only god

Chapter 1 My God

"Just psychological anxiety?"

Chen Yi looked at the evaluation report handed over by the psychiatrist.

Thin cheeks, jet-black hair, slightly darkened eye sockets, barely messy hair, it is obvious that Chen Yi's recent mental state is not good.

The place where he is located is a mental hospital in the port of Piris in Athens. A year ago, Chen also came to Greece to study in Greece through the exchange program of domestic universities.

His major is religious studies.

In the last month, Chen Yi didn't know why he felt irritability of unknown origin. He often suffered from insomnia for several days in a row. Even if he fell asleep occasionally, he always had frequent hallucinations.

In those dreams, he was always in a sticky darkness.

He couldn't see anything, he could only hear voices that seemed to be hallucinations.

It was like calling from another world.

Chen Yi suspected that he was suffering from some kind of psychological problem.

"Yes, my friend,"

The psychiatrist's body is slack, apparently the patient's problem is nothing,
"Your psychological problems are not serious."

"It's not serious...but I've been suffering from insomnia for several days. Even if I fall asleep occasionally, I still have strange dreams and hear hallucination-like voices."

Chen Yi said.

"You have repeated this sentence many times, friend, I have to say, you have to properly distract yourself and learn to trust my business ability.

The reason for your anxiety is that you care too much about others, or in other words, you love others too much, and you will worry about people even if they are strangers. "

"I know, I know, love others, isn't that bad?"

Chen Yi was a little impatient.

The psychiatrist comforted him in a soft tone:

"I have received many friends, and your problem is nothing. You have to learn to ignore it, and you have to learn not to feel compassion for those strangers and so on, even if he is a beggar or a disabled person.

Your psychological problems are also very common. You know, everyone wants to love others like a god. "

Love the world like God...

Chen Yi listened to the psychiatrist's words in his mind.

I feel that I am very energetic, but for some reason, my hearing seems to be out of my control, and I miss half of it.

Love the world like God...

Chen Yi was a little lost, and this insignificant sentence echoed in his mind.

"Relax, brother."

The psychiatrist thought he had said something wrong, and gestured, trying to calm Chen Yi's mind through body language.

"I know there is a big rock hanging in your heart, but now that the big rock is down, you can take a good rest."

Chen Yi listened to the doctor's voice...

Dashi has been put down, no depression, no anxiety...just simple psychological anxiety.

With the patient relief of the psychiatrist, Chen Yi felt as if he was being hypnotized, and slowly let go of his defenses.

Tiredness swept up from between the toes.

"There is a sofa there, you can rest there."

The psychiatrist stood up, leaned over, and carefully supported Chen Yi's shoulder.

"You're right, Doctor, it's time for me to relax."

Chen Yi said in a daze, and slowly stood up.

He decided to trust doctors and psychology.

at this time…

drop.

Inexplicable, like the sound of water droplets.

Chen Yi felt a certain feeling in his heart...

He was startled suddenly, shivered, and broke out in a cold sweat.

Many people have had similar experiences...

The sudden touch is like a flash of lightning, but it disappears in a flash, as if the time has not come, and people can't catch it when they suddenly look back.

It feels like it's from another world...

Like some kind of urgent call.

Chen Yi was suddenly awakened by this touch.

He shoved the psychiatrist sharply.

The psychiatrist was surprised and stood there blankly.

"Thank you doctor, I think I should go home and rest."

After being awakened, Chen Yi was extremely conscious at the moment.

This sobriety surprised him.

"Well, my friend, you just need to remember that the main cause of your recent frequent attacks of anxiety... is just psychological anxiety. It's really not a serious problem. Whenever you feel unwell or in a bad mood, call Give me.

Don't fight yourself, it can cause serious psychological trauma, and you may even forget who you are. "

The psychiatrist withdrew his hand in embarrassment. He stepped forward and pushed open the door of the consulting room for Chen Yi.

Chen Yi walked out of this consulting room converted from a private house.

It's spring now, and the spring sunshine in the Mediterranean is always mild. Chen Yi raised his face to let his skin touch the sun as much as possible.

Rubbing his eyes, Chen Yi felt like his hands were parchment that had been wiped several times.

Chen Yi said to himself:
"It's time to go back."

Chen Yi turned around and walked across the road to the boarding house.

God loves people so much...

God loves people so much...

Chen Yi repeated this sentence over and over involuntarily in his mind.

This is clearly evidence of a bad mental state.

At some point, his feet set foot on the road.

The murmur of cars can be heard all around, and the fishy smell of sea water can be smelled in the air of this coastal port city.

After walking through two streets and alleys, the air flow around seemed to slow down, with a magical stickiness.

Chen Yi felt a dull pain in his brain.

Some voice lurks in the darkness.

It was like an auditory hallucination in a dream.

Chen Yi tried his best to listen to that voice.

"Nora Rich, Fara Faso, Isaiah..."

The auditory hallucinations in the dream resounded in his ears at this moment.

Chen also felt a tinnitus.

Love the world like God...

For some reason, Chen Yi once again recalled the doctor's unintentional words.

Moving his legs with difficulty, Chen Yi wanted to go back as soon as possible. He suspected that he was so exhausted that he heard the voice in his dream.

Chen Yi's bloodshot eyes widened as he walked forward with difficulty.

"Nora Rich, Fara Faso, Isaiah..."

The sound continued.

Chen could also tell that the voice was not malicious.

It was an urgent cry.

Like a hungry lamb longing for grass, life in darkness calls out for light.

Chen Yi tried his best to maintain his sobriety so as not to get caught up in it.

Amidst coma and sobriety, Chen Yi finally reached the port.

In the distance is the vast and beautiful Aegean Sea. Under the sunlight, layers of waves gently beat on the sea level.

Chen Yi saw the port, and finally came here. There was only a little left on the way back. He leaned on the streetlight, and fell to the ground, gasping for breath.

"I'm fine, I'm fine."

Chen Yi pressed his head, an auditory hallucination-like voice resounded in his head.

Barely standing up from the street lamp, Chen Yi walked towards the port in a daze.

There are countless people on the port, but not many people noticed this tired man.

Step by step, he is getting closer and closer to the docile Aegean Sea.

Not long after, Chen Yi stopped.

He lowered his head slowly.

Somehow, I actually walked onto the pier, and the waves rolled under my feet.

"Gunano Larich, Farafaso, Isaia..."

The hallucination-like voice is now clearer than ever.

Looking at the gentle sea water, Chen Yi hasn't slept for many days, his whole body is exhausted...

Suddenly, he understood what those voices were saying.

"Salvation from heaven, king of kings, master of fate, sacrifice and suffering, life three times, death three times, recast forever..."

Chen Yi could tell that these names seemed to be referring to someone.

"my God,

I will not forsake your name. "

The voice fell.

Chen Yi suddenly raised his head.

Tiredness tames the body, but the soul wakes up from the cage of life.

His body slowly descended, approaching the sea water.

There were people passing by around, they saw Chen Yi's actions, and they subconsciously stopped him loudly:
"Sir! Sir! Stop."

In the eyes of others, Chen Yi was about to collapse into the Aegean Sea.

Sea water will swallow a young life.

A pedestrian rushed over and hurriedly stretched out his hand, hoping to grab Chen Yi.

Time slows down, almost frozen...

The earth seemed to be frozen dry at this moment.

until…

Chen Yi took a step into the turbulent sea.

The pedestrian's hands froze, his eyes widened, and his pupils shrank sharply.

The waves of the sea are endless...

The man walked on the water!

miracle…

It's just a miracle...

The pedestrians around were trembling all over, their eye sockets were trembling, and it was hard to believe the scene in front of them.

one step, another step,
Chen also walks on the Aegean Sea.

"Gunano Larich, Farafaso, Isaia..."

The voice was calling him, calling him to another world.

Chen Yi lowered his head and saw his body gradually becoming illusory amidst the turbulence of the sea.

He woke up suddenly, looking at everything in front of him in disbelief.

my soul...

Walk on water? !

The voice of auditory hallucinations still rang through my ears.

"my God,

I will not forsake your name. "

Chen Yi is about to fall into another world.

The voice called him urgently to another world.

Like a hungry lamb longing for grass, life in darkness calls for light.

(End of this chapter)