Clearly, she doesn't want to be a concubine

Chapter 74

"Mother Tong said, this was given to my son by the emperor's father shortly after I was born. Now I want to give it to my younger siblings."

Umalu sobbed and hugged him, tears streaming down his face.

Without knowing it, Yinzhen went in, obediently letting her hold her.

He patted her on the back: "Emiang doesn't cry."

Umalu wiped away her tears: "Okay, Erniang won't cry."

Yinzhen climbed onto the bed, talking to Umalu's stomach in a broken voice.

Umalu watched with loving expression.

Concubine Tong came from outside, talked with her for a while, and then said: "In the future, I will take him for a walk."

"Thank you, sister Tong."

"It's okay." Concubine Tong smiled, "It is said that having many children and grandchildren brings blessings, and you are already the third one. I'm here to reap your blessings."

Concubine Tong Gui smiled, then patted her hand lightly: "You, it's better to admit your mistake to the emperor."

Umalu clutched the bed sheet with his fingers and remained silent.

"The whole world belongs to the emperor, he should do whatever he wants." Concubine Tong Gui said, "He has been in my palace for the past few days, staring at Yinzhen in a daze."

Umalu did not speak.

Concubine Tong didn't try to persuade her anymore, she just said: "Don't be arrogant. Ordinary couples still quarrel in their lives, let alone he is the emperor."

"Only people follow his way, and he does not follow others."

Concubine Tong stood up: "I won't say more, you are so self-cultivated, I will come to see you again in a few days."

"Yes." Umalu said, "Liuli, give it to me."

Lucy did as she said.

Umalu stared at the bright yellow bed curtain in a daze.

She wondered if she was too obsessed with being herself?
Her six relatives are poor, and she was only raised by her parents for a few years when she was young. Later, she studied and worked outside, and she has been working hard outside.

She is strong and independent, very tenacious.

She is not good at flattery, but she has a little success in her career.No matter how difficult it is, she will grit her teeth and go up.

She prides herself on being able to adapt to any environment and live well in it.

This is also why, after she traveled through time, she would quickly integrate into the Qing Dynasty.

Although it was a little confusing at first, it will come out quickly.

However, if you are too strong, you will be humiliated, and if you are too strong, you will be easily broken.

She has a strong temper, doesn't act like a baby, and is too lazy to act like a little girl. Her parents often regret that she doesn't look like a daughter. She often doesn't want to contact her parents because of this.

Her friends also cut ties with her because of her temperament.

He was also betrayed at work because of his personality.

Later, she walked out step by step, and wrapped up this strong temperament layer by layer, becoming a temperament that is soft on the outside and strong on the inside.

But she knew very well in her heart that she was not good at communicating with people-neither good at establishing intimacy with others, nor accepting others' kindness frankly.

She is not ready to walk into any relationship.

She lived alone for a long time.

She opened her hand and looked at her slender fingers.

When she was in modern times, she often had a sense of sight that she didn't belong there.

Even, she has more connections in ancient times than in modern times.

Rather than saying that she wanted to go back to the modern age, it would be better to say that she was asking again and again whether she still wanted to be herself.

who is she?Is it Umalu?Or Uyamalu?Or Depin?Or a mother of two?

But along the way, she has nothing but herself.

How could she give up on herself?
She just wants to be herself.

"Master! Master!"

"Ok?"

"Physician Wang, Physician Wang."

She closed her eyes.

When Liang Jiugong received the news, after a little hesitation, he went in to find Kangxi.

"Master De has had a miscarriage."

Kangxi's eyes widened slightly, he calmed down and continued to discuss with them about the visit to Shengjing.

It wasn't until evening, when all matters were discussed, that Kangxi got up and summoned Liang Jiugong, "How is Concubine De?"

"Keep it." Liang Jiugong said, "Doctor Wang said that Master De's internal consumption is insufficient. Although he has been raising it for a while, it is not considered healthy after all. Please take care of it carefully. Don't be too sad or happy, and the fetal gas will move."

After Liang Jiugong finished speaking, he stood aside politely.

After Kangxi thought for a while, he got up and said, "Go to Yonghe Palace."

Umaru has already fallen asleep, and the candles in the house have been extinguished.

Liang Jiugong had sent people to say hello in advance, but because of Kangxi's order, they all acted lightly and did not wake Umalu up.

Liang Jiugong carried the lantern, and Kangxi followed him in.

The dim light was not dazzling. Liang Jiugong put the lantern on the table and stepped back. He grabbed Liuli who was about to enter the door and hissed.

Liuli retreated, and handed the tray in her hand to Baozhu who was following behind her.

Liang Jiugong gently closed the door and stood outside the house by himself.

Liuli handed an old hand stove to Liang Jiugong: "Director Liang warms his hands."

"I have a heart." Liang Jiugong took a look at her and took it.

Wei Zhu stood behind him respectfully.

Kangxi looked at the sleeping person, her face was stained with tears, she squeezed out a wail from her chest, like a wounded cub, she curled up into a ball, her eyes were tightly closed, but tears kept oozing out.

She was whimpering, deeply trapped in a nightmare, unable to wake up.

He watched silently, then lowered his hand to wipe away the cold tears for her.

"Why are there so many tears..."

"Why don't you want to come to me..."

"You should hate me, blame me... please me..."

Time and space intertwined, and he went back to the past in a trance.

He once said to her: "Since you said that you will never change, then I will make you please me forever."

He once said to her: "I want you to please me forever, I am above everything about you, your family, your children. Your life."

He once said to her: "And I will give you everything I can give you, I will plan everything for you, and you will live under my protection forever, free from disease and pain, rich and healthy, happy Safety."

But he didn't seem to do it. He gave her wealth, but also gave her pain, and also deprived her of health, joy and peace.

But he didn't do it.

She always believed in him.

She said over and over again: "It is the master who indulges the slave."

She said, "Father."

He thought, yes, he is her master, and everything about her is arranged by him, and is determined by him.

Although he deprived her of everything, he was the one who manipulated her.That's why she can't know what's good or bad.

Of course, he could completely smash her and make her fragmented, only relying on himself.

But he couldn't bear it.

It was he who gave her the confidence to be pampered.

The heart is like a mirror, and the behavior is pampered.

That's why she would rather cry in her dream than bow to him awake.

He bowed his head and kissed her lips.

His fingers landed on her cheek, wiping away tears for her.

"Elinzhu, what would you do without me?"

He held her hand as if holding his own daughter.

She can only be attached to him, no matter what he does.

He has to think about her completely, otherwise, she will die in a cold snow, a spring rain, or a rumor...

　Happy New Years everyone~
　　
　
(End of this chapter)