I really don't want to be a magical girl anymore

Chapter 28【】

Qing Ning is still sensible, she held back her desire, and after repeatedly declining, she took the initiative to find an excuse to leave Mingyue Ward.

In other words, Qing Ning is a very smart person, and her mind far surpasses other people of her age.

Of course, she knew what she should know and what she shouldn't know. The topic of saving the world was too high-end, and she knew she couldn't handle it.

And this world is very realistic, some things can never get rid of once touched, and it is too late to regret.

Qing Ning knows that she is not in a high position like her cousin and has the support of big bosses behind her, nor is she at the top of combat power like Senior Cang Yan. Others have to weigh it if they want to touch her. If there is an irreversible accident, Qing Ning believes in herself. It will definitely evaporate.

In fact, many magical girls are straightforward and ignorant of flexibility. People like Qing Ning who are good at disguising themselves are too rare.

At the same time, Cang Yan is also worried that Qing Ning will go astray and go to another extreme.

"Little Lime, you should be down-to-earth, your talent is more than that. Don't get lost, you just can't participate in events in this non-human realm."

Looking at Qing Ning's disappearing back, Cang Yan really wanted to praise her face to face, shook her head, and pushed the door in, never expecting that Zuo Yue would wake up at this time.

Zuo Yue, who was sitting on the hospital bed, saw Cang Yan's arrival, and quickly showed a happy expression. She was saying: "She is indifferent on the surface, but she admires it very much in the back, and she can't help but praise. Senior Cang Yan? ..."

Zuo Yue turned her head to one side, thought, and said a word she saw on the Internet in the past.

"The so-called arrogant."

"Stop surfing those weird short videos on the Internet on weekdays."

Seeing that her sister was fine, Cang Yan was negligent for a moment, and used the tone of Zuo Cang's identity.

"Hey, Senior Cang Yan, the way you spoke just now is just like my brother."

Zuo Yue didn't have much doubt, and still smiled foolishly.

"Same as your brother?"

Cang Yan really wants to say something, it's not the same, I am your brother.

However, Cang Yan also understands that if her identity is exposed, she will have to explain to her why she was able to transform, and this involves an event that Cang Yan least wants to recall. She doesn't want her younger sister to know about her parents so early Cang Yan thought, at least let Zuo Yue come into contact with these when she is an adult.

"Yes, nagging like my brother."

As soon as he finished saying this, Zuo Yue knew that he might have said something wrong, so he hurriedly made amends for himself.

"No, I didn't mean that, I want to say..."

But Cang Yan didn't take it to heart at all, waved his hands, and sat on the edge of the hospital bed.

"What kind of person is your brother?"

Some questions can only be asked by another identity, and some things can only be done by Cang Yan's identity.

In fact, Cang Yan really wanted to know what she really was in her younger sister's mind.

"My brother..."

Zuo Yue thought about it seriously.

"Very stubborn, very long-winded, very busy..."

The lovely girl pointed out Zuo Cang's shortcomings with her fingers, and finally a smile as bright as the summer sun appeared on her face.

"Most importantly, love me very much."

Cang Yan didn't expect this answer, she originally thought that her sister kept a distance from her because the rebellious period had come, and she began to hate her relatives.

Unexpectedly, Zuo Yue could say such words to a stranger.

"Actually, I know everything, why my brother is so busy on weekdays, and why he doesn't have time to accompany me. Although it's boring and scary to be alone at home, just think about my brother coming back from get off work soon, and everything is in order. You can no longer be afraid. But, more or less..."

While talking, Zuo Yue raised her right hand and made a small gesture with her index finger and thumb.

"Still, there are some lonely ones... Few, very few..."

"All in all, my brother is a very good person, he can be said to be the best brother in the world!"

In front of Cang Yan, Zuo Yue was full of praise, she used the little ink in her stomach, desperately explaining to Cang Yan, what is her brother's excellence.

For a moment, the emotions in Cang Yan's heart twitched repeatedly. He sat aside, turned around, and gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes.

Emotions are indescribable, just like an old farmer who has worked hard for many years and finally waited for the crops to mature, and the long drought ushered in the nectar.

"What's the matter? Senior Cang Yan, is it that what I said is too boring. Then I will find someone else."

Zuo Yue noticed the change in Cang Yan's expression. She was disappointed and anxious, and wanted to talk to someone else, but suddenly found that she didn't seem to know many people, except for the classmates she met on the way to and from school. own brother.

"Then let me tell you about the chubby guy in our class. Do you know how much he..."

Zuo Yue glanced at the time, it was already past four o'clock in the afternoon.

She suddenly came to her senses, and said to Cang Yan: "I'm sorry, Senior Cang Yan, I need to call my brother. I haven't contacted my brother for a long time. I'm afraid he's worried about me. I should tell him he's safe. .”

Zuo Yue picked up her mobile phone and made a call, but there was a beeping sound that no one answered, which made her a little curious.

"No, he may be busy with other things. It's not convenient for you to call."

Cang Yan reached out and touched Zuo Yue's small head, and talked about serious matters.

"Now, I'm looking for you for something important."

"Yes...is that so?"

Now that Senior Cang Yan said so, Zuo Yue hurriedly sat up from the hospital bed. Although the pain in her body still existed, it was not as unbearable as before.

"Is your health much better?"

"Well, it's much better. It seems that the pain has decreased a lot recently. What's the problem?"

However, Cang Yan suddenly asked a seemingly irrelevant matter.

"Do you know what the human body is made of?"

"Huh? Ask this question?"

Zuo Yue exercised her mind, repeatedly recalling the knowledge in the biology class of the first grade of junior high school.

For example, water accounts for 70.00% of the human body, various proteins, blood, inorganic substances, bones and so on.

Cang Yan nodded and replied.

"Very well, this is the human being in our conventional understanding, a body of flesh and blood in the usual sense. Then do you know what the familiar, that is, rice pomelo, is made of?"

Facing Cang Yan's other question, Zuo Yue was completely stumped, she shook her head but couldn't give a definite answer.

"Maybe it's magic?"

"Yes, but not quite."

Cang Yan explained to Zuoyue that the basic structure of the familiar is invisible in the normal form, because they are a pure spiritual energy life form, and the specific composition is very complicated. The familiar can only be like a shadow, attached to the material under the world.

"This world is composed of various substances, and the means by which people perceive the existence of the world and explore the reality of the world is mainly physics. Although quantum, neutron, proton, electron, plasma, etc., you can't see and never know The microcosmic world still cannot get rid of the shackles of the material level. People can use the laws summarized by scientists or sages to accept and recognize their existence. However, this world is not only the material world, but also a spiritual world that exists in illusion , People call it the Kingdom of Shadows."

Zuo Yue, a freshman in junior high school, was completely confused by all kinds of names. Now he only knows what is the best.

He could only nod his head in confusion.

Cang Yan continued: "You can use data to measure things on the material level, but how do you define things on the spiritual level? How can you observe people's emotions with the naked eye? Courage, tenacity, justice, greed, arrogance, humility Wait, too many, too many, or positive or negative emotions, how to present them in a digital way? People can use huge machines to collide microscopic quantum, and how to use human [courage] Catch it? This is incredible and completely unreasonable."

"The idealistic world and the materialistic world are originally parallel and never intersect. Each world has its own meaning of existence and its own rules of operation. Just like now, even if the familiars of the Kingdom of Shadows come to the real world, they cannot be seen by ordinary people. Capture, only a very small number of existences can perceive them. Because, as a certain kind of energy, they are the shadow of the material world. If you want to carry out active activities in reality, you must obey the rules of the real world and bind with matter , to materialize itself. The method used by the familiar is to sign a contract with the magical girl and coexist with the magical girl. The method used by the magic beast is to swallow malice and flesh and blood, occupy the human body itself, and combine the human body The material is recombined, so that I can actively walk in reality."

"Oh oh oh oh."

Zuo Yue didn't know much about these things. She had always been curious about why other people couldn't see Miyou. After explaining it, she probably had an understanding.

She keenly caught another thing Cang Yan said.

"Wait? Could it be that the cursed beast actually came from the Land of Shadows?"

However, Cang Yan completely ignored this problem, and explained something else on his own.

"Then, if human beings want to go to the Kingdom of Shadows, they also need to abide by the rules of the ideal world. They must abandon the existence on the material level and turn themselves into pure energy life forms like magic beasts or familiars. This kind of body also It's called..."

Cang Yan took a deep breath, and said slowly: "Etheric body."

At this time, Zuo Yue seemed to understand which paragraph this was about.

When Senior Cang Yan taught himself how to use the hand of purification to capture the seed-stage cursed beast, he said something like magic power or ether.

"My exclusive skill, Flame Strike, uses this feature."

Speaking of this, Cang Yan performed on the spot, what is etherification.

The magic device Rising Sun Lance absorbed Cang Yan's body and reappeared in another room.

"After the etherification of the magical girl's body, it will not exist in the material world, so it can be dispersed and reorganized. However, if I want to continue to be active in the real world, then I must reattach to the physical body , even if it’s just a simulated body using magic power. Of course, this simulation must conform to the most basic physical rules, with internal organs and meridians, and at least it must be injured, bleed, and hungry. Otherwise, the physical world rejects different rules I'm not kidding you."

"So, is my body also starting to etherize?"

Zuo Yue looked down at her body, she seemed to understand why the pain in her body disappeared so quickly, it turned out that she would soon become pure energy and dissipate.

"You understand very quickly, this is your current situation. Or, a situation that most magical girls will face. After all, have you ever wondered why there is another body after transformation? Because the body after transformation In fact, it is the product of the fusion of the materialistic world and the idealistic world. It has flesh and blood and magic power, but after all, it is advancing towards a more idealistic aspect. Of course, as long as you release the transformation, you will become the physical you again."

Cang Yan smiled and shook his head: "However, the transformation time of many people is too short, and the total amount of magic power is not much. It is impossible for the transformation of ether to appear on the whole body, so they actually don't know that every transformation will make their body The body has become a step further."

A slip of the tongue caused Cang Yan to change quickly.

"We... no, you are different. The blood in your body is destined to make you fall to the land of shadows. As long as you transform into a magical girl, etherization is inevitable. When you master etherification and matter like me After the transformation, it is not difficult to freely enter and exit the Kingdom of Shadows like a familiar."

"After the etherization is completed, it will be wonderful. It makes you no longer a human being, and it is difficult to get injured. No matter how serious the injury is, it will not be able to kill us completely. Even if the physical body is dead, you can use magic power again Make something similar. Of course, this is only limited to when you become a magical girl. Without the assistance of magic tools and contracts, the human body is bound by the laws of physics. If you can't complete etherification, you can't go beyond the rules at all. .”

This is what magical girls and cursed beasts have in common.

The information that Senior Cang Yan brought was very exciting, beyond the comprehension of Zuo Yue's little head, she seemed to understand why Senior Cang Yan didn't want Senior Qing Ning to know these things.

After speaking, Cang Yan's face darkened, and she revealed the real purpose of this trip.

"I can teach you how to etherize correctly, so as not to go on the wrong path and put yourself in danger. Then..."

Cang Yan looked at her sister with an extremely deep and distressed expression. If possible, she wanted Zuo Yue to live her life in peace, instead of being pushed into the fire pit by her own hands.

"Are you ready to abandon your human identity? Once etherification is completed, you will no longer be a human, but a magical girl for life, and the contract can no longer be lifted."

Suddenly, Cang Yan changed to a more ugly and naked term.

"No, I can only become a monster for life."

Like, me.

Cang Yan gave another choice, a path she hoped her sister would choose.

"Now, if you cancel the contract and give up your identity as a magical girl, you can still avoid the etheric ending."

(End of this chapter)