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Chapter 98
Cheng Jia returned to EEDS alone, Xiao Li stayed in Manzhouli to coordinate the upgrading of the loading station, and Li Ye went to the coal mines in Outer Mongolia.

Cheng Jia has returned to her formerly peaceful life, going to work, spending time with her children, dealing with different people... She lives step by step every day, trying her best to keep a smile on her face.

However, her heart was no longer peaceful.

Cheng Jia sat on the sofa every day and watched the children running around, expressionless, and neither happy nor sad.Sicheng lived in her house, and when Cheng Jia saw him, she thought of Li Ye, and couldn't tell what was going on in her heart...

She started rubbing the stones in Gao Zhan's collection again, rubbing them endlessly, over and over again, taking out all the stones.

After rubbing the stones, she went to the gym to run crazily. She was exhausted and sweaty before stopping.

She sat on the bench, recalling the past when she and Gao Zhan wiped each other's sweat.As soon as the nose was sore, the tears fell uncontrollably.

She approached the bicycle slowly, took off the white cloth covering it, and rang the bicycle bell one by one.

"Ringling, ringling! Dear Ms. Cheng Jia..."

In my mind, Gao Zhan is gentle and elegant, with a gentle smile...

She was crying and continued to press.

Gao Zhan's broad shoulders seem to be right in front of his eyes, but he can never touch them—the most painful thing in the world is that he is still in love, but he can't have it or touch it!
Cheng Jia's heart was depressed, she pressed it hard and quickly, tears could not stop rolling down...

Sister Liu opened the door, saw Cheng Jia crying, and closed it quietly again.

Cheng Jia continued to press, kept pressing, trying to press out all the thoughts in her heart and this unreasonable boredom.She listened to the bell, as if she was running, Gao Zhan followed behind her.Cheng Jia closed her eyes, feeling Gao Zhan's body temperature, smell, smile...she didn't want to open them, because everything would disappear and she would be alone again.The loneliness of losing a lover, the loneliness that can't be dismissed, the bottomless loneliness in the middle of the night, you can only understand it after experiencing it!
Cheng Jia had cried enough and walked back to the bedroom slowly.Sitting on the bed, he habitually picked up Gao Zhan's pajamas, and Li Ye's words echoed in his ears:

"Then what do you want? Live with a ball of air? Look at his clothes every night?"

Panting heavily, she looked at the dress, grabbed it frantically, and threw it on the ground desperately.

She cried in her heart: "Gao Zhan, I hate you! You really left when you said you would leave. What's the use of me holding the clothes? That's not you! I don't have a husband, I live in an empty shell, every day Alone, I want to pretend to be strong and happy, but where are you? You are so bad, you let me forget you, but you left me!"

Cheng Jia cried with her head in her arms.

Gao Cheng heard his mother's cry and walked in. He hugged Cheng Jia who was crying.

"mom!"

Gao Cheng just yelled, and didn't speak any more, just shedding tears silently.

Cheng Jia hugged Gao Cheng, crying so presumptuously for the first time in this home.

The workers, nannies, and housekeepers downstairs all heard her cry, but they all remained silent.

Sicheng heard the crying, and squatted in the corner with Gao Miao.He took out the phone that Li Ye had left for him.

"father!"

Hearing his son's voice, Li Ye smiled and said, "Sicheng! Do you miss Dad?"

Faintly, Li Ye heard Cheng Jia's crying, and it became louder and louder.Sicheng took the phone and climbed to the door of Cheng Jia's bedroom on the second floor, and continued:
"Dad, when are you coming back? Auntie is crying loudly! I'm a little scared, I miss you!"

Li Ye was in a mess when he heard Cheng Jia's howling.He calmed down a little and comforted Sicheng.

"You and Yu'er can go back to the room, you have fun! Auntie will be fine in a while, don't be afraid. Dad will go back soon!"

Li Ye also wanted to say that Sicheng had already hung up the phone.

He wanted to call back, but hesitantly gave up.

Li Ye felt like a knife was piercing his heart, and Cheng Jia sounded so sad!He regretted leaving her side, at least he shouldn't have left angrily.But how did he comfort her?There is a hurdle between him and Cheng Jia that cannot be overcome, and that hurdle is the life and death of another person!Before Gao Zhan was alive, he could still fight and fight with him, but he died.No matter how determined I am to love Cheng Jia well so that she doesn't remember Gao Zhan, I still have to have that chance.Cheng Jia closed her heart tightly and rejected all outsiders. If he wasn't Cheng Jia's ex-husband, he might not even hear a word of her sincere words, and would not have the chance to get close to her.

Li Ye picked up the cigarette in annoyance, and smoked heavily.After taking a few puffs, he pressed the button again, called the driver and said, "We're leaving now, can we catch the earliest flight back..."

Cheng Jia's tears dried up and she stopped crying.She looked at Gao Cheng in her arms, looked at his eyes that were exactly the same as Gao Zhan, and said, "I'm sorry, son! Did mom scare you! It's mom's fault!"

She suddenly saw the pajamas she had thrown away, and rushed to pick it up.

Gao Cheng cried and wiped her tears: "Mom! I'm not afraid! What do we need to be afraid of compared to losing our father? I just hope you live a happy life, and I think your father thinks so too! Mom, why do you crying so sad?"

Cheng Jia felt that there were too many words to say, so she smoothed Gao Zhan's pajamas carefully.whispered:
"Son, grow up quickly! Grow up and be as good as daddy! Mommy will be happy then! I love you, son! Mommy will do anything for you! You are my only son with daddy! You don't have to care!"

Gao Cheng said: "I don't need you to do anything for me! I just want you to be happy, and I want you to be the happy mother you used to be! I promised my father to take care of you!"

Cheng Jia sniffed and nodded...

For several days, Cheng Jia was in an extremely depressed mood.

Xiao Li called and Cheng Jia picked it up.

Maybe there's something wrong with the station upgrade? —she thought.

"Cheng Jia! No, there was a car accident at Li Ye's place. Several cars collided and someone died!"

Cheng Jia was cold all over. She stood up and asked loudly, "How is Li Ye? Are you sure it's his car?"

"They must have been the ones who crashed the car! Photos of the car were sent to me, but there were many injured people. At that time, a bus hit a sheep and then overturned. Some cars behind it overturned and fell into the river. There were a lot of casualties, the signal there was not good, and I couldn’t get through to the mobile phone of the people there! The person sent to check couldn’t get in touch! I don’t know who died or who was injured, and I don’t know what happened to Mr. Li. Sample?"

Cheng Jia felt dizzy, and she suddenly collapsed beside the table.

"Li Ye! He will be fine!"

Cheng Jia was talking to herself, but fear had already taken hold of her limbs, she had already lost Gao Zhan, and she would definitely not be able to bear this feeling a second time.

At this moment, she suddenly felt that nothing was important anymore, as long as Li Ye didn't leave him, she would give him whatever he wanted!She can no longer bear the pain of loss!

With trembling hands, Cheng Jia called the office: "Book a plane ticket to Ulaanbaatar immediately."

A short while later, the office called back and told her there was no ticket.Cheng Jia yelled: "Then charter a flight! I don't care what method you use? I want to go there as soon as possible, don't tell me any difficulties! Just tell me the result!"

Cheng Jia hung up the phone and sat on the chair in pain, her hands were shaking violently, and she covered her face helplessly.

When Gao Zhan left her, she chose to be brave, but in the end she was powerless to fight against fate.

She loves Gao Zhan, but Gao Zhan has left him for more than 1000 days.How sweet it was once, how painful these more than 1000 days and nights are.Without Li Ye, Cheng Jia would not be able to survive at all. Regardless of whether she loves Li Ye or not, Cheng Jia knows at this moment that she cannot lose him again...

A day later, Cheng Jia arrived in Ulan Bator.She doesn't speak English, and the Russian that Cheng Jia learned at school is useless here!The world is full of languages ​​she doesn't understand, and all the faces that catch her eyes are unfamiliar.

People from the International Trading Company came to pick up Cheng Jia. His Mandarin was very bad. They communicated for a long time, but Cheng Jia still couldn't understand what he was saying.

Cheng Jia took a photo of him, sent it back to the company to confirm that it was the person who picked her up, and then scolded the office director for not arranging an interpreter for him.

It was almost dark before she got into the car.

The driver wanted to take her to dinner, and she told him to go directly to Li Ye, and they talked for a long time.

The driver took Cheng Jia to the hospital. Cheng Jia looked at the strange words in the hospital and saw the white eyes, feeling extremely helpless—the hospital was the place she hated the most in her life.

Was Li Ye seriously injured or something?He shouldn't have died, otherwise why would he be in the hospital.

The driver patted her, motioned her to wait, and walked away.Cheng Jia looked around for the medical guidance desk, but didn't pay attention to these at all.

She walked to the medical guidance desk, tried to communicate and asked how to check Li Ye's information.

The staff couldn't understand what she said, and being confused by her, Cheng Jia cried out in anxiety.

Finally there was a person beside her who could understand her, and he helped Cheng Jia ask Li Ye's ward.

The doctor told Cheng Jia: There is no information about Li Ye!
Cheng Jia was helpless and anxious, she planned to search from ward to ward.When I turned around, I realized that the driver had disappeared...

She has been in the hospital for a long time, different departments, outpatient clinics, emergency departments, inpatient departments, and even examination rooms. She has searched everywhere she can, but there is no Li Ye anywhere.

Cheng Jia cried in fear: Is Li Ye dead?Why did the driver drop her here and leave?
Cheng Jia hadn't eaten for a day, and she was a little dizzy at this moment, feeling soft on the soles of her feet.She wanted to call the company and ask if Li Ye could be reached, but she couldn't find the phone no matter what.

Cheng Jia was very sad: she came so far, just to look for Li Ye, but now she doesn't even know his life or death, what if Li Ye dies?Cheng Jia cried and squatted on the ground.

The more she cried, the more sad she became: If I had known, she would have treated Li Ye better in Manchuria?What he said was so sincere, but he didn't say a single clear word, and didn't give any response!I am sad that I can't get Gao Zhan's love, but I am so cruel to Li Ye who is in the same situation!Thinking about how he couldn't let go of himself and loved him all the time, Cheng Jia regretted it!Gao Zhan has already left, what is she still clinging to?Li Ye almost went bankrupt because of her, and indirectly because of him being imprisoned. If this is not considered love, what else is she asking for?

Thinking of Li Sicheng, Cheng Jia beat her chest and feet sadly, Gao Cheng and Gao Miao have lost their father, what can Sicheng do?If I hadn't made Li Ye angry, maybe he wouldn't have come to Mongolia, maybe he wouldn't have had a car accident.Think about it, after I met Li Ye, I did not bring him any good things. My marriage failed, my child miscarried, my company was damaged, I was imprisoned for a few more years, and I got divorced...

She was too ashamed of Li Ye.

After Gao Zhan passed away, Li Ye persisted and dragged her back from the death line, but he was so cruel to him!

Cheng Jia thought of Li Ye's painful eyes when he saw him for the last time, and felt a deep pain in his heart.

Li Ye said that he was too scary, indeed he was too scary!Why make him angry?Why did you let him leave in a fit of anger?Why not call him to coax him?Knowing that Li Ye has a bad temper, why did he insist on it?
Cheng Jia simply burst into tears.

The people in the hospital thought that Cheng Jia had died and wanted to talk to her, but she just cried and couldn't listen to anything.

Everyone surrounded her, discussing in a hurry.

(End of this chapter)