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183 Chapter 181, Goldfish Tears
That night, the three beauties had a sumptuous and distinctive dinner.

Although I also drank alcohol in the hot spring, but because of the rapid blood circulation, the alcohol evaporated quickly.

The feeling of being slightly drunk but not drunk, relaxed and free is really good!

So the three of them drank another bottle of red wine at dinner.

This candid meeting has also greatly increased mutual trust and understanding. How wonderful it would be to live such a beautiful, stable and carefree life!

The rest room is a heated kang.

This warm kang is far more comfortable than a bed in winter.

The three women were lying on the kang, chatting about past stories and future dreams.

Chatting and chatting, Liang Xiaoyu fell asleep without making a sound.

Soaking in the hot springs is also quite exhausting. She has already fallen asleep after eating and drinking enough.

Jiang Yilin also felt that her upper and lower eyelids were whispering, and the warm kang was really suitable for resting.

When she was confused, she vaguely felt that Bai Ruoxi seemed to come over and whisper something in her ear.

She felt a little tired and closed her eyes before she could answer.

The warmth made her fall asleep quickly.

At some point, Jiang Yilin, who drank the least, woke up from exhaustion.

She felt thirsty for a while, and felt as if she was tired from sleep.

When she opened her eyes, she was a little dazed.

Bai Ruoxi at the side was sleeping soundly, she was sleeping very naturally.

……

No wonder I was feeling so warm.

She wanted to push Bai Ruoxi away, but she was afraid of waking her up, so she was at a loss what to do.

The sleeping Bai Ruoxi suddenly woke up, and asked with some sleepiness:
"what happened?"

"I... I'm a little... thirsty, I woke you up, sorry..."

Jiang Yilin said something shyly, trying to break free from the restraints.

Bai Ruoxi touched a bottle of mineral water from the side, gently unscrewed the bottle cap and handed it to her.

"Drink this!"

Jiang Yilin took it and took two sips happily.

"I don't drink well, I seem to have drunk too much at night, I'm sorry."

she said apologetically.

This sentence refers to the matter of waking Bai Ruoxi up and the embarrassment between them.

"It's nothing, let yourself go, isn't it good!"

Bai Ruoxi said in a low voice.

Both of them suddenly woke up.

Jiang Yilin felt a sense of oppression coming from the darkness.

She put the mineral water bottle aside, trying to form an obstacle, but Bai Ruoxi threw it into the distance.

"..."

Maybe something should be said.

But I really don't know what to say.

Silence brought silence, making Liang Xiaoyu's breathing sound like thunder.

Suddenly Bai Ruoxi came over, Jiang Yilin, who was struck by a bolt of lightning, suddenly felt that time and space were out of order, and hurriedly pushed her away:
"What are you doing..."

"……I……"

Bai Ruoxi trembled a little in the dark, so she lay down slowly and reluctantly back to her own place.

Jiang Yilin let out a long breath.

Only a few seconds later, Bai Ruoxi at the side let out a slight sigh, and then wept softly.

"You, what's wrong with you?"

Jiang Yilin got up and asked.

"I'm sorry, I... I just... didn't mean to..."

Another moment of silence.

Bai Ruoxi's voice was intermittent.

Could it be that Bai Ruoxi in front of me is?

"I'm sorry, I... I don't want to, I hope you don't hate me because of it. I just can't help it."

After Bai Ruoxi finished speaking, her heart was filled with self-blame and guilt.

She also understands that it may be difficult to be accepted by others, but this is beyond her control. Deep in her heart, she will always involuntarily give instructions to her actions.

Jiang Yilin was suddenly a little embarrassed when she thought of how she was sleeping soundly.

When she fell asleep in a blur, the warmth she felt was Bai Ruoxi's emotion.

"Are you disgusted?"

Bai Ruoxi asked and answered herself sadly.

"I know you might think I'm bad. Almost everyone thinks this way. I'm used to it."

"Actually, I just can't help it, pure appreciation, nothing else!"

"You can think whatever you want, maybe I shouldn't have come to this world, because I've always been superfluous!"

……

Jiang Yilin quietly listened to Bai Ruoxi's sad sobbing, and suddenly felt that she shouldn't be so harsh.

But as a rich lady who is afraid of melting in her mouth and afraid of being touched in her hands, how can she have such self-defamation?
"Don't say that, actually... I can understand."

Jiang Yilin said kindly, then stretched out her hand to wipe Bai Ruoxi's tears in the dark.

Bai Ruoxi suddenly lost her defenses, and cried even more deeply and sadly.

After a while, she slowly expressed her pain.

Bai Ruoxi is like a precious and beautiful goldfish in a fish tank, showing off her nobility and perfection.

But the ups and downs, only she knows.

Before Bai Ruoxi was sensible, she was always proud of having an omnipotent elder brother.

At that time, she had been following her brother, watching him study, watching him being naughty, and watching him being beaten.

But after she grew up, with the accumulation of family wealth, she gradually discovered that she would always be the shadow of her brother in this family.

Bai Ruoshi has long been determined to be the successor of future wealth, and her daughter's family is destined to marry off.

Learning is almost enough, it doesn’t matter if it’s good or bad, anyway, it won’t be used at home in the future;

As for interest, it's almost enough, it doesn't matter if you like it or not, anyway, you will be from another family in the future;

Work is almost enough, as long as you don't compete with your brother for inheritance, then you only need to open your mouth when you are short of money, and never expect her to achieve anything;
……

What ability cultivation, personal value, and career planning have become meaningless to Bai Ruoxi.

From then on, the unconvinced Bai Ruoxi began to put away the girl's fragility.

She wants her family and everyone to know that although she is a daughter, she is no worse than others, and she can do what a man can do!

It was driven by such competitiveness that she began to face all problems like a boy.

Wrestling, fighting, drinking, going to school, working...

She wants to show her strength and initiative in everything.

When facing all the difficulties alone, she had already forgotten how to act like a baby and how to beg.

She wants everyone to know that it is not superfluous for her to be born into this family!
There is nothing that her elder brother Bai Ruoshi can do that she can't do.

Because of this, her personality began to change, and she wanted to prove her worth and significance.

The relaxed educational environment gave her rare self-affirmation.

Perhaps, there is nothing wrong with that.

"I must take the initiative. If I end up marrying a man, he must be strong enough for me to look up to. I will not show a weak person that I am a bird!"

Bai Ruoxi looked at the ceiling in the dark and said.

"I don't think there's anything wrong with women."

Everyone has their own helplessness and sorrow.

It's not that goldfish don't have tears, it's just that the water covers up the sadness, that's all.

　It was fine in the morning, but suddenly it was blocked...

　　
　
(End of this chapter)