She's nice and soft

Chapter 235
Arrived.

Su Qing still didn't ask Jiang Sui to see him off.

What she didn't know was that the boy stood by the window and watched for a long, long time, until the car that drove her away.

Jiang Sui just leaned against the window, with his whole body in the dark shadow, standing in the room without a shred of light, all day and all night.

Mei Yeqin knew that it was already a week later when Su Qing went abroad.

When she saw Jiang Sui again, the boy looked like a normal person.

The two sat in the coffee shop, Mei Yeqin looked at Jiang Sui.

"Your illness is not cured."

Mei Yeqin used an affirmative tone.

Jiang Sui didn't refute or nod. He sipped the bitter coffee, but he didn't feel any bitter taste, and even enjoyed it a bit. He pursed his lips and closed his eyes. .

"Auntie, at the school, I hope you can help take care of it."

In Jiang Sui's words, he was still talking about Su Qing.

There was a trace of bitterness in Mei Yeqin's eyes, "I know, there is also my former classmate at the school, she will not be bullied."

"Didn't you make all the arrangements, are you still worried?"

Naturally, Jiang Sui's small movements could not avoid Mei Yeqin's gaze.

He had arranged for Su Qing's host family early in the morning. She was a single old woman who was also a researcher with a gentle temperament.

Of course Su Qing didn't know all this.

Jiang Sui pursed his lips, restraining his thoughts, and the expression in his pupils was suppressed to the extreme.

"I'm beyond my reach here."

"It's beyond my reach, don't think I don't know that you have secretly told your mentor that you are going to run away."

"Is your body able to bear it?"

Mei Yeqin felt that Jiang Sui was crazy when he knew that Jiang Sui was going to work together with a doctor.

These two things are energy-consuming things, his health is not good, let alone the disease is not cured.

He pretended to be ready in front of Su Qing, but in fact he was not good at all. He pretended so much that Mei Yeqin thought that Jiang Sui was actually healed.

"I am fine."

Mei Yeqin had seen the stubbornness of a young man before, and she sighed in a low voice.

"Why don't you go to study with her, if you want, your instructor will definitely recommend you."

Mei Yeqin knew about Jiang Sui's intelligence and talent.

It is recommended that even if you can't be in the same school as Su Qing, you can definitely be in the same place.

"I didn't want to before, but now that I think about it, she doesn't want to."

Mei Yeqin was taken aback by Jiang Sui's words, obviously not understanding.

"Before, you didn't want to? Why?"

Jiang Sui pursed his lips and did not speak. He squeezed his fingertips, tried his best to restrain the emotions surging out of him, and closed his eyes deeply.

"there is nothing."

"Then why doesn't she want to?"

Jiang Sui didn't seem to want to discuss this issue, no matter what Mei Yeqin said, he also remained silent.

The two didn't eat together, Jiang Sui just bid farewell to Mei Yeqin this time, and Mei Yeqin knew it.

Jiang Sui's illness did not recover.

When we parted, Jiang Sui specially emphasized that Mei Yeqin was not allowed to tell Su Qing about his illness.

Mei Yeqin knew that Jiang Sui was already dying of illness at this time.

If it is said that there were anxiety disorders before, then the teenagers now have transformed those symptoms into paranoia.

His paranoia towards Su Qing has gone beyond the scope of ordinary people, it is outrageous.

Mei Yeqin couldn't let go of it for a long time after returning.

On the first night when Su Qing left, Jiang Sui entered Su Qing's room and curled up.

He is trying his best to restrain his love.

When Mei Yeqin told Pei Dai these things, Pei Dai, who was coaxing the child, had some clarity in his eyes.

So Jiang Suizai was not surprised to receive Pei Dai's call.

The two made an appointment on the time and place, which was the night before Jiang Sui's departure.

Pei Dai didn't say a word, but he seemed to be able to understand Jiang Sui's psychology.

"You are restraining, Jiang Sui. You are afraid that you will hurt her, but you still want to be with her. You are afraid of her feelings for you. Is guilt greater than love?"

You don't know how much to love, you can restrain yourself.

You don't know how much to love, and I would rather leave you than your guilt.

Jiang Sui, this boy, just wants Su Qing's pure love,

Pei Dai's words made Jiang Sui's eyes scarlet, and he looked at the sky with burning eyes.

There was a whimper in his throat, like a wounded animal.

There is a trace of crystal clear in the corner of the eye.

When did Su Qing look at him with endless guilt for herself?
Jiang Sui didn't know when he saw it.

When treating him, the girl always had a restrained pity, because of her mother's affairs, she also had that look when she looked at herself.

This is not what Jiang Sui needs at all.

Also, since when did Su Qing look at him with guilt?
From the end of the college entrance examination?
Or is the case over, or is he giving up the direct blog?
None of this was what Jiang Sui wanted.

"I don't want her guilt. If she is close to me, it will be guilt and pity. I would rather not have this kind of love."

"don't want?"

Pei Dai looked at Jiang Sui with broken eyes and a bit of helplessness at the corners of his mouth, "Even now, I don't know whether your aunt is responsible for me or love."

Some of the bloodlines of the Pei family were recorded in the words of love, while some were totally against him and he dared not touch them.

Jiang Sui pursed his lips, drank the wine, his eyes were loose.

"My aunt, I love you."

"Then I don't think Su Qing is necessarily guilty of you."

Both of them are from the mountains, and they couldn't see clearly in the chess game.

It was also nightfall when Jiang Suifei arrived in San Francisco.

It is colorful and brightly lit like daytime.

Thinking of being able to be under the same sky as Su Qing, there was a gleam of light in the boy's eyes, and his heart moved.

Holding the phone, Jiang Sui, who was somewhat restrained, still couldn't stop, found a quiet place, and called Su Qing. He couldn't wait to hear Su Qing's voice.

[Hi, I'm in the lab, if you have anything to do, please leave a message. 】

It was Su Qing's formulaic voice.

Since she went abroad, the contact between the two has become less and less.

From the previous one call a day, to once every two days, to three days, to five days, to one month.

Every time after leaving a message, Su Qing called him back.

With fewer and fewer messages, the two have fewer and fewer messages.

Time flies, three years have passed.

When Su Qing was walking through the campus with her textbooks in her arms.

The bachelor's hat on her head shows her achievements in the past few years. When walking in the campus, Su Qing thought that three years ago, she walked in the campus in Qingbei like this.

Today is her graduation time.

"Hello."

When someone blocked Su Qing's footsteps, Su Qing stopped and saw a blond boy speaking stumbling Chinese.

Su Qing's eyes froze for a moment, obviously she didn't expect someone to stop her way.

"Hello."

Out of politeness, Su Qing responded.

"Hello, I like you, can we date?"

Even though she has been abroad for many years, Su Qing is still not used to it. Her face and eyes are slightly startled by such straightforwardness.

Before she could respond, the blond boy looked at her burningly.

"I fell in love with your beauty at first sight, can you date me?"

Su Qing was even more stunned and shook his head.

"Excuse me."

The blond-haired and blue-eyed boy seemed to be unable to understand Su Qing's words, so Su Qing once again uttered the words of direct rejection in English.

The boy left disappointed.

Su Qing shook her head.

On the day of graduation, it was not that she was nostalgic for this place, but Liu Ranran kept saying on the phone that she wanted to listen carefully to her college life and internship life when she went back.

Su Qing was worried about herself, this boring person had spent too much time in the laboratory, and had nothing to say to Liu Ranran, so she had to take a walk here at the last moment.

After staying in this place for three years, Su Qing still feels that every place is strange.

So many certificates and offers were rejected by Su Qing.

She didn't know why she had to go back to China.

What is there in the country.

Su Qing pursed her lips. After completing the formalities, she did not delay in San Francisco for a day. The teacher's reluctance brought tears to Su Qing's eyes, and the woman in the homestay also burst into tears when she sent her off. Orbital, but none of these seemed to be able to stop Su Qing's footsteps.

While on the plane, a long-lost strangeness ignited in Su Qing's mind.

In the mobile phone that had already turned on the flight, Su Qing slid to the familiar yet unfamiliar contact information.

How long have they not seen, how long have they not been in touch.

The call record was kept on that night three years ago. Since no one answered the call, the two never talked again.

He never called her.

She never took the initiative to contact.

In WeChat, except for those, there are no more messages after some messages sent in college.

When she couldn't help it, Su Qing also cried secretly at night, and opened Jiang Sui's circle of friends time and time again.

His circle of friends is as indifferent as he is, and the inside is pitifully clean, except for a piece of news about the establishment of a law firm last year.

Have you set up a law firm?
I heard that he graduated with a Ph.D. a year earlier than himself. He is simply a model in the industry. He received a particularly big case as soon as he graduated, and then became famous in the legal field. At the end of last year, he became a new partner The identity of a lawyer has set off waves of rage in the entire circle of lawyers.

These are what Liu Ranran told her.

Su Qing thinks, she has been able to go from the pain of leaving before, to the longing later, and later, when she heard his news, her face was expressionless, and there was no trace of turmoil in her heart.

Even Liu Ranran was also emotional, saying that the two of them were fine, why did they break up?

Why did they break up?

In the past, Su Qing didn't understand why Jiang Sui insisted on letting him go, insisting on letting himself go.

Now it seems that maybe the boy is not in love anymore.

What is love? She is a medical student. She should be the clearest about this kind of feeling, isn't it? Isn't it a secretion of hormones?

It was just a moment of excitement, and after the excitement passed, there was nothing left.

It was winter when we left, and it was still winter when we came back.

When Su Qing got off the plane, a cold current rushed over her body.

She came back in a hurry and didn't tell anyone, and no one came to pick her up.

But the long-lost familiar feeling, surrounded by Chinese, made Su Qing feel a sense of intimacy spontaneously.

After booking the hotel, Su Qing wanted to beat the jet lag and sleep in the dark.

Su Qing, who was extremely tired, slept for a day and a night after taking the medicine.

I don't know when the insomnia will be cured. People say that doctors can't treat themselves, but she can. She clearly knows that she has insomnia and is very dependent on medicine.

After waking up, Su Qing still felt confused and powerless for a long time, she had always been like this, and she had long been used to it.

When I turned on the phone, it was nine o'clock, and there were a lot of missed calls on it.

There are those from Liu Ranran, Mei Yeqin, the tutor, the hospital, and the aunt of the host family, but there is no such person.

Su Qing went into the bathroom, washed up briefly, and called them back one by one when she came out.

First, the tutor and the aunt of the host family were worried about her comfort. Su Qing frowned, and forgot to tell them that she had arrived safely when she was so tired.

Then there is the hospital, and the hospital where he works is Jiang University.

When he was abroad, Su Qing had already been an intern for a long time in the subject of clinical medicine more than himself. Foreign countries were not as strict as domestic ones.

You will be given an internship very early on.

So Su Qing had already stood in front of the operating table early in the morning, although only as a recorder.

But she has gradually become unafraid of the operation, seeing too many joys and sorrows, and she doesn't know whether these are good or bad.

After knowing his working time and the location of the hospital, Su Qing twitched his lips. In fact, he is an ordinary intern doctor, so there is no need for the hospital to make such a fuss.

Then he called Mei Yeqin back.

The two had been in contact for so many years when Su Qing went abroad, and Su Qing was going back to China, and he was still working in Jiangda Hospital, so he couldn't hide it from Mei Yeqin, and Mei Yeqin naturally knew about it.

When Mei Yeqin said on the phone that he would give Su Qing a chance to clean up the dust, Su Qing declined, but Mei Yeqin insisted, and Su Qing could only agree.

It's not that she doesn't want to go, she just doesn't want to see that person.

Who, I haven't seen each other for three years, Su Qing knows she can't avoid it, but she still has an ostrich mentality and wants to avoid it.

Finally, it was a call back to Liu Ranran.

"Qingqing, you didn't even tell me when you came back, you came back secretly!!!"

When Liu Ranran called Su Qing, she found that the phone was turned off, so she called Su Qing's host family directly, and only after she called did she find out that Su Qing had returned to China.

Su Qing laughed, "I didn't come back secretly, but I didn't tell you in time, so don't be angry."

(End of this chapter)