After awakening, I refused to be the control group of heartthrobs

Chapter 100 What happened today?

"I'm not……"

After a brief shock, Shen Chuze opened his mouth, eager to explain to her.

He thought, she must have misunderstood, she didn't understand what kind of person he was, that's why she said such hurtful words.

"What do you want to say?"

Shu Mingfei interrupted him, "You don't care? Are you not hypocritical?"

She took the lead in saying what he wanted to say, and Shen Chuze blocked his explanation.

He prided himself on being eloquent, but now he didn't know what to say to break the freezing temperature between them.

What's wrong?

A certain intuition touched a certain string in his brain, but like a meteor, it was fleeting and disappeared before he could catch it.

"You are not my type," Shu Mingfei said directly and coldly, "so even if you are not caring and hypocritical, I will not like you."

Her words put an end to everything he wanted to explain.

How familiar are the attitudes and words?
Shen Chuze rejected other women more than once.

At that time, he was tired of the other party's pursuit, and he didn't realize...

No, not right.

It's not that he can't realize that his refusal will hurt the other party, but he doesn't care, so he won't empathize.

When the roles were switched, Shen Chuze realized that it would be such a pain.

For the first time in his life, he felt at a loss. The arms on his side seemed to be superfluous. He didn't know how to place and control them, as if they were inappropriate.

The feet seem to have taken root.

He watched Shu Mingfei leave helplessly, but he didn't have the courage to chase after him.
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Recalling Shen Chuze's expression after hearing her words, Shu Mingfei could guess that he must be very uncomfortable.

But it made him unhappy, and Shu Mingfei's bad mood did not ease much.

On the way home, like a flood that opened its gates, the memory of the person Fu Yunxiu used as a stand-in in the past kept reappearing in her mind.

Although she hadn't awakened her self-awareness at that time, the emotions of being sad and sad and forced to suppress, self-deception remained in her subconscious.

Just lost the pain of a loved one, and the anticipation and joy of reuniting with his biological parents. He thought he had ushered in the light but stepped into a cold abyss. He thought he had encountered redemption but found that he was just a second-best substitute.

Her face was so ugly that it attracted frequent glances from other passengers on the bus.

Shu Mingfei fell into her own world, unaware of everything around her.

Grandpa taught her since she was a child, don't have excessive expectations for things that didn't happen, don't regret, don't think about what if.

Shu Mingfei knows that it is meaningless to always fantasize about things with almost zero probability of happening, and it will only consume his emotions internally.

But after awakening, whenever the night is quiet, she can't help but make a lot of assumptions.

If only she could stop him from going out on the day when grandpa had an accident, would she not lose grandpa?

If grandpa was still there, he would be able to see her going to college, and she would not know about the existence of the rest of the Shu family, and there was no need to go back to that family.

Or, it would be great if she could wake up earlier, so that she would have self-knowledge and would not have expectations of the so-called biological parents who are related to her by blood, let alone act like a person without self-esteem Following Fu Yunxiu's side, wasting three years in vain, giving him a chance to hurt her.

But unfortunately, there are no ifs in the world.

Shu Mingfei's eye sockets were a little hot.

I don't know if it was because there was no lunch break today, and she was too tired from running around with Ling Muchuan, Shu Mingfei suddenly felt very tired, her eyelids became heavy, the world in front of her eyes seemed to be covered with a layer of gray fog, and the light became dim.

Perhaps it was because the sun was about to set.

She rolled her eyes slowly and saw the familiar roads and buildings outside the car window receding backwards. Her mind went blank for a few seconds before she realized that she had passed the stop!
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Shu Mingfei returned home with heavy steps.

After realizing that she had passed the stop, Shu Mingfei felt inexplicably flustered. Her supposedly calm mind became muddled, and she ran to ask the driver to stop.

But if you don't arrive at the station, according to the regulations, you can't stop casually.

The driver decisively rejected her request.

Probably because she was tired after working all day and was in a bad mood. The driver also educated her a few words, nothing more than saying how a young man like her could even pass the bus stop.

In fact, what the driver said was not particularly unpleasant, and the tone was not particularly bad, but it sounded harsh to her at the time. Shu Mingfei felt his face burning, and the other passengers in the car looked at her.

Shu Mingfei didn't dare to look up at any line of sight looking at her, afraid of seeing negative emotions similar to ridicule from it, and when the bus stopped at the next stop, she couldn't wait to get off the bus.

When people are unconscious, they will always make some decisions that they can't even understand.

Shu Mingfei seemed to have fallen into a mental inertia. After getting off the bus, she actually stood still, waiting for the bus from the other direction to arrive.

The bus, which usually takes a few minutes to arrive, disappeared after waiting for nearly 10 minutes today.

Looking at the darkening sky, Shu Mingfei realized belatedly that it was time for her to take a taxi home.

The online car-hailing service came quickly, and Shu Mingfei was delivered to the gate of the community in less than 10 minutes.

Before getting off the car, she thanked the driver normally. After getting off the car, she looked at the leaving car, but fell into confusion.

Obviously I chose to take the bus to save money, but I took the bus past the stop, which is fine, but I had to wait for another bus at the bus stop, wasting so much time and energy, and finally paid for a taxi.

—what the hell is she doing?
At this time, Shu Mingfei's emotions had reached the verge of collapse.

When she went to a noodle shop that she often visited near the community, she wanted to buy a regular beef noodle, but was told that today's beef had been sold out, and the only choice she had was red oil chicken noodle, so she had to buy a Red oil chicken diced noodles, took the packaged noodles home, but found a lot of chopped coriander inside, and this was because she was in a daze after ordering and forgot to remind the boss——

Shu Mingfei's emotions finally broke down.

The tears came without warning, like an exploding water pipe, and I couldn't control it at all.

Shu Mingfei didn't understand why she suddenly wanted to cry so much.

Because I was too tired, I didn't pay attention to sitting and passing the stop.

It just so happens that the noodle shop is in good business today, so I can only buy chicken diced noodles in red oil.

Because she was in a daze and forgot to remind the boss, the coriander she hated appeared in the noodles.

It seemed that it was just a trivial matter, and at other times, she wouldn't care about it, and would just forget about it when she turned around.

What happened today?

　Kidnapped by the author today (not)
　　
　
(End of this chapter)