Starting from the pursuit of talented girls

Chapter 76 The Courage of Happiness

"I'm a left-behind child, living with my grandfather. My parents don't come back all year round. Other children often make noises, saying that I have a mother who was born or not."

"This made me more introverted and inferior at that time, and I didn't dare to fight back when I was bullied."

Gu Panyan laughed at himself, "Although my grandfather had already started to teach me how to fight, I had the strength to fight, but I didn't have the courage to fight them."

"Every time I cheer myself up in my heart, if those people dare to say that I have a mother but not a mother, I will beat them hard. But when I was really bullied, I still didn't have the courage to resist .”

"Tell me, was I very useless back then?" Gu Panyan asked him suddenly.

"It's human nature, it's normal." Wang Ge reassured, "Courage has never been something that can be easily obtained."

"……you're right."

Gu Panyan laughed softly, "At that time, I was too timid, and I was afraid of too many things, such as dogs, the dark, being bullied, my grades would drop, and my grandpa would be disappointed."

"And what I'm most afraid of are the ghosts that may lurk in the dark. For this reason, I dare not turn off the lights every night when I go to bed, otherwise I will be so scared that I can't sleep."

"In order for me to eliminate my fear, Grandpa carved those evil spirits out of wood, and then asked me to split them with an axe."

Gu Panyan smiled silently, "When I first saw those wood carvings, I was so frightened that I couldn't even hold the ax steadily, and almost hit my foot."

"But later I found out that they are not scary at all. As long as I use a little force, I can split them all."

Wang Ge brought the wood carvings over, raised his eyebrows and asked, "Is this how these wood carvings came from?"

She said "hmm" and laughed mockingly: "The original purpose of my tattoo was not achieved at all. Although it did drive away some flies, it attracted more flies.

I got this thing tattooed on my body on a whim, and it helped me a lot. "

"You were most afraid of them before, so you got the tattoo on your body..." Wang Ge thought for a while, then guessed: "Is it because you want others to be afraid of you?"

"Do not."

Gu Panyan shook his head and said, "It's courage."

"Courage?" Wang Ge was puzzled.

"Correct."

She pointed to her tattoo: "All the evil spirits on it were once carved by my grandfather, and then I split them apart one by one."

"I want to make myself always remember that feeling, remember the feeling of lifting the ax for the first time, facing the fear, fighting the fear until the fear is defeated."

"This is courage," she said.

"When grandpa was still alive, I never owned this kind of thing. Even if I was coaxed and spread rumors, I was still cowardly escaping. This is the root cause of so many flies I attracted."

She smiled derisively again, "After my grandfather passed away and I was tortured mad, I finally had the courage I dreamed of."

Wang Ge didn't say anything, just hugged her gently.

"But that's not enough," Gu Panyan continued, "I began to realize that no matter what you want to do in this world, you need courage. It takes courage to accept grandpa's death, and it also takes courage to change your own status quo."

She pointed to the ghost sculptures in Wang Singer, "So I tattooed them on my body."

"They can't make me fearless. What they can do is to still have the courage to raise an ax and resist when I feel fear."

"When I fight against, or even overcome, the things that scare me, they stop scaring me."

"Facing the real suffering and inner fear, accepting what cannot be changed, and resisting what should be changed."

"That's what courage is about, and it's the most valuable thing I've gained from this experience."

She looked at Wang Ge, and the corners of her mouth turned up: "To be honest, I should be grateful for this experience, otherwise I should still be the cowardly, cowardly and inferior waste."

Wang Ge hugged her softly, shook his head and said, "Suffering is never something to sing about. If possible, I hope you will never experience that."

"I have already experienced it, can it be changed?"

Gu Panyan leaned lazily in his arms, and lifted his chin with his fingers, "Besides, if I hadn't experienced that, would you still like me? Would you like me who is timid and inferior?"

"Of course I will." Wang Ge said as a matter of course, and then snorted, "In this way, I can stand up and be the master without being beaten. I can let you beat my back and shoulders every day, and let you give me a hand at night. Warm the bed!"

"But I won't." Gu Panyan looked into his eyes, "I'll think you're a scumbag, you'd better stay away from me."

Wang Ge: "..."

Gu Panyan looked at him, then raised her head and kissed him on the lips.

"It takes courage to accept the departure of a loved one, it takes courage to accept a broken family, it takes courage to accept that the person I love is a scumbag, doesn't it?"

Wang Ge's body froze slightly.

"I can beat your back and shoulders, and I can also warm your bed." Gu Panyan hugged him and whispered in his ear, "But, young master, you must hide those messy relationships of yours. Well, don't let me find out."

"Accept what cannot be changed, and resist what should be changed. Grandpa is dying, and parents are at odds. I have no choice. But if I find out about your messy relationship..." She whispered softly in his ear. Tone, "Do you think I will accept it, or resist?"

Wang Ge thought for two seconds, and then said expectantly: "If possible, I would like to experience back and shoulder first."

Gu Panyan was silent for a moment, then punched him hard on the arm, "Go to hell!"

Then she stood up, glared at him, and went back to her room.

"It hurts..."

Wang Ge rubbed the place where he was beaten, and smiled wryly.

Although I was often beaten before, it never hurt like this.

He knew that such an answer might make Gu Panyan angry, but there was no way, how else could he answer.

When he decided to be a scumbag, he was destined to face this kind of question, no matter how he answered it, he would be wrong.

It's hard being a scumbag.

Life is not easy, Wang Ge sighed.

No way, who made him greedy, wanting everything.

This is something he has to bear.

……

The next day, Wang Ge rarely woke up early, cooking and cleaning.

Gu Panyan dismissed his flattering behavior, but did not continue to be angry with him.

In the afternoon, Gu Panyan went shopping, while Wang Ge sat in front of the computer to check his grades.

He checked his own first, 730 nine, one point short of seven hundred and four, a little regretful.

But winning the provincial champion should not be a problem.

The corners of his mouth turned up slightly.

He turned around and checked Gu Panyan's grades again. He got 610 points in [-], which was about the same as expected, not too low. There must be no problem in going to Changchuan University.

The moment he saw Gu Panyan's results, the system's voice rang in his ears:

"Ding~"

[Congratulations to the host for completing the task: saving the bad girl. 】

[Rewards obtained: Physical fitness +1, points +6140, the special ability "teach without discrimination" becomes permanent and takes effect for everyone. 】

[During the mission, the host successfully established a romantic relationship with Gu Panyan and received additional rewards. 】

[Congratulations to the host for obtaining a special ability: the courage of happiness]

[Special ability: Courage to be happy]

[Introduction: You will have the courage to achieve happiness that ordinary people cannot match. In fear and suffering, you will bravely face, dare to resist, and be invincible]

[Effect: When you choose to face fear and suffering, all your attributes +1, all skill levels +1, until you overcome this fear and suffering]

【Cooling time: none】

PS: Courage is the most important spiritual core of the role of Gu Panyan. After laying the groundwork for a long time, I finally wrote it out.

Xixi has a towering pursuit of freedom, and Yanbao naturally needs to have the courage to be deeply rooted in the ground, so that he can compete with it.

Don't say I'm biased anymore, I give the same love to both characters.

It's just that compared to Xixi's freedom, Yanbao's courage is more difficult to understand. After all, courage should be a topic that everyone writes badly in middle and high school essays. What is there to write about?

I can understand, so I didn't write too deeply, it is an online novel after all.It’s also a layer of armor, afraid that some people will not understand, or have different views from mine, so come and spray me.

Among them, I have borrowed a small part of Adler's "Psychology of Courage". If you are interested, you can find out.

　Please read!

　　
　
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