Roaming in the dark

Chapter 161 I'm Almost Driven Crazy Right Now

"I'm going crazy now." Sister Chen and Sheng Chuncheng said, "At home, I have to be careful, I don't even dare to smile, as long as I smile, my daughter will look at me and ask me, 'Aren't you glad daddy was taken away?!'

"Someone called and asked about her dad on the phone. Do you know what I should do? I can only go into my room, which is not enough. I have to hide in the bathroom in the room to answer the phone, so she can't hear it. One word, otherwise, her eyes could kill people. I wonder if she is thinking in her heart that I conspired with others to send her father in.

"When her father just had an accident, she really asked me, how could others know about the things her father did, did I report it, did I step on her father's body to climb up? I It's true, it's really hard to argue, it's still uncomfortable to have a knife stabbed in my heart, why would she miss me so much, I'm her mother.

"I just don't smile, I don't say anything, she doesn't like me when she looks at me, she will stab me with words from time to time, saying that I am so calm, I still have time to put on makeup, and I am still sitting here blowing the air conditioner, and my father is in prison now Well, there is no air conditioning in the prison, probably not even an electric fan.

"Am I, she is only happy and satisfied if she is unkempt every day? Isn't it?

"Either she begged me sobbingly, and almost knelt down to me. She begged me, don't you know a lot of people, don't the leaders appreciate you very much, please save Dad, even if you have no feelings , then he is also my father, please save him for me.

"She told me that as long as Dad can come out, the two of us will leave you. We don't want anything, and we will leave it to you. It doesn't matter if Dad doesn't become an official, and it doesn't matter if he doesn't have a job. I will drop out of school and work to support him. Guaranteed Not a penny from you.

"Think about it, how uncomfortable is my heart when I hear this kind of words? She doesn't care, she doesn't care how I feel, and she doesn't think about it. If I can help, will I not help? I am at this moment Interfering will only be a disservice. She doesn't know those people who appreciate me very much. It's too late to avoid me now. If I ask them, it will only be counterproductive.

"But she doesn't know, how could she know, in her heart, only her father, she will only come to torture me, try every means to torture me, as long as I don't sacrifice myself to save her father, she will feel that I Is gloating.

"I don't know the party discipline and state laws. How can a certain person change it? How capable am I? I'm just now, talking to you, and I feel a little vented in my heart, so I feel better. Forced like this, she is not crazy, I am already crazy..."

Sister Chen started to cry as she spoke, and kept shaking her head while crying. Sheng Chuncheng handed over the tissue, and she kept wiping her eyes. Soon, the tissue was soaked. Sheng Chuncheng handed it over and over again, and she Again and again, the paper towels after wiping were thrown beside the feet without thinking about throwing them into the paper bag.

Sheng Chuncheng had never seen Sister Chen lose her composure like this. Even on her birthday, she couldn't help crying, and she still maintained a certain dignity. The current Sister Chen, the current Sister Chen, can be said to have no idea what dignity means. What's the matter, she just needs to vent to her heart's content, venting without regard for dignity, in front of a blind man, she completely let go of her defenses.

Sheng Chuncheng looked at Sister Chen, feeling a pain in his heart, but he was helpless. He didn't know what he could do, and he couldn't do anything in reality. Apart from being an emotional trash can and listening to Sister Chen talking to him, He really can't do anything.

Sister Chen finally stopped crying, she said to Sheng Chuncheng:
"I'm sorry, Xiao Sheng, I shouldn't have told you these things, these are my family affairs, private matters, I shouldn't have told you, but, Xiao Sheng, if I didn't tell you, I really don't know myself Go tell someone that I have been completely defeated, but when I get to the unit, in front of other people, I still have to pretend to be very strong and maintain my majesty."

"Sister Chen, I know. I just hate myself. I am humble and have no ability. I can't help you." Sheng Chuncheng said, "If I can help, I will definitely help, no matter what I say. Help, I said..."

Sister Chen stretched out her hand to hold his hand, shook it, and said to him: "I know, Xiao Sheng, thank you, that's why I won't talk about these things with other people, but only with you, in front of you , sister is not afraid of losing face."

"No, sister, you didn't do anything wrong, there is nothing to be ashamed of." Sheng Chuncheng said.

Sister Chen sighed, and said to Sheng Chuncheng: "Actually, I know it's useless to complain about it. In my heart, I've always been worried about my daughter. She's in a very bad state now, never before.

"It's summer vacation now, and she doesn't go out to play. A few good high school classmates come to her home to find her, but she doesn't go out. She stays at home all day. My aunt told me that she sometimes sits there and sits there. Just for a few hours, sitting blankly, motionless, even my aunt knew that sitting like this would damage a person. I haven't dared to tell my aunt that she was sick.

"Also, from morning to night, I don't wash my face or brush my teeth. Sometimes I fall asleep wherever I lie down, on the floor on the sofa, on the TV cabinet, sometimes I go into the bathroom and don't come out for a long, long time. She also locked the door. Auntie was really worried that something would happen to her inside. She went to knock on the door and was scolded by her. She could still swear, but Auntie felt relieved.

"Sometimes it's like someone suddenly going crazy, turn up the stereo very loudly, sing, dance and smash things with bare feet, dance and sing, and finally cry.

"Now it's not just me, even my aunt can't take it anymore. She told me that she would quit her job and that she was not afraid of anything else. She was afraid that if something happened to my daughter, she would not be able to bear the responsibility. I had to persuade her and tell her , if there is anything, you just call me. For the rest, I told her that if anything happens, I promise not to blame her.

"My aunt agreed to stay after I made such a promise. If even my aunt is not at home, then I won't be able to stay at work for a minute."

"Have you called the doctor, what did he say?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"Four words, to add insult to injury, he said, this is the worst situation. At this moment, no one can do anything but see if she can survive it." Sister Chen said, "The doctor told me, you now If you propose to bring her to Shanghai, she will definitely resist fiercely, which will only aggravate her condition, even if you give her medicine, she will probably throw the medicine in your face."

Sister Chen said with a sigh: "The doctor is right. I am really helpless now. I am a party member with more than [-] years of party experience and an atheist. I went to Lingyin to pray for Bodhisattva that day. Besides, I am really helpless. I don’t know what else I can do.”

"Then what's next, the school will start soon, what should she do?" Sheng Chuncheng asked.

"How can she go back to school in this situation? I have already contacted her school and asked her to suspend school and stay at home. The school is also afraid of accidents." Sister Chen said.

(End of this chapter)