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Chapter 30
Gao Zhan took Cheng Jia to the shopping center.

"This place is no different than Nanjing. You have to wear a coat sooner or later. I think most of the clothes you brought over are too thin. Let's buy a few."

Cheng Jia was moved by Gao Zhan's carefulness, she smiled slightly.

Cheng Jia kept trying on clothes, and occasionally showed Gao Zhan to ask his opinion. Gao Zhan sat beside him and watched carefully. When Cheng Jia finished trying on clothes, Gao Zhan had already paid for it.

"I haven't decided which one to buy, how did you pay for it?"

"It looks good to me! Clothes, let's change!" Gao Zhan said naively.

Cheng Jia wanted to go back, but Gao Zhan grabbed her.

"Don't! I haven't bought it yet?"

In the end, I went to another women's clothing store and bought a lot for Cheng Jia.

"Aren't you going to buy it?" Cheng Jia asked him.

"I must be a large size. There are relatively few such large numbers in this kind of shopping mall. I don't think it's troublesome to try!" Gao Zhan said a little aggrieved.

Cheng Jia pouted, "Forget it! You are wearing custom-made clothes!"

Gao Zhan chuckled, "Men! There are only a few things that can be exchanged, then you can choose for me and see if I still need to process it!"

He carried a lot of things and followed Cheng Jia with a flattering expression.

The salesperson in the mall poked her head out, "I'm so happy! See how nice her husband is to her!"

Gao Zhan looked proud.

After returning the clothes to the car, Cheng Jia sat in silently. When she came to Inner Mongolia, Gao Zhan always spent money on her. She felt that she owed him too much. Gao Zhan's operating expenses for the divorce must be huge. Don't even tell her.

Gao Zhan opened the door, "Come down! I haven't bought it yet!"

Cheng Jia said, "I won't buy it! Let's go back!"

"I want you to help me choose some clothes!" Gao Zhan looked at Cheng Jia's small face and saw through her thoughts at a glance.

"You're lying! I won't choose for you!" Cheng Jia pouted.

Gao Zhan stretched out his big hand, and lifted Cheng Jia out of the car like a chicken.

"This selfish woman! Don't care about me after you buy it yourself!"

Cheng Jia exclaimed and beat his arm lightly.

They walked into the men's clothing store, Gao Zhan's clothes were really difficult to choose, and there were many styles without numbers.

Gao Zhan stood there, and Cheng Jia took the clothes and compared them to him, and then picked out a few for Gao Zhan to try on. After Gao Zhan put them on, Cheng Jia came to help him tidy them up again.

Gao Zhan looked at Cheng Jia who was circling around him. Her hair was draped softly on her shoulders. Occasionally, a few strands would slip off because of bending over, and the unique fragrance would float out. Her eyes flickered because of her seriousness, and her eyelashes Long and upturned, a pair of dexterous hands patted him back and forth, and the breath of her voice was very close to her.

He felt very happy instantly, and really hoped that time would freeze at this moment.

Finally, Gao Zhan picked out Cheng Jia's favorite T-shirt.Said to Cheng Jia:
"Pay! I want you to give me this one!"

Cheng Jia was taken aback, and then happily paid.

Gao Zhan took the clothes, looked at Cheng Jia dotingly and smiled.

After shopping for clothes, they went to eat the hot pot that Cheng Jia was thinking about.

Back at Gao Zhan's home, Cheng Jia went into his study first, turned on the computer to see if there was any reply to the email.

Gao Zhan laughed at her: "It's a pity that you have also been involved in personnel affairs. The resume you just submitted yesterday must be given time to be screened!"

Cheng Jia said: "I don't like to be idle at home, and the idea of ​​work is always—just around the corner." She said the last four words in a very strong tone.

Gao Zhan came over, stood behind her and bent over, and said, "Let me see your resume!"

Cheng Jia opened it, and Gao Zhan said: "This resume is so excellent, others will think it is fake! There are too many formulaic language, and the professionalism is used in the wrong place!"

Cheng Jia was instantly unconvinced, she turned her head: "You know, it's true!"

Her face almost touched Gao Zhan's, and they could feel each other's breath. Gao Zhan looked into her bright and clear eyes, and his heart beat instantly accelerated.

Cheng Jia turned her head, suppressed her racing heartbeat, and muttered, "Then how do you write it properly!"

Gao Zhan's deep voice rang in Cheng Jia's ears, as if possessed of magic power, which made her unable to concentrate.

Cheng Jia simply closed the computer and walked away in a panic.

"I'll talk about it tomorrow, I'm sleepy!" Then he closed the door and left without looking back.

Gao Zhan stared at her blankly, his big piercing eyes full of attachment, he sighed, picked up his pajamas and went to take a bath, the water temperature was a little low.

The next day, Cheng Jia received interview calls from several companies, and Gao Zhan helped her eliminate a few.Cheng Jia asked him, "Why don't you ask me for my opinion?"

"Don't go to places that are too far away, it will be hard to run around! You are hotheaded and not familiar with traffic, I will help you check!"

Cheng Jia turned around and leaned against the table, half-sitting with her legs crossed.

"It's been a long time since I've been looking for a job. When our company was recruiting, we always complained that we couldn't find the right people. Now that I'm looking for a job, I haven't found the right company. It's interesting to think about it."

Gao Zhan looked at her, "This is supply and demand!"

He poured a glass of water and handed it to Cheng Jia. "Don't worry, take your time!"

Cheng Jia nodded.

"I'll take you somewhere tomorrow."

"Where to go?"

"Shi Nizhao," Gao Zhan continued calmly, "Just bring some clothes, we may not come back at night."

"I don't know what kind of place it is from the name? You won't sell me into a ravine, will you?" Cheng Jia raised his eyebrows mischievously.

Gao Zhan laughed loudly, and rubbed Cheng Jia's head, "Maybe! At that time, I will sell you to a sheep herder and let you herd sheep every day!"

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The next day, Gao Zhan asked Cheng Jia to have breakfast early. He made buns and freshly squeezed soy milk...

Cheng Jia picked up the steamed stuffed bun to study, "Mr. Gao, are you an all-round man? You can actually make such delicious steamed stuffed buns, I can't bear to eat them!"

Gao Zhan handed her the peeled egg, "Eat it, cherish this bun, I don't always have time to make it." Then he swallowed the egg in one gulp.

Cheng Jia hurriedly gave him the soy milk, and said with a smile, "If you eat like this when you go out to socialize, you will definitely scare others to death!"

Gao Zhan smiled: "Otherwise, why do people always talk about relaxing at home! Going out is a form of socializing, and going home is a form of relaxation!"

After Cheng Jia tidied up the dishes, Gao Zhan walked to the elevator with the big and small bags.

"Didn't you say simply bring something? Why do you take so much?"

"I said you simply bring it, but didn't mention me. I brought a tent, picnic cloth and other things. It's inconvenient to buy there!" Gao Zhan walked out while talking.

They will be here soon.Cheng Jia got out of the car, and a majestic temple came into view, folded and shining under the sunlight.

Cheng Jia shaded the sun with his hand, and saw the golden Buddha Shakyamuni standing not far away, with one hand stretched forward, and the other standing vertically in front of his chest.

"This place is so spectacular! Gao Zhan, that Buddha statue is so tall!"

Gao Zhan was taking water and a hat from the trunk, when he heard what Cheng Jia said, he raised his head and looked at the Buddha statue, "It is said to be 28 meters!"

After locking the car, Gao Zhan handed the hat to Cheng Jia, "The sun in Inner Mongolia is very strong, be careful you get sunburned!"

Walking into the temple, the first thing that comes into sight is the Daxiong Hall. Cheng Jia and Gao Zhan walked in and worshiped the gods and Buddhas devoutly.Neither of them is Buddhist, but their experience together in XZ has fostered an unspoken understanding of their beliefs.

Then, they went to the lecture hall, sat on the ground and listened to Buddhist songs.Cheng Jia also learned to meditate. She closed her eyes, and the tranquil, natural, fresh, and elegant melody brought her a sense of coolness.

Hearing "Seeing that the five aggregates are all empty...", Cheng Jia felt her heart move, and all kinds of feelings came to her heart. When the "Heart Sutra" was finished and she opened her eyes, Gao Zhan handed her a piece of paper, and then she knew it. I shed tears all over my face.

It has been said that there is a wounded child in everyone's heart, and we spend our lives trying to reconcile with this child, who is our own past.Some hurts are branded in your heart inadvertently. Over the years, you think it is gone, and suddenly it will be awakened one day.Cheng Jia also lived in such a child in her heart. She thought that when she came to Inner Mongolia, all the sad past would be forgotten, at least it would not make her heartbroken. Only now did she understand that the hurt never went away, it was just hidden by her Woke up.

After leaving the lecture hall, Gao Zhan took her to the lake in the North District, where they sat on chairs.Cheng Jia wiped her eyes carefully, fearing that the eye makeup would be blurred.

Gao Zhan said: "I used to come here when I was in a bad mood. Sometimes I put everything down and stayed for a few days. I know the people here very well, and outsiders can't just go in."

Cheng Jia said: "I thought you didn't have any troubles, you see everything so openly! It seems that you are so powerful that you seem to be omnipotent."

"How come? Everyone matures step by step from ignorance and ignorance. Why do I have no worries?" Gao Zhan looked at Cheng Jia and continued:
"Buddhism talks about 'letting go', not to let us hide and escape, but to face it, and then overcome it, and truly know how to let go.

Some people have never killed in their lives, but they have been muddled all their lives. Some people can realize it as soon as they put down the butcher knife. The important thing is not what they do, but the attitude towards these things. The real understanding and practice is here! "Gao Zhan pointed to his chest.

Cheng Jia's eyes were moist again.

"I know you have been hurt a lot these years, and you are brooding on it, but you have to understand that everyone has their own unspeakable secrets and deep pains. As a human being, the instinct is to see yourself first, and then take care of others. This is human nature. , so you have to be tolerant, and use a kind of great love to tolerate other people's harm to you, maybe it is just a derivative of others' self-protection.

No one blames a child for messing around, because he doesn't understand!The same goes for adults. Although many people seem to have grown up, they are also very naive when dealing with some problems. If they hurt you, you must forgive them!If you forgive him, you will let yourself go, and you will really let go!Treat him with compassion, as a child. "

Gao Zhan said earnestly: "Whether it's breaking up or getting divorced, Cheng Jia, in the future you will understand that many things will become small things in the end. It's just a trivial thing in your life, and it will pass! Don't use Punish yourself for the troubles of the past, even if you are wrong! Because we can't do it all over again, we can only move forward, only the things ahead are in your control!"

Cheng Jia nodded while weeping.

Gao Zhan was very distressed, and he gently wiped away Cheng Jia's tears with his rough fingers.

"Cheng Jia, don't cry! I hope you will laugh every day. Life is too short, why should we be hard on ourselves? Do whatever you want, be worthy of the world, and don't treat yourself badly. Forget all the unpleasant things, forgive them, Take them lightly, okay?"

Cheng Jia's tears flowed even more fiercely, she suddenly threw herself into Gao Zhan's arms, choked up and said, "Okay, I forgive them!"

I was thinking in my heart: Gao Zhan, if one day I lose you, I will definitely not forgive myself!

Gao Zhan patted Cheng Jia gently.

"Look, Cheng Jia, the scenery in the distance is so beautiful!"

(End of this chapter)