The beautiful girl who rejects me will regret it

Lying on the hospital bed, smelling the unique smell of alcohol in the hospital, Haruka Sakuraba felt extremely depressed. She turned sideways and looked at the little red baby. She didn't feel happy about it, and even felt a little... …

Nausea.

Because, this child was not what she wanted to be born.

Abortion is nominally illegal in Japan, but there are actually many people who have abortions secretly.

But when Sakuraba Haruka found out that she was pregnant, it was already five or six months. It may be because the baby did not absorb enough nutrients, so her abdomen would not be too obvious.

And after five or six months, it would be very dangerous to try to kill the child.

So she had no choice but to give birth.

Although there are many single mothers here, they are all cheated by scumbags and end up with nothing but one child.

But... Those who have experienced a relationship anyway, and I...

Sakuraba Haruka thought that she had only graduated from university for one year, and had only been looking for a job for one year, but now she has to face such a fact?
She only felt that her whole body was cold, and she had lost any expectation for the future, only infinite despair.

……

It's just that maybe it's because she doesn't want to die so early, and she's not the kind of person who would make a particularly extreme choice.

Or rather...

She is a timid person.

She dare not die.

So she finally hugged her child and took it back to raise it.

And the name Qianxue doesn't have any special meaning, it can only be said that it came from a coincidence.

Qianxue was the thousandth child born in that hospital this year, and it just so happened that it snowed that morning.

Therefore, it was named Qianxue.

Casual, but still aesthetically pleasing, this is already a good name for Haruka Sakuraniwa.

Where did she have the thought to give her child such a meaningful name?
At the beginning, Sakuraba Haruka felt that she was really tortured by Qianxue. She was noisy in the middle of the night, incontinent, and had a high fever late at night. Qianxue was too weak and did not absorb enough nutrition in the mother-fetal state, so that she was just born. In one year, Sakuraba Haruka went to the hospital dozens of times, big and small.

Medical insurance, bank loans, in short, for Qianxue's health, she spent all the money she could.

Sakuraba Haruka couldn't say how much she liked this child, but said that Qianxue was more like a goal of her life.If Qian Xue couldn't do it anymore, then she probably would really muster up the courage to face her own death.

Therefore, she poured her all into Qian Xue.

A year later, Qianxue's health began to improve. Although the place where they lived was still a cheap rented house, and the neighbors around were also dirty and messy, unexpectedly, the people here were not bad. After learning that she had a child, Usually, I will help take care of her a little bit, such as helping her move things, and not complaining to her when she hears the cry of the child at night.

This is one of the few sympathies society has for single mothers.

In terms of life, she barely passed, but in terms of work, Haruka Sakuraba was able to do well when she first joined the company. Even though her ability is average, her education is not very good, and she never goes out to drink and socialize with her colleagues at night, but.

She looks beautiful!

Big waves, a good figure, and the collagen on the face has not lost too much. Sakuraba Haruka is still a natural beauty.And because she gave birth to a child, she still has a very special charm, so that many men will stare at her.

But the favor of the opposite sex is not a good thing for her. Sakuraba Haruka has a serious tendency to fear men, or hate men at this stage.And with the increase in the favor of the opposite sex, the jealousy of the same sex will definitely not be less.

In the workplace, the intrigue of those women, as well as the determination to sell everything for the sake of profit and promotion, are not something Sakuraba Haruka can compete with.

So, soon, she joined a company, and she was able to do well in the first two months. Later, other female colleagues would reveal that she was actually a single mother, and then persuaded a large number of men to quit, and then casually spread rumors about her private life. If she doesn't check something, she can drop her reputation to the bottom in one fell swoop.So I was resigned by the company boss, and then went to the next company, and so on.

It's not that she doesn't have a long memory, it's just that she really doesn't have such a high level of understanding, or in other words, she is not very smart herself, so she can only keep suffering and deflated in interpersonal relationships.

In the end, she was forced to have no other choice, so she gave up going to work in the company, but chose to do odd jobs, using meager living expenses and subsidies issued by the government to make ends meet.

-

"Mom...Mom." It was another ordinary morning, Haruka Sakuraba, who was completely unemployed, stayed at home to check some useful part-time job information online, and was about to go out for an interview.

However, when she was extremely focused, she heard Qianxue's childish voice saying mother behind her.

She quickly stopped what she was doing, and turned around abruptly to look at the little blond girl.Her eyes are aqua blue, very beautiful, and her hair is like a princess in a fairy tale.However, such a little girl is wearing clothes she bought from a second-hand clothing store. I have to say that Sakuraba Haruka still feels guilty and heartbroken.

But more important than that is...

"Mother……"

Qianxue blinked her eyes, as if she was puzzled why the "huge" woman across from her would cry with joy when she said this.

She stretched out her fleshy little hand, and crawled up to Sakuraba Haruka.

"Mother."

Hearing her daughter's "Mom" one after another, Sakuraba Haruka suddenly felt touched by her soul. She also stretched out her hand, gently picked up Qianxue, and put it on her lap.

It's very light and small, with the scent of the shower gel I bought for her, and a milky scent unique to children.The moment she hugged Qianxue, Sakuraba Haruka suddenly thought of many things.

No matter what, this is my child. Since I gave birth to her, I have to be responsible, as a mother.

"Qianxue...my daughter..." Sakuraba Haruka still hugged the only treasure in her arms with very gentle strength.

"Mom..." Qianxue continued to repeat, but because Haruka's hair got caught in her neck, she felt itchy, so she giggled suddenly.

Sakuraba Haruka didn't know what she was laughing at, but she also laughed along with tears in the corners of her eyes.

-

Raising Qianxue by herself until she was six years old, Sakuraba Haruka also experienced many things during her time. After experiencing a period of beatings from the society, she is now doing odd jobs steadily and saving money.After so many years of frugality on my side, Qian Xue was finally able to go to school in peace.

Originally, she should have been sent to kindergarten, but because Sakuraba Haruka really had no money, so when the other children were in kindergarten, Qianxue could only stay at home by herself, watch the scenery when she had nothing to do, and wait boredly for her mother to come back from work.

Because Sakuraba Haruka loves her so much, she doesn't plan to let her do any housework at the moment, which is also covered by Sakuraba Haruka.

Qian Renxue just needs to stay there, being a baby is enough.

"Qianxue, you will go to school tomorrow, and there will be many children of the same age as you, are you looking forward to it?"

Sakuraba Haruka changed Qianxue into the elementary school uniform, and bought her a red leather schoolbag and a yellow hat. Looking at her cute appearance in the uniform, she couldn't help but kiss her on the cheek after saying this.

My daughter is so cute!

"Will mom go with me?" Xiao Qianxue seemed to be a little bit resistant, because she didn't have much contact with people. Even if she did, when she went out with her mother, some kind grandparents would come to say hello, other children of the same age... …she just met, but never communicated.

She was a little scared.

"Mom will take you to school, but if you enter the school, you have to be alone? But don't worry, Qianxue, I have already told the school teachers to take care of you, if you really feel If you feel uncomfortable, you can also ask the teacher to call your mother, and your mother will definitely pick you up as soon as possible."

Feeling her mother's doting on her, Qianxue was able to calm down a little bit. She is also a relatively sensible child. Although she doesn't do anything now, and her mother refuses to help with housework, she will never make a fuss or pester her at ordinary times. My mother bought this and that for her, and if she didn't buy it, she would cry and make trouble.

Although Qianxue has no concept of money at present, she can roughly understand that her living environment is not good, and her mother is relatively poor, so if she wants to be a good child, she can't ask too much. OK.

"Okay, mom will tell you fairy tales before going to bed after taking a shower, and we'll go to school tomorrow, shall we?"

"Okay..." Xiao Qianxue nodded obediently, letting Sakuraba Haruka manipulate her body and limbs.

"Mom, can you hug me to sleep tonight?"

"Of course you can~"

-

After being coaxed by her mother to go to school, Xiao Qianxue also wanted to try her best to behave better, for example, to get praise from the teacher, so that when her mother knew that she was working hard and going to school seriously, she might be much happier.

In fact, Qianxue, who had just entered elementary school, was doing well. As soon as she entered, she was paid close attention to by the teacher. Under the teacher's organization, she also made two little girl friends.

It's just that the good times didn't last long. Some boys saw Qianxue's beauty, so they wanted to bully her.Expressing one's liking in the form of bullying is a common method used by elementary school boys, and some even use it in middle and high school.

Qianxue is very timid, she will quickly avoid boys who want to bully her, and she rarely talks to boys.

On the contrary, there are two little girls who will protect her and take the initiative to make friends with her.

But... After the other party's overtures, Qianxue didn't respond much, which caused their relationship to gradually deteriorate.

The little girl gave Qianxue something to eat when she had nothing to do, and Qianxue would say thank you after eating, but there was no follow-up, because she was poor, and she was embarrassed to ask her mother for money to buy snacks, so there was no response to this part.

Then someone invited her to be a guest at home, and she went too, but she never invited others to her home in turn.

Because her house is relatively small and dilapidated, she is embarrassed to tell others, and she is unwilling to let others go to her house.

After going back and forth like this, Qianxue originally had two good friends who could be close to each other, but they both gradually drifted away from her over a period of time.

However, Qian Xue herself didn't know why, so she tried to ask.

But this is the answer I got.

"Qianxue, are you looking down on us?"

"No... I just..."

"Then you don't intend to play with us at all, we hate you!" Although the child's dislike and liking are serious, they are actually the same thing.

But Qianxue was too clumsy and didn't know how to explain and apologize further, and their relationship came to an end.

And after losing the protective umbrella of a few friends, Qianxue was often harassed by those boys at school, but after those boys harassed her for a while and found that she didn't respond much, they gave up on her and turned to find other React object.

For a while, Qianxue, who was in elementary school, was isolated.

This was the case in the first and second grades, but after the third and fourth grades, everything began to change.

Some children’s families are very rich, so they will start to show off their wealth and the gifts their parents bought for them. Because of the development of the times, mobile phones have improved rapidly. Fast and precocious.

But Qianxue has nothing here, basically no friends, she is still timid, her information is blocked, and she has always been aloof, which made some girls hate her and target her.

-

Qianxue, who was already in the fourth grade, slowly began to grow mentally. When she returned home, she would sigh secretly when her mother was not paying attention, but she didn't complain about anything after all.

At this time, Sakuraba Haruka was cooking in the kitchen and was very busy.

"Qianxue, there is some rubbish here, can you throw it away for me?"

"Good mother."

"Thank you."

"How are you at school recently?"

"Well...it's okay, don't worry about me, Mom."

"No one bullied you, did they?"

"Um……"

"I knew it, after all, my Qianxue is so cute."

Qianxue blushed a little bit embarrassedly, she picked up the garbage bag her mother gave her, and then started to go downstairs to the nearby garbage sorting area.

After throwing away the trash, she was about to go home when she accidentally saw a female classmate.

"Sakuraba Qianxue? Do you live here?" The female classmate was obviously very surprised. She didn't expect that she, who usually behaved like a cold princess in the class, would actually live in this kind of... dilapidated apartment building?
Qianxue didn't know how to reply her, she just felt a little ashamed and embarrassed, so she ran back to the apartment building, and her heart seemed to be about to jump out, which made her feel a little uncomfortable.

At first she thought it was just a small episode.

But I didn't expect that when she went to the class tomorrow, all the classmates would start discussing how poor her house was and laughing at how poor she was.

It was the first time for the young Qianxue to feel this level of malice. (end of this chapter)