She is cute and has a thousand layers of routines

Chapter 246 Let's Talk, Do You Have Any Troubles?
A memory ends.

Chen Jiayu walked to the next paragraph.

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It was a summer evening and it was raining.

Inside a small restaurant.

The elderly Chen Jiayu and several old classmates, including Hou Zifan, were eating at the same table.

While waiting for the food to be served, a few people started chatting with each other, and for some reason, the topic fell to the elderly Chen Jiayu and Shen Nianchu.

Someone said: "When I was in high school, who of you would have imagined that the biggest winner in life among us was actually Chen Jiayu. Not only did he become a big dark horse in the college entrance examination, he was admitted to Yanjing Aeronautical University, and he even caught up with Shen Nianchu."

Someone else echoed: "At the beginning, the person in our school who had a crush on Shen Nianchu probably had 99 if she didn't have [-]. But her qualifications are too good, and she looks so cold, except for Chen Jiayu, no one dares to be that tough Warrior, at that time I was thinking about what kind of tall, rich and handsome man would be to be worthy of Shen Nianchu, but when I found out that she was with Chen Jiayu, I simply..."

"What are you?" Hou Zifan immediately slapped the table unhappily, "Is Lao Chen not good enough for Shen Nianchu? I think you are jealous!"

"Of course I didn't mean that, it's just a little accident." The person before quickly changed the topic with a smile.

No one noticed, since the topic started, the smile on the elderly Chen Jiayu's face slowly disappeared.

After a while, Hou Zifan looked at the older Chen Jiayu and asked, "I said, Old Chen, does Shen Nianchu care about you very tightly? Every time I want to ask you out to meet for dinner, it's so hard to die The last time we had dinner together...was it more than half a year ago?"

The older Chen Jiayu hadn't answered yet, when someone next to him said, "If I have such an excellent girlfriend, I'll be happy with it."

"That's right." Everyone laughed.

The phone rang.

The older Chen Jiayu glanced at the number and walked to the side to answer the phone.

On the phone, Shen Nianchu asked: "Chen Jiayu, why didn't you send me a message when you got home today?"

The older Chen Jiayu was silent for a moment before saying, "I'm still outside."

"Outside? What are you doing?"

"Have dinner with Hou Zifan and the others."

"Why didn't you tell me, did you forget that I said that besides work, if you are outside for more than half an hour, you must report to me in advance?"

The older Chen Jiayu lowered his eyes: "I'm sorry...I don't want to quarrel with you."

Shen Nianchu asked back, "What do you mean you don't want to quarrel with me?"

"If you definitely disagree, what's the point of reporting?"

Shen Nianchu's usual calm and clear tone was a little bit colder now, "Do you have a problem with me?"

"..." The older Chen Jiayu felt tight in his chest, and said in a low voice, "Just this time, don't make an exception, okay?"

"No, don't eat." Shen Nianchu said in an unquestionable tone, "I will wait for you at your door in half an hour, and I will accompany you to have dinner."

"But it's raining outside, and we've already ordered."

"Tell them you want to come back with me."

The older Chen Jiayu was silent for a while, and sighed wearily: "Nianchu, I've said it many times, you are not the only one in my world, I also need friends."

Shen Nianchu smiled, and said lightly, "I've said it many times, it's not that you are not allowed to make friends, but you have to make friends who are useful to you. You are already very busy right now, and you don't have enough time to improve yourself , how can you waste those human interactions that are of no help or value to you? Well, see you in half an hour."

After waiting for a while, there was no answer from the other side.

"Chen Jiayu, did you hear that?" She slightly raised her volume.

The elderly Chen Jiayu closed his eyes, and his breathing became a little rapid: "Nianchu, please let me finish this meal well."

Shen Nianchu's voice was unbelievable: "Chen Jiayu, have you forgotten that you promised me that you must go home before eight o'clock every day?"

"I remember, but..."

"There's no 'but', you just have to tell me if you're going to do what I say."

The elder Chen Jiayu was silent.

Shen Nianchu understood what he meant, and suddenly laughed, "Chen Jiayu, since your performance this time disappointed me, I think we should separate for a while, and you should reflect on yourself."

"..."

At this moment, the elderly Chen Jiayu suddenly felt extremely tired and bored.

Every time, every time...

You have to listen to her in everything, you can't do this, you can't do that.

If she said east, he had to go east. He could hesitate for a second, but not for more than two seconds.

As big as filling in the application for the college entrance examination, what kind of friends to make, as small as who to go out for a meal with, and which shampoo to buy in the supermarket, you must follow her requirements.

If she doesn't do what she says, she will take out the two weapons of "breaking up" or "low pressure", and no matter what the reason for the quarrel, she will not let go of her pride, he is the first to compromise and go I bowed my head and apologized.

Communication also failed.

Because she is always right, always right.

She is only for his good, for his consideration, for his love.

Perhaps, this is the expression of her love for him, wanting him to belong to her [-]%.

However, he has already given her 99% of what he can control. Can't he keep the last one percent for a while?

He can only tell himself repeatedly, don't be too greedy, no one in this world is perfect.

You are not perfect yourself, and neither is she.

Moreover, since you have chosen her, you must take responsibility for her.If you love her, you should accept, tolerate and understand her like this.

But at this moment, hearing Shen Nianchu say this, for the first time, he actually had the thought of "It might not be unacceptable to separate for a while".

The older Chen Jiayu pursed his lips vigorously, and replied softly, "Okay."

Shen Nianchu on the other end of the phone couldn't believe it: "What did you say?"

"I agree." The older Chen Jiayu repeated, "Let's separate for a while."

……

after an hour.

The rain is getting heavier and heavier, and the whole city seems to be flooded.

The elderly Chen Jiayu held an umbrella and returned to the rented apartment building.

However, before the elevator doors behind him closed, his legs stopped when he was about to step out.

Shen Nianchu was standing in front of his apartment, her face was pale, and she looked extremely fragile under the slightly dim light in the corridor.

The older Chen Jiayu's heart stopped for an instant: "Nianchu, it's raining so hard, why are you here? How long have you been here? Why don't you go in?"

"I'm waiting for you to come back." Shen Nianchu raised her snow-white face and looked at him.Her eyes were red as if she had just cried, and there were tears around her eyes. She choked up and asked, "Chen Jiayu, do you not love me anymore?"

The older Chen Jiayu felt tight in his chest, took a deep breath, and forced his heart to slow down, "No, don't think about it."

"Then why did you separate from me?"

"...you said it yourself."

"That was a moment of anger on my part. In the past, when I was angry, you would immediately apologize to me. Why did you agree this time?" Shen Nianchu threw herself into the arms of the older Chen Jiayu, wrapped her arms around him, and burst into tears. Flowed out again, "I just care about you too much, you can't leave me, or I will die..."

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This memory is over, Chen Jiayu continues to walk back, it's all the same, full of small and big quarrels, conflicts and reconciliation between him and Shen Nianchu.

"Chen Jiayu, have you finished your graduation thesis? Why are you reading such useless idle books again? Have you ever thought about our future?"

"Why do you keep talking to your mother on the phone for so long?"

"I don't like this dress, so don't wear it again in the future."

"Why was it a few minutes late to reply to my message just now, what are you busy with?"

"You must go back before eight o'clock in the evening."

"Where are you? Really? Open the video and let me see."

"In the future, you must report to me every time you go out for more than half an hour. I must always know where you are, what you are doing, and who you are with."

"Remember to text me back after the meeting."

"You want me to give you some free space? But I'm your girlfriend, so I care about you."

"Chen Jiayu, people need pressure to be better. I want to prove to my mother that I did not choose the wrong person."

"Do you love me? Love me and do what I say."

"Since you apologized, forget it this time."

……

Following the chain of memory, Chen Jiayu walked forward step by step, and his memories of the future were gradually enriched.This is not easy, because these memories are mixed with strong emotions, and they are all experienced and experienced by himself in the future, causing his own emotions to fluctuate accordingly.

However, for Chen Jiayu, this was not a good experience.

After all, most of these memories are depressive, boring and anxious. They are like black poisonous snakes, densely covering every corner of the world, so that the whole world is dyed into darkness.

Being bitten will only bring a trace of hidden wounds, but if countless hidden wounds accumulate together, they will eventually be fatal.

As they piled up more and more, they finally condensed together and became a black and terrifying giant snake. It raised its upper half, twisted there, opened its mouth, and bared its bright fangs at Chen Jiayu. .

Chen Jiayu could only control herself carefully, not to be entangled by these poisonous emotions.

And after recalling these, he didn't feel any resentment towards Shen Nianchu.

A person's desire to control mostly stems from fear.

The same is true for Shen Nianchu.

She is afraid of losing the love she finally experienced again, so she wants to ensure her sense of security in this love through absolute domination and possession of Chen Jiayu, but she doesn't know how to express love correctly The way.

At that time, Chen Jiayu was just full of enthusiasm, and he tried his best at first, but when he gave and consumed more and more, and tried to communicate with Shen Nianchu, the situation still did not improve, so he decided to Exhausted, love can no longer move, but the sense of responsibility and guilt in my heart condemns him all the time.Instinct made him want to escape, and his sense of responsibility made him persist. Strong and contradictory emotions entangled and consumed each other crazily. Over time, it finally brought unbearable pressure to the spirit.

……

Then, the next memory lit up.

It was a soft cream-colored room as a whole, furnished simply, warmly, generously and brightly, with two open small bookshelves against the wall, a double sofa beside one bookcase, and not far away Another single sofa, two sofas facing each other diagonally.

The older Chen Jiayu was sitting on a two-seater sofa, while a girl was sitting on the one-seater sofa diagonally opposite.

She turned her back to him and couldn't see the front face, but when she saw the back, Chen Jiayu was immediately stunned.

It was clearly just a back view, and most of his body was still covered by the back of the sofa, and his hairstyle was different, but he could still recognize the other party's identity at a glance.

It's Cai Jiayi.

The previous memories were just short fragments, not continuous, like edited movie scenes, so Chen Jiayu never understood what kind of relationship Cai Jiayi had with her future self.

Until now, finally got the answer.

Looking at the "Code of Practice for Psychological Counselors" posted on the wall, Chen Jiayu couldn't help curling the corners of his mouth.He should have thought of it a long time ago. She likes psychology so much and is good at observing words and emotions. It is not surprising that she would choose this as her job.

He walked across to Cai Jiayi and looked at her.

The heating is turned on in the room, it should be autumn and winter seasons, the indoor temperature is very pleasant, she is wearing a thin milky white sweater, brown checked leggings underneath, brown leather boots, small face She also wore a pair of exquisite retro gold-rimmed glasses. According to Chen Jiayu's understanding of her, these should be just plain glasses for decoration, but they added a bit of calmness and intellectuality to her.

However, even though she wears glasses, behind the lenses, her slightly upturned eyes still carry an involuntary and kind smile all the time, occasionally bringing out a touch of Chen Jia It seems that even the most ruthless time has not been able to wash away the charming, agile, and cunning girlish breath that Yu is familiar with.

After looking into her eyes, the soreness of her nose suddenly spread from Chen Jiayu's throat.

After seeing so much, he realized how rare the love she gave him was.

And until now, he was still not sure that if he recovered his memory, he would really be able to find her back.

"Let's talk, what troubles do you have?"

Cai Jiayi looked at the older Chen Jiayu, she smiled slightly and said in a soft voice.

Looking at her eyes, the elderly Chen Jiayu felt a magic power that made people want to be trusted and close. After hesitating for a while, unconsciously, he stuttered and began to tell the story between him and Shen Nianchu .

When he was talking, Cai Jiayi just looked at him with gentle and peaceful eyes, listened patiently, lowered her head from time to time, and took notes with a pen on the notebook on her lap, occasionally pretending that Chen Jiayu didn't know When it comes to how to go on, she will ask a few questions subtly to guide him to continue.

Halfway through the talk, the older Chen Jiayu's eyes became moist. He seemed to feel that being a man was a bit embarrassing, so he raised his big hand to cover his face, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry, let me calm down first. Besides..."

Cai Jiayi stared at him, and said softly: "There is nothing to be sorry for. Finding a suitable outlet for your emotions is better than suppressing them in your heart."

The older Chen Jiayu calmed down and continued talking.

Those ignorant sprouts from youth, those sweet and happy pasts, those contradictions and struggles...

Listening, for a few seconds, Cai Jiayi seemed to be gradually immersed in it, and was slightly lost in thought.

(End of this chapter)