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Chapter 120 Mo Xiaobei's confession was rejected

Gu Yan stood up, went to the kitchen and poured a cup of honey water for her with Mo Xiaobei's usual cup, and put it in front of her.

Then he took away the wine glass in front of Mo Xiaobei and said, "Drink some honey water, it will help you sleep."

Mo Xiaobei looked at the cup that belonged to him: "Although this cup is too girly, I like it very much, thank you."

She took a sip of water from the cup and said, "Just like this cup, you did a lot of things that I didn't discover, or that I realized later."

Gu Yan took a sip of his wine and said, "Yes, Xiaobei, I like you." He took another sip and said, "Maybe it's just that I like you."

Mo Xiaobei's expression changed following Gu Yan's words, and he said in satisfaction, "It's enough to like it."

"You also know that I like you, right?" Mo Xiaobei blurted out without thinking. On the one hand, she was a little annoyed, but on the other hand, she was very glad that she didn't weigh the pros and cons this time.

At this moment, there seemed to be a clear spring in her eyes, and the expectation and anxiety were clearly visible in the smile.

How could Gu Yan not know, but he never expected that Mo Xiaobei, who has always been cautious, would be so straightforward and enthusiastic.

At this moment, Gu Yan knew that the warmth and love he had given Mo Xiaobei for a long time might become her emotional shackles for a long time.

Mo Xiaobei's anticipation made him a little nervous. He sat up straight and tapped the phone case with his slender fingers.

Gu Yan didn't know what tone and language to use so as not to hurt Mo Xiaobei.

He adjusted his breath, prepared his belly draft, and said gently: "Although you are still very young, you have to know that some things in life are very costly to try and make mistakes, and you have to know how to stop losses in time. It is very suitable for us to stay in this position with each other .”

Gu Yan used three "very" to emphasize the impossibility between them.

Use "very young" to emphasize the age gap between them.

Use "the cost of trial and error is very high" to tell Mo Xiaobei that even if he is willing, Mo Xiaobei will regret it in the future, and let him not be too impulsive.

Give yourself an answer that says "it's a great fit" - they're fine as they are.

But Mo Xiaobei only heard the middle part, so he thought for a while and said, "Sometimes, I think that trial and error may be an indispensable part of our clumsy and enthusiastic life."

She didn't dare to look into Gu Yan's eyes, and turned her eyes to other places. Gu Yan could see the joy she couldn't conceal on her face.

Mo Xiaobei pursed his lips, and continued: "Our life may be trial and error again and again, whether it is work or love, if you don't try it, how will you know if it is suitable? In fact, each of us is trial and error. I stumbled and stumbled on the road, and then I learned to move forward and grow!"

Such a brave and enthusiastic Mo Xiaobei is completely different from the self she once said. Gu Yan can't imagine that this is the Mo Xiaobei who cares about gains and losses with his first love boyfriend.

Sensibility and rationality are constantly pulling Gu Yan...

"I like the sunrise, I get up early, I like the stars, I go to bed late, I like..." Mo Xiaobei couldn't say "I like you..." after a long time.

Gu Yan answered, "What do you like about me?"

"Ah?" Mo Xiaobei didn't expect Gu Yan to ask such a question so suddenly, he was instinctively puzzled and surprised.

Gu Yan continued to ask, "Because I treat you well?"

Mo Xiaobei hurriedly denied, "No, no..."

She blushed: "I...I don't deny this, so naturally it can't be said that it has nothing to do with it, at least it has a catalytic effect, but it's more because of you."

Mo Xiaobei looked into Gu Yan's eyes, and seemed to be looking at himself in Gu Yan's eyes,
She continued: "You are excellent, humble, and warm... When I get along with you, I am relaxed, comfortable, and natural. It is you who made me face up to the gap between myself and others, but I can accept it calmly, and I want to work hard to become a better person. .”

She said shyly again: "Although I had low self-esteem at first, but I don't know why, it's you who make me laugh more and be more confident. I will feel good about liking you."

"Xiaobei, the me you met, the me in your eyes, is me after being polished by this world. I am not as beautiful as you think, it is the light in your eyes that makes me change in your heart. It must be dazzling." Gu Yuyan said earnestly.

"All the encounters in this world are in sequence, they cannot participate in the past..." Mo Xiaobei laughed.

Gu Yan thought that he could no longer allow Mo Xiaobei to confess, he was afraid that his long-standing restraint would collapse in an instant.

So he interrupted: "Our age gap is too big... Hehe... Think about it, I was almost in high school when you were born... It's hard for me to connect two people like this..."

"You actually care about age?" Mo Xiaobei said softly, "Coward!..."

Gu Yan thought for a while that maybe his reasoning was not valid for Mo Xiaobei, so he added: "I see the shadow of my ex-wife in you, tough, independent, you are like..."

Mo Xiaobei seemed to suddenly realize, "I understand!" Before Gu Yan could finish speaking, he ended the topic.

How much she wanted to tell Gu Yan that for today's confession, she had tossed and turned, couldn't sleep for countless late nights, and spent all her courage;

She wanted to tell him that she had rehearsed countless dialogues in front of the mirror, carefully considering every word, even which angle of her face she used to face Gu Yan, or what kind of micro-expression she used to make her more charming;

She wanted to tell him that she had preset many results, and she had found no less than five ways to deal with the rejection of her confession, but no matter which way she used, she would be disappointed and sad for a long time.

Mo Xiaobei didn't recover from it for a long time, she presupposed so many possibilities, but she never thought that Gu Yan would take care of her a lot because she had qualities similar to his ex-wife.

All this, within reason, seems to be unexpected.

Mo Xiaobei's view of love today is different from that of many years ago. Perhaps that heart-wrenching night taught her to love in accordance with human nature, to express it bravely, and to accept it calmly.

So she can't tell him that this relationship can't be coerced in any way, she has to have the confidence - if you come, I will be full of joy and embrace you passionately, if you leave, I will accept it frankly and give my best wishes.

Gu Yan looked at Mo Xiaobei, feeling distressed, blaming himself, and helpless, he asked nervously, "Xiaobei..."

Mo Xiaobei hurriedly said: "Hey...it's okay..." She picked up the cup and drank water.

"I..." Gu Yan continued.

Mo Xiaobei continued: "It's all right." She put down her glass and said, "I'm here today not to have a result, but just to know an answer, and now I know."

Looking at Gu Yan's worried eyes, Mo Xiaobei smiled and said, "It's okay! I'm really fine."

Yes, as she said, she is fine, she presupposes that the confession will not get positive feedback, so the acceptance of disappointment is very high;

Yes, like Gu Yan's worried eyes, she has something to do, she misjudged Gu Yan's feelings for her, she needs a little time to digest.

"Then I'll go back first." Mo Xiaobei stood up and looked at Gu Yan with a smile on his face.

"Uh...okay..." Gu Yan stood up and said.

Gu Yan watched Mo Xiaobei close the door through the cat's eyes. He put one hand on the door and the other rested on his forehead. His heart was empty.

He took out a bottle of wine from the wine cabinet, poured half a glass, turned off all the lights, went to the bedroom, lay down on the massage chair, and reviewed every bit of his relationship with Mo Xiaobei.

The wine in his hand drank glass by glass, seeing that the wine bottle was about to bottom out, since the last time he drank like this, it was the time when Zheng Xin left...

That time it was self-blame and guilt, this time it was restrained blessing, the reason was different, but the result was the same, it was parting... Mo Xiaobei's heart left forever...

He is just like what Mo Xiaobei said: He is a coward!
Mo Xiaobei was lying on the bed, listening to music, and received a WeChat message from Gu Yan: We will meet many exciting people in our life, we just need to know, maybe there is no need for any results, besides, a person who is not brave is not worthy I love you sincerely and warmly.

Mo Xiaobei replied: Life is long, and feelings are just a part of my life. People who have been touched are a part of feelings. Don't worry, I'm fine.

She comforted herself: It is the normal state of the world to love but not to love!Good night!

This night, Mo Xiaobei didn't suffer from insomnia like Gu Yan did. When she woke up at dawn, perhaps this was the best relationship and her confidence--you come, I'm full of joy, embrace each other passionately, you go, I accept it with all my heart.

(End of this chapter)