our family is gone

Chapter 266 No honor at all
"If you haven't found what you want to do, then go to school to teach students literacy first, and I will calculate the salary with you first..."

Lance briefly explained the treatment of the school teachers. To be honest, most of the current jobs in the town conflict with her abilities.

He can't even afford to eat but has no time to study antiques. As for the extraordinary mysticism of wizards, it is obviously not a serious school. It is impossible for Lance to let other people learn this stuff.

Anyway, there is a shortage of teachers in the school, so let her go there to make do with it.

school?She had inquired about the nuns today because she had heard about them, so she had a subtle expression on her face.

But she didn't refuse either, it was just that the serious treatment was a little... difficult to adapt to.

Because no one treats her like this normally, the feeling of being treated like an ordinary person made her feel inexplicably relaxed.

"Catherine obeys the Lord Lord's arrangement."

"But before that, I need to test your ability." Lance showed Tamara what he had shown to her before. He didn't even mention the Mother of Worms, but only briefly described the flesh and blood ritual.

Catherine couldn't help frowning when she heard the words, but shook her head after a moment of confusion.

"I don't know the specific function of the ritual. The wizard didn't teach me the knowledge of mysticism."

The sorcerer was obviously on the defensive, and hadn't systematically taught Catherine extraordinary knowledge. As for what she learned by stealing it, it was also scattered and difficult to be effective.

"Have you heard of a cult that believes in the Mother of Worms in the Levant? And ghouls."

"I was taken away from the Levant by a wizard when I was very young. I have never heard of the mother of worms, but there is a legend about sand worms in the local area. Everyone should be careful that it may come out of the yellow sand at any time. sandworms, capable of swallowing a human in one gulp.

As for the legend of ghouls, it is very widespread, even the kind of folklore. Every parent will warn their children not to run around at night, and the terrifying ghouls will take away disobedient children. "

Speaking of this, Catherine's expression also changed a little, as if she was trapped in memories.

Before, when I dreamed late at night, I couldn't remember the faces of my parents, as if separated by a veil, it became more and more blurred as the memory faded.

What came to mind was the tragedy of that night. Desperation and fear almost grabbed her soul. Under the control of the wizard, she gradually became numb and lost herself.

But just a little while ago, I remembered that clear face. It was a happy time when the family gathered around the campfire. I was very naughty and full of energy, and I often made everyone laugh...

He also noticed her sudden weird reaction, and from her relaxed look and the slowly emerging smile, he could feel that Catherine was immersed in beauty.

Lance wisely didn't interrupt her, and found that she looked pretty with a thin face when she smiled, at least she didn't keep that Sima face...

But they could laugh, Tamara couldn't.

Originally, the location where he was overtaken was not far from Hamlet. The reason why the opponent didn't follow up was because there were too many people involved in the wizard's battle, and it was difficult to find himself.

If there were no wizards blocking the way, she might be able to escape a certain distance, but her spirituality was overdrawn in that battle, so she was forced to stop and recuperate.

It's just that when she recovered, she also roughly estimated that the other party had almost made a move.

So I went to Lance just now to seek asylum, but obviously failed.

Therefore, seeing Catherine, the guy who replaced him, would be hostile when he went out. It was her appearance that made him lose all chips.

But as a person who dares to wander the world, she also has a temper. Seeing that Lance refused to make a move, Tamara was very stubborn. Even if she hadn't fully recovered, she still drove the carriage to leave the town.

She no longer believed Lance's words, but it was a pity that her collection was all in the carriage, and she could not abandon the carriage, so she could only go back to the old road.

Hope to get out of here before that guy comes.

But it didn't take long for Tamara to feel a strong sense of crisis. She grabbed the reins and stopped the carriage. She looked ahead of the road, and she knew she had found her...

Being able to own an independent masonry house in Hamlet shows that its identity is not simple.

Leonard followed the mission last time and came back to take a vacation according to the regulations. At this time, he was training his son in the yard.

He didn't wear armor, just ordinary casual clothes, and what he held in his hand was not the treasure [Certificate of Champion], but a wooden stick.

On the contrary, his son Ryan put on his old armor that had been repaired many times, but the difference in figure was a bit big, and it looked a little funny to wear.

The long sword in Ryan's hand was also eliminated by him. Its length and weight were also beyond the reach of an ordinary child. Fortunately, during this period of time, there was enough food, and the malnourished body gradually recovered.

Leonard himself was thrown into the church by his parents when he was a child. The missing childhood made him not know how to treat his son. According to his idea, he must be thrown into the training camp, so that he can become a soldier who can defend Hamlet as soon as possible.

It's a pity that my son is not allowed to serve in the army until he is 14 years old, so he was arranged to go to school as a matter of course.

Today, it is not his habit for him to be idle at home on vacation, and he will directly drag his son to start training in advance after school.

"Bang!"

The long sword was blocked by the wooden stick, and Leonard hit him mercilessly before Ryan could react.

Being hit hard, even if the armor blocked most of the damage, it was still unbearable for the child to fall to the ground.

"It's not like this. If it was a sword just now, you would have died." Leonard looked at his son calmly, without showing any mercy.

Having been on the battlefield, he knows that any flaw will be repaid with his life, and he must undergo more rigorous training to survive.

But he is still doing well now. At that time, he joined the Crusaders on the spur of the moment. He just waited until the team assembled and trained for a month before embarking on the Holy War. Some of them just came to the assembly point a few days later Set off.

A large group of excited recruits swarmed onto the battlefield, and soon they realized that the so-called war was not as sacred as the bishop said.

In the first battle, the price was a wound that almost split him open, and the only one who survived was the discovery of himself by the chaplain...

Some flashbacks of the past made Leonard's face even more serious, and he looked down at his son who fell to the ground.

"If you want to knock me down, stand up, the enemy will not give you a chance."

Leonard's words were cold, as if he was treating ordinary soldiers, and he didn't show the slightest father's gesture at all.

"Hmph..." As for the son in the armor, although he was exhausted, he still struggled to stand up, and he never gave in to this father.

Just before the training started again, Leonard seemed to notice something and looked up.

At this moment, he looked a little strange.

No way, because this outfit is too familiar.

The Battle Sisters of the Church.

Leonard knew something, but the lord did not speak, nor did he intend to intervene.

Coupled with the rare vacation, he spends most of his time with his family. I don't know if his son agrees with this kind of company, but he thinks so anyway.

But why did this person come to him?
"Practice yourself first, swing the sword a hundred times."

Leonard put down his sentence and walked towards the door, and asked the nun, but his tone was quite cold.

"what's the matter?"

"What happened to the church? Someone told me I could come and find you."

This question made Leonard a little surprised. Looking at the nun standing at the door with a slightly confused look in his eyes, Leonard seemed to see his former self, so he could only take a long breath.

"Come on in boy, I don't know if this is the answer you need, but I can tell you a story about me."

Leonard led him in, and he didn't mean to avoid his son, but slowly told about the first half of his life.

He was sent to a church school by his parents to be tortured and brainwashed when he was a child... He grew up responding to the church's jihad call with fanatical faith and joined the Crusaders... The brutal war he experienced on the way to the jihad... Peeped into the ugliness of the church... Leaving the Crusaders and starting to wander... meet the lord...

Leonard had long since let go of all this. He did not deliberately discredit the church, but calmly told his own story.

In fact, counting tens of thousands of recruits, he can stand out and become the leader of one of the legions is already very inspirational, and even has a bit of a legendary story.

It was indeed like this at the beginning, the foolish boy in Leonard's words was full of pious belief in the Holy Light, and even the cruel battle failed to defeat him.

But when he gradually shifted the perspective of description to other places.

The so-called evil heretics are just ordinary people who were plundered and slaughtered in the course of the holy war.

The ordinary crusaders who kept dying around them died meaninglessly, and those who didn't die gradually fell into madness. They were more like demons than demons.

And those disgusting church higher ups.Looting and massacres are all orders issued by them.

He is pious and not stupid, Leonard knows that what he is doing is not a noble holy war, but a shameless plunder!

The naked reality directly tore his lofty beliefs, and he found that he was just a weapon wielded by the church to harvest those ordinary people.

At this time, his conscience became a burden instead, tormenting him, unwilling to sink like other soldiers.

Until he lost its function, he was abandoned by the higher-ups after changing hands, just like... throwing away a worn-out weapon.

Ryan, who was swinging a sword, had already stopped training, and his attention was immersed in those descriptions.

In fact, he is very unfamiliar with the role of father. He only remembers that man abandoned himself and his mother when he was very young.

For so many years, I and my mother have lived together, and I don’t know how much discrimination I have suffered in the village. I am called a "child without a father", while my mother will be harassed by some guys.

He remembers very clearly that at the beginning he was still longing for his father to come back, until one time because of this incident, he had a conflict with some people and fought. When he returned home with his whole body hurt, he once asked his mother The whereabouts of the father, but all he got was the silent tears of the mother.

Since that day, he swore that he didn't need any father to protect his mother.

So in this environment he became tough and tyrannical, only in this way can he protect himself and his mother.

Originally, he thought that the role of father would disappear from his world, but suddenly a person appeared and claimed to be his father.

conflict!Even disgusted.

He didn't want to admit the guy who abandoned their mother and child, but because of his mother, he could only be forced to keep up.

To be honest, he didn't recognize this father at all before, so naturally he didn't care about this person. The relationship between the two is very rigid, and the relationship between the two is not even as good as others.

Staying here is partly because my mother is still here.

The other part of the training is that he wants to beat the guy who abandoned them with his own hands!

But after hearing those words, he realized that things were not that simple back then.

Compared with Ryan's silence, the nun's silence is not calm at all. The rigid face became even more ugly, like a dark cloud covering the sun. The right hand holding the holy scriptures became white with knuckles due to the force, and even Vibrating due to too much force.

She is different from Leonard, who only stayed in a church school for a few years. The nun has been preached by the church since she was a child, so her faith is much stronger.

The first reaction upon hearing these descriptions is slander, and anyone who dares to deny the church is an enemy.

If it had been different before, she might have swung the mace and swung it over, but the scene at the school just now made her quiet for the time being.

But he still couldn't help but question this unfaithful man.

"So you have abandoned your faith?"

Hearing this, Leonard turned his gaze directly to the ashen-faced nun, and his tone suddenly intensified.

"I lost my happy family fighting for the church, I was injured countless times, I was seriously injured three times and I was dying, I killed countless enemies, I can say that I lost everything.

So what do I get?A pair of armor, how many medals?

No!All I got was the spurning from those guys, and the endless remorse and guilt?
Back then, I went out with lofty ideals to fight against the so-called evil heretics, but now I have become so desolate that I dare not even recognize my wife and children. I don’t want them to know that I was once a massacre with blood on my hands. Or, there is no honor at all! "

Leonard said this with a bit of anger. He thought he had let go, but in fact he didn't. He would never forget everything that happened.

Are you upset?I'm even more upset!
As a person who really climbed out of the dead, Leonard has already given everything to the church, and he has enough confidence.

The nun was stunned by these words, she subconsciously wanted to refute his greed, how could vanity and material things measure dedication.

But he didn't say it, the words stuck in his throat, because he had just eaten too...

Ryan was also frightened by Leonard's sudden outburst. The momentum almost suffocated him, and he felt as if his heart was about to jump out.

The silence eased the restless atmosphere.

After saying this, Leonard also realized that his emotions were a little out of control. This should not have happened, because what he faced before him was not a senior member of the church, but a poor person who had been brainwashed by the church and set foot on "suicide". insect.

Just like I did back then.

Leonard shook his head, and continued to bring the topic back with a bit of pity.

"No~ At that time, I didn't give up my belief in the Holy Light because of this. On the contrary, I hadn't gotten rid of the influence of the church. Or after losing everything, the Holy Light was the only motivation for me to live, and I had the idea of ​​self-deception.

For this reason, I embarked on a solitary expedition to act in accordance with the scriptures, hoping to die in a fierce battle against evil, to prove my loyalty to the Holy Light, and at the same time want to wash away the sins on my body and pay my respects. My family proves that I am not... a sinner. "

Ryan relieved from the pressure just now, and unconsciously looked at Leonard with a strange expression when he heard this.

He didn't forgive the guy, he just felt a little... pitiful.

Not only him, but even the nun with firm faith became depressed by the emotion conveyed in that deep voice.

It's just that Leonard didn't think so. On the contrary, his emotions became agitated in a short period of time, and his standing posture became straight.

"At this time, I met the Lord Lord."

The nun looked at Leonard in surprise, not because of the person he mentioned, but because of him...

It was only for a short moment, but it was impossible for him to feel wrong. The power of the Holy Light actually emerged from him.

If he was still a crusader, the nun wouldn't think it too strange.

But what I saw in front of me was an apostate who had given up his faith!
The impact of this situation is far more direct and stronger than those words just now.

Leonard didn't care about the strangeness of the nun, but still talked about his life after meeting the lord.

He didn't talk about some cores, but focused on ordinary people.

"Before the lord came, Hamlet was completely in ruins. Those townspeople were lying on the ground half dead, and the air was filled with a rancid smell..."

Ryan had heard about the establishment of Hamlet in the first class, but the perspective of a witness was more cruel, and the crisis he had to face was more difficult.

And the nun didn't have the opportunity to inquire like Catherine. When she heard this story for the first time, she couldn't help but be attracted.

"Under the rule of the church and the mayor, people here can't even eat enough. It is said that people are not as good as dogs, but the arrival of the lord directly saved them.

Have you seen Hamlet's today?Not only Hamlet's people, but also thousands of refugees, this is something the empire failed to do, and neither did the church! "

Leonard said here with a bit of pride in his words. After all, he has contributed to the construction here, and he is a member of Hamlet.

The nun fell into silence, her thoughts were in a mess now, not to mention that she was not a very scheming person, it was difficult to judge whether Leonard's words were true or not.

"But if the church is really as bad as you said, why are there so many people still believe in it?"

The status of a nun along the way as a church clergyman has brought her great convenience. She can go to the local church to make holy water in exchange for supplies and rest. The Defiler, a bounty for the Fallen.

Walking in the empire, she encountered no obstacles whether in villages, towns or cities. Even the passing robbers and bandits would not attack her. In fact, she enjoyed the benefits brought by the church.

Most of the threats that can be encountered come from those refugees who are completely crazy, and what awaits them is the baptism of the Holy Light, in a physical sense.

It can be said that the mission of the wizard is the most dangerous mission she has ever faced, not one of them.

Although he almost dedicated himself to the Holy Flame, he survived.

When she opened her eyes and saw the sun, she thought she would be welcomed by the townspeople, but she never expected that things would develop to this point, a small town that made her feel extremely weird.

She couldn't tell whether these people were normal people, heretics, or cultists?
All kinds of messy thoughts came to my mind but I couldn't find the slightest reason. I only felt that my temples were swollen, and a wave of anxiety came to my heart.

"My story is over, I know you are confused, and I was the same at the time, until I met the lord soon after I returned to my family, I can stay with my family, a stable job, a peaceful life, my children You can also go to school, and you won't be beaten by the priest because you can't recite the scriptures.

The reality is that even without the church, people's lives are the same as before, or even better, because they don't need to be hungry and have to spend all kinds of resources to worship those fat maggots.

And I have rediscovered the meaning of my life, which is to protect Hamlet and give my loyalty to Lord Lance! "

Leonard didn't have anything to say at this point, but he didn't mind warning the nun who appeared out of nowhere.

"I have experienced wars and seen battlefields, and I will never allow Hamlet to be reduced to such a place!"

When Leonard mentioned that the church was not needed, the nun became anxious and wanted to refute at the beginning, but after thinking about it, it seemed that this village really didn't need it, so she could only hold back those words.

At this time, it seemed that countless pressures surged up on her, making her chest feel a little heavy.

It would be better to let her face the wizard than to let her do this, at least there is a goal, not torment like now.

"Go to Lord Lord, he will guide you."

Leonard threw out a sentence, which made the nun react.

She still remembered what the lord said when he left, and her doubts might be answered in him.

The nun's mobility was also full, she turned around and walked out after saying a word.

Leonard didn't care about the reckless nun, but set his sights on his son Ryan.

"I told your mother about these things. When I left, I didn't mean to abandon you mother and child, but to uphold justice and fight for the Holy Light. Your mother didn't say it because she thought I had died on the battlefield..."

Ryan didn't speak, and before Leonard finished speaking, he turned his head and continued to practice swinging the sword.

He still didn't understand why Shengguang left himself and his mother behind.

Of course, if he knew that when Leonard left, he sold his family property to make them so poor, he would probably hate it even more.

Hatred is not generated in a day, but the accumulation of resentment over the years, which cannot be eliminated so easily.

Just like Leonard's belief was not formed in a day, but was influenced by environmental factors, and it also did not collapse in a day.

There is a process to everything...

But Tamara didn't think so, she felt like she was going to die soon!
　Three hundred monthly tickets, plus two thousand more, the contract is complete!
　　
　
(End of this chapter)