covet her

Chapter 185 Her Shadow
"It's very sticky to me." Lin Shixi said softly while recalling, "Wherever I go, it will follow me, and when I go to sleep at night, it will lie beside my bed. Only by being next to me can I fall asleep. It’s as if I’m the only one in its world.”

Shen Wang was a little surprised by her words.

If he remembers correctly, he had a chat with Lin Shixi once before, and the two of them talked about pets. Lin Shixi said at the time that he likes keeping dogs because she is the only one in the world of dogs, who can live from the beginning to the end. trust her.

Shen Lu's eyes fixed on Lin Shixi's plain face, and his eyes became darker: "Don't you like clingy people?"

"No." Lin Shixi shook his head, a little wave flashed in his pale eyes, "I like it very much, and I also like the feeling of being loved by it wholeheartedly, but I just feel pressured."

Shen Zhuang's ending sound ticked lightly: "Pressure?"

"Yeah." Lin Shixi lowered her eyelashes, and although she spoke in a light tone, there was a heaviness between the lines, "This feeling is very subtle. Although I like it, I am also very afraid that any life will hurt me. Sustenance, it puts love on me, it's too heavy."

Not just puppies, but kittens too.

In fact, before Lin Shixi adopted God of Wealth, God of Wealth had been wandering in the community for several months. She often bought cat food to feed him, but she never thought about adopting him.

This kind of intimacy can make her a little bit at a loss.

If it hadn't been for winter, Lin Shixi would not have brought him home because he was afraid that the God of Wealth would not have a fixed place to live in, and he might not be able to survive this winter.

Speaking of this, Lin Shixi laughed a little self-deprecatingly: "Maybe I'm only suitable for watching those stray cats in the yard."

She is like them.

Desire to be loved, but also afraid of being loved.

The room fell into silence, and there was a moment of silence in Shen Zhuang's eyes, and he didn't speak, but looked deeply at Lin Shixi with a flash of emotion in his eyes.

The book always says that the shadow brought by the original family will affect the child's life.

However, the light sentence in the book falls on every child in reality, but it is a real and heavy mountain, which makes people unable to straighten their waists.

Children living in such a family atmosphere tend to have extreme personalities.

Some people yearn desperately for love, and are easily deceived, grabbing a little love and using it as their own driftwood.

Some people completely reject the love from the outside world, afraid of being hurt, and adopt a negative attitude towards all concerns from the outside world, avoiding them as soon as possible.

Because when they were growing up, they never or seldom felt love, and they didn't know how to react when they were loved.

Similarly, Lin Shixi herself knew exactly where her problem was, but she couldn't make a change. This was something that was deeply rooted in her bones.

Her attitude towards that little golden retriever is the best illustration.

Because he was at a loss, he instinctively chose to escape.

Suppressing the soreness in his heart, Lin Shixi gently lifted the subject before Shen Du could speak: "You go back."

"What?" Shen Wang raised his eyes to look at her.

Lin Shixi glanced at the electronic clock hanging on the wall, it was already 08:30, the first year of high school was about to go to the evening self-study, and it would be 09:30 after finishing the three bags of drip.

"School is almost over." She said again.

Shen Wang didn't answer her words, just asked her irrelevantly: "Do you want some water?"

"No." Lin Shixi shook his head.

I don't want to drink water and my throat hurts when I swallow.

Shen Wang: "Do you want to eat?"

Lin Shixi shook his head again, focusing on the other side: "Go back to the classroom."

After hearing two sentences to leave in a row, Shen Wang was a little dissatisfied. With a "tsk", he directly stretched out his hand to pinch her face, and changed the subject in a natural tone: "Why do you always drive me away? Can't you be courteous?"

Lin Shixi blinked: "Isn't school about to end?" Because he was pulling her face, she spoke a little vaguely, "I won't sleep, just watch the drip by myself, and call the doctor to pull it out after the injection." Needle."

Shen Wang felt that she hadn't understood his point at all, so he pulled her face again, and said, "I mean, don't be brave, when you are sick, you are always accompanied by someone."

Lin Shixi was stunned for a moment, and after a while, she whispered, "I can do it alone."

"I know you can do it by yourself, but I'm just worried." Shen Wang stopped teasing her now, raised his hand, and caressed her hair casually, with a sloppy voice in his voice, " You just think I love to worry."

Lin Shixi's light-colored eyes moved, and she turned her head away in a little avoidance.

She knew that Shen Wang was not someone who liked to worry.

He's here for one reason.

Probably because he thought that when others were sick, someone would accompany her, so she also needed someone to accompany her. He didn't want her to feel that she was different from others.

Shen Wang is always like this, taking care of her emotions inadvertently.

But the more this happened, the more Lin Shixi could feel the difference between him and herself.

He must be a child who grew up in a family that did not lack love at all, so there were no traces of fire and malice on his body, and he was always clear and open.

It was something she had never had in her life.

Lin Shixi suddenly felt a little, for no reason, sad.

She seemed to see a sun, but she didn't dare to reach out to touch it. After staying in the night for too long, her first reaction when she saw the sun was not yearning, but wanting to hide.

The light is dazzling, warm and hot.

But everything is born facing the sun, and she can't help but want to get close to the sun, but because of the warmth of the sun, she feels inferior again.

She and him are clearly two completely different people.

Lin Shixi silently pulled up the quilt, covering most of her face in a weary way.

***
At 09:30, the three bags of intravenous drip were finished.

Shen Wang went to call the school doctor on duty to pull out the needle.

The school was over long ago, and the students had almost left by now. The campus was quiet, and occasionally I saw a few boarding students in their pajamas walking towards the playground.

Lin Shixi rubbed his heavy eyelids and yawned sleepily.

Perhaps Shen Wang was afraid that she would say something terrible like "I want to take the bus", so after leaving the school, he didn't ask her opinion, and directly stopped a taxi at the school gate.

Then without saying a word, he stuffed her into the car together with her schoolbag.

I don't know if it was because of the fever, but Lin Shixi was a little motion sick, so he closed his eyes and fell asleep all the way to the destination.

(End of this chapter)