Participating in the romance show, this little fresh meat is too down-to-earth

Chapter 312: Whatever she did, she will return it...

It's a small restaurant, not a big private room, and the hot mutton soup is bubbling. Because there is a range hood, the heat will always steam upwards and will not fall on any customer's face at all.

Mutton warms people. People who drink soup and eat meat will always become warmer. Even Pei Jingshu, the coldness on her delicate and pretty face has quietly dissipated a lot.

"Is it necessary for you to speak of yourself so...unbearably?"

She no longer sat so upright, and no longer looked at her from a "moral high ground" as if she was condemning Shang Zhuoyan.

Instead, he slowly relaxed his body and picked up the chopsticks...

"It's not whether it's necessary or not, it's just a fact."

Shang Zhuoyan looked indifferent. She was really smart. In all the stories just now, she picked Gu Huaian as cleanly as picking vegetables, as if everything had nothing to do with him.

"...fun...fun..."

Pei Jingshu stared at Shang Zhuoyan with a bit of anger. She repeated these two words, and then asked:
"Is it fun?"

Without waiting for Shang Zhuoyan to answer, she added:
"Is it fun to treat me like a fool?"

She felt that Shang Zhuoyan was treating her as a fool. Wouldn't she think that she would believe such a rough story framework?

What a joke!
She asked how Zhuoyan could pester Gu Huaian just for fun. Look at what she has become today. Her career has collapsed in all aspects, her popularity and reputation have been ruined. How could she be willing to take such a big risk just for the sake of it? A so-called...

fun?

"Ah, that's it..."

Indeed, Shang Zhuoyan never expected to "muddle through" like this. Her pretty, doll-like face was finally no longer full of smiles and jokes, but instead looked a bit like she had been "seen through." Resentment.

She pouted her little mouth, put down her chopsticks, raised her jade hands, held her cheeks, stared at Pei Jingshu with a resentful expression, and said:

"I admit that my intention in approaching him was not pure, but you should be very clear about this purpose. Please, he is a talented person. If he can produce a few albums for me, I will make money no matter what... "

At this time, she seemed to "take off her disguise", giving Pei Jingshu the feeling that she was a profit-seeking woman.

In fact, in the entertainment industry, there should be people like this everywhere. The reason why Shang Zhuoyan can act so well is simply because she has seen many such people.

And one thing I have to say is that it is really easier to play a villain than a decent person...

Some people always say that the fisherman is a good actor. In fact, is it possible that the character itself is very good, very brilliant, and easy to act, and the two complement each other?
"..."

Pei Jingshu did not retort, but bit her red lips with her teeth and stared at Shang Zhuoyan silently.

To be honest, Shang Zhuoyan's reasons left her with no place to refute...

At the right time, the door curtain shook, and a serving robot came out with the dishes she had just ordered.

"Oh……"

Seeing the vegetable seller Zhuo Yan's eyes lit up, she hurriedly went to serve the dishes, as if she had forgotten for a moment that she was talking to Pei Jingshu just now.

Her careless look gave people the impression that the things she said today were of no importance to her.

When the food was served, the first thing I thought about was eating first, instead of continuing to chat with Pei Jingshu...

It wasn't until she noticed that Pei Jingshu had been staring at her that she made a "forgot" expression, said sorry, and continued in a helpless tone:

"I didn't expect that I would take off my clothes for fun. Now, I won't be able to survive in the country..."

There was something like a voiceover in her tone, and as smart as Pei Jingshu was, she picked it up immediately.

"What do you mean?"

Pei Jingshu frowned slightly.

"I'm leaving..."

Shang Zhuoyan used her chopsticks to pick up a piece of Dongpo pork that she ordered just now. She didn't shy away from the fact that it had fat meat. She stuffed it into her mouth and chewed it. She looked satisfied but murmured:

"It's no different from braised pork..."

"where to?"

Pei Jingshu stared at her. Logically speaking, she shouldn't care about this issue. Where is Shang Zhuoyan going? Whether she is dead or alive, what does it have to do with her, Pei Jingshu? !

But who makes her always so soft-hearted?

"Go abroad."

Shang Zhuoyan drank the barley tea and said:

"I can't continue to work in domestic entertainment. I can still work abroad. I used to work abroad, and the impact on the outside market is less."

It’s just that I may earn a little less.

After all, in the world, only our country and Europe and the United States can make more money. Let alone small places like Bangzi Country. Their stars do not go abroad to go abroad. Many of them do not want to be grounded, but Income can only be down to earth.

"..."

Pei Jingshu fell silent.

At this moment, the tip of her nose was a little sore, and her eyes were a little moist. She didn't understand why her ability to empathize was always so strong, and she actually felt sorry for Shang Zhuoyan...

even……

There will be some self-blame.

Because no matter what, Shang Zhuoyan is where she is today because of her breakup blog.

One of her own comments ruined a person's entire career, forcing her to leave the country and develop in a foreign country. She was still a girl...

You said, can Pei Jingshu not feel awkward?

Although she frantically comforted herself that it was Shang Zhuoyan who brought the blame on herself, she was still a kind person...

"Why do you come to tell me this?"

Holding back tears seems to have become a required course for Pei Jingshu in the past six months, so she will not shed tears at this time, but just asked.

"Before I leave, I want to be a good person."

Shang Zhuoyan kept eating and never stopped talking. She rarely looked at Pei Jingshu, and rarely made eye contact with her, as if she was afraid that if she looked at her, her power would be broken.

As she ate, she said to herself:

"To be honest, Pei Jingshu, I envy you for being able to make a man so devoted to you. Even though you hurt him so deeply and made him suffer so much for the past six months, all he wants in his mind is to get you back. "

Shang Zhuoyan is really tired of saying the word "envy". How she wishes that the recent New Year's Eve movies "Stranded", "Are You Still Afraid of Heavy Rain" and "Tenderness" are all written for herself? ah.

Sometimes Shang Zhuoyan feels that "Crystal Love Season" is the epitome of them. She, Pei Jingshu, never has to do anything, just wait there, everything will come to her door;

And she, Shang Zhuoyan, tried her best to get what she wanted, but in the end, it didn't belong to her.

Pretty ridiculous.

You said she was relieved?
give up?
not at all……

It's just that it's just due to the helplessness of reality.

She doesn't want to leave either, but is it realistic if she doesn't?

And now, she just wants to do something good before leaving.

No matter how low the authenticity of everything she said today, her sentence "I want to do something good before I leave" should never be questioned by anyone.

Everything today was caused by her. Without her, Gu Huaian and Pei Jingshu would never be where they are today. They would be very happy...

So, as the "initiator" of everything, Shang Zhuoyan felt that she should know something.

In the past, she always risked her own life for love, even against the whole world...

Now, after experiencing so many things, even though there was not a single good piece of flesh in her injured body, she still wanted to make the person she loved live a good life.

She often thinks of the phrase "I don't want to be an artist anymore" she said in "Hello Life Partner", and this sentence is the same now...

She thought, if she was not an artist, had no contract restrictions and her work was not affected so much, and did not have to go abroad, would it really be possible to stay with Gu Huaian?
But anyway, those are no longer realistic.

Recently, Shang Zhuoyan likes to think about things as little as possible, because the more she thinks about it, the more painful she feels.

Life is hard enough, she might as well try to make it sweeter.

"Forgive him."

Not sure if she was full, Shang Zhuoyan put down her chopsticks, gently rubbed her delicate jade hands, looked at the cruise ship outside the window, and said:

"This kind of good man is rare in the world. He is dedicated and single-minded. He is also a straight man. He has a mysophobia. He has a very upright outlook on life. He is very delicate. He always wants to be worthy of everyone. He is also very talented and can be managed. My lower body..."

She was talking in no particular order, as if she was talking about whatever came to mind, but she didn't know what was going on, and she actually felt a little sour in her heart as she talked.

What she didn't expect was that when she came to her senses, Pei Jingshu reached out and handed her some tissues. "Here... why are you giving me tissues?"

Shang Zhuoyan was stunned for a moment and asked stupidly.

Pei Jingshu pointed at her cheek. When Shang Zhuoyan raised her hand to touch it, she realized that her tears had slipped down her cheek at some point.

And she had no consciousness at all, no feeling at all!
"Oh... why are you crying..."

Shang Zhuoyan grinned, took the tissue and wiped it, and continued to act like "it doesn't matter" or "don't care".

She wiped away just a few tears for a long time, probably because she felt embarrassed and didn't dare to look up.

Pei Jingshu's nose was sore and she wanted to cry...

She was wondering how many times Shang Zhuoyan cried and how many tears she shed before she even noticed when she was crying.

Is it numb?
She did not understand Shang Zhuoyan, nor did she sympathize with her, because she caused herself misery.

But Pei Jingshu is always so kind, and her empathy is always so full...

She could definitely feel that the woman in front of her seemed to like Gu Huaian as much as she did.

"Okay, I've said everything I need to say."

Although she was not an actor, Shang Zhuoyan controlled her tears very well. Although she wiped them for a long time, no one could see how red her eyes were after wiping them.

As she said that, she stood up gently. The pure white dress she wore today was somewhat similar to the "maid" outfit in the anime. There was a breast bag on the chest, and Xiong Da Xiong Er was shining brightly. , it’s just a few drops of oil there, she’s so careless and has no one to help her pay attention...

Those big, watery eyes looked at Pei Jingshu, and Shang Zhuoyan said:

"Let's go, let's go. I made an appointment. You eat slowly. I know you don't want to see me. Anyway, it will be difficult for you to see me in the future. I wish you happiness. Oh, by the way, I also wish you a good concert. Success."

When she said these words, she smiled quite happily.

As she spoke, she put on the pink jacket. After putting it on, she should have left.

From the beginning to the end, Pei Jingshu just sat there. She was looking at Shang Zhuoyan, and she was trying to find some loopholes in her pretty, doll-like face...

Unfortunately, it was not found in the end.

She always looked at Shang Zhuoyan with a bit of heartache in her eyes. This girl was very cute, but she was always miserable...

In the past six months, their lives have been difficult, but in the final analysis, she and Gu Huaian are not irredeemable. Just like now, both of them can still hold concerts and still have fun in this house.

But Shang Zhuoyan had to go far away because of those things.

Although she brought this upon herself, as the only person who had no good outcome, she was still very distressed for her humanitarian reasons.

Pei Jingshu was so proud that even if she wanted to give Shang Zhuoyan a hug at this time, she couldn't.

I could only watch her go.

And just at this time...

"Oh and one more thing..."

Shang Zhuoyan, who had already opened the door curtain and was about to leave, suddenly paused.

She came back again and said:

"I will definitely meet him before I leave. I'll tell you in advance. But don't worry, it's just a goodbye. I will definitely not do anything extraordinary, otherwise I won't tell you."

She playfully winked at Pei Jingshu, stretched out her delicate jade hands to make a "wink" gesture, and then...

She walked away gracefully.

Although she was quite distressing, she always maintained her dignity with Pei Jingshu. Even when she finally said she would see Gu Huaian again, it didn't seem like asking for her permission, but more like a "notice".

It seemed that even if Pei Jingshu disagreed, she would go to see Gu Huaian.

And the reason why she left in a hurry without waiting for Pei Jingshu's answer was because she felt that wanting to see him was inconsistent with the persona she had created today.

If it was really just for fun, why did you want to see him one last time before leaving?
Pei Jingshu didn't chase her, and she didn't intend to prevent them from meeting. If she didn't let them, they wouldn't necessarily not meet.

She just sat there, thinking about what Shang Zhuoyan said just now...

It is obvious that Shang Zhuoyan wants to take all the responsibility on herself, even though many of what she says are not credible because she portrays herself as too despicable...

But the role Gu Huaian played in it was exactly like the Gu Huaian that Pei Jingshu knew.

Therefore, she couldn't help but wonder, was Gu Huaian really clinging to him all the time and slowly falling?
she does not know……

But she had to admire Shang Zhuoyan.

Everything this woman said at noon today planted the seed of Gu Huaian's "innocence" in her heart. When she thought about their affairs again, she would always subconsciously think that it was all Shang Zhuoyan's fault. Gu Huaian just didn't understand. reject.

She was always a person who could not have thorns in her heart. She wanted to forgive Gu Huaian many times, but when she thought of what she heard and saw in the hospital, and what happened between him and Shang Zhuoyan, she couldn't do it no matter what. To cross this threshold.

So she always needs an explanation, always needs someone to help her pull out this thorn...

But Shang Zhuoyan is smart. She knows that Pei Jingshu has this thorn, and she also knows how to pull it out.

During the extraction, although she portrayed herself as very vulgar, she at least retained her dignity.

In the end, she fulfilled everyone with her departure.

indeed……

She caused all the troubles and committed all the evils.

So now, she uses her own departure to restore everything.

Responsibility...

Morality...

I owe it...

These are all things she, Shang Zhuoyan, should bear.

So in fact, even if Shang Zhuoyan asked Pei Jingshu for permission, Pei Jingshu would probably acquiesce to her going to see Gu Huaian one last time.

She is worth it after all.

……

"Wuhu~"

Shang Zhuoyan looked very relaxed when she got back in the car. It's funny to say that her career was completely ruined and she was scolded like a sieve. In the past, when she walked on the street, she was afraid that people would recognize her and attract onlookers. Now, when she walks on the street, she is afraid of being recognized and criticized. Scolding, living like a rat crossing the street...

But recently, Shang Zhuoyan seems to be in good condition. She doesn't cry or make trouble anymore. She can eat and sleep well. She even makes noises and wants to go out to eat delicious food when she has nothing to do...

"It's resolved?"

Agent Han Li was also in the car. The reason she accompanied Shang Zhuoyan was because she was afraid that she would be beaten by Pei Jingshu and her staff.

If Shang Zhuoyan hadn't insisted on going alone, she would have definitely followed...

"Satisfactory solution!"

Shang Zhuoyan laughed and said:

"Let's go to the mall in front. My friends from abroad asked me to bring them some beautiful clothes."

Han Li didn't say anything, just gave her a distressed look, and then took her shopping all afternoon, into the evening, and late into the night.

She complained about Shang Zhuoyan many times. Shang Zhuoyan said that she was bringing clothes to foreign friends, but in the end she tried them on herself and bought many of her own models. She was obviously looking for an excuse to buy clothes for herself.

Shang Zhuoyan insisted that she was bringing it to her overseas friends, but Han Li bluntly pointed out, "You really think everyone has your measurements. Be careful that buying clothes back will humiliate them. You have just returned to a foreign country and you need to be with those around you." Such is the relationship between people...

"Oh, I know, I know..."

Shang Zhuoyan became impatient after hearing this.

When returning to the hotel in the evening, Han Li had to leave due to work reasons, so she could only send her downstairs of the hotel. When parting, the experienced agent could not hold back tears and hugged Shang Zhuoyan tightly. He said some words of consideration, concern and entrustment.

Shang Zhuoyan is the artist with the best conditions she has ever brought up. She can sing and dance. Her appearance and voice are impeccable. She has a good personality and high emotional intelligence, and her popularity in the industry is ridiculously good...

If compared, in her heart, even Pei Jingshu, who is known as "the beauty of domestic entertainment", cannot compare with Shang Zhuoyan.

But it happened that such a female star who was supposed to shine was stymied by the word "love".

destroyed……

Everything is ruined.

Gu Huaian missed her life!
……

(End of this chapter)