Deliberate and affectionate

Chapter 289 The Origin of Hatred

He has slowly developed this feeling of unwillingness a few years ago. Going back to the very beginning, his resentment started when he proposed to Li Ming that he would be transferred to another department, and Li Ming nodded without hesitation. Agreed it started back then.

He originally thought that Li Ming would ask him why, so that he could point out that he didn't want to be a bodyguard anymore, he wanted to be the same person as Li Ming.

But Li Ming didn't ask, he wanted to leave, Li Ming agreed without even asking.

He resented Li Ming in his heart, he kept saying that he wanted to be his brother, but he didn't even care about him.

In fact, Li Ming knew from a long time ago that he was deliberately avoiding himself, and Li Ming could tell that he didn't really want to be a quiet bodyguard by his side.

After Li Ming asked many times, he didn't tell Li Ming the truth, so Li Ming gradually stopped caring about him.

He wanted to leave, but he felt extremely inferior in his heart, thinking that he was not worthy to sit with Li Ming, and he felt that he was destined to be Li Ming's subordinate, which was what he should have done.So every time he sees Li Ming, he is respectful.

It's nothing, after all, the Li family has been kind to him, and it's only right for him to want to repay the Li family.

But the problem is that he is not willing to be just a bodyguard for the rest of his life, he wants Li Ming to see his excellence, and wants Li Ming to take the initiative to ask him to leave this position.

Although he wanted to do it, he couldn't bring it up by himself. Li Ming had to arrange for him to do it, so that he could accept it with peace of mind. He had hinted to Li Ming many times, jokingly saying that he no longer wanted to be a bodyguard anymore.

Li Ming's answer is that he can do whatever he wants, as he chooses, and Li Ming will not force him to stay.

It was because of this that he resented Li Ming. He felt that Li Ming should make arrangements for him and transfer him directly. How could he let him choose?He was not worthy of the election, so what qualifications does he have?

If Li Ming arranged for him to go directly, he was the one who had to go, he had no choice, and it wasn't him who wanted to go, but Li Ming wanted him to go.Only in this way can he have an excuse to comfort himself, and he will not be condemned morally.

The more time passed, the more he felt that it was Li Ming who restrained him. If he hadn't been adopted by the Li family since he was a child, he would be able to go out and do things without any scruples.

But now, if he wants to go out and do things, he will be branded as ungrateful and looked down upon by others.

He completely forgot that his current abilities and the resources he possessed were all given to him by the Li family. He was not grateful for the cultivation of the Li family, and actually felt that it was Li Ming who restricted his development.

The resentment against Li Ming in his heart was getting bigger and bigger, and Tang's father kept brainwashing him, so he regarded Li Ming as the biggest enemy in his heart.

During this operation, Tang's father promised that as long as he is willing to do something, Tang's father will take him to go abroad together. Except for the inexhaustible glory and wealth, no one can restrict him anymore. Do whatever you want.

He was still a little hesitant, but Father Tang said: "You can avenge your parents with your own hands, don't you want to?"

After hearing these words, he made up his mind to find a chance to do something.

That day was the best time, there were so many people around and it was very chaotic, as long as he succeeded, their attention would definitely be on Li Ming, and he was sure to escape.

After reading what happened, Lin Xi only felt that the darkness in this person's heart was actually deeper than that of ordinary people, and he was already distorted.

Obviously he can have a better future, as long as he says, Li Ming will let him go, he can do whatever he wants.

While enjoying the convenience that Li Ming provided him, at the same time he regards it as a bondage that he cannot move forward, and wants to take advantage of everything.

His puzzling smile is because Li Ming has always treated him coldly, he wants to get Li Ming's approval, or he wants to be good brothers with Li Ming.

But Li Ming didn't care about him all the time, didn't pay attention to him, as if he tried his best, Li Ming still dismissed him.

He just wants Li Ming to see his excellence, he is not incapable, and he is capable, but why can't Li Ming see it at all?

Li Ming's indifference completely drove him into madness. He thought he was trying his best to catch up with Li Ming's footsteps, but Li Ming never stopped to ask him a question, never looked at him more than once.

He has worked so hard, but he is still left far behind by Li Ming.

But he forgot that Li Ming had no obligation to care about him, let alone stop and wait for him.

He had already forgotten his own identity, and Li Ming never asked him to repay, it was the responsibility he imposed on himself, and he felt that he had to repay the favor, so he was the good boy who knew how to repay in other people's mouth.

He wants a good reputation, but he doesn't want to really do it, so his heart is even more unbalanced.

After Lin Xi read the materials, he felt that Li Ming had really wasted a lot of painstaking efforts. He was able to stay by Li Ming's side all the time because Li Ming gave him preferential treatment.

As long as he is willing to do things in a down-to-earth manner, Li Ming will definitely be willing to let him do what he wants to do for the sake of so many years.

It was he who pushed Li Ming away at the very beginning, he didn't want to get so close to Li Ming, and now he wants Li Ming to care about him and pay attention to him all the time.

He even fantasized in his heart that Li Ming insisted on pulling him to be with him, insisting on becoming good brothers with him, forcing him to follow him everywhere, disregarding his opinions, forcing him to follow wherever he went.

When Lin Xi saw this, he felt that something was wrong with his mind, did he take Li Ming for a fool?If you don't take the initiative to fight for what you want, and want others to force it into your hands, how can there be such a good thing in the world?
When Lin Xi was reading these materials, she didn't push Li Ming away, so Li Ming followed her to read all the content and knew what happened.

Li Ming was still expressionless, Lin Xi held his face in both hands, comforting him and said: "Okay, don't be sad, he is just a lunatic, it's not worth being sad for him."

Li Ming said, "I'm not sad."

Lin Xi said, "Really? Don't lie to me again."

Li Ming said, "I never lied to you."

Lin Xi thought about it, and indeed, Li Ming just didn't say anything, and he didn't lie to himself.

Okay, this big fool used to be like this, he didn't say anything, but now it's even more serious, if he doesn't ask, he won't say a word.

In Lin Xi's mind, Li Ming is now a fool-like existence, the kind who will have problems if he doesn't pay attention.

(End of this chapter)