I really don't want to be a magical girl anymore

Chapter 39 【】The train arrives at the destination, where are you going?

When Heart A swiped the Rising Sun Spear, when the permission de-authentication passed, when a crimson magic circle formed, and when intense and dynamic music sounded inexplicably in the air, everyone held their breath. Know how powerful your second-order transformation is.

suddenly.

The magic circle came to an abrupt end, and the music withered away with a long note, disappearing with the wind, as if it had never appeared before.

"?"

When the bewildered Cang Yan slowly threw out a question mark, Hong Feng was already laughing profusely, and let out an extremely tasteless laugh, until she couldn't lift her waist from the laughter, she slowly raised her right hand, raised her head upright, thumb.

"Hahaha, as expected of you, serious and funny."

Transformation failed.

Hong Feng immediately came to laugh at her face.

She looked at Cang Yan's stubborn and unyielding expression again, and wanted to try to transform again, but she didn't believe in this evil.

Hong Feng hurriedly supported her forehead and suppressed a smile.

"It can't be done, my brain hurts. I have to go to sleep quickly, or I will die suddenly if I don't sleep. You play slowly, there is an emergency operation tomorrow morning."

Saying that, Hong Feng walked out and closed the door for Cang Yan.

When Cang Yan practiced repeatedly all night, and still couldn't transform into the second level after using various methods and postures, she knew that she was definitely being tricked by some narrow-minded old woman.

It seemed to hear Cang Yan's unbalanced inner voice.

The strange lines in front of Cang Yan's eyes quickly combined, the sentence is very long, with many letters, in fact, the translation is nothing more than three words - don't worry.

Those three simple words made Cang Yan's face bulge with blue veins, his forehead was covered with black lines, his blood pressure soared, and even the slight hypotension caused by staying up all night all year round was cured, so that he had the urge to beat someone up.

Cang Yan tried her best to calm down, she kept repeating: "Don't get angry, don't get angry, life is just a drama. Hey, I'm not in a hurry, what am I in a hurry for?"

Then, the lines in front of her eyes moved again, forming another sentence that the queen of the kingdom of shadows wanted to convey. This time, instead of using the ancient crooked alphabet, she directly wrote a big bright red Chinese character.

【vegetable】

"..."

First there was a dead silence.

Then there was a loud swearing.

"You [Da Yan swears], are you sick?!"

Although Cang Yan has always thought that she is a well-bred person, especially after the transformation, she pays more attention to her words and deeds.

Now, he was still furious and swearing.

She could already confirm that this was someone deliberately messing with herself, so that a strong urge surged in her heart, and she immediately went to the land of shadows to beat up the old immortal guy.

Of course, just thinking about it, Xinmu City still has a lot of unfinished business, and Cang Yan wants to focus more on this.

It's definitely not because she suddenly remembered that the old man was quite strong, and she couldn't beat him.

Well, absolutely not.

Cang Yan's scolding woke up the sleeping Miyou. It was a little confused at first, and moved slowly. Soon it remembered something, and immediately completed the transformation into the form of a giant beast. attack.

Until, when Miyou saw Cang Yan and saw the environment she was in, she felt relieved and released her combat mode, with tears in her eyes, she threw herself into Cang Yan's arms.

"Master Cang Yan, do you know how scared I am. I almost... almost couldn't come back..."

The thrilling experience of narrowly escaped death frightened Mi You.

Of course, death is not terrible, anyway, Miyou, who is the familiar, can be resurrected.

What it is afraid of is the things it is carrying. If it fails to send the magic tool back on time, or directly leads to the loss of the Rising Sun Spear, Miyou will definitely blame himself for the rest of his life, and even fall into a depressed state.

Cang Yan sorted out her out-of-control expression before, trying her best to put on the posture of a reliable senior, she comforted Miyou: "Okay, everything is over, don't be afraid anymore. You are a very good boy."

Miyou squinted her eyes and carefully enjoyed Cang Yan's touch, and after a while, a grunt came out of her throat.

Cang Yan still wants to ask some questions, such as where Miyou encountered the enemy attack, how many enemies there are, and what are their abilities.

However, seeing Miyou's frightened appearance that she still couldn't escape the nightmare, Cang Yan was inevitably moved with compassion, and she didn't want to let Miyou recall the previous experience.

At least, there is no rush right now, the matter in Xinmu City has not been dealt with yet, and Cang Yan has no energy to fight on two fronts.

Yes, fighting on two fronts.

After analyzing the clues obtained last night, Cang Yan came to a conclusion that the magical girl named Bi'anhua was not in the same camp as Tianting, at least there were conflicts and conflicts. The mysterious person who didn't know her identity entrusted Bi'anhua to kill Miyou may have delayed enough time, but in the end Huayang and Yin of the other side gave Miyou a way out, allowing Miyou to return to Xinmu City and bring her a brand new Rising Sun Spear.

Therefore, Cang Yan speculates that the Bianhua may be in a more neutral formation, and that they have other purposes for participating in this matter, rather than directly taking orders from the mysterious person.

This is not bad news.

At least let Cang Yan know that the enemy is not monolithic, but can be divided and defeated one by one.

Then Cang Yan naturally wanted to avoid fighting on two fronts, and it wouldn't be too late to ask Miyou after he adjusted, so Cang Yan asked about another matter.

"Did the Queen give you any instructions when she handed you the Ace of Hearts card? Why can't I use the Ace of Hearts card now?"

Cang Yan thinks that the secret of the Ace of Hearts card is not that simple. Although the Queen of the Kingdom of Shadows is sometimes very annoying, at least the Queen will not really impose any restrictions on herself. The reason is very likely to be Cang Yan's own problem.

In other words, Cang Yan is more...

dish.

The capitalized Chinese character 【薗】appeared in front of Cang Yan again.

This is what made Cang Yan most angry, when others said she was bad, she couldn't refute it.

Miyou thought about it carefully, as if the Queen had indeed ordered some things on purpose, it stood up in Cang Yan's arms, waved its wings, and thought about it in mid-air.

"Well... I said something that I don't understand... What did you say... You have to abandon the past to usher in a new life."

Thinking hard, Mi You slapped her little paw.

"Yes. The queen said that Master Cang Yan must let go of his obsession and accept his true self in order to obtain the second stage of transformation. She also said..."

Miyou coughed, imitating the tone of the queen of the land of shadows as much as possible.

"Whether Tianting or Mingyue are walking on the road they want to go, how about you, Cang Yan? The train will eventually go to the next station and arrive at the end. Where are you going?"

These words made Cang Yan stunned suddenly, her expression was dull, her mouth was slightly opened, and she couldn't say anything for a long time.

The queen's words turned into the sharpest arrows, piercing directly into the depths of Cang Yan's heart, which was exactly what she had always wanted to avoid.

All the dissatisfaction with the Queen of the Kingdom of Shadows in my heart gradually subsided at this moment.

Cang Yan smiled wryly and shook his head.

She used honorific titles.

"Your Majesty, if only it was so easy to give up on the past. I really can't let it go, I really can't forget it."

Cang Yan still remembers the faces of those magical girls she personally killed.

They didn't want to die, and they were still begging themselves hard.

Remembering the curses their family members hurled at her.

A murderous executioner.

The blood splashed on her body turned into a curse, they dragged Cang Yan's footsteps and kept her in the darkness.

When others rushed to the bright place, Zuo Cang still stayed in place.

"How can I let go..."

Magical girls are supposed to symbolize all the beautiful existences in the world. They are gentle, kind, and benevolent. Once this fragile beauty is stained with blood, how can it be cleaned?

Past experiences turned into heavy shackles, making Cang Yan unable to breathe.

However, she didn't understand what the culprit of all this was?
Witches causing chaos?Magic Management Bureau, which ordered the purge?An individual witch who resisted?Or a society that drives people crazy?
Cang Yan couldn't tell the difference anymore, and didn't want to.

It was just that after she wiped out the Witch Society, she suddenly couldn't see the future, and suddenly couldn't see hope.

It seems that this society will continue to run like this forever, no matter how hard the magical girl tries to destroy the magic beast, the differences will never disappear, the battle will never end, the sun will rise as usual, and everything will be the same.

A long time ago, Cang Yan, like Mingyue, was passionate and dedicated to a goal. She wanted to destroy all cursed beasts and restore peace to the world.

However, Cang Yan is thinking about a problem now.

Even if one day, all the magic beasts are really wiped out in the world, will everything change?Will there really be peace in the world?
If there are no more magic beasts in the world, what are these magical girls?

If one Witch Society is eliminated, another will be born.

If the root cause of the conflict is not resolved, the blood debt will only increase.

Especially when Cang Yan saw with his own eyes that his companions fell into the beast tide one after another, and his parents also passed away due to accidents. There were fewer and fewer acquaintances around him, but there were more and more disputes between people. He even learned that the accidents encountered by his parents were not By accident, Cang Yan saw that human nature is inherently evil.

Cang Yan felt powerless.

She is no longer full of confidence, she is just a slightly stronger magical girl, what can she change?
Even if there is one less Cang Yan in the world, wouldn't it still function as usual?

Cang Yan, whose edges and corners were polished off by reality, also confirmed one thing.

Magical girls can only bring misfortune, misfortune to oneself, misfortune to others.

From then on, Cang Yan began to doubt herself and was exhausted physically and mentally. The idea of ​​retiring came from Cang Yan.

Raising his younger sister to become an adult has become Cang Yan's only goal in life.

However, Cang Yan never wanted to think about what she was going to do and what she could do when Zuo Yue really became an adult, graduated from university, and stepped into society.

"The train will eventually arrive at the destination. Where is the magical girl Cang Yan going, and where am I going?"

Cang Yan, who was talking to himself, repeated it several times.

Cang Yan was touched a lot by the words of the queen of the country of shadows.

Cang Yan silently put away the Ace of Hearts card, she already knew that the Ace of Hearts would be of no use until she found out the answer.

"Where are you going? To the scene of the crime."

Hong Feng, with dark circles under her eyes, appeared at the door, with her hips akimbo, looking at the gray-haired girl in the ward.

"What's wrong. Did you suddenly suffer from Wenqing disease? I remember that you don't seem to be a literary girl. Listen to my sister's advice, you should eat and drink, and don't take things to heart."

Hongfeng said carelessly: "Hurry up and put away your stinky face, there is action. The advance team investigated something overnight, and they want us to go and see for ourselves."

Hearing that there is something wrong, Cang Yan briefly sorted out his mood, and asked: "Did something be found in the office building?"

After the battle between the magical girl and the cursed beast, the battle between the logistics force and the members of the ESO organization has just begun. During their rest time, an advance team composed of professionals has already begun to investigate clues overnight.

The root cause of Hong Feng's sleepless night is also here.

The advance team discovered batch after batch of weight information, so that the phone rang as soon as Hong Feng fell asleep.

"Oh, that's not something."

Hongfeng deliberately emphasized the pronunciation of the word "some".

After half an hour.

When Cang Yan and Hong Feng arrived at the crumbling office building, a man in police uniform who was in charge of on-site investigation came over and briefly reported the situation to them.

After the swan cursed beast was wiped out, they worked overtime to start a search operation, and some information has been confirmed so far.

There had been a murder case here, and the location was Li Ming's secret office. After testing, the deceased was Li Ming himself.

The feather of the swan magic beast was also picked up at the scene.

Then this seems to confirm one thing, the swan monster may really be the existence of Li Ming's transformation, or in other words, the original etheric swan monster swallowed Li Ming's flesh and blood and condensed a movable body in reality.

Of course, this is not the most exciting news.

According to the investigation, the office building was once ransacked by some people, as if they wanted to destroy the evidence without leaving any clues, and they did. When the police searched for the first time, they found nothing. This place seems to be an ordinary office building. In the office building, Li Ming just happened to hide here.

No one knew why Li Ming came back from the dead, and why he hid here.

Until, someone discovered by accident that the secret room that Li Ming had hidden in his office was extremely sealed. It was located at the corner of the wall, and it was very hidden. It was impossible to find it without careful search. The entire area did not exceed one square meter. , just enough for one person to sit down and record something.

Among them was Li Ming's notebook.

A lot of information is recorded above.

It is mentioned that Li Ming himself does not actually trust that mysterious person, that woman who never shows up. Li Ming has a strong sense of vigilance against this kind of transcendent existence of power, at least he will not easily trust someone who is always there. Someone who can kill him, especially if that person is not willing to show his face.

Li Ming is a person who won't do business at a loss. He will be careful and make second-hand preparations. Unfortunately, he still didn't expect that Ales would suddenly attack him. Obviously, the two of them were chatting and laughing yesterday. next move.

When the mysterious person borrowed Li Ming's human and financial resources to carry out some kind of plan, Li Ming secretly began to investigate the mysterious person. He didn't want to be taken advantage of. Cooperation is also considered a great achievement.

Bet on both ends, and never make a loss-making business.

Among them, in the past few days, Li Ming recorded some key information in his notebook, and he didn't know if these things caused his death.

He wrote down a name.

ales.

Note down the place names.

Atum Mental Hospital.

Finally, there is a big question mark.

(End of this chapter)