What kind of bad thoughts can Mr. Xiao have?

Chapter 83 Chapter 82

Wei Huai'en kissed his slender fingertips: "You know what, Xiao Qi. If you didn't know me so well in this world, I might not be here today.

I should thank you. "

Thank you, no matter how I deceive you, use you, guard against you, and plot against you, you always give me a sincere heart.

"Then would you like to tell me?"

Xiao Qi moved closer and accepted her thank you.

He's like a crook collecting credit, no, he is.After keeping all Wei Huaien's praises and rewards in his heart, and guarding against that possibility, he begged for mercy from her.

But unlike him full of anxiety and hypocrisy, Wei Huai'en finally embedded his whole body and heart into his soul as he only dared to expect in his dreams all this time. separate him from her.

He was part of her world, even though he didn't know it yet.

But in the end, he'll figure it out in some horrific way.

"Have you met my mother, Xiao Qi?"

She held his face and looked at it carefully, giving him an illusion, as if now he was not in a human body, but a treasure cherished by her.

"I met Luanjia of the former empress several times on the palace road, and I... secretly raised my eyes to see the phoenix of the empress."

His dark eyes stared at her for a long time, only blinking once in a while, for fear of destroying the relaxed atmosphere at this moment, and making her who had just calmed down feel sad again.

"Haha...Xiao Qi, it turns out that you have always been so bold. I really thought that you were desperate if you held on to the corner of my skirt."

His words made her see very clearly that when the mother's luan drove by a little servant kneeling under the palace wall in the palace road, Xiao Qi, a young man who hadn't opened his eyes yet, dared to break the palace rules. He secretly raised his eyes to glance at her mother.

"Didn't Wynn realize that I'm not that good?"

Xiao Qi narrowed his eyes and let her fingertips brush his eyelashes.

"If only I knew you at that time, my mother also likes you who are clever and not stupid."

Wei Huaien turned his attention to the tip of his nose again, and pressed his tall nose tip in with his thumb slightly, which made his originally natural face a little funny.

She had said earlier that she liked his face better.He was cold, alienated, mean, and picky at a glance, but when his eyes looked at her, this iceberg-like face would only melt into a flower of spring dawn for her alone.

"If possible, I would also like to see you earlier."

"Yes, yes. But I'd rather not know you, at least not at court."

She withdrew her hand, exhaled lightly, and spoke carefully with some embarrassment.

"Xiao Qi, do you still remember the widespread anti-poetry case ten years ago? I'm sorry, don't be sad, I didn't mean to expose your scars. I have always known why you entered the palace, and I don't want to mention it. Yes, but..."

Xiao Qi raised his hand and touched her incoherent lips. He knew that she was worried about bringing up his sadness, and he also knew that his previous conjecture about the death of the former queen was also confirmed by Wei Huai'en and Ruan Yan.

But he didn't want to tell Wei Huai'en that he also guessed the source of the turmoil ten years ago.He enjoys her care and pity.

"Wynn, don't worry about me, I'm okay, really. You have given me a lot, because of you, I have never regretted entering the palace. Go on. "

After hearing this, Wei Huai'en felt relieved a lot, but he seemed to be soaked in plum soup, feeling sour and sad.She didn't believe that he really didn't care as much as he showed, but she could only hold his hand and finish the matter as he wanted.

"Actually, the anti-poetry itself is not important. There have been too many such headless koans throughout the ages, but they just stabbed the people behind them.

At that time, my uncle had accumulated enough military merits as a vanguard general in the Northwest Army, enough to inherit the glory of my grandfather and become another general of the Northwest Army.

And my mother is the first wife of my father, and I have a pair of children, my brother and I. The government and the public have praised it countless times.

I don't know why my father chose to marry my mother when he was in the residence, but at this time, it is impossible for him to allow his relatives to have such a reputation.Even if my mother and uncle never had that thought, being in this position is a sin in itself.

I don’t know if you’ve read that anti-poem. Although it’s hard to avoid arrogance in the book business, it’s absolutely unacceptable that the empress dowager who poisoned the emperor in the history books, relied on the power of her relatives to support her own son to ascend the throne, and controlled the government for more than [-] years Get involved.

It's not because "Yonghe" was offended in the anti-poetry, and it's not because my father's name was not taboo, but because that period of history book hit my father's heart disease that worried day and night.

It's just that I was too young at that time to understand the twists and turns of the previous dynasty.It was after many years, when I came to such a position, that I realized why my father was so shadowy. "

Wei Huai'en thought that he secretly glanced at Xiao Qi from time to time, afraid that he would be sad.Xiao Qi didn't point it out, he just felt that when she was talking about sad things, she actually put his emotions in such an important position, so he couldn't help hugging her even tighter.

I wish she could always be like this, always treat him as the only trusted listener, always show only this side of herself to him.Since he dared to risk the dissatisfaction of the world and reach out to her power, he only hoped that his position would be stable.

Xiao Qi thought of himself who was sad because of her suspicion and indifference.

Probably at that time, he hadn't seen all this clearly.Otherwise, why should he be so timid and frightened, lest she get tired of him and abandon him, lest she don't want his heart.

This is right now, he is the most loyal but also the most dangerous existence around her, he will not betray, let alone push him away.

It felt so good to be cared for by her.It's just that Xiao Qi stood in the perspective of the former Wei Huai'en, and calculated the benefits and exchanges clearly, but Wei Huai'en finally got what he wanted, only seeing him.

Wei Huai'en continued without realizing it: "If someone has the ability to rebel or evade the monarch, even if this person has no such thoughts in his heart, he will not be able to win the trust of a suspicious person like my father.

People's hearts are not trustworthy, but my father and emperor have been wavering for many years because of the relationship with my mother, otherwise I would never let my uncle inherit the tiger charm of the Northwest Army.

Although that is my own uncle, but... I do understand my father's suspicion.

But then, when my father saw that the Jiang family had all the abilities and reasons to shake his position, he still did it.

My mother has always been in good health, and I never believe that too many hospitals can't even explain my mother's specific illnesses. They just take ginseng soup and warm tonic every day, and prescribe a few safe prescriptions that are not painful or itchy.

I just haven't dared to think about it, and I haven't been able to believe the truth that can be seen at a glance. "

Xiao Qi guessed: "Is the empress poisoned?"

"For details, you have to ask my father personally." Wei Huai'en sighed, but Xiao Qi pinched his face.

"Don't always sigh, Wynn. It's okay if you don't want to say it. I know enough. You want to give me a reason why I have to bow to you and confess to you today, right? "

"Yes." Wei Huai'en opened the letter that had been in his hand.

"This letter, my mother sent someone to deliver the last letter from the Northwest Army to my uncle. But when the sender was passing through Mingzhou, he was intercepted and killed by Leishan bandits. It was Ruan Yan who accepted this letter from that person. letter."

"You mean, maybe Lei Shan got involved..." Xiao Qi concealed the second half of the sentence.

Wei Huai'en chuckled as he carefully unfolded the yellowed letter paper.

"Xiao Qi, even you can easily tell after listening to a few words from me. It can be seen that I have been deceiving myself all these years."

"So I was right, wasn't I? Then do you also know why my family suffered? Do you also know how the situation is set up today?"

Xiao Qi had guessed the whole story of the anti-poetry case a long time ago, but he still pretended to be reminded by Wei Huai'en, and asked Wei Huai'en a question that he already knew the answer in an excited and unbelievable tone.

She lied to him, and he lied to her.

But who is kind and who is calculating?

The person who was innocently involved in this conspiracy is the most innocent. He must let Wei Huai'en know that he could have avoided all this, and could not have become a humiliating servant just because his father was regarded as an insignificant pawn of Emperor Yonghe.

Benefits, he wants benefits.

He wanted Wei Huaien to know how shocked he would be when he learned the truth, and how difficult it would be for him to accept.

Let her know how much the most innocent he has done for her daughter who is considered an enemy by her side.

Nie Yuan is a debt.Didn't she only value his appearance at first?Didn't she give him love after watching him do so many things with cold eyes?
Now how much should she give him to make up for it? She owes him more than Wei Huai'en?
Wei Huai'en pursed his lips, for a moment he didn't know whether it was important to read his mother's last family letter, or to tell Xiao Qi all the truth first.

In the end, the latter prevailed.She couldn't hear him begging for perfection like this.

She already knew the whole story of his mother's death, but he still didn't know why he fell from an official's son to a sinner who could never stand up overnight.

What was owed to him was what Emperor Yonghe owed him, but it was also what she, Wei Huai'en, owed him.

She remembered that he just advised her not to sigh all the time, so she just took a deep breath and let it out slowly, and said to him:

"Yes, I know."

"Could it be that today's majesty deliberately caused turmoil in the previous dynasty and eliminated officials who were interested in the prince and the Jiang family? But even though I was ten years old at the time, I knew that my father was from the Qingliu school? Am I guessing wrong? Father was imprisoned for other crimes?"

Fake.Xiao Qi lied, but he didn't know it.He just wanted Wei Huaien to see how hard he was trying to explain to her father.

He knew how easy it was for His Highness to regard the affairs of those close to him as his own affairs, and he also knew that even though Emperor Yonghe repeatedly hurt Wei Huai'en's heart, she did not completely cut off this family affection in her heart.

Feel guilty, just a little more.Don't see him as a smart and indifferent person who can take advantage of dead family members, just think of him as an idiot who trusts her and her family unconditionally even when the truth is right in front of him.

Only a fool will love you so much, even your family will forgive you, right, Wei Huai'en?
Are you worthy of this love?are you worth itdo you have heart

"No, Xiao Qi, listen to me, listen to me."

She sat up and leaned against the pillow, as if she could no longer rest in his arms with peace of mind.

"...The emperor's wrath is like thunder. The emperor will open the wrong prison from the very beginning, so all the officials who have been bitten can only be forced to become people in this play for my mother.

I'm sorry, Xiao Qi, I know you must be very sad right now, but... But, I only recently found out the truth about the anti-poetry case, it's not that I don't want to tell you, I just..."

"Just because I'm afraid I won't be able to accept it?"

Xiao Qi sat opposite her, his eyes darkened, and he smiled miserably.

Wei Huai'en's hurried voice stopped abruptly.

She was smart all her life, but all her life was cold, she would never imagine that she was being deceived by Xiao Qi at this moment, she believed in his struggle at this moment, and believed in his bitterness at this moment.

"do you hate me?"

She asked without end.

"Do you love me?"

He answered the sentence without beginning or end.

There was silence in the room, Wei Huai'en met his energetic eyes, and felt that he was sorry for him before, and no matter how he made up for it in the future, it seemed that he would not be able to atone for his sins.

Even if the guilt did not come from her, even if she was one of the victims of the political maelstrom, even if she lost her mother.

However, the royal family was turbulent, and Emperor Yonghe, as the person behind the scenes, wiped out the courtiers who supported the Jiang family, the queen, and Prince Huaide without bloodshed, and pushed those who blocked his eyes in the clear stream into the melting furnace.

There is no one who is right or wrong, some are just the tyranny under the throne of the emperor, who will never allow anyone to raise their heads.

Even if this tyranny was wrapped under the appearance of Mingjun Renjun by Emperor Yonghe, it could not escape the eyes of Wei Huai'en, who was most like him.

But so what if Wei Huai'en saw all this, she understood that it's so so that everyone in this world is a puppet of imperial power.Didn't she gain more while losing, and even want more?

The pain of losing her mother has not diminished for many years, but it is so easy for her to hate and poison Emperor Yonghe and swear to put him to death before giving up?
She has been self-righteous and perverted for so many years, thinking that she can be free and unrestrained, that with power, she can completely escape the fate she was assigned, and that she can climb to the sky every step of the way if she escapes the open and dark arrows.

But hasn't she also become a member of the imperial power that she hated and hated the most?Didn't she also become sanctimonious, standing on the sidelines, using people's hearts as bargaining chips, and laying the foundation for herself with rolling human heads and Taotao's blood?

No rebellion, no liberation, as long as she continues to become the crown prince, as long as she is still bullying her superiors and subordinates in this strict hierarchy, she has already betrayed her mother's family, and she has turned her back on her father who took everything away from her and gave her everything. The family bowed their heads.

She even felt sorry for the person in front of her, Xiao Qi.

Shame, self-loathing, nausea.

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