What kind of bad thoughts can Mr. Xiao have?

Chapter 54 Chapter 53

"Ahhh, let go!"

Meng Keshu screamed unbearably, trying to break free from his embrace.

But Li Kong hugged her tightly, not holding her in his arms at all, but desperately trying to stick himself against her.

Until Meng Keshu's shoulders were covered with moisture, until she realized that his slightly trembling back was not trying to keep her, but suppressing crying.

She was so strangled by him that she could hardly breathe, so she had no choice but to pat his bare back.

"Li Kong, can you let go, I'm going, I can't breathe."

He relaxed a little, but was still unwilling to leave her shoulder.

This was the only way he could think of to please her, even if every movement, every look and every word just now made him feel sick.

But he is like a desperate person who has nowhere to go, no matter how unacceptable it is, as long as he can give him the slightest hope of showing her face, he will try it.

"What kind of person do you like?"

From humiliation and broken hope, he questioned his bright moon hopelessly, even if he didn't dare to face her expression at the moment, he didn't dare to let her see his collapse.

"Can you tell me, please, please tell me."

How much can he know about love?
He only knows that worthy people can get everything he wants. He starts to understand his body from the dirtiest desire, and the answer he gets is that he is obscene.

He walked the road of love in the world backwards, turned back from the most naked and straightforward hell, put on clothes one by one, pieced together dignity, and covered up all the past, but he always couldn't learn the truth.

"Can you stop being crazy. It's late, I'm going to bed."

Meng Keshu finally learned not to sympathize with people and things she shouldn't sympathize with. She didn't want to get to the bottom of what he was thinking, and she also deliberately ignored his pain.

This could be considered revenge, at least when she watched Li Kong clenched his fists and bowed his head to retreat, she felt a trace of cruel joy.

With difficulty, he dug out his heart by imitating the actions he had taken when he was hurt and humiliated, and placed it on her altar with the slightest hope that she would take pity on her.

But she didn't care how big a hole was dug in his heart, let alone his sacrifice.

Also, how could she be interested in his pain?

It's not that the more injured a person should be, the more he should ask for more. Maybe he was born to be humble, and at this time, he still wants to put on such a pitiful appearance that even disgusts him, begging her to look at him more.

Just like when he pretends to please Yan Weiguang, he can always easily find out that he doesn't want to.

Now the retribution is not good, even if he wants to humbly prostrate at her feet, he still can't get her eyes.

Meng Keshu didn't want to look at his dilapidated appearance like a bereaved dog. Once his heart hardened, he could avoid many entanglements.

She was lying on the outside of the bed, not intending to give him a chance to share the bed with her.

Li Kong is also sensible, maybe all his self-esteem is spent on dressing up as this body, and he doesn't have the extra courage to do anything.

He just lightly reattached the gold chain to her ankle and his own neck ring, then blew out a few candles, curled up and nestled on the couch, intending to fall asleep.

However, even though he was silent and didn't intend to show her a show at all, Meng Keshu felt that this was more heartwarming than when he hugged her and begged her just now.

She could easily attribute his words and tears to his disguise, but she couldn't bear the pitiful appearance of him consciously huddled up on the couch.

She rolled up the quilt and slammed it on him, lowering the curtains and closing her eyes face inward before he pulled the quilt off her face.

Li Kong wrapped himself in the quilt, glanced at her back, slowly stretched his body, and put his long legs on the edge of the couch.

This feeling of being saved is very similar to the robe that Yan Weiguang put on him when he was stripped naked and humiliated.

Regardless of the purpose, it made him feel at ease, that his body no longer had to be exposed to the air, that at least someone saw him as a human being.

Although she still hates him.

But what to do, just this little bit of goodness made him feel that the distance between her and him was as close as a glimmer of light, which was enough to support him to continue.

In the next few days, Pin Yan always felt that his boss was holding his breath, and the person who was usually the most gentle would say: "I'm so annoying".

"Boss, don't we go back home?"

The students had already left, and Meng Keshu was still sitting in front of the piano table, meditating, saying that he ate little at noon, and now he was thinking about what the dinner in the mansion would be.

"Come back, I'll go back now..."

Meng Keshu let out a long sigh, and then said in unison with Pinyan:
"I'm bored."

"Okay, you girl, you actually learned how to speak from me!"

Meng Keshu, who was amused by Pinyan's giggles, was much more energetic and pretended to hit her, but Pinyan dodged faster.

"What's the matter, Master, don't be angry, hahaha."

Meng Keshu's depression is mainly due to Li Kong who cannot be shaken off.

From that day on, as long as he was in the mansion, he would wear the green gauze dress that dangled in front of her eyes. At most, he would put on a green gauze dress that was better than nothing. Meng Keshu, who had seen too much, could already turn a blind eye to it.

But yesterday, on the second day of February, there were a lot of school affairs in the government, so she stayed for a while, and Pin Yan came over to say that the master came to pick them up in a carriage.

She got into the carriage and took a look, then turned around and pushed Pin Yan who was following her to another carriage.

Because Li Kong didn't seem to be afraid of the cold or shameless, he sat in the car in the same attire and waited for her with his chin leaning on him.

He didn't care about people coming and going outside the car, he actually wanted to lift the curtain to look out.

Then, of course, she held him tightly and covered his mouth all the way back to the house.

She knew that the action of holding him in her arms was right in his arms, because while he was snorting and exhaling hot air in her palm, he pressed his upper body, which was only wearing a layer of gauze, to her body.

On a very cold day, she couldn't tell whether it was because he was too cold, or because her actions made him tremble with joy.

Really annoying!

She thought she would be able to breathe a sigh of relief outside, but now, as soon as school was over, she began to think about what Li Kong was doing, whether she would come over in a carriage like yesterday, and made a special trip to embarrass her.

Pinyan suggested at this time:

"Boss, you haven't been in a good mood for the past few days. Would you like to drink some wine to be happy? The jars of wine I saved before have been moved to the mansion. Shall we..."

Pin Yan helped Meng Keshu pick up Qin, bumped her with his elbow, and gave her a knowing smile.

"Okay, but your wine is too strong, I can only drink a little, I can't accompany you too much."

Meng Keshu was upset anyway, so she nodded in agreement.

But no one expected that the last drunk person turned out to be Li Kong.

Today Li Kong originally sent someone back to the mansion, and he said he would return late, but Meng Keshu and Pin Yan, who were relieved, only halfway through drinking, and Li Kong came back early.

Of course, it is not good to keep Pinyan, and he forgot to take the wine jar with him when he left in a hurry.

Meng Keshu was annoyed when he saw Li Kong, so he went to the piano room to practice, and locked the door to prevent him from following.

Li Kong knew that yesterday's half-threat made her unhappy.

He didn't know that it was the government school that delayed her a lot yesterday, and he was afraid that she would run away again, so he relied on her not daring to expose their relationship, so he forced her to come back early by wearing that outfit.

Although the goal has been achieved, she still has a headache how to get her to turn this matter over.

It was cold and cold, and when he saw that they drank most of the leftover wine, he thought it was the sweet wine from the girl's house, so he picked it up and drank it like water.

But this wine has a great aftertaste, Li Kong has never tasted the power of this wine, until when he changed his clothes and had a meal while waiting for Meng Keshu to come back, the wine came up and directly fainted on the table.

As soon as Meng Keshu came back, he smelled the strong smell of alcohol in the room, then looked at the empty wine jar and Li Kong lying on the table, and immediately understood what was going on.

Seeing that he was so drunk that he couldn't even hear her footsteps, Meng Keshu finally felt a lot better, and the depression of being blackmailed yesterday disappeared, leaving only the ridicule of Li Kong.

She approached him with the intention of watching a joke, first poked his shoulder, and then pinched his face when he didn't respond.

Li Kong just snorted a few times, didn't even open her eyes, she was so happy that she even clasped his neck and threatened softly:
"Does it feel good to pinch your neck? If you have the ability, you can scare me again?"

Li Kong, whose consciousness was chaotic, couldn't distinguish reality from illusion, and couldn't hear what she was saying to him.

This drunkenness and the touch of the thin tulle clothes on his body made him mistakenly think that he was still a lowly thing that Yan Weiguang studied after being drunk at a banquet, but because he couldn't control his body, he couldn't get rid of this annoying Break free from the touch and shake and wake up.

He repeated a sentence inarticulately, Meng Keshu couldn't hear clearly at first, but after he repeated it a few times, he froze on the spot.

"Master, Li Kong begs you, don't touch me, don't touch me..."

She was caught off guard by him and pulled into his world, empathizing with his pain.

How had he been treated so badly that he begged for forgiveness in his drunken dreams?

Meng Keshu had only heard him say that he didn't want to, that he was in pain, but how much pain and hatred did he have?
People who have never experienced it can always pretend to be sympathetic, even ignore it if they want to, and be ruthless if they want to be ruthless.But only those who have experienced it have been floating and sinking in the bitter water, unable to be relieved or redeemed.

"Li Kong, wake up, it's me, I'm..."

Halfway through her words of relief, she didn't know how to continue.

She felt very sad for his unconscious raving, but she didn't know what capacity to comfort him.

She also hesitated, whether to stir into his world again, or let him get drunk here and let him climb ashore by himself.

Struggling inside, she brushed his sweaty hair away to let him breathe easier.

It's hard for her not to sympathize with him. She didn't know how much he resisted that memory until now, but she forced herself to look through the memory and try to please her in different ways.

No matter whether she accepts his humble flattery or not, she has to admit that he is indeed trying his best to compensate her and make up for the wrong things he has done.

He wanted them to go back to where they were before, and he was talking about starting over, and it wasn't empty words.

He forced himself back into the swamp that almost drowned him, and climbed to her side again.

He could have covered those with Xuanyu Sijun's identity, but he didn't this time, as if he had to turn his fate back to the time when he first met.

What if they continued their fate after they met in the Banshan Pavilion?If he wants this assumption to be true, he has to go back and face himself and start over.

How would he love her when he was the male favorite and she was Miss Mengsan?How would she love him?

There was a voice in Meng Keshu's heart saying:
It seems that now you are a coward.

You guarded the heartbeat of the first meeting that year, but you didn't take a single step towards him.You accepted the fate of being married to Marquis Dingyuan, and the fate of being exiled to Nanlin Mansion. Have you ever lived for yourself?Even once, did you work hard to get close to him?
His love is not good, it is even like a rotten fruit that has been eaten by moths and has several black holes.But he didn't want to be another tree, he just wanted to rot into spring mud and protect her to grow freely.

He's not good, he's not good at all, but he didn't deceive her, let alone take advantage of him.He laid himself out in front of her clearly, without reservation, even the most unbearable and least revealing past.

In fact, he could choose not to say it, because surrendering his weakness would give her the possibility to hurt him.But he knows how to make her soft-hearted, because he showed his weakest belly, so she can no longer resist him.

Meng Keshu, in the past, he always begged you to love him.

The moon is so bright, is it just because he is covered in mud that he doesn't want to fall into his eyes?

Beijing.

A few days after Princess Jiarou left for Mingzhou, King Duan also personally escorted the food and grass that went north for disaster relief and left the capital.

For a while, only the 13-year-old Rong Wang was left in the court. He couldn't hold back those courtiers who relied on their elders, and often ignored Rong Wang and quarreled.

In the end, Emperor Yonghe gave up the way of keeping in good health for the first time, and severely punished a large number of courtiers who did not stand in line but wanted to take advantage of this opportunity at the Great Court Meeting.

He also reprimanded King Rong in front of the civil and military officials of the Manchu Dynasty, and asked him to learn more from Yu Zhiyan's veterans who had been loyal to the former prince.

If Duan Wang and Jia Rou were still in the capital, they would talk about seniority and inferiority, even if Rong Wang was involved in the court, he would only be an observer.But Emperor Yonghe sent those two, one south and one north, out, and secretly promoted King Rong.

No one can figure out the emperor's mind, and even think that he can know people with discerning eyes. People who jump too high die silently. Haji, please go drink tea.

The only person who is nourished in the capital is probably the princess Jiafu, Wei Huaining.

Although Zhao Xingde, the son-in-law, was not on good terms with her, she was a political capital that the Fuguo government relied heavily on because of her good fortune between Wei Huairen and Wei Huai'en. Too out of line.

On this day, the queen summoned Jiafu and Princess Duan to the palace to see the emperor's grandson Wei Anxing.

　Although I have saved a lot of manuscripts, I am still not quite sure about the direction of Li Kong and Xiaoyue.

　　If you ask me this question: Can you accept someone who has hurt you but is truly repentant, willing to make amends and truly loves you?
　　I find it difficult for me to give my answer.

　　what do y'all think?
　　
　
(End of this chapter)