pamper her

Chapter 32 You Are Important
Li Mianmian's heartbeat accelerated involuntarily.

"What...who?" She said guiltily, "I don't like anyone..."

"Who don't you like?" Gu Yanci let go of her, "Then you want to fall in love so much?"

"When, when did I want to fall in love?" Li Mianmian hurriedly retorted, "I didn't want to fall in love, I just told you about this matter. My point is not whether to fall in love or not, but that I think you You should realize that I have reached the age where I can fall in love..."

She took a deep breath: "Can you understand?"

Gu Yanci pondered for a long time, then nodded and said, "Okay, I understand."

Li Mianmian was afraid that he would think wildly again: "What do you know?!"

"I understand what you mean." Gu Yanci said sincerely, "I shouldn't have talked to you like that before. I will reflect on it and try to correct it."

His tone softened: "Brother and you haven't seen each other for more than half a year, and the way of thinking towards you is still the same as before. I didn't realize that you have grown up so much, so my brother apologizes to you. But you also have to give brother some time, okay ?"

"..."

Seeing him like this, Li Mianmian didn't know what to say.

She swallowed and said after a while, "You don't have to apologize to me...I don't blame you..."

Gu Yanci laughed: "Well, pretend you don't blame me."
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Due to the presence of Gu Yanci, their party finally ended around ten o'clock.

A group of people laughed and walked ahead, and disappeared after a while.

Li Mianmian knew that they must have abandoned him intentionally, because Gu Yanci gave off an aura of an elder, which made them afraid to walk with him.

The unfamiliarity that has not been seen for a long time is not as difficult to overcome as Li Mianmian imagined. Once the chat box is opened, she and Gu Yanci are still as familiar as before, and there is no hindrance in chatting.

The two walked around the school several times, and no one mentioned going back when they passed the dormitory downstairs.

Along the way, Gu Yanci basically asked questions, and Li Mianmian answered them.

She really wanted to know about Gu Yanci's experience in the past few years, but his problems one after another made it impossible for her to do so.

Finally finished the content of "reminiscing about the past", Gu Yanci asked again: "Is the summer vacation starting tomorrow? When will you go back?"

"I shouldn't go back." Li Mianmian said, "I have a senior who just opened a studio and was short of staff, so she asked me if I wanted to help. I thought it was equivalent to an internship, although the money is not much, But I can learn something. In fact, I’m only a freshman, and I don’t know anything. Even in the past, with my current ability, I can only beat others, and then steal a teacher or something.”

"Yes." Gu Yanci agreed, "Then your senior sister wants to take you with good intentions."

Li Mianmian chuckled: "I'm lucky. When the school first started, the college held a symposium, and called the outstanding seniors and seniors who had just graduated to share, and then I added this senior's WeChat account. Chatting with people face to face, once you come and go, you will become familiar."

"When I was young, I was worried that you would be more restrained in interpersonal communication." Gu Yanci seemed to be a little emotional, "I didn't expect that you are so popular now."

Li Mianmian originally wanted to say a few words of modesty, but turned a corner when the words came to her mouth, and said jokingly: "Maybe because I am beautiful."

Gu Yanci turned to look at her, nodded and said, "Yes, it's pleasing."

"..." Li Mianmian's face fell, "Why does it sound so mocking..."

Gu Yanci just laughed.

Just walking to the side of the street lamp, Li Mianmian jumped over to hug the pillar in two steps, raised her face and asked, "Brother, look at me, do you think I've changed a lot?"

Gu Yanci approached unhurriedly, then lowered his eyes slightly, staring at her through the dim light.

Li Mianmian is much prettier than in the photo, her face looks thinner and smaller.

On the slap-sized oval face, the almond eyes are clear and watery, which is indeed a cute and lovable appearance.

When we met last time, Gu Yanci actually didn't feel any obvious changes in her.

Compared with her facial appearance, what he felt more intuitively was the change in her figure.

After all, she is much taller than before, and her clothes are much more mature.

However, at this moment, Gu Yanci realized that it was not because she had changed little, but because he hadn't observed her seriously.

Since he was a child, he never seemed to have carefully observed what this little girl looked like, so when he occasionally recalled it later, he only had a hazy shadow in his mind.

All he knew about Li Mianmian's face was just to the extent that he could recognize her at a glance in the crowd.

But it was beyond the place that other people had in his mind.

Gu Yanci felt that this should be a normal phenomenon. Most people only care about their closest parents to this extent. When painters create self-portraits, they have to face the mirror.

How could he accurately portray Li Mianmian's appearance in his mind.

It's not that Gu Yanci doesn't know that Li Mianmian is beautiful, but this conclusion is more derived from the evaluation of her by people around her.

As for himself, he used to think that she was just a child, and he didn't have the heart to judge whether she was pretty or not.

If he wanted to distinguish her beauty, he would first have to forget the stereotyped impressions he had of her when he was a teenager, and treat her as a stranger.

In fact, Gu Yanci felt a very strange feeling at this moment.

He had never gazed at her like this.

This angle and this distance are both strange, and the picture conveyed in his mind is also strange.

The image of Li Mianmian did not remain in his mind in the form of his appearance.

Rather, it is based on their common experience, those memory fragments, her behavior, expression, and many complicated things.

Abandoning those complicated things and only looking at the face, Gu Yanci felt that the person in front of him seemed not to be the Li Mianmian in his impression.

He felt a little confused for a moment.

Seeing that he hadn't spoken for a long time, Li Mianmian made a confused voice: "Brother?"

"..."

Gu Yanci thought in a complicated mood: the voice is also completely different from the impression.

He suddenly understood why Li Mianmian didn't talk to him much at first when they met last time.

And why, when they took a group photo later, Hao Yun would say that the two of them were very awkward.

At that time, he still felt that Li Mianmian was abnormal, how could he suddenly have such a relationship with him.

...It turned out that the abnormal person was him.

How could it not be unfamiliar?

Even if you look at photos and videos every day, it is completely different from looking at yourself.

Not to mention the deep-seated personality, even the most superficial appearance, no camera can faithfully record it.

People are so complex that they change from the inside out every day.

For more than half a year, no part of her was exactly the same as before.

It was he who thoughtfully imprisoned Li Mianmian in his memories, unwilling to admit her growth and changes, and always treated her like the former Li Mianmian.

No wonder she was throwing a tantrum.

Gu Yanci remembered what he promised Li Mianmian in KTV earlier, saying that he would try to change his attitude towards her.

In fact, he was just coaxing her at the time, because he didn't realize where the real problem was.

Until now, he suddenly realized.

His habit of living with memories was deeply ingrained.

Everyone is different, only he is still standing still.

In order to escape the torment of reality, he has been immersed in the past time and refused to move forward.

He is so confused.

But he could hardly find any other way.

There was one thing that Gu Yanci didn't tell anyone.

——Since he was born, the best and most relaxing time for him is the two years he spent with Li Mianmian.

Facing his father, he will always only have hatred in his heart.

Facing his mother, he only felt tired, and felt that the heavy burden on his shoulders made him breathless.

In the face of the Li family's parents, although he did receive a lot of comfort, but at the same time he still felt more guilty.

Only facing Li Mianmian, he is a competent guardian.

He can repay the favor he owes to Li Mianmian, and he will be relied on and needed by her.

The most important thing is that he can give her what Li Mianmian needs by relying on his own ability alone, which completely frees him from the feeling of powerlessness he has been feeling for years.

Only in front of Li Mianmian, he felt that he was a useful person.

Only in front of Li Mianmian, he felt full and satisfied.

So he subconsciously wanted to keep Li Mianmian in the past.

——He couldn't be sure whether the 19-year-old Li Mianmian still needed him as much as before.

However, Li Mianmian was unwilling to stay, she was desperately trying to show him the fact that she had grown up.

This is good.

No one will stop in the past.

He should have woken up from the dream.

"Well, it's changed quite a bit." Gu Yanci took half a step back and said with a smile, "You're a big girl now."

Li Mianmian felt that his tone was still like an elder, and sighed: "You are too careless..."

Gu Yanci asked earnestly: "Then how should I answer to be distracted?"

"You have to tell me what has changed about me, right?" Li Mianmian lowered her head and walked forward slowly, "I see that my previous photos are completely different from now, the changes should be obvious."

"Okay, then let me think about it." Gu Yanci said, "Well...the baby's fat is gone, the face is a little sharper, and the eyes don't seem to be as big as before, but they are more delicate."

Li Mianmian secretly laughed while listening, and asked cheekily: "It's all good changes, are there any bad ones?"

"It can't be bad." Gu Yanci said gently, "From the day you were found, every day after that will only get better and better."

Li Mianmian was keenly aware of the inexplicable loneliness in his tone.

She stopped, turned to look at him, and called softly, "Brother."

Gu Yanci raised his eyes: "Huh?"

"Although...my appearance has changed, and my personality may have changed a little...but..." Li Mianmian was a little embarrassed, and her voice became smaller and smaller, "but you are still the most important person in my heart. Changeless."

"……the most important?"

Gu Yanci was stunned for a moment, then laughed: "What about your parents and younger brother? Are they not important anymore?"

"It's not... just, you are not the same important."

Li Mianmian was shameless: "That is, if half of my heart is filled with them, then the other half is filled with you."

"I account for half?" Gu Yanci smiled lowly, "Aren't I still more important than them?"

"..."

Li Mianmian choked on him.

After taking a breath, she said dissatisfiedly, "Don't argue."

Gu Yanci raised his eyebrows slightly, as if he was surprised by her statement: "Am I defiant?"

"Okay." He quickly nodded again, "I'm the one who raised the bar."

Li Mianmian felt that he was deliberately teasing her, and at the same time, she was flustered with embarrassment for what she said just now, so she turned her head and walked quickly in front.

Gu Yanci didn't call her to stop, but just clung behind her not too far away.

When she was willing to slow down and stand side by side with him, he said again: "Where is the studio of your senior sister?"

Li Mianmian mentioned the location, and then said, "It's a bit far from our school, but it's okay, there is no traffic jam by subway, and it only takes two hours to go back and forth every day."

Gu Yanci: "What time do you get off work at night?"

"Generally, I can get off work around seven o'clock. Even if I work overtime occasionally, it should not exceed ten o'clock." Li Mianmian said nonchalantly, "I think it's nothing. The studio is just starting up, so it's normal to be busy."

Gu Yanci asked again: "Will my roommate go back during the summer vacation?"

"Go back." Li Mianmian said, "They are all locals."

Gu Yanci looked sideways at her: "So you are the only one in the dormitory?"

Li Mianmian nodded.

After thinking for a moment, Gu Yanci said, "Don't stay in the dormitory."

"Ah?" Li Mianmian rubbed her neck and asked suspiciously, "Then where do I live?"

"My brother has a house nearby." Gu Yanci said softly, "If you don't mind, you can move there."

(End of this chapter)