Starting from the pursuit of talented girls

Chapter 15 Chen Yanxi's Diary
"Monday, February 2, sunny."

"Today's part-time job went well, and I got an extra few hundred dollars."

"In this way, if the school is still closed every two weeks for the next three months, then I don't need to worry about money anymore."

"However, we still need to save some in daily life, and set aside some money to prevent accidents."

"It doesn't matter if you don't eat dinner, I'm used to being hungry."

"However, in order to solve the problem of part-time jobs, I was forced to agree to Wang Ge's somewhat rude request."

"Pretending to be his girlfriend on weekends of the week to give him a leg up in front of his friends."

"I really didn't expect that the plot in this light novel would actually happen to me."

"And I actually agreed in a strange way."

"It's definitely not that I developed some kind of affection for him, I just softened my heart for a while-well, if I softened my heart, it proves that I did have some kind of affection for him."

"When writing a diary, I can always realize some things that I usually don't notice. This is probably a kind of introspection. I observe and reflect on myself from the perspective of a bystander. This can effectively prevent me from entering into misunderstandings and digging into the corners of my head. , It is also one of the motivations that have always supported me to write down the diary.”

"I'm not hard-hearted, and I'm far from being as cold-blooded and ruthless as I've shown. The long-term relationship made me uncontrollably shackled, so that I would soften my heart and couldn't bear to refuse his request."

"Actually, this is not entirely my problem. If Wang Ge's actions disgust me, I will naturally not feel 'soft-hearted', and I will not have the heart to refuse the request to pretend to be a girlfriend."

"Well, I feel much more comfortable thinking about it this way. Wang Ge is right. Being Ah Q is also very good. At least it can make my mood not so bad."

"Objectively speaking, Wang Ge is indeed an excellent male individual. He has experience and knowledge far beyond this age group. He speaks and does things very well, and he is very comfortable to get along with. This is why I was willing to work with him in the first place. One of the reasons to read in the library.”

"The description here is of the previous Wang Ge. Now as we get more and more familiar with him, he has slowly begun to show his true colors. His face is getting thicker and more unscrupulous. Today, he even uses the title of 'wife' directly. calls me."

"I don't know how he managed to yell."

"..."

"Speaking of which, I talked to him tonight about some ideas about 'virginity'. In this regard, he has similar views with mine. This is a very rare thing, and it makes me happier."

"Many of my ideas and concepts are different from most of my peers, and it is always difficult to be recognized. I don't think I am wrong, but always being criticized will inevitably destroy some of my self-confidence."

"It's nice that there are other people my age who have similar ideas to me, even if it's just a trivial aspect."

"Wang Ge said that this concept is still a bit advanced for people of this era, but in fact, as early as 1920, Hu Shi published an article in the newspaper called "On Women Defiled by Rape", which was This is the first time this concept has been mentioned."

"That was 1920, and the concept was indeed ahead of its time, but now that 100 years have passed, is it still ahead of its time?"

"I do not know."

"I lack sufficient social experience, my understanding of the world is immature, and I am not qualified to make evaluations in this regard."

"I just simply hope that there are more people who share similar and same ideas with me."

"That way I might have a few friends, and I won't make up my mind to reject all intimacy."

"Wang Ge's ideas are similar to mine. I think he may be the same as me, and he doesn't have many friends who can really talk to him."

"The truth seems to be the case. He confessed that this is why he likes me. He can find something in me that other girls don't have."

"I don't think these ideas that are different from most people are shining, but if he is also such a person, then it is understandable."

"...At first, I thought he chose to chase me because I was the number one student in my studies, outstanding in appearance and unique, and would have a lot of face to have me as his girlfriend, so he chose to chase me—boys of this age are always like this, Pursuing a maverick is different, I think it is very beautiful-I also wrote this guess in my diary in December."

"I apologize to him for my malicious speculation."

"He is indeed a very good boy. It is really difficult to find a second person as good as him in this age group, so I sincerely hope that he can give up my dead end as soon as possible and find a bright road. "

"Everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses. Everyone is unique. I also have many shortcomings, but he was blinded by his good feelings for me and ignored those obvious shortcomings."

"For example, if he was chasing other girls, he might have caught up with her a long time ago, and now he has entered the sweet love period, instead of relying on pretending to have a girlfriend like now, and he has to be careful when holding hands. agree."

"Well, the above sentence is a simple complaint. I don't have such a thing as a 'girlfriend', so I can only complain in my diary."

"At this point, it is very difficult to persuade him to give up, so I have to think about whether to be more indifferent to him in the last three months, so that he no longer has expectations of me; or to be nice to him. One point, leaving some warmer memories for me and him.”

"The advantage of the former is that he won't be too sad after I leave. The disadvantage is that it is also a kind of torture for myself, and it may be difficult for me to do this. I always have a soft heart."

"As for the latter, the advantage is that you can spend a relatively good three months before the college entrance examination. The disadvantage is...how good the relationship was before, how cruel the parting will be afterward."

"hard to decide."

"Hmm... If I could get to know Wang Ge earlier, before I made the decision to 'reject all intimacy', maybe I wouldn't have to be so entangled."

"I can't say for sure. I was still very naive at that time, and he might also be eyeballing at that time."

"...wait until after this weekend to make a choice."

"If he performs well, then I will choose the latter and let him take advantage of it; if he does not perform well, then I will choose the former. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain."

"that's it."

"..."

"Heh, it seems that I really have some inexplicable feelings for Wang Ge. I used to not be so entangled."

"It's meaningless to think about these things. I don't know whether I choose the right path or not, but I always have to try to go on to know."

"Everything in this world is conserved. If you want to gain something, you must first lose something. I understood this truth a long time ago, and I have already prepared myself for it."

"I shall be free."

　Using the form of a diary to describe the character of Chen Yanxi in more depth, this method should be quite rare, I wonder if you like it?

　　In addition, the name of this book should be changed tomorrow. The new title will most likely be "Starting from the Pursuit of a Genius and Beautiful Girl". I hope everyone will not be disgusted.

　　Finally, please collect, ask for recommendation tickets, ask for follow-up reading, and ask for monthly tickets~
　　
　
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