know what will happen to me in my cloud travel. This strength is not enough for me to drink and eat. It all depends on you and Bai Ze to protect me. The moonlight water you are good at is exactly what I need, but I just give it to you." You just pay some warmth within your ability to cure the disease."

"A Shuang, you are so important, I cannot do without your help, I owe you, do you understand?"

　Longing but not daring to approach is called avoidant attachment, which is easy for people with traumatized native families.A hurt person needs to be affirmed her value over and over again by others, otherwise she will doubt herself and even feel that it would be better without her.

　　In fact, the emotional line between the two has not officially started yet, Lin Yuan is in the state of an enthusiastic person who loves you so he pulls you up, and the relationship is budding.Shuang Shuangzi doesn't understand love at all, but she is subconsciously attracted by warmth and afraid of getting hurt again.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)