she has golden eyes

I am Ping An, Zhou Ping An.

On my 12th birthday, my aunt told me my life story.

But I didn't feel sad at all, I just nodded calmly.Because in my heart, my aunt is my mother and my uncle is my father.

The love they gave me was no less than that of my biological parents. Even if they later had children of their own, I would still be the one they loved most.

It can even be said that I am much happier than most children in the world.

Some people may wonder, why did I find out about my life experience so late?In fact, it's very simple, because there is an aunt and because there is an imperial uncle.

As long as they don't mention it, no one dares to say a word of nonsense in front of me.Even though I have a very special appearance, with my aunt and uncle, Uncle Shen and aunt Changle, no one has ever dared to discriminate against me.

When I was very young, I pestered Grandpa Mei Gang to teach me kung fu.Because I don't like reading, even if the emperor's uncle taught me personally, I couldn't learn it.

My aunt and uncle didn't blame me much. Only Uncle Shen beat me several times. When he found that it was still useless, he took me with him and followed him in and out of the military camp and the government office.

Others say that I am actually Uncle Shen’s son.

This is why I grew up to be a cheerful and optimistic person, even though I have such a terrifying appearance.

Because there are too many people who love me.

Uncle Shen didn't talk much. I followed him in and out, but sometimes he wouldn't say a word to me throughout the whole day. He only told me seriously on the first day:
"If you don't want to study, just follow me and study military affairs with all your heart, so that you can properly assist the prince in the future."

The prince mentioned by Uncle Shen no longer refers to the emperor's uncle, but to the eldest son of his aunt and the emperor's uncle.

When the late emperor succeeded to the throne, his health was already very poor. My aunt took good care of him for several years, but he still passed away when I was ten years old.

At that time, the eldest son of the aunt and the emperor's uncle was already over two years old. On the day the emperor's uncle succeeded to the throne, he was granted the title of prince.

The emperor's uncle also gave the second wife's son Li Mingyao the title of prince.

But I am still the emperor's favorite child. On the first day he went to court, he held my hand.

I really like following the emperor's uncle to go to court, watching him handle state affairs with a calm smile, and watching those ministers who want to cheat and cheat break out in cold sweat in front of him.

In fact, when the emperor's uncle was still the prince, I followed him in and out of the cabinet to watch him discuss matters. I would also climb on his lap to sit on him, or fall asleep in his arms.

No one was surprised, not even the gray-bearded veterans, and no one dared to express dissatisfaction.

Since I was little, I have called the prince my younger brother, and he always follows me like a little tail.

King Zhuang Li Mingze is also a good brother of ours. He is in poor health and cannot sit on his own until he is almost ten years old. His speech is also slurred, but the prince and I can always understand what he wants to say the fastest.

After King Zhuang could sit up on his own, the Ministry of Internal Affairs built a special wheelchair for him. The prince and I pushed him every day and played around the palace.

At that time, we were really happy.The emperor's uncle had no other concubines, and most of the dormitories in the palace were empty.

The aunt asked people to clean up these dormitories and let sisters Yongming and Yongqing, as well as the elders and younger sisters of the Meng family, live in the palace.

Including Sister Qiuyue and Aunt Changle, as long as Uncle Shen is not in the capital, they live in the palace most of the time.

The former Empress Dowager passed away shortly after her aunt and uncle got married, but Princess Chenyang was not alone. The place where she lived was visited many times by us children every day.

As long as I can remember, my aunt seemed to have been busy. If I wanted to see her, I would wait until she went to treat Prince Zhuang.

The rest of the time, I didn’t see her as much as I saw the emperor’s uncle.

Even when the prince was just one year old, she took Mr. Song and others to Jiangnan for several years.

I don’t know what my aunt and Mr. Song did during those years in Jiangnan, but since then, the rice production in Jiangnan has become higher and higher, so that a few years later, the price of grain in the entire Jin Dynasty was at least lower than before. Five percent.

Beggars rarely appear on the streets anymore, and it is said that even the number of people in Beitian Courtyard is getting fewer and fewer.

Chen Yiling brought his family from Chengdu to Luoyang, but he rarely lived in the capital. Instead, he traveled around with his apprentices.

Not only did he print out the medical records written by his aunt and give them to doctors everywhere for free, he also often received medical treatment in person.

As before, my aunt would drink tea and talk with Chen Yiling, Mr. Song and others whenever she had free time, either about medical cases or people's livelihood sufferings.

Even though she has become a queen, her aunt still wears plain clothes and eats simple meals. Sometimes she goes out of the palace to visit Princess Zhuang, or is invited to be a guest at Prince Shu's Mansion. She is still dressed in cotton green clothes, and her head and wrists are always empty. of.

Princess Zhuang's three children lived in the palace all year round, but she insisted on living alone in Mei Zhai in Lilac. She only visited the palace every two days when the former Empress Dowager was still alive.

Probably in this life, she doesn't want to enter the palace one more time unless it's necessary.

The son of the second wife Huang Qingya was named King of Shu. They lived in the capital for six years and then returned to Chengdu to join the vassal state.

Sister Han stayed in the capital and lived with the Empress Dowager.

Grandpa Mei Gang never married. He succeeded He Zheng as the leader of the inner guards. When we children ran wildly in the palace, we would often run into his arms.

Aunt Mei passed away the year after the death of the former Empress Dowager. Her aunt sent her remains back to Qiantang for burial, and enshrined her tablet in the Mei family's ancestral hall.

The hot-tempered Aunt Jiuer married Uncle Peng Liang in the second year after the prince was born, and followed him to guard the Yunnan border.I didn't see them again for many years.

Uncle Gao Yuan has always been with the emperor. He is very strong and likes to carry us everywhere on his shoulders. The prince and I often compete to climb on him.

In addition to taking care of us children, Aunt Yurong also followed Nanny Zhang to serve her aunt. She was unwilling to get married, and her aunt did not force her. After Aunt Jiuer went to Yunnan, she made Aunt Yurong the master of Kunning Palace. A palace maid.

After many years of companionship, Nanny Zhang has long regarded Aunt Yurong as her own daughter. She cried several times because Aunt Yurong refused to marry, and then she was relieved.

Growing up, Uncle Shen was the only one who dared to hit me and was willing to hit me, but he was still the person I loved most besides my aunt and uncle.

Aunt Changle finally gave birth to a son after giving birth to three daughters, but Uncle Shen only loved his three daughters and was always cold-tempered towards his son.

Aunt Changle would sometimes scold him:

"Shen Qingyang, I can see that you only have a daughter in your heart, not a son."

Uncle Shen always obeyed Aunt Changle's advice, even if he was not happy, he would not refute.When I saw Aunt Changle going to get the riding whip, he picked me up and ran away.Uncle Huang is the best-tempered person I have ever seen. I am actually a little afraid of my aunt, but I have never been afraid of him.

But inside and outside the court, all the ministers are afraid of the emperor's uncle. He is obviously looking at you with a smile, but as long as there is something wrong in your heart, you dare not look into his eyes.

During the years when my aunt stayed in Jiangnan, some people had other ideas and found excuses to bring their daughters into the palace in the name of visiting the eldest princess or the empress dowager.

Later, the right minister of Hube, who danced the most happily, was demoted back to his hometown, and his little daughter, who was "the most beautiful girl in the country", was also married to an ordinary military household by the Empress Dowager.

From that day on, those beautifully dressed ladies no longer dared to appear in the palace easily.Even at the palace banquet according to the old calendar, no one dared to show off.

The aunt later gave birth to a son and two daughters, but they were much younger than the prince.When the second son of the emperor had just learned to walk, the prince had already begun to go to court to discuss affairs.

The Empress Dowager and her aunt are probably the most harmonious mother-in-law and daughter-in-law in the world.Auntie was always busy, and her children grew up beside the Queen Mother.

Even the biological son, the children of Prince Rui Li Jinfeng, are not as loved as the children of the aunt and uncle by the Empress Dowager.

Prince Rui's fiefdom was in Lianghu, but he was unwilling to go to join the feudal vassal, so he stayed in Beijing with his uncle.

Every time the emperor's uncle urged him, he nodded with a smile, and said every time, "Okay, I will go to Hankou next year." "Brother Huang, I understand. I will definitely set off immediately after this year's Mid-Autumn Festival."

But after talking for many years, he still stayed in Beijing and was busy with the emperor's uncle.

Sometimes, when the emperor's uncle scolded him for this, he would use the prince and me as a shield, saying that we couldn't live without him.

There is another person who has to be mentioned, and that is Uncle Xiao Yan.

We kids rated him privately, and we all agreed that apart from the emperor, Uncle Xiao was the cutest person.

Uncle Shen is also very kind to us, but he always has a cold face, and girls are okay because he likes girls.But we boys were all afraid of him because we had all been beaten by him for being naughty or not studying well.

Even the prince had his ass kicked by him.

Uncle Xiao always dressed in colorful clothes, waving his beauty fan, and took us whizzing through the streets of Beijing, eating delicious food everywhere.

After being ridiculed for many years, at the age of 23, Uncle Xiao finally got married.

But only three days after they got married, he went to the palace and cried. He told his aunt and uncle that the boxes of beauty fans he had treasured for many years were discovered by his new wife and ordered to be moved away, but they could not be found. .

And everyone in the Xiao family was surprisingly unanimous in praising Uncle Xiao's bride for a job well done.

After listening to Uncle Xiao crying, Uncle Huang said slowly:
"That's how it should be. You're already married. Even if you don't like being an official, you should still read a few books. Otherwise, how will you teach your own children in the future?"

Uncle Xiao was stunned. He even forgot to cry. It took him a long time to shout:
"Cousin, you didn't say that before!"

The emperor's uncle still refused to support Uncle Xiao. He only said that there were many fans in the warehouse, all made by famous artists, and let Uncle Xiao choose at will.

Uncle Xiao felt a little desperate and went to see his aunt again with tears in his eyes.

But my aunt didn't say a word, she just suppressed a smile and lowered her head to drink tea.

At the birthday party when the prince was five years old, I met King Du Zhe and Princess Lan Xiyue of Yan.At that time, Prince Yan had passed away, and Du Zhe and his wife commanded all the troops in the north.

The Prince of Yan and his wife called their uncle "Your Majesty", but they all called their aunt "Sister".I thought it was strange, but I finally understood it after Aunt Changle told me the reason.

If you asked me if I was sad, I actually had one, but it only lasted for a few days and then passed.

On the day of my 12th birthday, after my aunt finished telling me about my life experience, she said to me seriously:

"Ping An, you are different from others. But this disease does not affect your life span, nor does it affect your normal life. The only thing is your marriage, I must make it clear to you in advance."

My aunt said that I can get married and have children, but I can only give birth to a girl, not a boy, otherwise I will suffer from the same disease as me.

My aunt also told me that no matter how noble my status is in the future, if I want to get married, I must make this clear to the woman in advance.

This is respect for your wife and responsibility for the future of yourself and your descendants.

I have never been sad about my life experience, but what my aunt said later still made me depressed for a few days when I was young.

Although, I didn’t have any girls I liked at that time, even though I had many older sisters and younger sisters who played well, such as the sisters from Uncle Shen’s family, such as sisters Yongqing and Yongming, and several sisters from the Meng family.

But to me, they are really just like my own family.

Maybe, when it comes to the relationship between men and women, I just have to be a little slow.

My aunt and uncle never tried to persuade me because of this. They allowed me to be passive for a few days. After I lay in the room for a few days to figure it out, they allowed me to follow Uncle Shen out of the palace.

My aunt personally escorted me out of the palace. She touched my head on the phoenix and said:

"Peace, you have to believe that one day you will have your own happiness.

Because you are the best gift God has given to my aunt.For you, for Mingze, my aunt and uncle, as well as your uncles Shen and Xiao, we have done many brave things. "

I buried my head in my aunt's arms like I did when I was a child. Uncle Shen was walking next to Fenghu. For the first time, he didn't scold me for crying.

I finally finished writing, and I don’t feel tired. My heart is filled with gratitude to you all, including my babies who complained about me.Because of your comments, I can better see my own shortcomings so that I can avoid making the same mistakes in my next book.

I started writing this book before the Spring Festival. The past six months have been the most difficult time in my life.The elders who were regarded as relatives stabbed me in the back. Not only was my family ruined, I almost lost half my life. I was so angry that I couldn't sleep all night long. My immunity was low and I was sick for a long time.

I have no comfort except my daughter.Sure enough, the deepest pain can only be given to you by the person you love.People you don't care about can only hurt you superficially.

But I still believe that there are still many good people in this world, and I still treat my friends and you who accompany me forward sincerely. I still believe and expect that my life will get better.

Therefore, babies must stay away from people who only care about you. Loving yourself well is the most important thing.

My writing speed is slow, and I will be busy in the second half of the year. In order to avoid not being able to update every day, I need to save more manuscripts for my new book, which will probably not be released until next spring.

I hope you can still read the book and support me at that time.I also hope that by then, we will all usher in our better spring season.