Starting from the pursuit of talented girls

Chapter 103 Big Sister Killer

"Psychologist?"

Wang Ge shook his head, "No, it's not a big problem."

He is actually very clear about his own situation.

Seeing a psychiatrist is of no use.

He was born with the memory of his previous life, with rich experience and complete three views.

But these cannot be seen, so he has put on a thick camouflage since he was born.

To pretend to be a baby, to be hugged every day, and to be fed three meals a day, bored can only sleep or be in a daze, and even excretion cannot be resolved by oneself.

This is definitely an unacceptable thing for a mature, dignified, and ashamed adult.

So he felt very tormented and extremely painful.

And when he was a baby, he received a lot of attention. He had to be tense all the time, except for sleeping most of the time every day, he just cried loudly.

Only in the dead of night can he look at the darkness outside the window and be himself for a while.

At that time, as a newborn baby, what he thought most about was: It would be better to die directly.

Since you want me to time-travel, why do you have to start from scratch, can't you just time-travel to high school or college?

Do you want to find a way to kill yourself?At least not so much torture.

But his body is not developed, even if he has the idea of ​​suicide, he has no ability to commit suicide.

Bang your head against the wall?Let's not talk about whether he has a chance to hit, even if he has a chance, his body has no strength at all, his bones are not developed, and he can't even stand up, how can he hit?
Bite your tongue and kill yourself?He doesn't even have teeth, should he bite his tongue with his gums?

There is a chance to cut his wrists, but how could his parents let him have access to knives.

Human cubs are such feeble creatures.

All he can do is accept the reality and numbly pretend to be a baby.

If things go on like this, some psychological problems have already appeared in him.

Fortunately, as time passed, his body gradually developed and improved, and he was finally able to take care of himself.

I also gradually got used to the disguise, which gradually improved.

But because he was still under the eyes of his parents, he couldn't take off the disguise to save himself, so he could only try not to let the psychological problems expand.

After entering kindergarten, he left his parents and received less attention. He finally had the opportunity to take off his disguise for a short time, and silently huddled in a corner to lick his wounds.

But this was regarded as withdrawn, which made his parents worry for a while, and even found a psychiatrist for him.

Helpless, he had no choice but to put on a disguise again, show an innocent smile, and play with those children of the same age.

This was also an extremely painful thing for him at the time.

Although it is much easier than when I was a baby, the psychological problems have gradually expanded.

He began to become irritable and irritable, and he would lose his temper without knowing it, and he could not control it at all.

Looking at the children playing around, he would want to take something and hit them on the head, and it must be very interesting to see their bleeding.

When I was alone, I became withdrawn, taciturn, my mind was empty, my heart was exhausted, and I had no thoughts.

Lying on the bed looking at the ceiling, thinking that it would be great if the ceiling could fall and kill me...

However, after all, Wang Ge is not someone who will sit still.

He knew very well that if he continued like this, he would suffer from some kind of mental illness.

He didn't want to go to a mental hospital.

So he started trying to save himself.

Originally, the best way to save yourself is undoubtedly to remove the pretense and be your true self.

But when he wanted to do this, he found sadly that this layer of camouflage could no longer be removed.

Because it has been disguised for too long, it has already formed a habit, even an instinct, no matter how difficult it is to peel off
Therefore, he can only temporarily block and forget the adult part of himself, so that he can truly become a child and feel the joy, anger, sorrow and joy of a child.

The camouflage cannot be removed, so turn that layer of camouflage into your own flesh and blood.

In this way, the psychological problems were indeed alleviated, but he himself seemed to be schizophrenic.

Just like what Li Zhimeng said, the child part of him was happily playing with the children, while the blocked adult part was watching and mocking indifferently.

It's just that it was a symptom many years ago.

Now, after all these years of hard work, he has blended the two parts together.

He has formed a somewhat weird personality now.

He can't tell whether he is naive or mature now.

But it doesn't matter, at least mentally healthy.

It's like a rag doll that has been patched many times. Although the body is full of patches and there are some small defects, it has been repaired completely.

Overall harmless.

However, although Li Zhimeng was talking about the symptoms many years ago, Wang Ge was still a little surprised that she could see it in such a short period of time.

"Have you studied psychology?" Wang Ge asked her.

"No, I'm learning foreign languages." Li Zhimeng said.

Wang Ge was puzzled: "Then how did you see that I have a problem?"

Li Zhimeng immediately crossed his waist and looked proud: "Of course it's because I'm good!"

Wang Ge: "..."

Seeing Wang Ge's speechless expression, Li Zhimeng scratched his hair and said with a smile, "Hey, it's actually because I've met a lot of people."

"I grew up in an orphanage, and I have been running around in the past two years. Whether it is an adult or a child, I have seen too many."

"The eyes of children will be very clear and full of innocence, but the eyes of adults will be a little cloudy and indifferent. The older they are, the more indifferent, and then they may become clear again after they grow old."

"But brother, you are different from others."

Li Zhimeng stretched out her small hand and gestured, "Your eyes, most of the time, are these two kinds of eyes that are completely superimposed and expressed together, and the remaining small part of the time will be like a child, with only innocence in the eyes, no eyes at all. The indifference of adults."

"Well, that was the case when you were playing with the children just now."

Wang Ge let out a 'tsk', "You've observed so carefully, you can't be in love with me, right?"

"Stop being narcissistic."

Li Zhimeng snorted, "It's just because your eyes are different from other people's and you are more curious, so I paid extra attention to you."

"Well, I thought it was because I was so charming that I was fascinated by you." Wang Ge said casually.

He didn't really want to talk about this aspect. He felt like he was stripped naked, so he deliberately pulled the topic off.

"It's really charming, brother."

Li Zhimeng obviously saw this too, and she, who has always been considerate, smiled and gave Wang Ge a thumbs up, "This kind of innocence-filled eyes is a lore for those experienced big sisters, no big sister My sister can reject someone like you."

"I would like to call you the Big Sister Killer!"

　The shaping of Li Zhimeng has just started, don't worry, you have to come one by one
　　
　
(End of this chapter)