Free Days in Siheyuan

That day, she carefully prepared a table of hot meals and waited for his return.

However, time passed by and the food gradually cooled down, but he was still nowhere to be seen.

She reheated the food again and again, only to watch it cool down again and again. Until finally, the food was out of shape because it had been heated too many times, and he still did not come back.

The sky turned from bright to dark, then bright again, her heart was like the food on the table, changing from hot to cold, gradually testing the temperature.

In the next two days, she never saw him again.

Until the third day, he suddenly appeared in front of me as if nothing had happened.

I was angry and angry, and I had the most intense quarrel with him since we fell in love.

He calmed down quickly and calmly watched himself vent his anger, waiting for her to calm down alone.

After she calmed down, he just stepped forward to hug her and said that he was wrong and would make up for her birthday tomorrow night.

Thinking about it, she was really easy to coax at that time. A simple admission of fault could make her forgive the other person, attracting him to say that something was wrong, and looking forward to spending a wonderful birthday with him.

For this reason, even though he knew that his birthday had already passed, he still ordered the cake in advance, just waiting for the other party to arrive.

After she got the cake back, the other party took the key to the door and locked the door. He smiled and told her not to go out before he came. He wanted to give her a surprise.

She guarded the piece of cake, looking forward to the other party's surprise, and even more looking forward to the other party having a candlelight dinner with her that she had envied since she was a child.

But he missed the appointment again. Just like on her birthday, she sat in a chair until late at night, and then waited for a phone call. The person on the other end of the phone said that he had something to do and needed to socialize. I was afraid that he wouldn't be able to go today, and asked her not to wait for her. Okay, go to bed first.

Xiao Qingmei still remembers very clearly how she felt when she heard that phone call that day.

Maybe it was because she was in a trance, or maybe because she had been sitting for too long, causing her body to become stiff. As soon as she stood up, her feet went weak and she fell to the ground.

After falling, she could clearly feel something flowing out from below.

Her heart was full of fear, and she called him tremblingly, crying and begging him to come back and take her to the hospital. Even if he didn't come back, she could just ask the driver to come and give her the key to the door.

He also didn't come, but said something impatiently on the phone...

Xiao Qingmei has forgotten what it was specifically. She only remembers the sentence: "Can you please stop making trouble unreasonably? I am also very tired."

Then the other party hung up the phone, cutting off the only way for the child in her belly to survive.

Early the next morning, she woke up from a pool of blood. The child in her belly had no signs of life.

She didn't tell anyone, she just wiped the blood on her body, changed some clothes, and then, with her weak body after the miscarriage, she opened the door bit by bit and went to the hospital alone.

After arriving at the hospital, the doctor's diagnosis confirmed her suspicion that the child had completely turned on himself.

She signed the abortion consent form with a pale face, feeling the cold duck-bill forceps entering her body, crushing the child, and taking it out bit by bit.

When the child came out, it was already formed, with little hands and feet.

She held the child's mangled body and cried all night, then silently wrapped the child and left the hospital.

That time was also the first time she returned home after so many years away from home, the home where she was born and raised.

The moment she saw her parents, she shed tears again.

Her parents' full heads of black hair had turned gray in her absence, their faces were no longer plump and became wrinkled, and their once strong legs and feet were now no longer agile...

This scene after scene stimulated her, making her have the idea of ​​regret for the first time.

If we had gotten married and had children as planned by our parents, would our lives have been completely different from now?

There was just no turning back after she fired her bow. She had made so many mistakes and she could no longer look back.

Over the years, those neighbors have finally forgotten what happened, and her parents' lives have finally returned to peace. They no longer need to face other people's criticism. At this time, she cannot destroy her parents' comfortable life.

Faced with her arrival, her parents were very excited.

He held her in his arms, crying and scolding her.

They chatted for a long time that day. After learning about his purpose, her mother looked at her pale face with distress and cooked her a pot full of chicken soup to replenish her body.

The father smoked tobacco leaves all night, and then at dawn, he banged his pipe vigorously and said in a hoarse voice: "Send the child over, and I will bury him next to our ancestral grave.

He is still young, so it is better for our ancestors to watch him, so as not to be bullied. "

That day she hugged her parents and cried heartily, and then buried the child next to her ancestral grave.

During that time, she visited various temples in Beijing, donated money for sesame oil, and prayed to God again and again, asking Him to bless the child, bless the child to go well, and bless him to be reincarnated as soon as possible. , and I want to bless him to meet a good mother in his next life, and don't... don't meet him again.

Recalling the past, Xiao Qingmei burst into tears at some point.

She thought, maybe it should be that time.

That's when the idea came up.

Night after night of waiting exhausted all her passion and all the love she had as a girl.

No matter how well she thought and did, his child, whose biological father she didn't even know, was still in her heart, making her unable to let go.

But the existence of the child whose biological father didn't even know existed in his heart, making her unable to let go.

Everyone thought she was arrogant and unwilling to give birth to a child for Ding Peng. I'm afraid even Ding Peng thought the same.

But no one knew that she had watched her child lose the breath of life bit by bit and pass out of her body bit by bit.

Maybe she had that idea from that day on.

She was an unfit mother, so she punished herself for not being worthy of having children in her life.

In this case, there is no need for Ding Peng, an irresponsible father, to have other children. No one can share the father's love for that child, even if Ding Peng has not paid for it.

So when Ye Lan came to show off his power in front of her, Xiao Qingmei only thought it was funny.

At the same time, he was also laughing at Ding Peng, who hunted geese all day long, but was pecked and blinded by geese.

Thinking of this, it was obviously a disdain and a joke, but Xiao Qingmei still couldn't stop crying.

She did not wipe away the tears and let them flow. She shed tears for the child for the last time, completely severing the bond between mother and child and allowing the child to be reborn with peace of mind.

And she should also examine her relationship with Ding Peng, and it's time to leave him.

For some reason, Ding Peng felt a little scared when he saw Xiao Qingmei like this, as if something was completely out of his control.

At the same time, she was a little scornful. She was sorry for herself, so why should she be afraid?
In order to cover up his uneasiness, Ding Peng stepped forward, grabbed her arm tightly, controlled her to look at him, and asked: "Why are you doing this?" Xiao Qingmei didn't take Ding Peng's madness at all. Seeing this, he raised the corners of his lips and said slowly: "Let me tell you a story."

After speaking, she recounted what had happened.

After finishing speaking, Xiao Qingmei gently stroked her belly and showed a sarcastic smile: "Did you know? There was once a child here, the son you expected, but he was gone and you, the father, did not save him. .”

Hearing this, Ding Peng seemed to have suffered a blow, his face full of disbelief. After looking directly into the other person's eyes without seeing any loopholes, he had to admit that it was true.

The moment he figured it out, he dropped his hands feebly, as if all his strength had been drained from his body, and he no longer had any fighting spirit.

After a long time, he said silently: "I thought you would understand. Besides, isn't our life now good?"

Hearing this, Xiao Qingmei suddenly turned her head to look at him: "No, you make me sick just looking at you."

Xiao Qingmei said, took Ding Peng's hand and put it on her belly, and said sarcastically: "Can you feel it? That child could move before..."

Ding Peng's eyes were all red from stimulation, and the hand touching Xiao Qingmei's belly was trembling.

There used to be someone of his bloodline there.

That's his child.But he never saw the light of day, and he died young because of his father's neglect.

After realizing this, Ding Peng suddenly did not dare to look at Xiao Qingmei's face again.

After a long time, Ding Peng spoke with difficulty: "I will find someone to transfer the ownership of this house to you. Also, I will have someone send you a bankbook with 5 yuan in it."

After saying that, Ding Peng turned around and left.

Watching his leaving figure, Xiao Qingmei suddenly collapsed to the ground, and then laughed crazily.

Hearing the voice coming from behind, Ding Peng paused for a moment, then continued walking out unswervingly.

He couldn't stay here anymore. If he stayed here, he would be worried that he wouldn't be able to control his murderous intention and would actually kill the other person.

He let Xiaoqingmei go and let himself go, ending the relationship that had been entangled for many years.

And not long after he left, Xiao Qingmei also left.

She left without a single thing inside.

Once she left, there was no news for many years.

Many years later, Zhang Yu's research came to a standstill. In order to find inspiration, he began to travel and relax, accompanied by a group of security guards. In a remote town, he saw an old lady watering flowers.

The old lady had silver hair and a kind smile, and was surrounded by a group of chirping children.

The children kept talking to each other, but the old lady was not bored at all. She just listened to the children's childish talk with a smile, and gave some gentle advice when the children had conflicts.

After watering the flowers, the old lady sat on the bench and braided the hair of one little girl after another.

This beautiful scene made Zhang Yu stunned for a moment.

The old lady seemed to notice that Zhang Yu was looking at her. She turned around and smiled at Zhang Yu, and then turned her attention to the children.

Because the environment of that town was good, Zhang Yu stayed there for half a month.

During this period, I couldn't help but hear some things about the old lady.

The origin of the old lady has been lost, and the people in the town can't tell exactly when she came to the town. Everyone only remembers that she was very capable and had a good ability to deliver babies.

All pregnant women who have passed through her hands have never died.

Even if it is a pregnant woman who has already had dystocia, there is an [-]% chance of surviving if it is delivered to her.

In this era when a woman's childbirth is like going through hell, she used her exquisite midwifery skills to save the lives of one mother after another and welcomed one child after another into the world.

In so many years of midwifery, she has become accustomed to seeing the harsh world and how malicious the world is towards girls.

After rescuing a newborn baby girl from her grandmother who was about to drown her, she suddenly had an idea and opened an orphanage in the town to take in baby girls who had been abandoned by their families and whose parents were absent. of orphans.

Over the years, she has raised batches of children.

Although the days are not rich, they are peaceful and fulfilling.

After hearing this, Zhang Yu felt that other things were not important, and there was no need to ask more.

What Zhang Yu didn't know was that on the day he left the town, the old lady walked out of the orphanage door silently and watched his car leave with a complicated look in her eyes.

Zhang Yu didn't recognize her, or rather didn't recognize her, but she had already recognized him as the godbrother of the eldest daughter of the Tao family's new husband.

Looking at Zhang Yu, she suddenly thought of Beijing, the people in Beijing, and the things in Beijing, and she suddenly felt as if she was in another world.

So, has it been so long?

After leaving Ding Peng, she went back to her parents' home and took a look at her parents outside the door to see if they were in good health. However, her son and daughter-in-law were filial and surrounded by grandchildren.

Seeing all this, Xiao Qingmei didn't go in, turned around and left silently.

Seeing her parents like this, she felt relieved.

After leaving Beijing, she traveled through more than half of China through parades, and finally settled in a small town with beautiful scenery.

In the first few years, she would go back to Beijing every year to visit her parents from a distance.

It wasn't until the sixth year that her parents died, and she never went to Beijing again.

In order to survive, she picked up the midwifery skills she had learned silently since she gave up her child.

Strangely enough, she has never had nightmares since she started delivering babies.

It was as if something was protecting her.

Now she can be considered to have a group of children.

The old lady couldn't help but smile when she thought about the children who had clearly left the town but still didn't forget to come back every year for the New Year, how they behaved every time they left, and how jealous they were because of their "younger brothers and sisters" below.

Smiling, she stopped suddenly and reached out to touch the corner of her mouth. It turns out that this is what a true smile looks like!It turns out that I am already very happy.

After a long time, the old lady suddenly showed a relieved smile.

After so many years, it’s time to let it go!