confession today

Chapter 10 Old?

It was raining and foggy outside the window, and occasionally a few cars passed by.

Hearing the patter of light rain, Cheng Suiran only felt that her whole world was surrounded by Li Qizhi at this moment.

She didn't dare to raise her head to look at the people around her again, she just lowered her eyes silently, staring at her shoes, her heartbeat became stronger and stronger.

Obviously, Li Qizhi's question made it difficult for her to resist.

Just when she was a little overwhelmed, his deep and gentle voice suddenly sounded in her ears, which was as pleasant and melodious as a cello.

"It's also my elder brother who doesn't know himself."

With him like this, Cheng Suiran felt an inexplicable emotion in her heart. She wanted to look up at him, but she was afraid of facing his smiling eyes, so she could only bury her head deeper.

She acts like a little ostrich.

Seeing the little girl's movements, Li Qizhi couldn't help but chuckled: "Of course, why don't you look at brother?"

Hearing this, Cheng Suiran only felt his cheeks turn redder, and wished he could find a hole to get in, bit his lip, and whispered back: "No, it's nothing, just a little motion sickness."

"Carsick?" Cheng Siyan frowned slightly when he heard this, and worried in his eyes: "Why did you suddenly get carsick? Is the pain severe? Come here and let brother have a look."

"It's okay brother, I'll be fine slowly." Cheng Suiran lowered his eyes and shook his head.

Cheng Siyan insisted, "Be obedient."

"..."

In the end, Cheng Suiran still couldn't hold him back, so he could only raise his head obediently and lean beside him.

"Is your face so hot?"

The worry between Cheng Siyan's brows and eyes became even more worried, and he reached out and touched her forehead again. After a while, he asked in confusion, "I don't have a fever, so why is my face so hot?"

"Really, it's really nothing..." Cheng Suiran stammered back, her eyes were nowhere to rest, showing her guilty conscience at the moment.

"If you feel bad, you must tell your brother, you know?" Cheng Siyan still urged with concern, his soft eyes fixed on her tightly, his eyes were full of worry and distress.

Li Qizhi was driving the car seriously, but Cheng Suiran was always in the corner of his eyes.

Then he asked, "If you get motion sickness, sleep for a while."

"Understood, thank you brother." Cheng Suiran repeated the word of thanks again.

Cheng Siyan was listening on the sidelines, a look of incomprehension flashed in his eyes, why did he always feel that the little girl had a deliberate sense of alienation from Li Qizhi.

However, his attention was quickly attracted by the white schoolbag next to the little girl, and he raised his eyebrows, without any expression on his face, and asked slowly: "Fold the paper again and go to sue her? "

It goes without saying that the "she" he was referring to was Zhao Nanqiao.

Even though Sister Nan Qiao had passed away for five years, my brother still couldn't get out of the shadow of that night, and he didn't want to mention Sister Nan Qiao's name again, and always replaced her with her.
She thought about it from her brother's point of view, if she killed the person she loves with her own hands, she must also be unable to get out of the shadow in her heart.

Even if it was absolutely necessary.

At that time, my brother and sister Nan Qiao were undercover in an organization. Just when the mission was about to end, sister Nan Qiao was exposed as an undercover agent. More inhuman treatment.

She felt very uncomfortable just listening to her brother's colleagues tell about this incident, not to mention how her brother felt as the person involved.

They said that sister Nan Qiao cried and begged her brother to do it. Nan Qiao said that she was afraid that she would end up in the hands of those drug dealers, but she couldn't expose the whole team because of herself, so she could only cry and beg Brother killed herself...

Cheng Suiran didn't know how her brother did it, but she knew how his brother survived in pain during that time. He didn't know how many times his brother wanted to commit suicide. Every time when his brother was about to lose his mind, it was Sister Nan Qiao who died. The previous words persuaded my brother to come back.

She said: "Cheng Siyan, you must survive and fulfill the mission in my heart instead of me..."

During that time, she didn't know how many times she heard her brother whispering, but at the same time, she was very grateful to Sister Nan Qiao, who gave her brother a reason to live on.

Cheng Suiran thought, the tears in her eyes were about to overflow again, and she reached out to wipe away the tears without a trace, but the muffled voice still fully exposed her mood at the moment.

"Yeah, I'm going to tell Sister Nan Qiao that my brother actually had a crush on a girl in high school."

Hearing this, Cheng Siyan's eyes dimmed, then he closed his eyes and leaned back on the chair, muttering: "It's not bad to file a complaint, it just so happens that she hasn't appeared in my dreams for a long time..."

He didn't believe in ghosts and gods in the past, but now he can only pin his hope of living on ghosts and gods. He can only paralyze himself countless times. She just stays by his side in a different way.

They can still meet, but the way of meeting has become a dream.

I don't know how long it took.

The light rain outside the car window was still pattering, Cheng Siyan closed his eyes, with a faint smile on his mouth, as if he saw his beloved again in a dream.

Cheng Suiran raised his head and took a sneak peek at his sleeping brother. Seeing that he was really asleep, he wiped away his tears quietly.

Reaching out from the schoolbag, he took out the nearly full can of paper stars and the remaining star notes, took out another pen, and lowered his head to write.

Sister Nan Qiao, my brother is very sad recently, can you visit him more often in your dreams?He misses you very much.

Sister Nan Qiao, I miss you too, this time I brought you your favorite lily, and you should meet my dad, can you tell my dad for me, I miss him very much.

Sister Nan Qiao, I seem to like my brother's friend, what do you think I should do?

……

After slowly folding the paper stars, Cheng Suiran murmured again: "Sister Nan Qiao, I seem to have a little too much wish this time, but I still have to trouble you."

Li Qizhi looked at the little girl's immature and delicate face with tears hanging from the rearview mirror, and sighed in his heart, but he didn't say much after all.

He deeply knows a truth, there is no real empathy in this world, and if he persuades him as an outsider, it may only aggravate the seriousness of the matter.

Instead of this, it is better to accompany silently.

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Today's weather is very cold, she was shivered by the cold wave as soon as she got out of the car, she couldn't help but tighten the knitted jacket on her body, and walked forward with an umbrella.

The dense fog on the mountain blocked the view very much.

The entire cemetery is covered with towering cypress trees, and the long stairs can't be seen at a glance. I can't count how many times she and her brother have come here since they were young.

As for the worshippers, from the mother at the beginning, to sister Nan Qiao, to the father this time, Cheng Suiran couldn't tell what he was feeling at the moment.

(End of this chapter)