hollywood billionaire

Chapter 368 I am worthy

Chapter 368 I am worthy
"Good evening, Maddie."

Madison Beer did not wait too long. A few seconds after the words fell, Barbara Pavin opened the master bedroom door gracefully.

The hostess's full-flavored, natural and powerful aura, as well as her elegant and charming demeanor as if she was filming a Sports Illustrated Summer Swimsuit Issue, made it completely impossible to tell that just ten minutes ago, she was hugging Han Yi in a panic, saying Rejected the offer to meet Madison again.

Except for still wearing the white bathrobe, except that there is not even an inch of other fabric under the white bathrobe, the Hungarian supermodel did not leave any flaws.

"meet again."

Barbara walked between the two of them, glanced at Han Yi, who was being held by Madison's neck, and then glanced at her outfit. First, her pupils shrank violently, and then she immediately began to crazily load up her anger level, holding back her anger. To show that he was more detached than the uninvited guest who accidentally broke in, he smiled slightly and his face was as calm as water.

"I didn't expect you to wake up so quickly."

"Each each other."

Madison sneered, loosened her arm around Han Yi's neck, and faced Barbara.

"Aren't you about to vomit and have to go back to your room to rest?"

Most of the wine has sobered up, but a small part is still controlled by the whiskey and margarita, and this is why the Hungarian girl can muster the courage to say the following words.

Barbara chuckled and shook her head.

"Who said this?"

"Of course it's the exact opposite of 'completely over it and never look back'."

I don’t know whether it was the uncontrollable anger because I heard about the passion between the person I like and another girl, or the regret because I accidentally revealed the key information and brought the already eliminated competitor back into the game.

"This is why I like Carly and Kara very much. They are really trying to change people's stereotypes about models bit by bit through their own efforts, and this is what I want to do. You think models are all Do you like gorgeous and dazzling clothes? Then I usually don’t wear big-name brands when I go out on the street. Do you think models should be slutty by nature? I can stay single all the time and lock myself at home after work to watch anime..."

"Why...are you always grabbing what's on my plate?"

"I know many good friends in the same industry, and they all live in similar illusions. They put on their underwear, put on their wings, and walked onto the catwalk, and they really thought they were angels. But I can't convince myself, I know , what role do those semi-nude posters that Victoria’s Secret hangs in store windows play?”

"Do I want it? I do!"

Barbara was silent for a moment, then bluntly acknowledged her exact words. This is the last chance to confess everything and the best way to turn the tide of the war.

"I have a very clear understanding of my career and career - to have a beautiful skin, and then use this beautiful skin to try on beautiful clothes one after another for the world. Regardless of this so-called Clothing, be it haute couture, swimwear, or sexy lingerie.”

"Is your head upside down?"

"It's just a false title."

"In the past, I was always thinking about whether it was right or not. The last time I met him was, should I just let him go and be an independent woman who could not be blamed by others. Until you told me, let him go I realized that I had never asked myself if I wanted it.”

"When you are a guest performer at Mad City or a suite guest at Wynn Hotel, there will be a team of housekeepers working around the clock to help you accomplish whatever you want to do." The sharpness in Madison's words was not obvious. , are not sharp either, but they are there.

"Aren't you?"

"Who asked me to live on the same floor as Yi?" Barbara sighed, "I saw him when the elevator door opened. This kind of wonderful encounter is called fate."

"Don't you have to take responsibility for your own life? Don't you not want to live this kind of life? Don't you want to be alone in the middle of the night swallowing food silently, and then be jeered at by a girl like me?"

"When I said this, I really thought I had escaped and let go of him. I really thought... I would never have anything to do with him again."

"Who swore to me that she escaped and that she and Yi would never have anything to do with each other again?"

"It's you, Maddie. How did you end up on a floor that doesn't belong to you at two in the morning?"

Why does it have to be her who lets go?
"you really……"

Madison walked slowly in Barbara's direction.

"Anything you want to do, what is it?" Barbara tilted her head.

After taking two or three deep breaths, she forced a weak smile on her lips.

"It's so straightforward... shameless."

unwilling.

"I know how most people evaluate professional models, and I also know how those who praise me on the surface will actually label me in their hearts. Therefore, I never feel comfortable picking up a model. Bottle of face cream, smile in front of the camera, I am a global ambassador for L'Oréal. I also don't feel like I am playing in the water in a swimsuit on the beach in Florida, I am Sports Illustrated's Rookie of the Year."

At this point, Barbara nodded firmly at Madison.

"Shameless? My biggest problem is that I am too ashamed."

"The first time we met, I was so happy that I chewed through the sheets. During two days and one night in London, I had three peaks in a row, and I still wanted him to push me into the closet. Why shouldn't I?"

At this point, Barbara completely covered her eyes with her hot palms.

"First of all, I have to apologize to you, Maddie. My head did grow backwards when I was telling you this."

Barbara's voice was low and decadent, and she gave herself this somewhat incomprehensible comment. Then her feet softened and she fell down on the sofa behind her.

For a moment, Madison's face turned pale, and lines bulged from time to time on her sharpened jawline, which was caused by clenching her teeth and tightening her muscles.

Like a symphony of emotions that progressed layer by layer, after the fierce accusation, there were fingers hanging down helplessly, and a whisper that almost only Maddie could hear.

"Look, are you familiar with the current scene? Or are you swallowing silently late at night, or are you being pushed in by a girl like me and sarcastic... What is the meaning of those words you just said in front of me? It's just for Lie to me and make me quit?!"

Madison stood on tiptoe as she answered, glancing around Barbara with a slightly sarcastic look.

This is how humans are, the most vulgar language can express the simplest emotions.

"Why not? Why don't I want the man who stayed with me to avoid the night rain in London and watched the sunset in New York? Why don't I want the man who I can't live without for the past three months? I want to give him a call every day after work. Video call, looking at the man who is giggling, why shouldn’t I?”

Barbara's words, over and over again, no matter how you examine them, there are only two words that can be analyzed.

"I'm just too ashamed, so I keep worrying about these things. It's the same with Yi. I obviously like him very much, so much so that he takes the initiative when we meet for the first time, but he still rushes away the next day to avoid anyone thinking that I It’s about being around billionaires.”

"Obviously I don't want him to leave in London, I want him to stay in my apartment and stay with me for two more days, but I still want to tell him Keep It Casual there and be his emotional mentor, as if this is all. I can show my independence and maturity and not let myself have the slightest possibility of becoming a third party that intervenes."

"Obviously I was in New York, and I wanted to see his apartment, give him another kiss there, and tell him that I had never forgotten London, and that I wanted to revisit London. I obviously went downstairs, but in the end I stopped. He stopped, stopped a taxi and ran away, and even said something incomprehensible to him: "I'll see you when I see you."

"Obviously... too many."

"I always thought I was doing the right thing until I met you unexpectedly, Maddie, and it wasn't until we had that conversation that I discovered that I actually didn't make anyone's life better, I just made myself It’s just becoming more unhappy.”

"When I returned to my room, leaned against the door and slowly sat on the floor, and heard his footsteps getting farther and farther, I finally understood a truth. Your life - yours, and the other two women The child’s will not change in any way because of my sacrifice and accommodation, and you will not think that my sacrifice and accommodation have brought about any changes.”

"I'm just touching myself. I'm working so hard for the perfection that will never exist, but I forget that in the end, my life only has this perspective. Listening to him fading away outside the corridor, I can only A dazed perspective looking into a dark room."

"So I opened the door, ran out, and got what I'd always dreamed of. Because I figured out that what I wanted was more important than who I should be."

"No matter what kind of person I become, I will show it to others. What I want is for myself."

"Everyone should have the freedom to choose."

"so……"

Barbara patted her shoulder and found the strength to stand up again.

"This time, my man, I will not give it to you again."

"What I grabbed was not what was on your plate."

"That's what was meant to be mine."

After glancing at Han Yi, who was silent and speechless, his eyes flickering, wondering what he was thinking, Barbara turned her attention to Madison again.

"I believe you should be able to understand what I said."

"Because you went downstairs."

"I'm going downstairs." Madison folded her hands in front of her and took a step closer to Barbara.

"But what does that mean?"

"This means that you have made the same choice as me."

"How come I don't know what choice I made?"

Madison pursed her lips and smiled wider.

"I simply asked someone to swipe my card for me and took the elevator for half a minute."

"The elevator to the bottom of the ocean."

"what?"

"seabed."

Barbara pointed at Han Yi.

"You saw this whirlpool that was bigger than you, and you knew how dangerous it was. If you were dragged in, there would be no chance of getting out, but you still chose to jump in."

"Ladies--"

Han Yi grinned and answered in a low voice, embarrassed and helpless.

"I'm still here, and I don't think I'm that..."

"Didn't you jump in too?" Madison ignored Han Yi's self-defense and stared directly at Barbara.

"I think we are all the kind of people who don't listen to advice." Barbara smiled sweetly, "Stubborn, like two stones."

"You are a stone, I am not." Madison puffed up his chest and denied proudly, "The stone is very hard, but the stone will break. As for me... I am steel, I can bend, but I will never break."

"As a person, there are very few things that I really want. Most things in life are dispensable to me. If I let go, I will let go, and if I give it away, I will give it away. In most cases, I’m an extremely generous person.”

"But those few that I believe belong to me, you can't even try to take away a hundred more of them." Madison pointed at the carpet at his feet, "This career that finally doesn't look so bad anymore, and If I don’t give it to the person who makes it less bad, no one can take it.”

At this point, Madison rolled her eyes and showed Han Yi her increasingly beautiful and mature profile.

"Yi, I originally prepared a very touching confession, but now it seems that I can only find an opportunity to tell you again - there is an annoying spirit in the house."

"Now, I only have one thing to tell you."

"You said that you have no concept of loyalty, renunciation and sacrifice. You are terrible, perverted and hopeless. You said that I am not an adult yet and do not understand what feelings are. I am just a whim of unrequited love. You said that we should not be possible. , because you are my boss and I am your artist."

"I admit that you are right about these things. Whether at home or on the road, I often think of you and us. I will spread out our situation, put it in front of the bed, and analyze it over and over again. .The results of every analysis are very different from what you said. So I always worry about gains and losses, hesitant about whether I should put all my bets on you. After all, I am only a minor, what do I know? What? You think so?"

"So, in the past, I only dared to find opportunities for the two of us to be alone, and conduct experiments bit by bit under the premise of being safe enough. Anyway, the time is still long, and the days are still long, so it doesn't hurt to take your time. "

"But just now, after Barbara left, I lay back on the bed and looked at the ceiling twisting and turning, and I suddenly understood a truth. Maybe the criterion for judging whether I should give it a try is not whether others are worth it, but Am I worth it?"

"Hollywood is not worth dedicating my life to it, but if I deserve to be a great singer, then I should do it, regardless of whether its nature is dark or dirty. In the same way, maybe you don't It’s worth it, but it doesn’t matter.”

"As long as I'm worthy, that's enough."

"If I deserve joy and happiness, then I should do what I want and act boldly. I should do this whether it's you I want or not."

"You see, musically, I insist on what I want, no matter who is sitting across the table, Scooter or you. The person who can't accept it will automatically leave and let the person who is really suitable for me take his place. Location."

“I figured that since it had proven itself in one aspect of my life, I could continue to apply it to the best of my ability in another aspect of my life.”

"As long as I persist, don't compromise, and don't give in, one day, someone who is truly suitable for me and truly worthy will appear in my field of vision."

"It doesn't matter whether that person is you or not, Yi."

"I want you, but it's not about you."

"well said!"

Barbara smiled and applauded Madison twice. Unknown, she thought she was an audience member who was not involved in the drama.

"The things we pursue are not wrong, and there is no conflict. It's just that at this time, they coincide with this person."

"Yeah, maybe they won't overlap in the future."

"Maybe you don't like him anymore."

"Maybe you won't like him anymore."

"Maybe we both dislike him at the same time."

"Probably."

"Then it's time for him to be sad."

"I really wish he could have experienced this."