Mecha Star Wars

Chapter 73
Lin Fan lay on the ground, and glanced at him lazily: "If you don't mind me talking like this, just chat."

No matter how busy he is, Jin Sichen will have a conversation with her every week.

Even if she was weak all over before, she couldn't escape while lying on the hospital bed.Fortunately, his conversation was very skillful and would not make Lin Fan feel irritable.

And Lin Fan did feel much better emotionally recently, and she felt it was all thanks to Jin Sichen.So I don't reject chatting with Jin Sichen in my heart.

Jin Sichen glanced at Song Ren, and Song Ren understood.

"Wait another 2 minutes." He quickly helped Lin Fan finish pressing, and took Li Chunhua out.

Seeing the door closed, Jin Sichen sat cross-legged on the floor with a short body, put the recording pen aside, and asked with his chin propped up, "Do you remember the time you jumped into the river last year?"

"Remember..." Lin Fan had no obvious expression, she turned her head sideways and looked in Jin Sichen's direction, her eyes were actually empty.

"I have a few questions related to that matter, and I want to confirm with you. If you feel uncomfortable, tell me immediately, and I will stop." Seeing that Lin Fan didn't seem to have any special mood swings, Jin Sichen continued.

"Well, you ask." Now Lin Fan, there are few things that can make her mood fluctuate violently.

Of course, Mama Lin is an exception.

"Didn't Dr. Xiao say that there was something on top of your head yesterday?" Jin Sichen first explained the reason, "We don't know what it is, but we suspect that you have suffered trauma before and didn't pay attention to what remained on your head."

"Last night, I contacted John Woo. He said, if you were injured on the top of your head and you didn't know it, it was probably the time you jumped into the river. I think it's very possible, so I want to review this unpleasant experience with you. Experience, do you think it works?"

"Okay." Lin Fan readily agreed.

"Can you tell me what happened that day? Why did you suddenly jump into the river?" Jin Sichen asked.

Lin Fan probably felt uncomfortable lying on his neck, turned himself over forcefully, lay on his back, looked at the high ceiling and recalled: "It was a long time after I was discharged from the hospital. My mother came to see me."

"She probably thinks that I seem to be more normal, and happily wants to pull me out for a walk. She thinks that I have to go out more, so that I can open up and forget those unpleasant things. I don't want to go out, but..."

Lin's mother half-forced Lin Fan to go for a walk in the park near her home.The air in the park is very good, there are large areas of flowers and trees, not many people, very quiet.Lin Fan didn't feel particularly good, nor particularly bad.

"My mother kept talking. It was okay at first, talking about flowers and plants, municipal construction, news and gossip... Later, as she talked, it gradually turned into complaining, complaining about my dad, complaining about life, and complaining that I am obviously better. But she always stays at home and doesn't go to work, causing neighbors to watch jokes. When acquaintances ask her, she doesn't know how to answer... She told me to find a class quickly, and find a job that sits in an office and I won't be tired when I go to work... ..." The corners of Lin Fan's mouth turned up slightly, revealing a strange smile.

She was standing on the bridge at that time, looking at the sinking sun, dyed the clouds red, and the whole sky seemed to be on fire. It was so beautiful that people yearned for it.

"I suddenly feel very uncomfortable. Obviously every day is painful, obviously I don't want to live such a life, obviously I can't control my body..."

"I have tried a lot, but with little success. I have to muster up a lot of courage and do a lot of psychological construction before I can step out of the house, but in my mother's eyes..."

"Who knows that kind of hard work? No one can experience it. I feel like I'm a waste. Living is a waste of air. Why bother struggling to survive? It's useless anyway."

"Besides, the sky was so beautiful that day, I really wanted to be one with the sky... I'm too tired, I don't want to listen to those nagging anymore... I just flipped through it."

Jin Sichen listened quietly without interrupting.

The pain of a depressed patient is not only the pain itself, but also the fact that no one understands it.

Most people feel that they are moaning for nothing and looking for trouble for nothing.Even if there is occasional understanding, it is difficult to empathize.

Because of the particularity of the disease, most people seem to be able to live a normal life, even the same as ordinary people.Unless it is serious enough to manifest itself, it is easy to ignore.

Unlike physiological diseases: bleeding can be seen when the skin is cut; redness and swelling can be seen when the eyes are inflamed.Depression is a disease of the heart, even if the heart is dug out, there is no problem.

For people with depression, a silent hug and unwavering support can be very powerful.

But trivial complaints and incomprehension will push them into deeper pain.

So at the beginning, the doctor was right to let Lin Fan live separately from Mama Lin.

Lin Ma was actually the root cause of Lin Fan's illness, but she still didn't realize it.I always thought that Lin Fan was mentally weak and couldn't bear to talk about it.

"Did you regret when you jumped down?" Seeing that Lin Fan's expression was still calm, Jin Sichen continued to ask.

"No, I feel very happy." A faint and serene smile appeared on Lin Fan's face, and her eyes were a little sore, "I think, these days... are finally coming to an end."

It is often said that you are not afraid of death, but are you afraid of living?

Extreme behavior is a kind of escape, but for people in pain, it may be a kind of relief.

Common people call for euthanasia to reduce the pain of patients when the cancer is terminal and difficult to cure.

But few people remember that depression is known as psychological cancer.

It is also cancer, and patients with depression choose extreme means to get rid of it, but they are always reprimanded.

When I was alive, I was not understood, and I was criticized for choosing liberation.

It's as if you can't get sick, and it's up to the person to choose.

When you can't get rid of the pain of cutting flesh with a blunt knife, sticking your head out seems to be the only way to get rid of it.

Not a good idea, but it works.

"Do you still have any impression after jumping off?" Jin Sichen continued to ask.

"I heard my mother's voice, that high-pitched and familiar cry, which actually made me feel a little happy at that time." Lin Fan pouted and smiled bitterly, "It seems that there are other voices, I can't hear them clearly, so I smashed them into the In the water."

"Jumping into the river hurts more than I imagined. It turns out that the water can be so hard. First I saw the yellow river water full of eyes, which was a little transparent, and my eyes were so painful that I couldn't open them. Then, the water went into my nose and ears. The nose is like a fire, sour and astringent."

"I couldn't breathe. I opened my mouth and spit out a bunch of bubbles. Water rushed into my throat... The color of the river became darker, and my lungs seemed to be emptied. They shrank into a ball and the pain was severe. My head was dizzy and I felt like I was floating. ...the color of the water is getting darker and darker, and soon nothing can be seen..."

Drowning is very uncomfortable, but the tone of Lin Fan's description was very flat, without even a slight fluctuation, as if he was telling someone else's story.

To be able to come to this day, she has overcome difficulties that ordinary people can hardly imagine.

Jin Sichen was delighted that Lin Fan's condition was stable, and then asked: "Can you not swim?"

"will not."

"Then do you still remember how you were rescued?" This is the problem mentioned yesterday.

"I don't know. After I woke up, I was lying on the shore. I must have been rescued. I felt weak and heavy, but I was still able to move. I was wet and cold, and my emotions It's back to normal, so I walked home slowly." Lin Fan sat on the bank for a while before getting up, as if he had gone through a strenuous exercise.

"Did you encounter any strange things when you were in the water? Think about it carefully, do you feel hurt or in pain?" Jin Sichen is most concerned about this.

Lin Fan thought for a long time, and said uncertainly: "It seems... the top of my head hurts, and I bumped into something. It hurts. Hmm... Then I saw some black lines floating upwards. But I'm not sure. Then At that time, I was not very conscious, not sure if I really encountered something."

Jin Sichen guessed that the black line might be the blood that flowed out after the scalp was broken. Lin Fan sank, so the blood he saw floated upwards.

He said a few more words about the end of the conversation.After confirming that Lin Fan was fine, he left the activity room and sent a message to Wu Yusen immediately.

Although Lin Fan said he wasn't sure, based on what Jin Sichen knew about her, he didn't have any disordered memories, so the possibility of being injured in the water was very high.

"She said that the thing she hit should be the main body of the thing stuck in her head, which is the key to her transformation. Since it can hit her head badly, it shouldn't be too small, at least it can't be only in her head There are so many embroidery needles, there must be other parts." Jin Sichen was very sure.

The river is so big, there are too many things that can smash people's heads.But this thing should be in a relatively shallow position.Because the kinetic energy of the fall will be offset by the buoyancy, if it is too deep, there will be no force to smash the head.

Moreover, more than a year has passed, and it is hard to say whether the things are still there.

Although it is difficult, John Woo will go.This is what the secret service is like, facing difficulties is their daily life.

"Understood, I will start to arrange immediately." Wu Yusen knew it well, "How is Lin Fan recently, I heard that he has transformed again, have you seen it?"

"I didn't see it with my own eyes, but after watching the video, the 623 people even made a 1:1 3D portrait." Jin Sichen replied.

"Hiss... can I take a look?" Wu Yusen knew that he was bound by a confidentiality agreement, so the answer was not optimistic.

"You have to go back and ask the director. Their information is shared with the director, and I have no right to post it directly." Jin Sichen shook his head, the agreement was not a fake one.

"Okay. Then I'll go back and ask the director. Is Lin Fan okay now? I heard he's recovering well." Wu Yusen still cared about Lin Fan, but he couldn't be with him because of work.

"It's not bad. I thought that the pain from the last transformation would cause her mental state to retract, but I didn't expect it to not. This time the retrospective emotion was hardly affected. This proves that Lin Fan's resistance to negative emotions is increasing. Much better than I imagined." Jin Sichen said with a smile, "Lin Fan is actually very powerful, she just needs someone to help her. We are doing such a thing now."

"Okay, I'm relieved." Wu Yusen laughed on the other end, told Jin Sichen to continue to take good care of Lin Fan, and then hung up the phone.

It is not appropriate to hold a meeting after get off work hours, and Wu Yusen has not obtained any real evidence, so there is no need to be so anxious.

Jin Sichen decided to be a good person and hold a meeting after going to work tomorrow.

The next day, everyone was very excited when they learned of this new development.

Now, the focus of the cause of the abnormality is obviously shifted to the foreign body in the head, and the attention to the side effects of drugs has been greatly reduced.

Others can ignore it, but Jin Sichen himself can't.

While waiting for Wu Yusen's news, he continued to investigate the report in a serious manner.It wasn't until after reading the last page that it was confirmed that Lin Fan's abnormality had nothing to do with the side effects of the drug that everyone completely focused their attention on the foreign object in his head.

Although it was finally determined that it had nothing to do with the side effects of the medicine, everyone still dared not give Lin Fan medicine at will.

Fortunately, she ate and drank well in 800 miles. Under the protection of Song Ren and Zhang Chunhua, she didn't even have a chance to break her skin.

The time was spent waiting, and another ten days passed.

Ever since he knew that Lin Fan couldn't swim and was almost drowned, Song Ren added swimming lessons to Lin Fan, practicing twice a week in the swimming pool of the villa area.

Swimming itself is also a good exercise, which can increase physical strength, exercise lung capacity, and reduce joint damage.

Swimming time is arranged at 2 o'clock after the lunch break.At that time, I had just finished lunch and took a lunch break, and my energy was at its peak.Lin Fan half-swimmed and half-rested, and returned to the office building to "work" after an hour.

That day, after Lin Fan finished swimming, he returned to 623, and when he walked past the open meeting room, he was suddenly stopped by someone.

"Lin Fan!" There was a smile in the familiar male voice.

Lin Fan turned around, and there was a person sitting in the conference room who shouldn't be here.

"Wu Yusen?!"

　Wu Yusen came to see Lin Fan.On the fourth day, double shifts will be delivered.Hey, come with recommended tickets and monthly tickets.mwah
　　
　
(End of this chapter)