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Chapter 5 Best Roland
Fang Xiaoling was stunned for a long time, and forced a smile, "Roland, do you mean..."

"It's just what you think! It's my soul that occupies your body." Roland let go of his hand slowly, "Although it sounds unbelievable, it's true, so I can read your thoughts and feelings, It is because my soul still has some links with you, and because of this, I can easily find you."

Fang Xiaoling slowly put the cup on the table, "I don't want to ask how all this happened, I just want to know, why me?"

"I don't want to either." Roland looked at her apologetically, "I'm sorry, I didn't know that you would lose the memory of the time when I occupied your body. I thought you knew everything. Listen to me, Every time I fall asleep and wake up again, I may turn into another woman. After time travel, unless I can make the man I like truly fall in love with me, I will never wake up."

"This...what is this?" Fang Xiaoling shook her head with a wry smile, "That is to say, you occupied my body, pursued Shen Yi to marry him, and then woke up again, using your own body to live. Bar?"

"There is nothing wrong with that, but Xiaoling, I really didn't mean it. I can't control who the soul will go to, and I have never traveled to people of the same age as my real body. They are all ancient or future. , or even humans in other worlds, from the time I was 16 to now, I have had nearly [-] dreams, and lived in various ages with various identities, except for you, the most recent one was attached to Liu Erhua When I woke up from my real body, Liu Erhua had passed away for many years, Pan Long was also in his forties, and Liu Erhua and I were not in the same age at all."

"Enough!" Fang Xiaoling clutched her head and said in a broken voice, "I don't want to hear what you've been through, it has nothing to do with me, I just want to know, if Shen Yi fell in love with you, then what am I? A third party?"

"Xiaoling, don't get me wrong. I don't like Shen Yi at all. I only married him so that my real body can wake up. When I first found out that you and I were in the same age, I was also shocked , and even use your body to come back here to find myself, but I found that my real body is gone, and even my relatives and friends in my real body don’t recognize Roland, it’s like an overhead world specially customized for me What's even more illogical is that although no one remembers Roland, Roland's bank account is still there, and Roland's home is still there. The artificial intelligence at the elevator door automatically recognizes your body as Roland, so I use your body to return I found the bank card at home and successfully took out 60. After I got married with Shen Yi, I woke up and found my real body lying on the bed. I checked the bank card and it was true that 60 was missing. This really doesn’t make sense, there are too many That's why I went to you, as long as you help me, maybe we can find some clues."

Fang Xiaoling was silent for a moment, then nodded slowly, "No wonder you are so kind, and suddenly appeared to help me get Shen Yi back. It turned out that you were the one who dated Shen Yi at the beginning. You were also very upset when you learned that Shen Yi fell in love with another woman." Happy, right?"

"Maybe it's just a pure desire to win or lose. Anyway, I don't have the slightest feeling for Shen Yi. I have traveled nearly two hundred times and experienced countless men. I only regard them as tasks to return to my real body. I have never I have never been emotional." Roland sat next to Fang Xiaoling, "Don't worry Xiaoling, you can spend my money as you like in the future, and take it as my compensation for you."

"Make up for it?" Fang Xiaoling laughed suddenly, "Do you know why Shen Yi is having an affair with Jiang Tongtong? Because he said that Jiang Tongtong has a shadow of the former me, and the former me, isn't that you? From this point of view, Shen Yi has always been He hasn't changed his mind, what he has always loved is your soul, Roland."

"No, don't worry Xiaoling, in a sense, I have lived hundreds of lives, and what I am best at is controlling men's hearts. As long as you do what I say, Shen Yi will definitely fall in love with you sincerely .”

"Disgusting!" Fang Xiaoling stood up in disgust, "Do you think you are powerful? To control other people's hearts, what do you think of people? As toys? Let me do what you say? What's the point of getting Shen Yi's love like that? ? I don’t plan to be with Shen Yi anymore, if he doesn’t love me, just find someone I love, if I change myself for him, then I won’t be me at all!”

"When the storm comes, which tree hopes so?" Roland said calmly, "Do I just like to control people's hearts? I am also in pain. I just want to break the curse and leave this world quietly. Fang Xiaoling, you Say I can't understand your mood, but I really can understand, don't say anything else, just say that I have lived for tens of thousands of years, what else can I not understand? I don't want to be cursed, and I don't want to disturb you life, but these are the arrangements of fate, it is really beyond my control."

Fang Xiaoling asked lightly, "If you are in pain, if you also want to leave this world, can't you do it now? Are you immortal?"

Roland was silent for a long time, and replied, "I can't help but live."

Fang Xiaoling mocked hostilely, "I've lived for tens of thousands of years, and you haven't lived enough?"

Roland was not angry, she sighed, "There are countless times, I don't want to live anymore, but there are also countless times, I don't want to part with my own life, whether it's my own real body, or attached to someone else's body, even many times, I live in an age full of wars, and I can solve all problems with just one thought, but I am still struggling to survive when my body is covered in bruises and my consciousness is blurred. Maybe it is instinct, maybe it is my personal cowardice. At that marginal moment, I can't help but want to live, even if I live another ten thousand years, even if I hate life itself, I can't help but live."

"Whatever." Fang Xiaoling left after finishing speaking. She had figured everything out. Although she was penniless and had nowhere to go, she didn't want to stay here any longer.

On October 29, 23, she met the [-]-year-old Baishi Luolan, who overturned her three views and made her lose the meaning of continuing to live. When the elevator opened again, there was already It's not the sea of ​​flowers, but the beautiful scenery by the lake. It turns out that technology has developed beyond my imagination. However, I have lived for [-] years without knowing it. Destiny makes everyone live in different worlds. The span of those worlds , Hard work alone is absolutely insurmountable.

Even the human heart is so ridiculous.The person I once loved deeply will also be controlled by others with skills.

"Shen Yi, my sincerity, can't it compare to those experiences of understanding human nature?" The elevator opened the door on the first floor, and Fang Xiaoling staggered out, ignoring the changing shape of the artificial intelligence beside her, muttering, "Shen Yi, If there is no love in this world, then how do I feel about you? Why now, I still can't help but miss you. "

The galaxy in the artificial sky is flowing, turning into multicolored stars, and faintly, the faint sound of the piano can be heard. Fang Xiaoling is unknowingly lost in this beauty, as if among the many speckled lights, one of them is Your own true home.

"God, if you really exist, please take me away." She cried and laughed, collapsed on the ground, and shouted with open arms, "This world has abandoned me! Please take me away, please take me away." I will take..."

The river of stars turned into a circle, like a deep pupil, as if sucking everything in the world into it. Fang Xiaoling felt as if her soul had been sucked away. The man-made sky seemed to be the real vast universe. I can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality, I don't know if I'm sober or intoxicated, I just feel that I'm rising, rising... I don't know how long I've been rising, and then I start to fall suddenly. , endlessly, falling.

At the same time, Roland was entering the lakeside-themed elevator. She stepped on the mirror-clear electronic screen under her feet, with ripples simulating the surface of the water. She looked down and saw herself who was both familiar and unfamiliar. "See you next time." You, you don't know which life you will live and die again."

Before she finished speaking, her own reflection on the surface of the electronic lake suddenly showed a strange smile, which made Roland, who had experienced hundreds of generations, unconsciously startled, the hairs on her body stood up, just when she wanted to take a closer look , suddenly fell into the lake, real liquid poured into her throat and ears, she struggled painfully, gradually lost consciousness, only felt that she was constantly falling.

"Could it be that I fell asleep?" Roland is very familiar with this feeling. Every time she travels through, she will fall for a long time, with a peaceful mood, waiting to wake up with a new identity.

After an unknown amount of time, new memories poured into Roland's brain like quicksand. She slowly opened her eyes and found herself lying on an unfamiliar tatami mat. She began to meditate with ease, sorting out the memories carried by this body. .

"Li Mengli, a third year in high school, the target is a bastard named Tian Hu..." Roland murmured, and said with disdain in his heart, "Kids should study hard and like something."

"Ah—" There was a scream not far from the door, Roland slowly opened his eyes, despite the noise outside the door, he found a mirror on the desk and looked at it, "You look pretty good, get the target If so, it will only take a few days, I have to go back to my real body and find Fang Xiaoling, maybe she is the key to unraveling the curse."

"Who is Li Mengling? My name is Fang Xiaoling! Don't come here!"

The noise outside the door stunned Roland for a while. She pushed open the door and saw her parents looking worriedly at the girl curled up in the corner, "Mengling, what's wrong with you? Don't scare mom."

(End of this chapter)