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Chapter 199 Is She Really Competent?
Jinyue apologized to the teacher and said that she would teach her well when she went back.

On the way back, Jinyue felt very tired.

There is really no smooth road in life, there are always pits waiting for you one after another.

Right now, Su Shen's matter is quite a headache for her.

Since she went to G city, the only communication with Su Shen is writing letters.

At the beginning, the two of them could write a long essay, but gradually, they wrote less, and what Su Shen wrote was only some trivial matters at home, and she never told her some little secrets about herself.

Sometimes, she comforts herself that the child will have his own life when he grows up, as long as she guides the child not to go astray, it doesn't matter even if she doesn't get into college.

But when she got to this point, she found that she still couldn't accept her daughter's lack of excellence.

Along the way, she kept thinking about how to talk to Su Shen.

In the evening, Su Shen came back with a blank face.

After eating, Jinyue arranged for Su Wei to wash the dishes, and then dragged Su Shen into the house.

"The high school entrance exam is coming soon, are you tired from studying?"

"Fortunately."

"I went to school today. The teacher said that you are not in a good condition recently. I think it is the same. Are you still thinking about grandpa?"

Su Shen suddenly shouted excitedly: "I didn't think about it."

Jinyue didn't expect Su Shen's sudden attitude. She said softly, "Then can you tell mom what happened to you?"

"It's nothing, I just don't want to study." Su Shen said flatly.

Jinyue is in a hurry.

"What if you don't study? Have you forgotten the promise you made with your mother? Don't you want to go to college?"

"I think about it, but it feels quite far away, and how meaningless a person's life is. If you say you die, you die."

Jinyue did not expect Su Shen to say such a thing. She said: "Life is meaningless, but as a human being, we should give meaning to life. As for death, it is inevitable for everyone, but because of fear of death, Wouldn't it be worse if you don't live well and spend your whole life doing nothing?"

Seeing that Su Shen was silent, Jinyue said again: "Besides, life is composed of different stages. In each stage, there are the most important things waiting for us to do. At present, for the stage you are in, the most The most important thing is to study, it is the senior high school entrance examination, I believe grandpa also hopes to see your title on the gold list."

"But in fact, grandpa can't see it at all, and he will never see it. It's all my fault."

"Oh, grandpa is sick, how could it be you."

Su Shen burst into tears, and she told her about changing the telegram.

Jinyue touched her head and said, "Silly boy, I don't blame you for this matter. Remember, the matter of grandpa has nothing to do with you, so don't have any psychological burden, understand?"

Finally, Su Shen nodded.

In order for Su Shen to completely come out of self-blame, Jinyue took a weekend and specially took Su Shen to the county town for two days.

This is also the first time she took the child to travel far away, seeing Su Shen's excited face, Jinyue felt very uncomfortable.

Is her mother really competent?
Thinking of every time I go home, Su Wei and Su Xi don't want to go out, they always surround her and ask her about this and that. Fortunately, she usually goes home during the winter and summer vacations, but this time, Su Wei was at school, but it turns out that When my mother came back, I was reluctant to go to school.

Two days ago, Jinyue also felt that the child hadn't seen her for a long time, so she forgave her, but on the third day, she still didn't go, pestering Jinyue to ask many times, such as what the train looks like , There are not many cars waiting on the main road.

Jinyue is bored.

She said, "Go to school first, and I'll tell you when I get back from school."

"I don't want to go to school, I want to be with my mother. I'm afraid that when I go to school, my mother will disappear again."

Jinyue felt sad for a while, she assured Su Wei again and again that she would not leave secretly, and she pulled the hook.

After Su Wei walked away step by step, Jinyue sat blankly for a long time, until Su Laoer came back carrying water, Jinyue still maintained that posture.

"What's the matter?" Second Su asked softly, and at the same time gently rubbed Jinyue's shoulders.

"It's nothing, time flies so fast, I feel like I'm going to leave again within a few days of going home."

"Yeah, it's been a week since you came back."

Jinyue looked at Su Xi who was still soundly asleep, tucked the corner of the quilt for him, and said, "I feel sorry for the children, Su Wei doesn't even want to go to school in the morning."

Second Su didn't speak, and continued with his hands.

"I'm sorry for you too."

Second Su's hand stopped moving, and after a few seconds, he started rubbing again.

Jinyue thought of the time when the two were together before, especially when Su Wei was just full moon, when it rained heavily, she ran to look for him in the wheat field, and remembered the scene of the two snuggling together to watch the rain.

After two other people quarreled, Second Su washed her feet, remembering that when she returned to her mother's house, Second Second Su pulled her hand into his pocket...

At that time, although they had no money, their life was so simple and warm.

But now, I don't know if it's because we get together less and leave more, or there is a real gap between the two of us, and we feel that we are becoming more and more unfamiliar with each other, and more and more dull.

She knew that second child Su was under tremendous pressure, both physically and mentally.

When Su Lao Er fell ill, she worked hard to farm the land by herself, and she was too busy, so she hired someone, but as soon as she went to school, Su Lao Er took care of all the farm work.

Although she also sent a lot of money, the second son Su was unwilling to spend money to hire someone even if he didn't eat or sleep.

Of course, because of her anti-traditional behavior, the people in the village seem to be envious on the surface, but in fact behind the scenes, Geography doesn't know how many bad things have been said about her.

It's impossible for Su Er Er not to know about these things.But in order to support her dream, he chose to endure.

"Look at you, what are you talking about?" Second Su stroked Jinyue's hair.

Jinyue couldn't help it suddenly, she threw herself into the arms of Su's second son, that broad and manly chest.

"I'm really sorry for putting you under so much pressure to mature."

Second Su hugged Jinyue tightly, patted her head, and said, "Don't think about anything, just do what you want to do with peace of mind. I'm the one with the family."

"Did you really never hate me?" Jinyue raised her head and asked.

Second Su shook his head, and then said: "I hated it at the beginning. I am uneducated. The happiness in my eyes is nothing more than a wife and children on the bed. But because of you, this happiness is far away from me. But later, I gradually understood , you can read and write in a short period of time, and even go to college, it means that you are not willing to be a good woman in the worldly sense, you have your ideals, of course I should support you."

Jinyue was so moved that she almost revealed her true identity.

At this time, suddenly the door rang.

Jinyue looked through the window grilles, it was Mrs. Su.

(End of this chapter)