Roaming in the dark

Chapter 752 Sheng Chuncheng Hugs Yanyan
Sheng Chuncheng put his arms around Yanyan, still feeling a little sad in his heart. He suddenly wanted to give up, stop going forward, or give up all his struggles, so he raised his hands and surrendered to the world.He wanted to just hold Yanyan like this, and continue like this day after day, night after night.

Sheng Chuncheng and Yanyan said: "Why can't we be together, just like this for the rest of our lives?"

Yanyan laughed and blurted out:

"There is no reason, impossible thing, don't think about why. When I encounter things now, I always think of the worst result and the final possibility, and then weigh in, whether this result can be tolerated by myself, yes, Then continue, if not, then click as soon as possible, don’t think about why at all, thinking about why can only make people miserable.”

Sheng Chuncheng was silent again. He knew that every time he brought up such a topic, he would get such a result, but he couldn't help it. When he was with Yanyan, he couldn't help but say such things.

"I was abandoned by that bastard. When I sat under the big sun in front of their house, all the most dignified things fell to the ground. They didn't shatter into pieces, but disappeared without a trace. I can't even write a single word.

"At that time, all I could think about was why, why I am obviously not ugly, I am obviously smart, and I am obviously kind-hearted, why do you treat me like this, spoil me like this, treat me like this, Like a dog? Why?
"At that time, my mind was full of why, and I felt that I was at odds with why, and if I couldn't figure out why, I felt that I couldn't survive, and the result, didn't the result still come over?
"People are cheap. Let me tell you, there is no fixed standard of being a human being. If necessary, he will lower this standard, lower his own requirements, and he will set the requirements for himself, others, and the world. He will lower himself, so you don't have to ask him.

"Usually he is very picky eater. He doesn't eat this or that. If you let him starve for three days, he will eat everything and find it delicious. When the cold wind is blowing like a knife, no matter how good-looking it is, no matter how well-maintained it is at ordinary times. [-]. People who use brand-name cosmetics, as long as they see a bed of torn cotton wool, even if it is full of fleas, they will immediately put it on.

"I cried when I watched "Schindler's List". What I saw was not how cruel people are, but how cheap people are. Look at those Jewish girls in concentration camps. They are so beautiful. In normal times, they must High-spirited, they look down on ordinary people at all, but when they arrive in the concentration camp, their only thought is to survive.

"People have become more humble than the people they looked down on. In order to survive, they are willing to do whatever they want. Where is there any pride and dignity? This is also the case when I first started doing that kind of thing. At the beginning Sometimes I still put on airs, thinking that I am beautiful and a college student, and I still have the mentality of wanting others to bow down under your pomegranate skirt.

"Haha, what's the result? Old and ugly, as long as you have money, don't you have to fuck him? Do you still need to bow down? If you really want to bow down, you start to pick and choose. That's because I have money and some fame. After my number of people increased, at this time, I raised my requirements, and felt that my dignity seemed to have returned.

"But I know what I was like when I was humble, and it is unforgettable, so I will not be rampant at any time later. Others say that I have a good temper, but I know it myself. I feel that I have nothing to be rampant. People are very humble. If you still think about why, why you treat me like this, then you won’t be able to live, really.

"I know that my mother has a girlfriend. My mother decided to divorce my father. When I left this house, I was full of why. I was thinking, is it my daughter who didn't do well? Obviously I am better than other people. Many classmates are excellent, why doesn't my mother want me?

"Is it my father? My father is obviously better than many other fathers. Why did my mother leave him? At that time, my mind was full of why? The reason why I refuse to live with my mother and must be alone in my original home with my father.”

"Do you hate your mother?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"I can't talk about it. We're done. I said that I'm the one who thinks about the final result. When I think about my relationship with my mother, it's over." Yanyan said.

"What do you mean?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"It's just ending, it's out of bounds." Yanyan said, "Three or four years ago, my younger brother, who was my mother's child with someone else, was seriously ill and needed money. My mother came to me, and I gave it to him." , After recovering from illness, my mother said that she would bring him to see me and let him thank my sister, but I said no, if you brought him, I would kick him out.

"I told my mother, I don't even recognize you as a mother, what kind of brother do I recognize? My mother was very sad when she heard that, and said why did I talk like this, no matter what, I am also your mother. I asked her, what do you think? What? Are you trying to say that you brought me into this world and that I need to thank you? Yes, that's right, but did you get my consent? How do you know I want to come?

"Don't fool me with family affection. I don't like it. From the day you left home, you ruined everything you brought me. There is no family affection between us. I will give you money, It's not because you are my mother, I help you, and it's not because of this, but you really need money, and I happen to know you. If anyone I know asks me for help, I will help, not you alone.

"Haha, what I said made my mother so angry that she didn't dare to bring my younger brother. Otherwise, I wouldn't be annoyed to death by them."

"But, I don't think you are such a person." Sheng Chuncheng said, "You are not such a heartless person as you said."

"Ok."

Yanyan was silent for a while, then sighed, she said:
"Okay, okay, I probably have one thing, I am very grateful to my mother. Maybe this is why I will help her, including now, every once in a while, I will send her a sum of money to make her life easier and make her life easier. She is in her family, probably because of her status.

"A lot of times, really, a person's status at home, whether you admit it or not, is still determined by money. No matter how rough a person is outside, as long as he is raised by her wife, he will still be obedient when he returns home. Listen to his wife."

As Yanyan said, Sheng Chuncheng thought of Sister Xu and her husband. It is impossible for her husband not to know what she is doing. Otherwise, with one person's salary, how could he be able to afford a house and a car, and how could he be able to pay for his son? Such expensive tuition fees, how could there be more money than a normal person's monthly salary, let him pay for it.

Everyone can figure out how his wife's money comes from. It's impossible for Sister Xu's bastard husband not to know. He simply doesn't dare to take care of it.

"I gave her the money for the same purpose, that is, to let my mother stay in that family, and let the people in their family, at least for the sake of the money, have to respect her." Yanyan said.

"You said that you are very grateful to your mother for one thing, what is it?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"I was sitting at the door of that bastard's house. She got the news, rushed over, and dragged me back home without saying anything." Yanyan said, "If she didn't come, I would probably have died that time. That bastard's house is at the door, I really have already decided to die there, my head is full of why, I can't get an answer, what else can I do but die?

"At that time, my mother was equivalent to bringing a dead person home. Slowly, I came back to life. I said that people are very cheap, and they will lower their requirements. As long as they are given time, they will treat themselves If you lower your requirements, you won’t have to live with yourself, and you will be able to live. My mother brought me home, so I didn’t die, and I thank her for that.”

(End of this chapter)